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Lacey POV (surprise surprise)

It wasn't working. Nothing was working and I was starting to doubt my plan.

I had been here almost three months now for it was late February. I had only agreed to come for a stay with the Cullen's because I wanted to be with Emmett. But now I was starting to second guess my decision. It seemed that it was easier being away from him than it was to be near him when he was completely happy with his wife. I mean who could compete with her? She had everything I could ever want; beauty, Emmett and maybe a child. But it was Emmett's kid, or should I say kids.

It's not like I hated her, no it's nothing like that. I'm only jealous of her and what she has.

I have tried everything I could to get him to maybe see that he hasn't fallen out of love with me. I tried to bring back memories. I tried to talk to him about it. I tried to seduce him but that went horribly wrong. I even went as far as trying to change myself into someone like Rosalie. But now I was just avoiding him.

I couldn't face him anymore to know that he's happy with someone else and not me. To know that it was Rosalie who put the smiles on his face when she enters a room. To know he will never be mine again.

To know that he was really never mine in the first place.

I decided that I was going to leave. Today.

So I was packing alone in my room. I had to admit that the Cullen's had a beautiful house. My room was a lovely pastel pink that contrasted nicely with the cream fluffy carpet. There were red curtains framing the windows that matched the red bed cover. There was a white wood bookshelf and a bureau on the left wall and a full length mirror on the right. I would miss it.

As I stuffed my clothes into my bag, I heard a knock on my door and I froze momentarily before continuing.

"Come in," I sad softly knowing they would hear me and I looked up and did a double at the beauty before me.

"Hi, I didn't mean to barge in and please excuse me if I'm interrupting or something….." Rosalie trailed off as she noticed the open suitcase on my bed. "Are you leaving?"

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath before replying.

"Yes. I…..I miss Alaska, homesick I guess," I lied and she merely nodded her head but I could tell she believe me.

"Listen, I came to apologize. I'm sorry if I ever did anything to offend you because I can see that you don't like me very much," She said in her sickly perfect voice as she closed the door gently behind her.

"Why are you apologizing Rosalie?" I asked her and she looked down at her hands.

"I don't know but I just wanted to clear anything up that might have made you not like me."

"Rosalie….." I sighed. "It's not that I don't like you."

"Then what is it?"

"I'm just jealous, is all." I admitted bitterly.

"What? Of me?" She seemed confused.

"Yes. You have everything. You have Emmett, two miracle babies, beauty, and a loving family…everything I could ever want! But I can't have. Yes, I do wish that Emmett still loved me but I can't change that. Time has changed him and he has you now. I can tell that you make him happy and that makes me fell a little bit better. Knowing that he's content even if it's not with me. I even think I knew deep down when we were engaged, that something wasn't right. We just didn't fit the way you two do. It's like you were made for each other and I can't argue with that. I want it though. If I can't have Emmett's love, I want someone else. I want to truly cherish me and I want someone I can love with my whole being. All my life I have been waiting for that someone. And I had thought that I had finally found him when Emmett came along but then fate had to mess it all up for me." I was yelling by now and was sobbing tearless sobs. Rosalie had moved closer to me and was reaching out as if she wanted to comfort me but wasn't sure.

"I'm sorry," Was all she said and her voice sounded strained.

"No don't be it's not your fault," I said and she finally lightly touched my hand before she let out a small gasp and her eyes glazed over. I knew she was seeing my past but I didn't know how I felt about her seeing it.

When she finally came to, she looked at me with a knowing expression.

"Lacey…" She started but I interrupted her.

"No. Don't pretend that you understand. And give me your pity either because I don't really want it right now." I said coldly.

"But Lacey I do understand. It's practically the same thing that happened when I was changed. It was the reason that Carlisle changed me." She said and I looked up at her and saw honesty in her eyes.

"How?" I asked quietly.

"Well, it was 1933 and I was nineteen at the time. I was different than I am today though; I was vain and very self centered. I was beautiful of course but that's what got me here in the first place. My family was much better off than others but they still wanted more. So my father worked for a bank and the owner had a son about my age, Royce King the third." She paused and I saw her wince at the name. "Anyway, he was very good looking and I decided I liked him. One day, my mother insisted that my father forgot his lunch and that I bring it to him but she insisted on me wearing my white organza just for this. But he noticed me and that's when the roses and violets came."

"Soon enough we were engaged and it was all I ever dreamed of. I would have my perfect husband, a beautiful mansion, and beautiful fair-haired children. But when I went one day to visit my only true friend Vera, I noticed her family was different. She had married a carpenter and they had had a little baby boy named Henry. I saw the way Henry and her husband looked at her and I was jealous. But I brushed it off when it was time to leave. It was late and I suppose I should have just called someone to bring me home but I didn't think. That's when I saw them. It was Royce and some of his friends across the street. They were drunk I soon learned as I walked over to them and he called out to me. But then….you know. I won't go into detail." She finished and she was looking down at the floor.

I was speechless though. I never would have guessed that someone so perfect like her would have had to go through something like that. I suddenly had a newfound respect for the poor girl.

"I'm so sorry. I didn't know." I said quietly as I reached out to lay my hand on her shoulder gently.

"No it's okay but at least we understand each other a little bit right?" She said trying to lighten the mood.

It was true because the reason I had been changed was basically the same as her. It was a little after Emmett supposedly 'disappeared' and my mother was insisting on pushing to get married again. It had been sort of an arranged marriage for I had no choice and he was horrible. I was actually relieved when I became a vampire to escape my horrid marital issues.

"Yeah, I guess we do. And I'm really sorry about how I've been acting you see it's a bit hard to get over…Emmett." I choked out.

"I'm sorry about that. He never told me and I really didn't mean to take him away from you…" She said and I could hear the sincerity of her words.

"I know. And it's fine, I can see how happy you make him and if he's happy than I guess I am." I sighed and she nodded before surprising me by wrapping her arms around me in a sisterly hug.

I wrapped mine hesitantly around her also but our hug was a bit awkward seeing as how her stomach was kind of in the way.

"Thank you."

"For what?" I asked confused at her statement.

"For accepting this, I don't know if I could if I was in your place." She said and I cracked a small smile.

"It's hard but you're hard not to like Rosalie." I said and it was true. We weren't best friends all of a sudden but I was sure a friendship was beginning to bud. She was my sister and I was glad. I hoped in the future that maybe we could get a bit closer.

"Do you still want to leave?" She asked after we pulled away.

I sighed and nodded slowly.

"I really love this house and this family but I have to get away. Even though I accept it, doesn't mean I can sit and watch you two together everyday. I'm not strong enough for that yet." I said truthfully as I closed my suitcase.

"Oh, I understand." She said before moving to the door. "When are you leaving?"

"Later today I think, I already booked a flight." I stated.

"Well, make sure you come say goodbye before you do." She said as she exited the room. But she stuck her head back in quickly to say something.

"We'll miss you, you know."

And with that she was gone and I was left standing next to the bed smiling sadly. Yes, I would miss them all too.

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