¤Santana' POV¤

"I am so sorry Santana."

I sighed. "It's not your fault Berry, it's mine."

"I know but-"

"I need to go. I'll call you back. Bye." I said fast hanging up.

That was a few hours ago and before like, I don't know, too many glasses of whiskey in shitty pub in England.

"Another one, please." I called the barman.

"So, what happened?" Asked a stranger next to me at the bar.

"What?" I frowned and turned to him. Normal guy. Average height, funny accent and weird jacket. But normal.

"Well, it's actually like your sixth glass of whiskey you're nursing, and you don't really seem the type of person to get drunk alone at a bar with a cheap whiskey, in the middle of the night."

"Maybe I like getting drunk with whiskey. I would you know?" I scoffed taking my glass to my lips.

"I did not say that you don't like getting drunk on whiskey. But judging by your fancy suit I would say that you are more like getting drunk with a Macallan, 30 years old, 19 thousand the bottle."

I chuckled and paused. I finished the glass and did a sign to the barman so he could serve me another one. "She is getting married."

"Who?"

"The love of my life."

"Oh. And I am guessing that she is getting married to someone that is not you."

"Bingo"

"Sorry."

"Don't be. S'my fault." I slurred and sniffed.

"What happened?"

"I fucked up, that's what happened." I paused again. I don't know why I am gonna say all of that to a man I never met before. But maybe I need it. Saying it all to a person I'll never see again and who can't judge me. "I met her when I was ten. Fell in love with her that same year. Began to date her at fifteen. She has been in my life for all the important moments till we were twenty-five."

"Did she break up with you?"

"Yeah." I sighed. "Just after high school, we went to college, lived together. College was great but our jobs after that… Life was crap but with her I loved it. And then I got another job. Twas really cool. People liked what I was doing and rapidly I got promotions. Quinn was struggling with her job. She loved it but money was not it. She would always say that it was just hard moments, but it was going to be great. Late twenty-four, I got an offer. A really good promotion. Like really good. Here. In London. If you dnot understand my accent, m'american." I slurred. Maybe I should slow down.

"No yeah. I heard it. And what? She did not follow you?"

"I wish. But she could not. Couldn't leave her job, her sick mother, and again not enough money. My company only paid for one travel, one hotel room etc. Twas supposed to be only a few weeks." I take a deep breath. "We left each other at the airport, and I promised her that I would come back for her."

"Let me guess. You never came back."

I nod sighing. "I never came back. A few weeks in, they offered me a stable job here. Really good money. Quinn still couldn't leave. Her mother needed her."

"Did she asked you to stay."

"Nop. She's to perfect for that. Would never ask me to choose. But I did. I chose my job. We say that love makes you blind, but money makes you blinder." I bitterly chuckled. "I thought that I could just leave my best life here and she would wait for me there. And she did for a while. But not forever. I was, well am, working 24/7. She would call but I didn't have time to pick up. Didn't have time for her. State of her mother was getting bad. Said that she couldn't do it anymore." I sniffed wiping away the tears falling from my eyes. "Today, I'm thirty-tree, at the top of my company, with more money that I can count. But fucking alone. While the love of my life is getting married."

"Did you ever think about what would have happened if you choose her instead of your job?" He asked.

"Every fucking day. But we can't know. And too late."

"What would you give to know?"

What would I give? That's a good question. What would I give to kiss Quinn one last time? To brush the side of her face and look into her eyes one last time? I get up, open my wallet getting out a big wad of wash for the barman. As I do that, I look into the photo I have in it. It's Quinn and I, she is on my back and I am holding her while her arms are around my neck. We both have the biggest smile ever and are laughing.

I smile. This was a very good day. Now I just am filled with regrets. "Everything. I would give everything." I said leaving this shitty pub.

I walk back to my penthouse and crash down face first on my bed and fall asleep.

"Mhmmmm." I begin to gently wake up and get conscious about my surroundings. That when I feel lips against my neck and a body against mine. I moan.

This feels good. Very good. I begin to feel hands roaming under my shirt and little bite against the side of my jaw. This is so good. And it's been so long.

I moan louder and smile. But- wait. I fell asleep, alone. And in my hard 12k bed. This one is way fluffier. But these lips are really peppering my face with kisses soooo-

"This must be a dream."

I hear a chuckle that I know all too well and that I missed so much. She pauses against my lips and whispers. "I can assure you that this is not a dream." Another kiss.

I need to see her face. I need to look into her eyes. I need to look at her. Even if this is a dream, I have to make the most of it before I wake up. I open my eyes and I see her, again.

"God you are so beautiful." She blushes and smiles at me while I put my hand on her cheek. So beautiful. I missed her so much. She is even more beautiful than when we broke up and I already thought that she was perfect. I could not imagine that she could get prettier. But apparently, she could.

Her cheeks are a little more sunken. She looks more mature but yet she has no wrinkles. She is perfect.

"Stop messing around. We don't have much time." She laughs and goes back to kissing me.

"Mhmmm." I missed that. But I leaned back to look again at her face. "Before what?"

The moment I finish my sentence, I hear little screams and little feet hitting the ground. A few seconds later, the door burst open and two little tornados jump on the bed.

"Before that." Laughs Quinn.

"Mami! Mommy!" They scream and throw themselves at us.

"My babies!" Exclaim Quinn taking the boy into her arms while the girl sits on my lap. "How did you both sleep?"

They began talking excitingly but I drown out the voices. What the fuck is happening right now? This feels too true to be a dream. And at the same time too good to be true. I dreamed many times of waking up in Quinn's arms but never of kids. Yeah, awake I dreamed of everything. But never in my sleep.

So. Two solutions. One, I am dead, and this is my own heaven. Or two, I am awake and this is very weird.

Okay maybe three solutions. I am on drugs. But I don't do drugs.

So, is this true? But how?

"Mami?" I hear which makes me snap out of my thoughts. I look down and see the little girl on my laps. She looks like the perfect mix of Quinn and me. This is so weird and cool at the same time.

"Babe?" I look up at Quinn. She looks worried and she frowns. "Are you okay?"

"Um- yeah. I just have a little headache." That's not totally a lie. I feel it coming.

"I told you that you don't drink enough water."

"Yeah." I chuckled. She always used to tell me that. "That must be it."

"Can you help Adrian and Alexandra get ready for school while I wake up Aiden."

"I-ah yy-yeah of course." Three? I have three kids? "Off we go kids." They get up and run out of the room. Quinn smiles and gives me a peck on the lips before living too while I stay too stunned on the bed.

"Mamiiiiii, are you coming?!" I hear a yell. Yep! Kids! I get up. The house seems quite big. And it's very beautiful. Like it feels comfy. It's white, beige, light brown, with blue and just a little bit of black. I look around to find the room of the kids and see Adrian waiting for me on his bed with his sister.

How do I know that it's his room? Maybe because of the big neon on the wall saying 'Adrian'. This is also quite a big room. I turn my head and look across the hall and see another room which is the same space. Guess it's Alexandra's bedroom.

I look at the two kids who seems to wait for me to do something. What do I do? What do I need to do? I don't even understand what the fuck is happening right now. Maybe I got into an accident, and I am in a coma. That must be it.

"Mami?" Asks Adrian.

"Yeah?" I snap out of my thoughts.

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing." I turn and look at his clothes. What do I do? I panic. I never was in contact more than three minutes with a kid before. How old are they? They don't seem more than six. I think. I need to do something. They are looking at me like I'm crazy. Well, maybe I am. I don't even know anymore. I grab the first pants I see, with a t-shirt and two socks and put them in his hands. "Voila! Next. Alexandra."

They both look at each other with confused faces. "You always let me choose with you my clothes. And this are two different socks." I look down. Oh. Yeah.

"Well, not today. Go get dressed. Alexandra, come on." I say leaving to her room. It's also quite a pretty room. The same neon with her name is there. It's not the typical pink princess room and Adrian does not have the cliché blue superhero room. You can see their personalities and it's different. I like that.

"Alexandra?" She asks and I turn to her.

"Yeah. That's your name, right?" Isn't it?

"Yes. But you never call me that. You always call me Alex, or Lexa or mija." Mija. My mother calls me mija. I'm glad I do that with my kid.

I smile. "Right. Sorry." I look at her closet and I do the same thing for her. I don't even know how to do these things. I was just propelled into a new life in which I don't know anything! What the fuck is happening?!

"Get dressed and then wait for your brother. I'm coming back in a few minutes." I leave the room and go back into the bedroom I woke up in. I need to change out of this pajama. After a quick scan of the room, I see the walk-in-closet. Wow. Pretty impressive. Not as big as the one of my penthouse but quite big.

I search for some clothes and put on something rapidly that I found on what I think is my side of the closet. How do I know? There are way more sundresses on the other side. Glad to know that some sides of Quinn never changed.

"San? Why are the kids dressed like that? Never thought I'd see the day where you would be okay with Adrian wearing his green pants and Alex her pirates of the Caribbean shirt." Laughed Quinn.

"Well, I wanted to make them happy today."

"Looks like you succeeded that are all smiley faces." We both chuckle and I turn around. Oh. The third kid is here. Quinn is holding a little boy in her arms that again, is the perfect mix of Quinn and me. I would say that he is like one or two-year-old. He is very cute.

The sight in front of me is perfect. She looks so happy. When Aiden sees me, he opens his arms and tries reaching out to me. I smile so big and Quinn too. She gets closer to me and gently gives her son to me. With a kiss on the lips, she tells me that she is going to get prepared. And I'm left with what I guess is my son.

He has her eyes. I'm glad. I always liked her eyes. But he seems to have my lips and my dimples. He is so cute.

When I got downstairs, I see a big dog. Like, a BIG dog. It's a long-haired German shepherd. I smile. I always loved dogs. And this dog in particular brings back some memories.

When we were like eighteen, we told each other that one day, we were going to have a dog. Our parents respectively didn't want dogs. So, when we were planning our life together, we promised each other that we would have a dog and in particular, a long-haired German shepherd we would name 'Buddy'. Both of us always loved this breed of dog and now, in front of my eyes, I see that once again, one of our dreams came true in this life.

I bend down and the dog comes to me, his tail swinging around. "Hey!" I smile and begin petting him while he tries to lick my hands. I grab his collar and reach for his tag. I smile and chuckle. "Buddy."

I play with him for a few seconds before getting up and putting Aiden in the highchair that is just there. I begin searching around the big kitchen for things for breakfast like cereals or jam or whatever they eat. I put all of that on the table and just a few seconds later, I hear little kids running down the stairs.

And now, I'm lost. What do I do? 'My' kids start eating their cereals and chatting around while I do absolutely nothing. I see the coffee machine. Now that I can do. A good coffee.

Just seconds after I finished doing the coffee, Quinn's enter the kitchen. I smile as I see her kissing the top of both kids head and then she goes up to me and kiss me on the lips. God. How I missed that. She went to lean back but I grab her and take her closer to me. I deepen the kiss while my hands descend her back and grab her ass. As I squeeze it, Quinn lets out a moan.

I caress Quinn's lower lip with my tongue, asking for entrance. She opens her lips so I can slide my tongue and I am two seconds away from forgetting that we are not alone when I hear: "Ewwww."

Quinn chuckles and leans back pecking two more times my lips. "No, not ew. Not ew at all." She goes up to her kids and does a fake attack on them. They squeal and laugh.

Yeah. Not ew. I think with a dazed smile looking at the weird but oh so magical scenery in front of me.

Quinn sent me walk Buddy while she drove the kids to school and to daycare. I think I really needed this alone time to think about everything. I still don't understand where I am and why. I should be in London and now, judging by my surroundings, I'm in Boston, I think. In the suburbs. White picket fence and all.

I really never told anyone that this was kind of my dream. Not really the picket fence and all, I don't care about that. But just a comfy house, with a woman I love, kids, dogs, and a good job that I like. I still did not see the job that I am doing in this life, but the rest is ticking all the boxes.

When I went to London, I was blinded by all the new things, the amount of money and everything. I did not really love what I was doing in my job, but apart from that, I could do absolutely anything. I could have everything. But in the search of wanting to have everything, I forgot what was really my everything. Quinn. And I realized that too late, when I lost her for good.

She was dating again, and she was doing great. Her mother was getting better, and she got the job she wanted after years of being treated like a slave at work. Why didn't she come to me when things went better? Well, because I was not there for her when things were not great. She was working all day, then she would spend the rest of it taking care of her mom and the hospital and she would still make time for me. For calling me and sending me things that would make me smile in London.

And there I was, working hard yeah, but spending the rest of my time partying, loving all the attention I was receiving from my colleagues, boss and new friends, while I had all the attention I needed from my girlfriend and still did not make time for her.

I realized later that having everything is great. But if you can't share it with the person you love, then it doesn't matter.

I'm about to cross the street when I see in the corner of my eyes a weird jacket. I turn in this direction and see the man from the bar smiling at me. What the fuck? What is he doing here? I walk towards him and call him.

"Hey! What are you doing here?"

"Me?"

"Yes you! You're the guy from the bar, right?"

"Don't know what you are talking about." He seems confused.

"Cut the crap. I know it's you."

"Okay. It's me. I am actually surprised you remember me with the amount of alcohol you drank that night."

"I can handle my drink, thank you very much. So you do remember that night. What's happening right now? I'm going crazy."

"You wouldn't believe me."

"Maybe yesterday I wouldn't. But since this morning I might. So, shoot."

"I am a guardian angel."

"Really?" What the fuck?

"Yes."

"Okay, you to be more precise."

He nods. "And I am here because your are not happy."

"I've been unhappy for years. Why now? What were you doing?"

"We are short of staff. But we are recruiting." OK that's kind of funny.

"So, what's all of this?"

"This is the life you would have had if you kept your promise."

I'm back everyone!

Sorry for the oh so long wait. I was studying but I'm back for a little while!

Tell me if you want a part 2 of this story and I might do a few more chapters of my "Love is blind" story. Tell me if you want that too and what you would like to see!

Thank you so much and see you soon!