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Chapter 4
When I entered my house, I went to my room. I threw my bag in the corner and went to go lay on my bed. I thought about everything. I realized what was happening. I think I was falling in love with Edward. But I couldn't do that to Jacob. I still loved Jacob just not like that anymore. I sighed. I am a horrible person, I thought. I turned on the radio to try to get my mind off of everything. This is Hilary Duff "Hide Away" I heard the radio dj say. I didn't realize I was crying till the end of the song. That song fit Jacob and me too well. I turned the radio off it wasn't helping. My life was falling apart. It seemed like it, anyways. After a while, I decided I should stay away from Edward. I didn't want to do something stupid. I texted Jacob that I would drive myself to school the next day. Then I went to sleep.
I woke up to the sound of my phone ringing. I didn't know who it was. I couldn't recognize by the ringtone. " Hello," I asked tiredly. " Hey, did I wake you up?" It was Jacob I forgot I changed his ringtone to "Pushin' Me Away"
" Yeah, It's okay I was going to get up pretty soon, anyways."
" Why didn't you want me to pick you up?" He asked . I could hear a little anger in his voice. " Is Edward taking you?" Even though Jacob and I were… well not like how we used to be. It was still nice to know he was jealous.
" No,why? I just wanted drive today."
" I heard he took you home yesterday. I though you were going to get a ride with Jessica or something.:
" Oh, Jessica was already gone. I gotta go get ready. See you at school."
" Okay, bye," he said. Jacob seemed better. I hoped it would last. When I was in the parking lot, I saw Edward standing by his car. I was about to go and say hi. But then I remembered stay away. I couldn't be in love with Edward and still be going out with Jacob. Life was much more difficult now. I walked to my first class. Couldn't lunch come any sooner.
I was so glad when it was lunch. I didn't really want to sit by other people today. I just wanted to get the day done and over with. I got my lunch then found a table, in the corner where nobody was sitting. I was hoping Jacob was going to sit by me. But part of me wanted someone else to sit by me. Ugh! What am I doing I though. I heard a tray hit the table. I looked up. Oh no! " Hi," Edward said. " Hi." I said quietly. I looked over at the table I usually sit at. There was Jacob talking to Jessica. I sighed. I knew it was too good to last. " So what's going on." I couldn't ignore him. He was too nice. " Nothing." I tried to look away but his eyes were very distracting. I stared for a long time or at least it seemed like it. " Why did you sit here by yourself?" He asked. " Oh, umm, they are… I just didn't want to." Wow, that sounded very intelligent. He smiled the beautiful crooked smile. The bell rang. Saved by the bell, how cheesy. I quickly cleared my tray then left. I couldn't fall even more in love with Edward. I almost forgot Edward was in my biology class. I could see my plan of trying to avoid Edward wasn't working so much. " Hey, are you in hurry?" I heard Jacob say behind me. I turned around. " Yeah, don't want to be late for biology. See you in Gym"
" Yeah" Maybe I could skip I thought still thinking of ways to avoid Edward. Charlie would find out and ground me sometimes I hated living in a small town. I decided to just go to class. Just keep your distance I reminded myself. I sat down hoping we wouldn't do a lab today. Edward came in and I was dazzled. He smiled at me and I was breathless. " Hello." He said. He was too polite. How could he be nice to me? I just left him in the lunch room. I nodded. Of course, that day we did a lab with our lab partners. Edward and I were the first ones done, so we had some time to talk.
" Bella, are you okay? You seemed like you were in a hurry when you left the lunch room."
" Yeah, I'm fine. I just didn't want to be late for class." I looked away hoping he wouldn't talk to me. Even though I wanted him too. I had to try to stop my feelings for Edward. I had Jacob. He was my life, my love, and my everything, or at least he was. Edward didn't talk to me the rest of the time. I felt so bad. I wanted to talk to Edward. To hear his voice. The bell finally rang. I left so quickly that I tripped. Edward helped me up. " Are you okay?" He asked concerned. " Yeah," I said and then left quickly. Every time I was around Edward I was breathless. I was so glad when gym was over. I could finally go home. That day was so long. I couldn't wait to get home. When I got home, I knew I had to break up with Jacob soon.
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