Okay here is chapter 3! :D
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Edward's P.O.V
It felt like I was only lying on my bed for 10 minutes when my mom interrupted my thoughts by barging in my room.
"Dinner is done, are you hungry?" Honestly I was but I didn't feel like eating, there were too many thoughts wondering in my head to actually eat. I would probably sit there and stare at the plate hurting Esme feelings.
"No thank you mom" With that she walked out.
I lied back down on the bed and stared up at the ceiling.
I wanted to do something special for Bella, something extra nice to show her I care. Tomorrow is Friday, the craziest day of school. I had a huge plan. I grabbed my keys and put on my shoes and ran downstairs.
"Mom! Dad! I'm going to Bella's house for 20 minutes!" They looked at me funny but shrugged and gave me 'the look'. The look that said, "Don't be an ass and be careful because we love you".
And I was off.
Bella's P.O.V
Stupid Edward Cullen, Ass hole, shit head, piece of lard, who is sensitive and cute and amazing and I hate him but I love him. I didn't want anything to do with him but I want everything to do with him! I wanted him to hold me but I wanted to slap him.
I am always confused about the mysterious Edward Cullen. I can't make up my mind if I want to love him or I want to hate him! He sleeps with everyone, but he's so sincere and sweet.
I couldn't think of him as sweet though! He was an ass, and he only wants to be my friend for notes and homework and answers to the quizzes.
I logged onto the computer to see if Jacob or my mom has emailed me so I turned the old piece of junk on when I went to read a few more chapters of Fever before I looked at my email that hasn't even began to load.
7 chapters and 9 pages later I decided to look up and I saw 1 email from Jacob. I jumped up to see what it said.
Bella!
Hey I want to apologize for not emailing you sooner and I do miss you! I have a really good news Bells! Remember when you cried for hours on my shoulder saying that you didn't want me to be alone? Well I found a new best friend! Her name is Renesma, Nesse for short. She's so adorable and I think I'm going to ask her out soon! She's a lot like you Bells! Except she has more coordination…
She's a lot of fun and Billy has taken a great liking to her too! I'm sure you would like her Bells! I even showed her our secret hideout from when we were kids! And guess what? Our mud pies are still there! Rock hard and still there! But Nesse and I where fooling around and broke them…
How are you? I hope to hear from you soon!
-Jake
He replaced me. He is slowly forgetting about me to some other girl. I grabbed a book and threw it across the wall and started to cry.
Everyone is moving on but me.
Jake,
I'm glad you have someone to hang out with. Truly.
I am fine.
Look I'm really busy and you're really busy so it might be a little more difficult to stay in touch. I'm sorry
Bella
[Send]
I lied on my bed and cried. When I heard someone call my name "Bella? Bella?"
Charlie was home early…
I wiped away the tear and walked downstairs. "Hi dad"
"Hey Bells I got home early today, I thought we haven't talked much and I wanted to take you out somewhere." I just stared at him blankly. "No ball game on tonight?" I wanted to slap myself for saying that.
He just looked down. "Yea there is but I thought we could spend some time together." He was trying to be nice and I felt like I was being an utter bitch. "Dad its 6"
"Look Bells if you don't want to do anything then-" I felt like dog shit. "No dad! I want to just people have really been pulling my hair today, where do you want to go?" His head snapped up in a second and a smile appeared on his face.
"I was think of going to the batting cages with you." Hell no NO NO NOOO "okay" damn you mouth… I hope my mouth gets hit with a ball considering this is really dangerous for ME.
We got there and he showed me how to hold a bat and how to hit a ball and I got hit in the helmet three times but… it was fun.
"Listen Bella, Forks is a small town…" I just nodded at him allowing him to go on as we drove to the nearest fast food joint.
"And there are rumors going around that you hit Lauren for kissing… Edward" He knew it was a soft spot for me and honestly I didn't know what to say and I just sat there playing with my fingers. So he keeps going to make everything 50% more awkward and 50% more brutal.
"I will take that as a yes, Bella all I can ask is, why? I mean I know Edward was your friend but you can't go hitting every girl he has a relationship with." It made me mad tat Charlie could find out that I hit someone but couldn't find out that Edward was a man ho!
"Dad! You don't get it! He had no relationships with ANY of those girls and the only reason I slapped Lauren was because I was mad! They where swapping spit and blocking my locker! I tried to get their attention but they ignored me! And Edward KNOW'S that I hate Lauren! SO don't lecture me when I did something as harmless as give someone a small slap on the face for being so sleazy! "
I had no idea where that came from, and I didn't know why I just told my dad everything but for some reason he feels like he is the only one that I have. After that he was silent and I couldn't let that be the end of it.
"Dad, is that why you took me out tonight?"
"No Bella, I just felt that we haven't talked for a while. And I did want to talk to you about that, and one other thing."
"What's that?"
"Who do you hang out with at school?"
I felt my mouth get dry. And I felt like there was a lump in my throat, I croaked out really fast "no one"
He gave me an apologetic look and with that small little glance something inside of me knew that he already knew. "Bella, I am worried about you. When you and… Edward hung out you always where lit up with joy. Now you're eyes look sad all the time and you look like you're in pain." He whispered the last word like it hurt him more to see me like this then for me to feel like this.
"What do you want me to do?" I said softly.
By know we were parked in the parking lot to I-Hop.
"Bella, there is a small conversation going around my work that a small little family is moving in a few houses down from ours this Sunday. I want you to use you great cooking skills, and your warm personality and I want you to go down there Sunday and make them feel welcome. And maybe make a new friend. I'm telling you this because once they get to school it will be like a pack of dogs and only 1 bone. I want you to make some friends."
My spirits lifted and I actually got happier!
"Dad I would gladly"
After some 'dinner' and a long quiet drive home I was exhausted.
And for the first time in months, I didn't cry myself to sleep.
I woke up with a smile on my face. Then I realized I was late ten minutes. I jumped in and out of the shower and threw on some clothes. I tied my hair in a bun and threw on my coat and made my way to my car. When I got in it wouldn't work "Not today! Please NOT TODAY!" I said to myself. Realizing there was no hope left I went inside. Charlie already left and I only had one person's number. Damn.
I picked up the phone and dialed the number pressing every button as hard as I could, hurting my finger.
"Hello?" Whew he picked up. He sounded so cute… NO he sounds like DOG SHIT!
"Can you pick me up? My truck won't work"
Edward P.O.V
"Can you pick me up? My truck won't work"
A smile spread across my lips when I felt my plan fall into action. Last night I dropped her truck off and took out her battery and now it's in the back of my car. I did feel bad but. It will be worth it though.
"Sure Bella, I'll be there in 5"
"Thanks"
"Bye Bella" I loved to say her name. It rolled of my tong so well. I wanted us to be friends again so bad. All I needed was her friendship, I craved her friendship.
I got in my car a speed off.
I mean sure, I've thought of Bella as a girlfriend before. But it didn't fit.
But I loved her as a friend. And I was going to get that back.
I knew Charlie wasn't home, like ever. So it made my plan easier.
I pulled into her driveway and got out of the car and knocked on the door. But before I could even press my knuckle to the door she opened it.
She looked adorable with her hair tied up. "Hi" she breathed
"Hello" Why so formal Edward? *sigh*
Then I saw her face drop, from my sigh. God I always fuck up! "Bella I want to prove to you that I can be the old Edward. And I want to do it the right way." She just looked at me with a confused look on her face. "I'll explain later, just get in the car."
She got in and so did I and I turn the heat on. I started driving the opposite way of school to my favorite spot.
"Edward school is the other way" She reminded me so I nodded to her.
"Edward! Where are we going?"
"Bella, I told you I am going to fix our friendship, and I want to do it right. We aren't going to school today. And I will put your car battery back tomorrow."
She was mad, and I didn't know if it was about the battery or the not to school- or her not know where we are going.
"You… want to ffix the friendship?" I totally didn't see that. Just like Bella. I smiled.
"Yea, yea I do. I have for a while actually"
And with that she sat there, not caring about the battery or skipping school. She was in no other words… relaxed. It made me feel nice.
I pulled up to a tree and got out opening her door for her.
"We're here?"
"No goof ball- we need to hike a little" Horror struck her face. It made me chuckle. I went to the back and grabbed a big suitcase.
The whole way she whined and complained and I couldn't whip the goofy grin off my face.
We started the hike around 9, and we were almost there by 1.
We finally reached the little meadow that I loved so much. "Here we are" She walked up to it and gasped.
"It's beautiful Edward!" I only could watch her look at it and her eyes get bigger and bigger. Then she saw I was staring and she blushed a deep red. I missed her blush. I brought my hand to her hair and brushed a stray piece behind her ear. Her blush deepened, if that was possible. But from the look in her eye she was trying to fight something. And I think I knew what.
"Are you hungry?"
"Yea I am"
I set down the big suite case and pulled out a small picnic basket and led her to the center of the meadow. I laid out a blanket and I set down two plates and a load of food in the center.
I saw her eyes bulge out of her head "You don't expect me to eat ALL of this, right?"
I decided to joke around with her and I looked down to the ground and let my face fall and spoke ever so slowly "But… Bella I...I mmade all of tthis ffor you!" I decided to fake cry and I peeked out from my hand and saw her shoulder relax. "No Bella! I'm just playing around; no I think I went overboard…"
She laughed hard and with that we sat down and ate.
I decided to start conversation while handing her a sandwich and said the first thing that came to mind.
"Bella, what happened to us?" Her face darted up and she started to choke on her food. I quickly crawled over to her and rubbed circles into her back and she controlled her breathing.
"Edward, I know this is hard for you but it's actually quite easy! You- left- me- for- sleazy-girls" And I did get it but I didn't know how to erase that memory.
"Bella, I was young and naive"
"WOW! You grew up in a whole year Edward? That's a shocker!"
"I had lots of thinking time" I was trying to keep myself calm and I could tell she was trying to too.
"Sure, you know Edward I honestly am really hungry. Where did you find this beautiful meadow?"
She was changing the topic!
"I was wondering the forest one day and I just found it. I like to come here to think."
She took a bite from her sandwich, as did I.
They where ham lettuce, tomato, mayo, and Dijon mustard.
"I got a new x-box game."
She smiled wide and I looked at her. I smiled to and I didn't know why, she just had that effect on me.
"I have to come over someday and play it with you!"
SHE WANTED TO COME OVER MY HOUSE! I felt like screaming like a girl…
We talked for hours until it was almost dark.
"We should start heading back" She reminded me over and over for the past 30 minutes.
"Bella I want to do 1 thing first." She started to bite on her lip. She was so cute…
I walked over and pulled out a guitar and walked back to where she was sitting.
(A.N. Please for me! Open a new tab and play the song Yellow by Coldplay! It will be 10x's better! PLEASE!)
She was about to say something when I started to play one of my favorite songs that reminded me of her, Yellow by Coldplay. Look at the stars, Look at the stars
Look at the stars
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,
I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow
So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow
Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so
I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you I bleed myself dry
For you I bleed myself dry
Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you
And all the things that you do
She stood up and threw herself in my arms and cried. I hugged her for what only felt like two minutes and she pulled her head back and looked in my eyes, as I looked into hers. Then her eyes shut and she leaned forward.
"Bella, what are you doing?" What the hell you fucker! Why DID I SAY THAT! I knew quite as well what she was doing but she was my friend and nothing more.
Bella P.O.V
I felt that Edward Cullen actually loved me. That he did want to fix everything. And I just cried on his shoulder. For the first time in months, happy tears.
Edward Cullen brought me happiness.
I leaned forward to kiss him, it felt so right, the meadow, the stars, the moon, the atmosphere.
"Bella, what are you doing?"
Rejection hit me hard. I stumbled backwards and fell on my butt. He held his hand out and I slapped it away. He… didn't want to kiss me. AAll he wanted to be was… friends.
I broke out in a new set of tears, when just that moment I felt a drop of water hit my head and I looked up.
It was raining.
"Bella I'm sorr-"
"Don't you say you're sorry! I'm sorry that I'm not at sleazy as all those other girls are! I'm sorry I'm not a ho that will jump you right now! And-"
"WHY DO YOU CARE SO DAMN MUCH WHO I SLEEP WITH?"
My heart just broke in half. He still didn't get it.
"Someday you'll cry for me, like I cried for you. Someday you'll miss me, like I missed you. Someday you'll need me like I needed you! But someday you'll love me, but I won't love you."
And with that I walked off not knowing where I was going. I just walked the same way we came. And he just stood there. And the whole way back, I cried my eyes out.
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