I am so sorry for the late update bur I have been sick a lot and life just gets in the way for me.

Well here is another chapter for you as a thank you for your patience.

Enjoy!

As Meredith stood there and looked at the door where Derek had disappeared in to the OR all she could think about was what if he never came out of there again.

She didn't notice that Mark still stood there with her. After Derek was off to the OR all Mark could do was to stand there and look at Meredith. He couldn't understand why she haven't cried whet or showed any emotions since Derek had left.

"What the hell is wrong with her? Why haven't she cried yet. Her sister always cries when something is going on no matter if there a good or bad thing" Mark wondered. "May by its all coming in a minute so I should probably take her to a place where she can sit down" Mark thought.

He put an arm around her shoulders and let her to the waiting room.

When Mark guided her the way to the waiting room she didn't noticed all the sympathetic looks the hospital staff was giving her.

It was like she was in her own little bubble and everything around her didn't existed. It was only when Mark gave her a gentle pushed to get her to sit down that she noticed that she had moved.

She sat down with a laud sigh. "What am I supposed to do without Derek? I was never going to think about this until he was 110 and in my arms. Not like this where his unconscious and in surgery. I don't think I can live in… no wait I know I can't live in a world Derek isn't a part of" she thought. But then she could feel the baby being really restless and moving around in the little space.

She putted a hand on her stomach and rubbed small circles. And then the baby gave Meredith's hand a strong kick. "You can feel something is wrong can't you" she said. The baby gave Meredith another kick as an answer. "It's because of me you can feel it isn't it" Meredith said. It wasn't a question but a statement.

That when she decide that because this baby was the last piece of Derek that she had left she was going to do every thing she could to protected it. "Baby you have to know that every thing that daddy did he did it for us because he loved us both very much" Meredith said as she continued ti rubbed small circle on her belly.

For the first time Mark talked to Meredith: "What are you talking about?" Mark asked with a frown. "What do you mean what am I talking about?" Meredith asked with confusion.

"What I am talking about is that you are talking about my best friend as if he was dead" Mark said louder then he meant to.

"Excuse me; your best friend was also my husband and the father of my child! And Mark there is no need for you to raise your voice" Meredith said with in calm voice.

"There it is again! You are talking about Derek as if he is dead witch his not" Mark said in frustrated voice.

"Look Mark I understand that you are upset and that's okay but you need to understand that we all handle things differently and you have to respect that" Meredith said. Before Mark could response Meredith stood up. "Now if you'll excuse me I have stuff to do" she said and left a gaping Mark.

A half hour later Lexie came and sat next to Mark. Mark hadn't moved since Meredith had left him.

"Mark what is going on. Where Meredith?" she asked looking around trying to find her sister. When Mark didn't answer her she asked again. "Mark could you please tell where my pregnant sister went". "She left…" Mark whispered. "What do you mean she left? Where did she go?" Lexie asked in a confused voice.

"She said she had stuff to do and then she left" Mark said looking at her for the first time.

When Lexie just looked at him like he had grown two head he told what had happened.

"First she was like a zombie and she didn't cry witch I find really weird since you two are related and you cry over nothing" Lexie just looked at him over his comment but decide to yell at him later because now wasn't the time for it. So Mark continued his story. "As I was saying she didn't cry but I thought that might come later so I took her here in the waiting room. But suddenly she started to talk to the baby like Derek was dead!" Mark exclaimed. Lexie gasped look at him wide eyed. "She did what?". "I know I couldn't believe it either" Mark said taking her hand and gave it a squish.

"Did you confront her?" Lexie asked. Mark nodded: "Yes when I asked her why she was talking about Derek like he was dead all she said was that we all handle thing differently and that I have to except that. It was really weird" Mark said.

"Mark I think it's time that we call in reinforcement" Lexie said as she stood up and pulled Mark with her. ""Lexie what are you talking about?" Mark asked with frown.

"Who is it that knows Meredith better then anyone" Lexie said as if it was a easy question but Mark didn't get it. "Lexie, Derek is in surgery so we can't ask him plus we don't even if he will wake up after the surgery" Mark stated. "Mark are you stupid? Of course I known we can't ask Derek. I was talking about Christina your dumbass" Lexie said laud.

Mark looked around to see if someone heard them. But only two of the nurses heard.

"Great Lexie! The two nurses that are known for gossiping just heard. In a minute the whole hospital is going to know you yelled at me!" Mark whined.

"Oh get over yourself! Don't you think the hospital has something better to do then gossiping on you?" Lexie said as she began to walk away.

"I guess your right."

"I'm always right." Lexie smirked.

As the walked past the nurse's station all the nurses gave Mark a sympathetic look.

"Ha look! The nurses don't have something better to do then gossip. I told you so" Mark said a little to laud. All the nurses stared at him. Was there on thing the nurses did not like was to get caught gossiping and everybody knew it.

"I'm not even going to tell you how stupid that was because I can see it on your face that you known you just maid your biggest mistake ever" Lexie giggled.

Mark tried to give the nurses the "McSteamy look" but it didn't work. Mark sighed in defeat and started to walk away. Lexie giggled so hard that tears started to spill over in the corner of her ayes but she didn't care. She caught up with Mark who only got more upset when he saw her.

"You know it's not really appropriate for you to laugh at a time like this" Mark said trying to guild trip her and it worked.

"I'm sorry your right. Are you okay with everything?"

"Lexie I was messing with you" Mark said trying to change the subject. But Lexie didn't fall for it.

"I know or I didn't but whatever… seriously Mark he is your best friend. You most feel something"

"I do. I feel like we have to find Yang so she can find Meredith." Mark said in a stern voice to tell her not to press the subject anymore.

As if it was faith they walked straight in to Cristina.

"Hey watch it!" Cristina said before she began to walk away.

"Cristina, I mean Dr. Yang we need your help… actually Mer needs your help" Lexie stammered.

When Meredith's name was said Cristina got concerned witch is something never does.

So what do you guys think? Let me know and I promise I will write you back :)

Xx

Cath