Hi everybody. Here is a little shorter chapter but it is better then nothing… right? I know I said it in the beginning of the story that I wasn't all that good with the grammar but well here I am saying it again: grammar is hard enough for me in the languish I speak every day so when it comes to English I do the best I can. I hope you can live with it… if there is some one interest in being my Beta let me know :) anyways on with the story… Enjoy!

"It's Derek. He is out of surgery" Cristina said.

"Does it say anything about how he is?" Meredith asked anxious. Cristina only shook her head no.

"Then we just have to find out for our self's then. Help me up." Cristina stood up and then put her hand out to Meredith for support to get up from the floor. Once Meredith was up she walked as fast as she could out of Derek's office in the direction of the elevators. Meredith pressed the button and waited for the elevator to get to there floor. Cristina walked up to her and to wait.

The ´ping` sound and the doors opened. Meredith walked in and then asked Cristina.

"What floor?"

"He is in the VIP room on third floor" Cristina said as Meredith pushed the third floor button.

As soon as the doors opened Meredith was of to the nurse's station.

"Is he in yet?" Meredith asked Nurse Debbie who was standing behind the desk.

Debbie didn't need to ask who she was asking about.

"They just wheeled him in… but I don't think you are allowed in yet" Nurse Debbie said.

"Call security! You can even call the chief I don't care… I'm going in to se my husband now" Meredith said over her shoulder as she walked in the direction of Derek's room.

Debbie looked over at Cristina for help. But Cristina knew Meredith enough to know that no one could stop her once her mind was set.

When Meredith got to Derek's room, she stopped out side the door. She was mentally preparing herself that once she walked through those doors she would see Derek, her husband unconscious and with tubes all over him. After a few minutes she walked in.

The shocked she got when she took the first step in to the room was ridiculous. She knew that to expect. She was a doctor for god sake! She seen patients like this but still this wasn't just another patient, this was Derek. Her breath got caught in her throat when she noticed that he was still intubated and she couldn't breath.

It was only first when Meredith could feel the baby giving her a kick that she moved from her position. Meredith moved one hand down to her stomach and rested it there.

"You know your Daddy is here don't you?" Meredith asked the baby.

She felled another kicked and that gave her the strength to move over to the bed where Derek was in. she picked up his chart that was on the end off the bed. All his vitals were fine which meant the surgery went fine but she would have to ask Owen what exactly happened. The one thing she wanted to know the most was too early to find out. And that was if Derek was still in a coma.

She putted the chart back down on the bed and went over to the corner of the room to get the chair that stood there and grad it over to Derek's bed side.

She sat down and took his hand in to hers. She frowned when she noticed that he didn't have his wedding ring on. But then she knew that they had to take it of because of the operation.

She looked under the bed to see if his bag of personal belongings were there. It was. Meredith ripped the bag open to find the ring. After she located it she slipped on Derek's finger where it belonged.

All of the sudden the baby began to move around a lot.

"Shh baby its okay." Meredith said while trying to soothing the baby.

When it didn't work Meredith didn't know what to do. It used to be Derek who could calm the baby down when it acted like this. But then she got an idea. "No the ridicules" Meredith thought out laud. But when the baby started to kick her ribs she was willing to give it a chance.

She moved her chair as far as it could to the bed. Meredith then took Derek's hand and moved it to rest on her b belly. The baby moved a little les but it was still a bit painful so Meredith started to move Derek's hand in circles like he would have done him self if he could.

That got the baby to completely relax and started to fall asleep.

Meredith didn't notice anyone was there until Owen cleared his throat to let her know his was there. She turned around to see that Owen, Mark and Cristina stood in the doorway looking at her.

Meredith gave them a nod to tell them it was okay they came in.

She felt embarrass that they had caught her rubbing Derek's hand on her belly so she took it of but kept it in her hand.

The tree of them walked in and Owen once again cleared his throat a sign that he was about to speak.

"Okay Meredith I would just start to say that I wish that we were not in this situation. With that said the surgery went well. We removed the bullet. From what we could see it didn't do anything pt can't handle. As for the coma; there isn't much we can go other then keep a close eye on him and check his vitals. All we can do is pray that he will wake up" Owen looked at Meredith for a second since she hadn't said a word.

"Do you have any questions?" he asked hoping to get some sort of reaction.

Meredith looked up for a second before she returned to look at Derek.

"When while you extubeted him?" Meredith asked quietly.

"We were about to do that after we were finished talking to you" Cristina said for the first time since she came to the room.

Meredith only nodded as a response.

"Okay let's get started. Cristina, will you get Nurse Anna in here so we can do this?" Owen asked.

"Yes" Cristina said and walked out of the room and quickly returned with the nurse.

Meredith never laded go of Derek's hand for one second through the whole thing. Even thou Mark thought that she should go down to the cafeteria to get something to eat, she refused.

Everything went smoothly and after an half an hour Meredith was again left alone with Derek.

Meredith leaned in and began to stroke Derek's hair like he always loved when she did.

With one hand in his hair and the other holding his hand she began to talk to him;

"Derek, I have to tell you something. When I drowned and was dead I was in this place where the dead people I knew were there. I don't know you are there to because you are not dead but only in a coma. Anyways if you are there please come back to me. I know your father is there and you have really missed him but I need you. I really need you to be here with me alive, not that shit about that you will always be in my heart. I need to see you, to touch you and to make love to you again when I'm not the size of a whale. It is now where you are supposed to tell me that I am beautiful and that I am glowing and you can't do in a coma or when you are dead"

Meredith paused to take a much needed breath. Meredith then felt the baby rolled in its sleep.

"And think about our baby. If you never wake up he will never have you to teach him have to fish or play baseball. How will he be able to be a Yankees fan when you're not around and his mother being a Red socks fan"

Or our little girl will miss out on her father spoiling her to death. Or being all cave man on her when she starts to date. And when she get's married you won't be there to walk her down the altar. So you see you have to wake up there is no other choice. We simple can't live without you!"

When Derek didn't wake up Meredith was disappointed. But she was determent that she would not leave Derek's side until he had woken up!

There you go… hope you will like it? May by if you guys are good to leave reviews I will update again before Christmas :)

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Catherine