Hi everybody. I am so sorry for the delay but I just haven't had inspiration to write lately. But now I think I am back on the writing horse so hopefully there will be more updates soon… Anyway Enjoy!

"Meredith" Carolyn breathed as she stood in the doorway looking at the woman she considered her own daughter.

"Mom?" Meredith said though gritted teeth as another pain in her back bolted through her back.

"Meredith sweetheart, what is going on?" Carolyn said as she was about to walk though the doorway when an arm grab hers softly.

"She doesn't want anyone to go in" Mark said.

"Nonsense, I'm her mother of course I'm allowed in" Carolyn dismissed as she walked in to the room.

"Mom… I don't… know what to do" Meredith sobbed.

"Well dear it has been a couple off years since I worked as a nurse but my guess would be that you are in labour" Carolyn said as she walked over to Meredith. But then she saw her son lying in a bed lifeless with tubes all over him. She felt a stab in the chest as she felt the worst nightmare any mother would fear. Being that one of your children would die before you. She felt so helpless since there was nothing she could do to help him. But there was another of her children that needed help and this was a thing that she could help with.

Carolyn walked the last few steps and took Meredith in her arms. After only a few seconds Carolyn could feel Meredith breaking down in her arms. And there they stood until Carolyn could feel Meredith tensing as another contraction hit her.

"Mom it hurts so much! I can't do this without Derek. We were supposed to do this together and now I am all alone" Meredith cried.

"Meredith, you listen to me and you listen good" Carolyn lifted Mer's head to look her in the eyes. "You. Are. Not. Alone. Do you hear me? I am here and I am not going anywhere" Carolyn said in a stern yet caring voice.

Carolyn waited till Meredith gave her a small nod to signal that she had heard her.

"You won't leave me?" Meredith whispered while looking down on the floor.

"Of course I won't leave my daughter alone when she is giving birth to my grandchild" Carolyn assured her while giving Meredith a caring kiss on the top off her head.

"Promise?" Meredith whispered still looking down on the floor.

"Promise" Carolyn said as she lifted Meredith's head up she could look her in the eye.

Meredith gave her mother-in law a small smile but then the pain hit her hard.

"Oh god…" Meredith groaned out in pain.

"Don't you think that it is time for us to get you in to a bed?" Carolyn asked.

"No I can't leave him!" Meredith protested.

"But Meredith…" Carolyn said when she got interrupted by Meredith. "I am NOT going anywhere" Meredith panted as she struggled to hold her self up.

"Meredith…" Carolyn said in a stern voice when she was once again interrupted by a small groan.

Derek knew that something was wrong. He could feel it all down to his bones. He couldn't see anything and his body felt like someone had stuffed it with bricks that made it impossible for him to move. What the hell happened to me? Why can't I move?

And that was when Derek noticed that Meredith body wasn't snuggled up to him as it used to be.

This is really weird! I can never sleep when Meredith isn't next to me… again what the hell happened to me?

Derek could now hear little voice as if they were over a hundred meters away from him but that didn't stop him from recognizing the voice he loved over everything else; Meredith's.

But then he noticed that her voice was not happy to say at lest. She was crying. No she was breaking down and then he noticed that she kept calling his name.

Oh no, I am dead aren't I? I am dead and leaving Meredith and the baby all alone. The baby is never going to meet me. Never going to know who I am and what I look like. Off course Meredith is going to show him pictures of me but it is not the same. And Meredith, I broke mu promise about never leaving her and now, not only am I leaving her no I am leaving her alone with our baby. How could I do this to her? Meredith is right; I can be brainless some times! Wait what is that beeping sound? It is really annoying. That was when Derek found out that it was theheart monitor monitoring his heart. Oh thank god I am not dead. But then why the hell am I in the hospital?

Then Derek remembered the bank robbery in the bank and that he got shot trying to help the woman that had also been shot.

That was when another voice came in to reach and it was the voice of his mother.

What is my mother doing her? Was she supposed to come visit and I just forgot?

But when Derek heard his mother talking about Meredith being in labour he was in chock.

Meredith is having the baby now and I am just lying here, where ever here is and doing nothing. I promised her we would do it together. She is probably freaking out and I am not there to help her calm down. I am going to miss the birth of our first child. Well aren't I the husband of the year! I have to wake up right now!

Derek tried to open his eyes but they just wouldn't open.

Well if I can't open my eyes may by I can say something…

Derek tried to open his mouth but every time nothing would come out. Just when he was about to quit trying, out came a moan. Well it wasn't a word but a least it was something.

"What was that? Because I think I know what it was but I won't believe it until one of you say it" Meredith said.

Since Mark, Lexie or Cristina had left the doorway all tree looked at each other before looking over at Carolyn to see what they were suppose to tell Meredith. Because everybody wanted Derek to wake up but they knew that if they got Meredith's hopes up and it turned out to be nothing there was no way she would be able to give birth.

Carolyn saw the looks the tree people in the doorway was giving her which she knew it was up to her to handle Meredith.

"Meredith dear, why won't we go and find you a bed in the mean time Mark is going to check Derek out and when he is done he will tell use if there is any change" Carolyn asked as she putted a hand behind Meredith's back to rub it gentle.

"I don't know…" Meredith turned around to look at Mark. "You will tell me if anything happens right away?"

Mark being surprised that she would even consider this was caught off guard. But thankfully Lexie stepped in to cover for him.

"I will make sure he does. I promise Mer" Lexie said with a reassuring smile.

"Fine but if I find out you are hiding something from me well then lets just that I will be looking for a new godfather" Meredith said since she knew how much it meant for Mark to be the godfather for the baby.

"Hey that is not fair!" Mark pouted.

"Well if you don't keep something from me then there won't be a problem will there" Meredith smirked as she sat down in the wheelchair Cristina got her.

With one last look behind her should Carolyn wheeled Meredith out of the room to get admitted.

With Meredith gone Mark, Lexie and Cristina stood behind with fear of not being able to tell Meredith what she wanted to her which was something they all badly wanted.

We are getting close now with the baby and Derek waking up…

Leave a comment and tell me what you think =)

Oh i was wondering if there is anyone who want's to be frineds on MSN or something? I really miss someone to gossip about Grey's with... =)

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Catherine.