Halloo. So I know that it has been forever since the last update, but life really didn't want me to write anything. First school was kicking my ass and when I finally had some time it was my birthday (not that I am complaining about that =)) which meant family coming over. So now is the first time I have had to update on this. I feel so bad for keeping you waiting this long so I hope you can forgive me for the wait. I will try really hard not to keep you waiting this long next time. I would also like to say THANK YOU for your awesome reviews!!! Especially to you who review every time. You know who you are and you are the best!

They are all what truly keeps me going :)

Okay so I think I have rambled enough for this time :p

So Enjoy!

Taking deep breaths Derek began to push his body up from the bed so that he could get down. If it wasn't for Meredith needing him, he would never have considered getting out of bed. But she did need him and he had promised her that when ever she needed him he would be there. With his whole body shaking Derek sat up, with his legs over the edges.

Derek wasn't sure on the how part but he was sure that he was going to get there. And thanks to the gossiping nurses he knew where he would find her. All he had to do was to get to the room down the hall and he would be with Meredith and be there for when his first child would be born.

But what if he was already to let and the baby was already here and he missed it? What if he hadn't kept his promise to Meredith: that he wasn't there for her when she had needed him the most. Did she even know that he was awake or did she think that she would be raising their baby all alone? Did she even get to be happy when she saw the baby for the first time or had she been to busy thinking about him whether he was ever going to wake up again…

Derek promised himself that when he found his wife, he would promise to make it up to her. Whatever she wanted, he would get it to her. But before he could make that promise he had to find her first. Looking around the room Derek was looking for something that would help him get to his destination. Normally the few meters to Meredith's room were would be nothing but with his body being weak from the coma those few meters was going to feel like it was a marathon.

And god was with him today because right outside his room was a wheelchair that was standing in the middle of the hall.

Taking a couple of deep breaths to prepare himself, Derek got up on shaky feet and made a move to take a wobbly steep. Letting go of the breath he didn't know he was holding, Derek took another steep and began to walk to the door.

But apparently god wasn't with after all. Just as he reached the door, a nurse came running and snatch the chair with her on the way.

Great now I have to find another way to get there. I just hope that no one sees me on the way because I am pretty sure they will stop me to get to Meredith.

Wondering where everybody was Meredith lay alone in her room in pain. She was thirsty since her mother-in law still hadn't come back with her ice chips. But the main thing on her mind was; is Derek awake? Whenever she tried to ask Carolyn, she had avoided to answer the question and Cristina, Mark nor Lexie still hadn't given her the update they had promise her they would give her.

So life sucked big time! But when she thought about why the pain was there, a big smile came on her face. Her and Derek's baby was coming. The baby they had made with the love they shared with each other.

But then she was sad thinking that Derek was about to miss it and that made her try everything she could to hold it of, so Derek had a chance to wake up and experience this with her, like it was supposed to be.

That was when she felt her baby pushing to get out, but Meredith was sticking to her plan about giving Derek as much time as possible to make it there with her. So when Meredith didn't begin to push with the contraction the machines hook to her started beeping really laud. And then the pain started for real. The next thing a bunch of nurses came in and checked the machines to see what the fuss was all about. When the baby's heart rate was slowing down, one of the nurses paged the on-call ob/gyn to the room. Everybody in the room tried to get her to push but as stubborn as Meredith was she refused.

One of the nurses even went as far as to trying to scar her into pushing. Telling her, that if she didn't push her baby could end up dying. But Meredith knew the facts. She was a doctor, so of course she knew what this meant with her not pushing. But right now she wasn't Dr. Shepherd. Right now she was a woman in labour, who was scared of losing her husband.

So when she saw her husband's ex-wife coming into her room, she was pretty sure that things couldn't get any worse.

"What is she doing here?" Meredith gasped through the pain.

"I got a 911 paged" Addison explained.

"No offence, but the last thing I need is my husband's ex-wife in here with me. I know we have been sort of friends lately, but I can't handle this right now. So can you please get me another doctor"

"I'm sorry Meredith but I am the only on-call ob right now, so you have to settle with me" Addison said in a soft voice. She could understand where Meredith was coming from. If the positions were reversed she properly wouldn't want Meredith as her doctor either.

But this was how things were and there was nothing either could do about it. And by the heart rate of Meredith's baby if she didn't get that baby out soon, Derek wouldn't be the only thing she would have to be worried about.

"Look Meredith" Addie said as she bent over the bad to where Meredith's head were. "I know that this sucks and that you would want Derek here with you. But he can't be with right now. But I know him well enough to know that if he found out what you were doing to yourself and your baby, he would be pretty upset. You know as well as I, how much he wants to have a child. When he were walking around the hospital with ultrasound pictures in his lab pocket to show everybody even though we had all seen them multiple times, but didn't say anything about it because of the smile he had every time he even talked about the baby or you. That he would ask in the middle of surgery if you were hungry or had morning sickness which really pissed you off. And Mark would make fun of him all the time for being a mother hen but he didn't care because he loved too much. So Meredith, show him that you love and respect him enough to have the baby he desperately wants!"

Meredith was taken back by Addison's speech. The same went with the nurses who were listing as well but they wouldn't admit to it if anyone asked them.

Meredith could see Addison's point, she really could. But when she thought about telling Derek that she had had the baby without him and pictured the look on his face she couldn't do it.

"I'm sorry but I can't do it. Not without Derek" Meredith said with tears in her eyes.

Addison sighed in defeat and moved from the bed. She walked over to the door where she passed a message over to one of the nurses.

"Get me an OR in ten minutes if she still refuses to push. And why is she in here alone?" Addison asked.

"Her mother-in law was here a couple of minutes ago, but I don't know where she is now" the nurse explained.

"Carolyn is here? She wouldn't just leave Meredith here all alone when she was having one of her grandchildren! Something must be going on to make her leave"

"I heard from some of the other nurses that Dr. Shepherd is awake, but no one knows exactly what is going on, so that is why no one has told Meredith that he is awake" the nurse explained with wide eyes. It was known all over the hospital that the nurses at Seattle Grace loved a good round of gossip.

"Let's keep it that way before we know anything for sure" Addie nodded once and left the room.

I have to get Meredith to push, other wise that baby could die and then everyone will think I did it to get revenge. Addison thought as she made her way over to the nurses' station.

So did you guys think? I personally loved the moment between Meredith and Addie.

Okay so be the amazing people I know you are and review =)

XX

Catherine.