A/N The iPod challenge Hermione/ Draco :) these guys are my favourite :)

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He's as dumb as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right

Oh when I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

-Kelly Clarkson- beautiful disaster

He still walks the halls but he doesn't own them like he used to. I sit and watch from afar and see that he is struggling, always thinking, and always worried. I can see form a distance that he is not himself anymore and I find myself concerned. I know it's strange considering how I have been treated by him. but I miss him, they way he used to be, name calling and taunts as well.

I keep telling harry not to get obsessed with him but I think it's more for myself than it is for him. Harry can see the difference in him as well but I don't want him to be the one that finds out why, I want that to be me. I'm not really sure why, I just want to be the one that saves him from his troubles.

I would tell harry not to look at the map and follow Malfoys every move but the truth is that when he wasn't looking at the map, I was. I wanted to speak to him tell him that I could help him. he was a disaster inside and a beautiful one at that and I just wanted to help him through it.

During the days I would continue on with my studies but when the night came I was free to think about him. I couldn't get him off my mind. I think I was falling for him or that I fell along time ago and now that the he had changed I had noticed and I wanted the one I had fallen for back. At what cost though. My friends wouldn't understand if I said that I was in love with Draco Malfoy.

When Harry told us that he thought Draco was the one behind Ron being poisoned and Katie being cursed it was the last straw I knew I had to help him, no matter the cost, no matter if I lost my friends. So one night I waited until everyone was asleep and went to Harry's room and took the map from his trunk.

As I walked the halls looking for his name for some reason I knew he would be awake and out of bed. I was right I was his name on the map just outside the room of requirement.

When I reached the corridor he was about to go inside. I reached of his hand."Draco stop." I said softly. He turned to look at me his face expressionless "let me help you, please?"