Crush and Jasper

Anne sat in her library, writing and singing quietly.

"And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's meant to be broken, I just want you to know who I am."

"Morning, Anne! Where are you?" Bella called as she entered the tree house.

"I am in the library, Bella!" Anne called back, still humming under her breath.

"Were you singing just now?" Bella asked as she entered the library. Anne blushed and nodded. She continued to blush as she turned back to her writing. She felt herself being watched and turned back to Bella.

"I liked it. Esme told me to come and get you. The family is going hunting, but she made you food up at the house. She doesn't want you to starve. She knows you can cook, but she likes to do it. It makes her feel like a mom. She always wanted to have kids of her own. We are her substitute children. You should sing for the family some time. I think they would like it. And Edward would be happy to accompany you. Or even to write something for you. See you later. Have a good day." Bella hugged Anne carefully and left the house.

Anne smiled slightly. She closed her binder and stood up, stretching. She left the library and started down the ladder. Suddenly she lost her footing. She fell down the rest of the way to the ground and landed on something hard and cold. Anne heard a sharp intake of breath from beneath her.

Anne jumped up and looked down. Jasper was taking deep breathes with his eyes closed. Jasper held up a hand to Anne and she pulled him up. Jasper stared at Anne, his eyes black, instead of their usual gold. He was thirsty. Anne stared at Jasper, horrified.

"We have to stop meeting like this." Anne murmured. Jasper grunted his agreement.

"Esme was worried when you didn't come back with Bella. She told me to come and get you. I was trying to convince myself that I could control my thirst. Then you fell on me. Now I am not so sure. I am so thirsty and you are right here. Humans taste so much better than animals. Jasper hissed coming closer to Anne.

"I've told you, Jasper. I am not something to eat. I am not a meal. I adore your family. They are the first people, alive or immortal, who cared what I think and what I want with my life. I love your family. I feel like they are my family. But, I will not be a meal! I am not something to eat! So go hunt with your family. I am going to eat. Have a good trip!" Anne said pushing past Jasper and going into the Cullen house. She went into the kitchen to see three huge plates of food. Anne reached for the one with breakfast foods on it.

Anne sat at the island and started to eat. As she ate she muttered about Jasper.

"Bye, Anne! See you later!" Alice called as the family left. Anne continued to mutter and eat her food as she heard the door shut. Anne finished her breakfast, washed the plate, put it away and went back to her library.

Anne put her headphones on and started to write again as her music played. Anne didn't use her whole concentration when she wrote, so her mind wandered. It went where it always did these days, to Jacob. She had thought of little else for the last week.

Anne knew she liked Jacob. She had never liked anyone as much as she liked Jacob. She liked him more than she should after only one week. She had a crush on Jacob. But how deep was the crush? Over the last week she had had both fantasies and dreams of herself and Jacob. She dreamed of nothing but Jacob nowadays. She had dreams about the two of them that she would be embarrassed if she still cared what her parents thought. She was sure Edward knew what she dreamed about. She knew he could read minds. Therefore, he knew what she dreamed and thought about Jacob.

Anne was sure Jasper knew as well. He had explained his talent to her the second day she had been there. So that meant all the Cullens knew. Anne highly doubted that the family had secrets from each other. With Alice, Edward, and Jasper there was no point. The three of them would know if someone was keeping something from them and what it was.

Anne felt sick. She didn't know how Jacob was and if he was alright. He had made her promise that she would stay out of trouble. That she would stay safe. But he had not promised her the same thing. She was now worried that he was hurt. She was sure that his family would make sure that Jacob would stay in one piece. Anne just hopped they could keep their word.

Anne sighed and set her pen down. Her newest idea was to have her main character, Anna, fall in love with her best friend, Joseph. The irony was not lost on Anne. She closed her eyes and started to sing.

"Just so you know, this feelings taking control of me, and I can't help it. I won't sit around; I can't let him win now. Thought you should know, I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to. Just gotta say it all before I go. Just so you know."

Anne opened her eyes to see that it was seven in the evening and she was starving. Anne went back up to the main house. She grabbed what she wanted from the last two plates. She put the rest in a bag to go into the garbage bin. She washed the plates and put them away. She took her food up to her house. Anne continued to write as she ate her dinner. Anne put her writing in her desk with her MP3 player and pulled her favorite book, Pride and Prejudice, from its shelf and went into her bedroom.

Anne changed into a tank top and pajama pants, brushed her teeth and got into bed. Izzie curled onto one of her rocks to sleep. Anne turned on her bedside lamp and started to read. Anne was on chapter six when she fell asleep. Anne woke when she felt her bed descend as someone sat by her feet.

Anne opened her eyes sleepily to see Jasper sitting by her feet. Suddenly wide awake, Anne looked cautiously at Jasper. He smiled weakly at her. Anne smiled slowly back.

"I'm sorry." The two said at the same time. They looked at each other then laughed.

"What are you sorry for?" Jasper asked Anne.

"I am sorry for how I spoke to you this morning. I was taught better than that. I should not have spoken so sharply to you, Jasper, and I am sorry. What are you sorry about?" Anne asked sitting up.

"I am sorry I almost bit you, Anne. I just wasn't expecting you to fall on me when I was so thirsty. I will have to hunt more with you around. It's not that bad. Emmett always loves a good hunt. He'll go with me.

"I like having you around, Anne. But it is extremely dangerous for you. You and Bella are two of a kind. Neither one of you has any sense of what is or is not dangerous. I think it is funny, but stupid at the same time. I guess I will have to get used to having a human around again.

"It has been almost two years since Bella was human. I tend to stay away from humans. I am not good at self control. Yet another thing I have to work on. So, are we still friends?" Jasper asked looking floor.

"I really should watch where I am going, and what I am doing. It is not your fault that you were thirsty when I fell on you. I'm not that coordinated. I meant everything I said about your family this morning. They are the only people who care about me and how I want to run my life. I always felt left out of my biological family. My parents loved Jessie more and I was always rather jealous of Jessie.

"Then I came here. Renesmee and Esme liked me immediately, Alice and Bella soon after them. Rosalie hates me, but that is ok. Emmett thinks I am hilarious. However, I am not sure how you, Carlisle, and Edward feel. There are times when I think you like having me around.

"Then there are times I feel that you want me to leave. I don't belong in this family. I am not a vampire. I don't want to be a vampire. Therefore I will never fit in your family. Esme can believe what she wants, but I don't belong in this family. I don't belong in any family." Anne whispered as tears filled her eyes.

Jasper moved closer to Anne and put his arm carefully around her.

"Anne, you do belong in this family. Bella was human at first too. She still fit in here. So will you. It is hard for me because of my past. However, it is my problem. I will deal with it.

"I don't want you to leave, Anne. Rosalie will come around, she always does. Carlisle and Edward like you just fine. Even Cynthia and Sophi like you, and they met you yesterday! You are very lovable, Anne. Ask any of my family, besides Rose. Now, do you forgive me for my behavior this morning?" Jasper asked rubbing Anne's arm.

"Yes, Jasper, I forgive you. I couldn't not forgive you. You are the best friend a person could ask for. Even if you are always putting my life in danger. You are like a brother to me Jasper. You are like the big brother I never had. I am going back to sleep now. Because unlike the rest of the family, I do need to sleep. So, I will see you in the morning when I come for breakfast." Anne said kissing Jasper's cheek and laying back down.

Jasper smiled and kissed Anne's forehead before leaving the room. Anne smiled as she heard Jasper shut and lock the front door behind him. As Anne fell asleep she remembered one of the songs that had inspired her current plot for her story. She started to sing quietly.

"And hold on, before it's too late. We'll run till we leave this behind. Don't fall, just be who you are. It's all that we need in our life… A life you don't live is still lost. So stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real till it's gone. So live like you mean it and love till you feel it. It's all that we need in our lives." Anne fell asleep with a smile on her face. That song about summed up her life.

Songs from this chapter in order of appearance:

Iris:-The Goo Goo Dolls

Just So You Know:-Jesse McCartney

Before It's Too Late:-The Goo Goo Dolls