AN: I forgot to mention in the last chapter the powers. The first chapter has been re-written, so to understand this you'll need to go back and read that, sorry.
Bella: Shield (mental & physical)
Claudine: Changes into an animal, anything to do with animals
Uma: Set things on fire with her eyes when she wants to (or when angry)
Jez: The Elements
Look For Me
Chapter 2: I Am Who I Am
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, or any of the songs on this chapter.
When the World feels like it's falling
And the sun is overdue
Life seems so confusing
You don't know what to do
Put the World on your shoulders and its bound to pull you down
Like a flower growing, searching for the sun
You can live, your dreams have
Only just begun
Gonna be alright
Gonna be okay
When you're reaching for the light
You're sure to find the way
Gonna be alright
Gonna be okay
When you're reaching for the light
You're sure to find the way
-Okay
EPOV (Edward)
90 years. 90 years since that day. 90 years since the end of my world. 90 years ago I made the biggest mistake of my life - if you can call it a life - leaving my one true love, Bella Swan. Though I don't know if Swan's her last name anymore. I still regret it and nearly every second that I'm alone I think about what could have been. What would have happened if I had been selfish and changed her, as she had wished. As soon as I think those thoughts I find myself wishing for a way to go back, go back to when I was when, when I was with Bella. She'd be dead now, or 108 at least but that is unblikely and I shall never be happy again, never know what could have happened.
None of us will ever be the same, not even BB or Jamie [I'll describe them/tell life stories in a later chapter], and they didn't even know her. They'd joined us a few years back, bringing with them the occasional release of my sadness with a joke, but that's not often. After a while though Jamie began to become like Emmett is now, he won't tell many jokes and doesn't laugh as loudly as he used to. BB puts on a brave face and tries to cheer us up, sometimes it works but not for long.
As I mentioned before, Emmett isn't the same. He used to be carefree andjolly, that Emmett's gone now. In his place is an Emmett that doesn't bother to joke, an Emmett that is always (mostly) sad. He feels like he's a sister. Alice feels like she's lost a sister, best friend and a shopping buddy. She doesn't go shopping as often and just doesn't seem to have the same energy and perkiness she used to. Even Rosalie feels bad, feels like she lost a sister and regrets not getting to know Bella, or her a chance. Jasper thinks this is all his fault and I can see where he's coming from, but it isn't, it's mine. I was the one that left her, I was the one that lied to her, so it's my fault and mine alone. Esme feels like she lost a daughter, and it breaks my already dead heart knowing that I've caused this. The worst is Carlisle. He ,too, feels like he lost a dfaughter, and hates to see his family like this but at the same time he's understanding, telling me I did what I thought best. He alone makes me feel the most guilty. There is one thing, other then knowing that can't live without Bella, that we have learnt from this. Bella was the glue that held tis family together, without her we're falling apart.
"Are we there yet? And where is there?" Asked Emmett for the 5th time.
"No, Emmett. We're not there yet and 'there' is Hay-On-Wye," answered Carlisle from the drivers seat.
To the time I tuned into my family's thoughts, something I only do now when I'm extremely bored.
'I wonder what the new house'll look like,' - Esme.
'This is not good, Hay-On-Wye's known as the 'Town of Books'! I HATE BOOKS,' - Jamie.
'Die, Jedward, Die!' - Emmett. [If you're from the UK or watched X Factor, you know who I mean. They're like marmite, you love them or you hate them]
'Edward! I know you feel bad, and slightly emo-ish, but can you please tone down the 'I want to die' vibe, you're going to make me emo again!' - Jasper.
"Jasper, you've always been emo, you never stopped," I answered him aloud, causing everyone to atleast giggle/ chuckle except him.
'Real cool, Edward, thanks,' - Jasper, again
"Welcome, and I know," was my reply.
I carried on scanning through their thoughts until I was sucked into a vision with Alice (not literally).
------Vision-------
There were two female vampires sat at a table, with brown and blond hair. The brown haired one leaned over to the other putting a slice of pizza infront of her face.
"Get that out of my face," said the vampire with blond hair.
"It's not in your face, it's in my hand," replied the other with a smile.
"Get what's in your hand out of my face," the blond said. [From 'Sherlock Holmes' I don't take credit for it]
"What ya gonna do, Shizza? Call Wessy and tell him to shout at me?" Said the brown haired one, as she complied.
------End Vision-----
"Okay, that was weird," Alice said.
"What was it?" Asked a worried Esme.
"Let's put it this way, we're not the only vampires in town but we're probably the most sane," Alice finished as we pulled up to our new house.
It was like the one back in Forks but was smaller, so as not to draw attention to it.
"Do you think it'd be a good idea to hunt?" Asked Rosalie.
"Yes, come on," was all Carlisle said.
1 hour later - still hunting
An idea had pasted and we were still thirsty, which is rather weird since we'd only hunted a week ago. The animals out here tasted a lot different from the other places we'd lived in. They tasted more like sweets, I don't know why. I was brought out of my thoughts as I heard Emmett scream.
"It's a bunny! It's evil!" he screamed before running away.
"Aww, how cute," cooed Alice before she killed the bunny, well thats nice.
Not long after...the incident, I smelt, we all did, and heard the other vampires. From what I could tell there were 3, all male.
"I'm not gay guys!" Yelled one, 'First B, then the girls now them! I can't get a break!' were his thoughts.
"You sure? 'Cos I agree with Uma and B when they say you're gay cause you dress like it," replied another.
"Now, Wesley, you know better than to tease him. He's never going to come out the closet that way," said the third.
"I'm not gay!" Yelled the first one again, 'I'LL KILL THEM!!!' he was beyond mad.
This was getting nasty, so Carlisle told us to carry on hunting as far as possible away from them.
2 hours later - back at home
"Hey, Em, do you wanna watch Doctor Who?" Asked BB. The guy's obsessed with it, he knows it off by heart, if I didn't know better I would have thought he was in love with The Doctor.
"Which Doctor?" Replied Emmett
"The tenth," BB said.
"Sure!" The tenth Doctor was Emmett's favourite, don't know why.
Halfway through the episode, everyone was watching it mow, we heard a yell coming from about a mile down the road.
"WHY THE HELL DO I NEED A TAMPON?!"
We were stunned into silence. Of course Emmett being Emmett was the one to break it.
"Hey, wasn't that the guy who said he wasn't gay?"
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Theres parts of my past that I've left behind,
Seems as far as I run always somehow they find me,
Been shedding my skin but there's so many layers.
I am who i am and you know what i'm saying,
Nobody's safe it's a race that I've run,
The fight that I've fought and I thought I had won,
Now I'm standing here with a part of me there,
But I am who I am,
I am who I am.
(Be who you are,
Don't be ashamed,
See we're all different people,
With no one to blame,
Look out for your friends,
Those close to your heart,
Cause they will be there,
When it all falls apart,
You are who you are,
You are who you are.)
Leave me alone you don't understand,
On this side of the fence, there's no promised land
See that's where from, where I used to belong,
Though the road to get here has been painful and long
But I am who I am,
I am who I am
I am who I am
I am who I am
I am who I am,
Who ever I am.
-I Am Who I Am, Jez from Britannia High
AN: Thank you for reading and I hope you liked it. I've already finished the 3rd chapter so if I get 5+ reviews I'll post it immediately. Also my friend Chloe is new to fanfiction and will be able to post tomorrow so when she does can you support her? If you like my stories you'll like her's 'coz our minds work alike, her penname is gedling gal. thanks again and don't forget to review!
-RandomatGedz