6. Of Stone and Glass
A/N: I'm BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK! Dija miss me? Well of course you did! Anyways, enjoy the chapter! (oh and this note will be at the top of each of my updates today)
Disclaimer: You would think that if I owned the X Men this would've happened… please tell me you're not still reading this. No seriously, how come you aren't reading the story?! Why are you still reading this! Scroll down the damn page already! You're still reading this….
Summary (because otherwise you might not get the setting): Moments after Rogue pushes Mystique off the cliff, Kurt is found by a concerned Kitty…
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He hugged himself, but even through the tears and fog that clouded his vision, kept his eyes on the shattered remains of his mother.
If he had known, if he had thought for one second…having her as a statue was better than having her so obviously gone forever. At least when she was stone he had been able to carry some hope that he could bring her back, but not know.
And she'd been alive; he'd seen her cry, now she was gone from him forever.
His shoulder shook as growls accompanied his tears making it hard for him to breathe but he didn't care, "Verdammt Schurke!" (Damn it Rogue!) He shouted angrily at the sky.
He yelled and cursed in German, loudly, angrily and sometimes so overcome with sobs it was completely unintelligible.
He coughed as his chest began to burn from the jagged breathes he was getting in.
"Why?" he growled out, his eyes finding the piece of stone that pictured part of Mystique's face. He growled, fangs flashing even in the obscured moonlight.
"Kurt?" he looked up to see Kitty standing a few feet away, looking uncertain and a little scared.
He growled at her, "Leave me alone!" he looked away.
"What's wrong?" she stepped forward and he whipped around, snarling angrily.
"I said leave me alone!" she jumped and stepped back looking fearful.
He couldn't even find it in himself to be upset that he was scaring her. The heart break and betrayal he felt coursed through his body like a poison, making everything else seem hazy.
Kitty bit her lip and prepared to run from the distraught and livid form that was Nightcrawler, but it was then she noticed something in the sand at her feet. Crouching down, she lifted it up and squinted to see it better. She gasped and dropped the piece of stone when she realized that what she'd been holding had been a hand.
Looking around the shore, she saw other pieces scattered around and realized what they must have formerly created.
"Oh Kurt." Still scared, but having the concern she had for her friend override it, she crept closer to Kurt.
His sobs were still loud and still accompanied with furious growls but that didn't stop her from kneeling next to him, even as his tail thrashed around with enough force that she had to jump away from it in fear of being hurt somehow.
She placed a hand on his shoulder but he flinched and moved away. "Leave me." She shook her head even if she doubted he could see it as he was focused on the shattered remains of his mother.
"Please Kurt, let me help you." He shook his head, tucking his chin to his chest.
"Nightcrawler…" he shook his head again, more forcefully.
"She killed her." He whispered in a broken voice.
"What, who killed her Kurt?"
"Rogue." He spat out the name like poison making Kitty's jaw drop. The Kurt she knew didn't hold grudges easily, he'd even partially forgiven Toad after he stole his inducer; but the Kurt that was before her now, sounded just about ready to tear Rogue limb from limb.
"She vas selfish and killed her…doesn't she think I'm angry too?!" he made eye contact with her and she nearly drew away from the raw anger that flashed through his golden eyes. "Mystique abandoned me! She made an attempt to get to know Rogue, but not me! Doesn't she think that makes me angry?!"
Kitty felt her heart break, she knew Kurt was hurt by those actions, but she didn't think he'd kept it so hidden.
"Mystique even made an attempt to connect with Rogue after she vas found out! She made one attempt vith me! And I didn't even get a chance to really talk vith her because of ze Brotherhood!" Kitty couldn't hear anymore and wrapped her arms around him, pulling him to her in a tight hug.
He whimpered into her shoulder but hugged her back, sobbing into her shoulder.
"Shh, shh, it's alright, I'm here. It'll be okay…" she murmured as she stroked his indigo hair. He continued to shake in her arms but didn't release his grip around her. She placed her head on top of his, wanting to convey as much comfort as she could.
"I should have never trusted her." He said softly through his tears. Kitty couldn't think of anything to say to that and just hugged him tighter.
"I promise it'll be okay." It was a lie, but he needed to hear something that might've been of some comfort.
"Katzchen?"
"Yeah?"
He was quiet, "What am I supposed to do now?" she felt her brain fuzz out. He was so lost he was asking her what he should do, and she had no clue what to say. "I don't know vhat to do now." He whispered in a lost voice.
She sighed, "Kurt, I…you need to relax, okay?" he nodded and after a few seconds stopped shaking so hard. "Good, now, you're too heavy for me to lift so I need to you to stand, you can lean on me, but you need to stand." Another nod and soon they were standing.
"Alright, now, I'm going to get you up to the mansion and you're going to have a shower and go to bed, alright?" Kurt nodded sadly, his eyes strangely blank compared to the turmoil of emotions that had been burning in them earlier.
"Let's go."
Forty five minutes later, Kitty was back on the beach but without Kurt. Nightcrawler was actually back at the mansion following her instructions of having a shower before going to bed. Kitty doubted he'd go to sleep but she just needed time to collect herself…and Mystique.
Shadowcat searched the beach until she'd collected every last piece of the woman.
Kitty nearly cried when she got back to the mansion, carrying the last bag of Mystique's pieces, it'd taken her several trips to get everything up but it'd been worth it.
Stealing herself, she put all the pieces in a box and pushed it beneath her bed.
Just as she was about to leave to go check up on Kurt, Rogue entered the room, an emotionless mask on her face.
Kitty felt anger bubble up in her.
"You have some nerve." She said glaring at the Goth with her arms crossed.
"What?" Rogue seemed surprised to find someone else in the room.
"Next time you decide to go all high and mighty and push someone off a cliff, think about who you might be hurting." She said angrily before storming past the girl and out the door.
Rogue looked after her in shock before guilt started flowing through her.
~Oh God, Kurt…~
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Kitty rushed down the hall as fast as her feet could take her, finally reaching Kurt's door only slightly after breath.
She paused before entering; looking around her gaze was immediately drawn to the figure curled up on the bed. She walked over to find Kurt staring out the open balcony doors, that sad look that was becoming so familiar, present on his face.
She crawled onto the bed beside him, rubbing her hand up and down his back. The texture of his fur could be felt through the thin t-shirt he wore.
"Kurt?"
"Mm?" she took the noise he made to be one of attention.
"You okay?"
He sighed, "I don't know." She laid down behind him and placed her cheek against his. She could feel it when he grinned, "Vhat are you doing?"
"Comforting you." She replied plainly.
He chuckled and rolled over so they were face to face. "Thank you." He said emotion in both his voice and eyes.
She smiled a blush lighting up her cheeks at their close proximity, "No problem Fuzzy."
He sighed and stared off into some middle distance. "I just wish…" he sighed again, shaking his head.
"You can still say good bye." Kitty took a guess at what he was going to say.
He made eye contact with her, "I collected all the pieces, so if you want…"
He gave her a soft smile and hugged her gently, "You don't know vhat that means to me."
Kitty hugged him back. "I lost my Grandma when I was seven, it made me feel better to be able to say good bye." He smiled into her hair and pulled away slightly to kiss her cheek.
"Vielen Danke Katzchen."
She smiled, nuzzling her face in the crook of his neck, enjoying the feeling of fur on her skin, "You're welcome."
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The next day, Kitty helped Kurt bury Mystique in a small clearing he'd picked out on the forest. It was quiet, secluded and perfect as a small gravesite.
Afterwards the two sat in the kitchen nursing cans of Root Beer. Kitty had been a little worried about how the sugar would affect Kurt, but so far there was no hyperness. No jumping up and down repeatedly, no vibrating, no incoherent babbling, he was acting as normal as anyone could after having buried their mom.
"You okay?"
He gave her a smile from across the table, "Strangely enough…yeah, I am." She smiled and held her glass up in salute. He chuckled and followed her example.
"To strange family trees." She stated.
This earned a laugh from Nightcrawler, "To veird family trees." He repeated. They both finished their drinks as Logan entered the kitchen.
"I miss something?"
Kurt gave Wolverine a small grin, "Not really." Logan shrugged and opened one of the higher cupboards, revealing his secret stash of beer. It wasn't like he could really hide it, but more of the fact that everyone knew they'd die in their sleep if they even thought of touching it.
They exchanged grins as he left but they were wiped off their faces when Rogue entered.
Kitty nearly flinched as anger flashed over Kurt's expression. Rogue seemed to notice it to and had the decency to look away from her foster brother.
He stood and left the table. A thick, tense silence filled the kitchen to the point where it was almost claustrophobic.
Kurt went over to Rogue and made eye contact with her. Gold met green, Goth met demon, sister met brother.
Rogue took in a breath like she was going to say something but Kurt just shook his head, "Don't even try Rogue." The Goth snapped her mouth shut as Nightcrawler walked past her and out the door.
Kitty actually felt sorry for Rogue, but not enough to stay and chat, she followed her friend's example and left, but without saying anything.
Again, leaving Rogue by herself.
He'd called her Rogue, not Schwester, or sister, just Rogue.
She bit her lip, realizing just what she might have lost.
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Kitty found Kurt pacing back and forth in his room.
"Every damn time." He kept mumbling.
"She'll learn, in fact, I think she might have already figured out what she did."
He sighed, shoulders slumping. "I don't vant to be angry vith her, it's just," he groaned and ran a frustrated hand through his hair. "I get so angry vhen I see her, and I know she vas upset, I can understand zat, but I can't forgive her yet."
Kitty nodded, "And I'm not judging you for that, in fact, I'm surprised you've been so forgiving up until now. You're allowed to be angry for a while."
He shook his head, "It doesn't feel right." He sat down on the floor, crossing his legs.
"Well, I don't know what to say to that." Shadowcat sat across from him, "But I guess you should just give it time, you know? Let the wound heal."
He gave her a small smirk, "Vhen did you become so vise?"
She grinned back, "When I needed to temporarily fill your spot." He shook his head.
"I love you Katzchen." He said with a grin.
Kitty smiled, "Love you too Fuzzy." She reached over and messed with his hair. He in turn used his tail to playfully yank her ponytail.
She gave him a mock glare before smirking and tackling him. He laughed as he was pushed to his back before using their momentum to flip her onto her back.
He smiled down at her, "Never challenge the Fuzzy Dude." She giggled as his fur tickled her skin,
"Noted." He leant down and kissed her forehead.
"Feel like a movie?"
"Can we watch it in here?" she questioned.
He shrugged, "Sure."
"Then yes."
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