Chapter 13: Emotions Revival

Misaki just stood and stared at Goda for a good three minutes. He could believe his walk to school would bring Goda here…before him…feet from his brother's apartment. His heart raced, his pulse quickened, and he breathed heavily. He started to remember the emotions, the kisses and his red eyes…Goda's maroon eyes were always on Misaki's mind as they now stared in his. Misaki felt like he was either going to faint or rush in for a kiss. The emotions made his face flush, which this motion made him spun away.

Goda giggled and came out of the car. He said, "How are you?"

Misaki gulped and said, "Fine…going to college…but…"

Goda said, "Need a ride?"

Misaki spun back and said, "No! I…can…walk…classes…tests and…" He came closer to Goda and planted a kiss on Goda's lips. He reddened at his own reaction and spun away again. He mumbled, "Sorry…I…am…Goda…"

Goda wrapped his arms around Misaki and said, "Don't be…I am sorry…"

"For what?" Misaki asked as he leaned back to see Goda's face. Goda looked at Misaki as they just blushed at each other. They parted and turned away from each other.

Goda said, "The game…you and Akihiko…broke up, right?"

Misaki sighed as he tried to keep calm. His heart was racing…he was happier than he had been in days. Goda was back…he said, "things happen that you cannot stop…it is not your fault."

Goda sighed and said, "I did not mean to hurt you…or anyone…I am such an idiot! I should have never come…Misaki. I am sorry."

Misaki turned and said, "I am glad you came! You made two weeks interesting."

Goda giggled and turned back to Misaki. He said, "Well, it was somewhat fun. But Misaki, I would understand if you hate me. I have not been fair to anyone…please do not pity me. I do not deserve it."

Misaki came closer and said, "never mind the past…please tell me you are here for a little longer than ten days. I have missed you so much…Goda." He gently grabbed Goda's face and kissed his mouth fully.

Goda stalled but their tongues started to rub…they drove into the same madness that happened nearly two months ago. They wrapped their arms around each other as they allowed their eyes to close. Misaki enveloped Goda into a deep embrace as Goda rubbed Misaki's shoulders to goad him on. They slowly sucked and rubbed into each other. Their slow motion made each man's body beg for more and continue on. They moaned into each touch as a man said, "Well, a morning walk can be so fruitful."

Both Misaki and Goda stopped as they turned to the speaker. Akihiko stood before them as he looked on with some interest; he said, "Are you finished or need more time? I can wait." Goda and Misaki looked at each other as they parted. Misaki said, "don't tell me…you told Akihiko that you were coming back into town, did you?"

Goda fixed his hair and said, "of course, I had to return Mio to Japan." He turned to Akihiko and said, "He should be in school…by now."

"He isn't." Akihiko snarled as he came closer to Goda and said, "He came to the apartment looking extremely harassed. Do you mind explaining why?"

Goda sighed and said, "Mio got in the path of one of my associates…she does not like new guys well."

Akihiko sighed and said, "No classes today, Misaki?"

Misaki just stared at the pair of them in wonder. Who did he love more? Goda…had his red eyes, fantastic kiss, and the overall feeling Goda gave Misaki. The feelings of warmth, love and respect. Usagi gave Misaki…forced love, but protection. Also those darn books and his unnecessary touching…but also Misaki sometimes allowed the touching to happen. Goda was his size more…Usagi was a few feet taller…Goda was dressed as nice as Usagi, but which one? He moaned as both men said, "Misaki?"

Misaki stood straighter and said, "yes?"

Goda giggled as Usagi smirked. Usagi said, "Common, I have a taxi waiting. Let's go to my apartment and talk about this."

Misaki turned to the limo and said, "what about your—" The limo moved away as Goda said, "do not worry, I do not mind taxis. Are you going to class or coming with us?"

Usagi said, "Common, one day of hooky will not kill you. Let's go." He took both men's hands and dragged them after him. He took them around the corner in front of Takahiro's apartment, and the taxi sat there waiting for the passengers. Usagi opened the door as Goda entered.

Misaki waited and looked at Usagi. He opened and closed his mouth. The words would not come as Usagi said, "Get in…we all need to talk about this."

Usagi smiled and said, "I did miss you…Misaki."

Misaki slightly smiled too and said, "Yes…it has been a long few weeks, hasn't it?"

Usagi shook his head and said, "Get in, college brat."

Misaki snorted, "I am not a college brat!" He entered the taxi as Usagi entered and closed the door. Usagi told the driver directions as the car moved ahead.

No one spoke as the taxi brought them to Akihiko's apartment. Goda quickly paid the driver and got out. Usagi got out the other door and argued about the bill. Goda snickered and refuted that he needed to pay the bill. Misaki came out as the taxi left.

"You are such a pain…get inside." Goda crossed his arms and glared at Akihiko.

Usagi blinked and said, "what is up with you…you seem…different."

Goda's brows rose as he said, "do I? Maybe because it has been forty-something days since we seen each other. I have not changed that much. Misaki, coming?" He smirked at Misaki with a brighter smile than before…

Misaki smiled back and followed both men into Akihiko's door. Usagi typed the password as they went into a sweet smelling apartment. Mio hooted at Goda and Misaki as he said, "hungry, I made some treats!"

Goda giggled and said, "Starved."

Misaki smirked and said, "yeah, me too."

Usagi said, "Hopefully some editable food than just sweets, right?"

Mio slapped a hand to his heart and moaned, "Akihiko, I have fed you for days and you dare to insult my cooking!" He lowered to the floor dramatically and said, "All that toil…and you ask is it editable? I will never feel the urge to cook again unless you eat my treats with a smile…go on…I need to hear compliments to save my soul…"

Usagi snarled, "You are lucky you live here! I do not need this…what is this?" He came to the cooling food as he picked up a small dessert that looked like a white cupcake without the frosting.

Mio moaned, "Cheese cake…homemade…" He moaned and watched Akihiko through his hands.

Misaki snickered since he knew Akihiko hated sweets…of course, he ate Misaki's food without complaint, but Mio was not going to—Akihiko ate it…as he smiled and said, "It's good." He took another one and sat down on the couch to eat it.

Mio sat up and said, "See! I am a cooking genius! I am going to be the best some day, but you always knock down sweets. Why?"

Akihiko stiffened and said, "I just do not like sweets, but this is good…" He finished his cheese cake and took out a cigarette to smoke silently.

Mio snarled and took one. He sat on the second couch as he ate his treat.

Goda and Misaki took one as they sat separately. Goda sat beside Mio, and Misaki gave some distance between Akihiko and him. Akihiko snickered and turned to Misaki; he said," You did miss me…ah, Misaki."

Misaki snarled at Usagi as he ate his cupcake and gulped with a smirk. It was good…creamy and filling entered his mouth. The thick, milky top with a chewy cookie on the bottom…each bite was so good that Misaki took small bites to enjoy the dessert. He finished and said, "Wow…that was good. Mio, we might have to have a dessert competition some time."

Mio giggled and said, "I hope so! Akihiko has nonstop told me about your cooking sometimes. I was wondering if your cooking was better than mine."

Misaki smirked and slightly blushed. He said, "I am not that good…" He could not look at Usagi since he seen in the corner of his eyes Usagi staring at him. Misaki still felt the same uneasy but soothing feeling around Usagi. Even for the time apart, Misaki missed this feeling…even though he still was confused about his feelings towards Goda.

Goda finished and said, "Yummy! I forgot what cheese cake tasted like…it has been a long time since I had a piece."

Mio said, "You lived at America?"

"Yes, a few years. My family...well, too long of a story to explain. So, Akihiko…what are we going to discuss? We did discuss plenty on the phone." Goda said while he got more comfortable on the couch.

Akihiko crossed his limbs and said, "We discussed nothing. So, what are your plans now with us? You must have a plan of some sort, don't you?"

Goda blinked and said, "Not really. I only planned the two weeks and the ending. I did not expect either of you to ever want to see me again."

Misaki said, "didn't you miss us—er—me?" He blushed as he kept his eyes on the floor away from Usagi.

Goda snickered and said, "Yes, I missed you all. But, I will move on. Everyone on this earth meets and leaves for a time. I just need to know if there is anything else you need from me before I leave for good."

"Where will you go?" Akihiko, Misaki and Mio said at once.

Goda's eyes enlarged at their expressions and their stares at him. He slowly said, "Away…I need to go…away from it all. Besides, I—"

"Afraid to stay?" Akihiko exhaled his little drug.

"Why Goda? Why can't you stay? I would miss you…" Mio said.

"Explain to us why you cannot stay." Misaki asked as he stared with concern to Goda. Goda's expression was not depression but some fear was there…but why? He had the urge to protect Goda from anything that would hurt…he looked down. What was Goda to him? They only kissed a half dozen times, no sex, and a few deep conversations…they could be considered friends than anything else. But Misaki felt more emotional attachment to Goda than friendship…the torture of not seeing him then a kiss and disappear again…it would rip Misaki apart. No, he had to say…which he did, "Goda, I missed you a lot when you left."

Everyone turned to Misaki as the room silenced. Misaki gulped and looked down as he blushed. Akihiko smoked and turned to his ex lover. Mio breathed in and out as Goda finally said, "I understand Misaki…I really do."

Misaki looked up and said, "What are your feelings towards me?"

Goda said honestly, "confusion, attraction, slight sexual arousal, and possible friendship. But other than that…I do not know you."

Misaki smiled and said, "I want to know you too."

Goda sighed and said, "I am a mess, literary and figuratively. Do you really want to understand me?"

Misaki and Mio said as one, "more than anything."

Goda turned to both men, but he stared at Akihiko. He said, "Well…what about you?"

"I…missed you too." Akihiko admitted through the smoke.

Goda stood and moaned. He said, "Look Usamis and Misaki, please understand this. I did not play this game for making friends or to make people fall in love with me. I played to destroy Akihiko and for my godson's wishes, that is all. I do not need or deserve your pity. Please…flame, destroy, and yell at me. I deserve it…" He turned and moaned deeply again.

Misaki said, "I would never hate you."

"Please, the dagger thing. You cannot forget that Misaki." Goda said without turning.

Misaki stiffened and said, "you were upset…Miyagi provoked you so you reacted…badly, but that is not you. You are so much—"

"MISAKI! You make me sound like…a fallen angel…god, just stop it." Goda spun and interrupted Misaki. He looked defeated and upset…he continued, "I…am not who you think I am."

"Who are you, explain it to me. I will always listen." Misaki said gently.

Goda stared at Misaki with new eyes…confusion and anger was mixed into his red eyes. He said, "Are you even listening to me? Just insult me and I will go."

"Go where?" Akihiko asked.

"Anywhere but here." Goda said in defeat and threw his hands in the air. He walked to the door and held the handle. He just stood there…as he waited. He said, "Well, anything else?"

"I want you to stay." Akihiko said as he stood to receive a blushing Goda. He took Goda to sit in between Misaki and him.

"You cannot be serious…Akihiko, I kissed Misaki…I almost tempted him into sex…you trust me here…" Goda said utterly flabbergasted and turned red.

Akihiko crushed his cigarette and said, "Remember I said I would spend my money on sex toys? Well, Misaki would not play with me, so…Goda, do you want to try them?"

Goda snorted and laughed. He laughed with his whole heart as Misaki reddened. Misaki snarled, "of course I would not—Mio! We have a teenager in the house! How could you say that in front of Mio?"

Akihiko and Goda laughed harder as Mio snickered, "I know what sex toys are…my late boyfriend had one…a dildo."

Akihiko fell back on the couch and laughed harder. Goda's mouth dropped and said, "Adam did not! How…oh my…" Goda laughed just as hard with Akihiko. Misaki's mouth dropped as he slowly said, "What is a dildo?"

Goda and Akihiko howled with laugher. They both crashed to the floor as they kicked their legs into the air. Mio even joined them and laughed. Misaki blushed and whispered, "It's a good question! I never used sex toys so…"

Goda snorted and giggled, "you…never used…sex toys on Misaki? Man, Akihiko…you are slow! You have to educate this little boy into a man! So, what sex palace did you get the sex toys from?"

Akihiko snorted, "Mendacium."

Goda stopped laughing instantly and said, "When did you ask for the shipment? How much did you spent? Akihiko, did you ask for…the express delivery?"

Akihiko and Mio sat up. They stared at Goda as Akihiko said, "why? I asked the shipment to come the usual postage, but it should be here today…why are acting weird about a silly sex toy company?"

Goda stood and said, "I need to see you computer—"

Knock, knock, knock, knock came from the door as all four men turned to the door. Goda sank to the floor and covered his body over Akihiko's; he said "do not open that door."

Akihiko stared at Goda and said, "feeling horny or something? Can it wait? It might be Takahiro or something—"

The knocking occurred again as Goda repeated, "do not open the door!"

Misaki stood and went to the door. He was still very red, but he cleared his voice as his face cooled down a little. He opened the door when Gods tried to warn him not to, but Misaki stalled at the sight he saw after opening the door.

Three teenage boys stood before him: a boy with strawberry pink hair, one with dark brown hair, and the last with long silvery blue hair. Their faces were covered with the baseball caps' shadows, and their little bodies were contained in the company's logo of a plastic dick. The teens chanted, "We are from Mendacium, and we have your order."

Misaki moved as the teens brought in three large boxes baring the symbol of the plastic dick. The silver blue haired blue haired boy stared at Goda for a moment and turned to Misaki. He said, "Will you sign here, please." The boy gave him a pen as Misaki took it—

WHAM! Goda's knife just missed Misaki's hand as Misaki flinched and screamed when he fell to the floor. The pen fell to the floor. The teen boys all turned to Goda as they stared at him. The silver haired one said, "Is there a problem, sir?"

Goda stood and said, "No…let me sign." He went over as he snarled at Misaki. Misaki looked at Goda and almost retorted, but Goda's glare…Misaki felt this was not a good business to be messing with. But why? The teens looked innocent enough…even though their faces were hard to be seen.

Goda signed the mail order as the boys bowed and walked out. He said, "Misaki…next time, listen to me. These sex toy companies can be…lethal when they want to be."

Misaki snarled, "Well next time WARN ME before you cut my hand off!"

Goda smirked and said, "I was an expert dart thrower as a teen. Trust me, if I wanted to cut your hand, I would use my sharper daggers. Those little darts would only cut the top layer of your skin…sorry." He looked at the boxes and reddened at the labels. He stopped at the second box and glared at Akihiko. He said, "are you serious? Do you have any idea what this…plant does?"

Akihiko smiled darkly and said, "That was worth the wait…it should be insightful to watch it being…watered."

Goda moaned deeply as he said, "you are one sick bastard…also those rings! Akihiko, are you trying to kill…wait. Are you and Misaki dating again?"

Akihiko turned to Misaki and said, "Will you have me again? I am sorry that I broke up with you, but I believe we needed the time apart. Please Misaki…I love you more than anything…"

Misaki blushed and he said while standing, "One…condition…"

Akihiko stood and said, "I will slow down the Junai Romantica series."

Misaki said, "Not that."

Akihiko said, "The sex will have to slow down a little…" He turned to Mio as Mio rolled his eyes.

Mio snarled, "oh my god, does my presence really bother you that much? I could move with Hiroki if you two need to fuck."

Misaki shrieked, "not that either!"

Akihiko, Mio and Goda looked at the beet red Misaki. Misaki kicked the ground as he said, "I…want Goda to live with us…"

Akihiko smirked and said, "If Goda wants to stay…"

Goda gasped and said, "Whoa boys, hold the sexual tension! I am a burden, an issue, and so much more! Can you really see us in the same house? Think of Mio here…"

"I would be happy to have you here with us!" Mio said delightedly.

Goda gaped and tried to make an argument. He turned to Misaki as Misaki smiled at Goda with a calmer color. Misaki said, "I want to know you…take care of you…and protect you from the reason you look so scared. Goda, I really care about you. Please stay…I want you to."

Mio said, "Common! It would be fun!"

Akihiko said, "Remember this though…you both owe me a day with the toys if Goda stays." He winked as both Misaki and Goda blushed. They turned back to each other as Misaki took Goda's hands.

Misaki gently kissed Goda's hand and said, "Will you stay with me? We can become closer…either lovers or friends…either way, I want you to stay with me."

Goda just stared at Misaki as Misaki smiled. They slowly hugged each other, and Goda said, "Misaki…I do not want you to hate me…please…let me leave…"

"I will run after you this time." Misaki said as he released Goda. He walked towards Akihiko, but his hand was captured by Goda's hand.

Misaki sighed and said, "Why…why are you stopping me? Don't you want to leave? I will give you a few days' head start and…Goda." He turned to Goda.

Goda's eyes leaked fresh tears as he sobbed, "god dammit, why? Why you? This is not fair! My heart has been broken so many times…Misaki…just let me go…just send me away…please, please, my heart is…Misaki."

Misaki embraced Goda close and rubbed Goda's back. The more they touched…Misaki knew this relationship was going to be deep. Maybe it could blend with Akihiko's…but he just knew if Goda left again. Misaki would run after him than face all those lonely nights again. He was confused about this feeling, but he just knew Goda had to stay. Misaki needed, wanted, and desired Goda in so many ways he could never fully describe.

They kissed each other as Misaki gently rubbed Goda closer to him. Goda wrapped his arms fully around Misaki as they shared another slow kiss. They sucked and rubbed into each other's mouths as they slowly parted. Misaki kissed Goda's tears away and rubbed his face. Goda looked into Misaki's eyes and said, "Misaki…I will stay in one condition…"

Misaki said, "Name it…"

"I want to have sex with Akihiko first." Goda said.