Today had been a nice and easy day for me and I was grateful for it. I mean after the weekend we'd had I needed a nice easy day. With the whole Tanya thing we'd all seemed to be on edge about her. She seemed to dislike us for some reason. It might have been the fact I called her a bitch or it might have been the fact that Alice called her a gold digger but she was out for blood that I was sure of. She'd been texting Edward constantly and he was seriously thinking about changing his number to get rid of her. Carlisle was having the worst of it at the hospital with her father. I mean Carlisle hadn't actually done anything and didn't even know what was going on till we had told him. He seemed to think that we were right to do what we did. I mean he was Alice's father and if anyone was going to upset his 'little girl' he wasn't going to defend them. The fact that every time I talked to him about it he seemed more than happy to defend our actions at the party was something that showed me that he cared about his family a lot. Although part of me was starting to think I'd gone over the top with it. I hated that we'd caused trouble for Carlisle. Alice insisted that it wasn't any ones fault that this happened. I mean it was bound to. Edward wasn't going to stay single for the rest of his life.
Edward, I couldn't help but be happy about him. We were in love after all. I mean since he'd told me I couldn't seem to keep the smile off my face. The fight we'd had seemed to have completely been forgotten. I knew Edward still wanted the story behind it but we'd both been extremely busy. I mean he'd just got a big case and was working hard with the people to get them through it. So we'd barely seen each other. I wasn't mad at him for it I mean yeah I missed him but he was doing his job and I was proud that he wanted to help them. It was one of the reasons I loved him.
I spent most of my lunches this week with Angela and Jessica just having a laugh. I'd met Alice for lunch in the week as well. She seemed off about something though. I'd asked about it and I knew it had to be something big to stop Alice from bouncing around. It turned out that she hadn't seen Jasper since the night of the ball and she was worried that she'd done something wrong. So this is where I was going now to talk to him. Not as the protective best friend of Alice Cullen but as Bella Swan the concerned friend of Jasper Whitlock. I mean we did have a lot in common. We both grow up in America and we both cared for Alice a lot. I got to his offices. He was someone who refurbished old houses and made them look amazing again. I walked up to the reception desk and told her my name and who I was here to see. Apparently I'd needed an appointment. I told her I was a friend of his and it was really important. When she said she'd ask him I told her to tell him it was about Alice. Not thirty seconds later she came back out and told me I could go in.
"Bella, Is Alice okay? Did something happen? Why are you here and not her? Is she hurt?" Jasper asked me looking absolutely petrified
"Jasper calm down. Alice is fine. Well sort of. That's what I'm here to talk to you about" I told him. He seemed to calm down then. "Now how long do I have? Can I give you a long talk or am I going to just tell you that you need to call Alice and talk to her?"
"We've got plenty of time Bella" Jasper sighed
"Good. Now do you mind telling me why my best friend is not bouncing off the walls with energy like she always is?" I stated "Cause I believe it might have something to do with the fact that her boyfriend hasn't spoken to her in almost a week. Now I'd just like to know why?"
"She's really upset?" Jasper asked. I just nodded. "Oh God the last thing I want to do is hurt her. I mean Bella Alice is the most amazing person I've ever me. She just so full of energy and I love it. I love the fact that she's always smiling and to know I'm part of the reason behind it is amazing. So I don't want to hurt her ever but there's so much about my past she doesn't know. If she ever found out some stuff I did when I was younger she'd hate me and want nothing to do with me. I don't think I could stand that Bella. I Love her too much"
"Jasper what ever you did in your past is in the past. Alice couldn't careless about what happened in the past. Believe me I know what its like to tell someone you love about your past. It scares the hell out of me to think to tell Edward about something from my past. I'm terrified he's going to go running for the hills but if I don't I know for sure that we can never be really together." I explained
"But what if she doesn't want to be with me anymore?" Jasper questioned
"So you'd really stay in a relationship where she's doesn't really know you?" I challenged
"No of course not. What if she tells Edward and he don't want me near her. You know how close they are" Jasper really was upset about this
"If you make Alice happy, Which you do, then Edward won't stop you. Especially if it's what she still wants. He'd never tell Alice what to do and if he even tries both me and Alice would have something to tell him" I smiled at him "Alice isn't as fragile as she seems believe me I've been there with her. She helped me through one of the toughest parts of my life."
"Thank you Bella. It must be a Cullen thing right? Them being so good at understanding" Jasper smirked at me
"Yeah I think it is" I grinned back "The flats yours and Alice's tonight"
"You don't have to do that" Jasper stated
"No its alright I need to talk to Edward anyway. Explain some things about my past" I sighed
"Good luck" He smiled at me and hugged me
"You too Jazz" I told him
"Hey Bella?" I turned back to look at him "Thank you for this"
"Its no problem" I smiled at him
Once I was out of his office I sighed. I took out my phone and texted Edward asking if it was alright if I stayed over tonight because Jasper and Alice needed to talk. It wasn't even 2 minutes later that his reply came through:
Of course its okay love x Is everything alright with them?
E x
Yeah it will be x they just need to talk some stuff through x I'll see you later x love you x B
Okay x I love you too x see you tonight x E
I walked into my flat 20 minute's later and found Alice pacing in the kitchen but a smile on her face. I guessed that Jasper had called her and that he'd told her about his need to talk. I reassured her that it would all be fine and headed into my bedroom to pack an over night bag. Alice followed ranting about things. I'd never seen her this worried about anything. It was nice to see she was actually human. I told her that it really would be fine.
"Where are you going tonight?" Alice suddenly asked when she saw me packing a bag
"Edward's we need to talk about some things" I stated
"You mean your going to tell him about you know who?" Alice questioned
"Yeah. Well I hope I can. I don't even know if I can Alice" I sighed
"You can do this Bella. I know it will hurt but you have to tell him at some point and I think he'll understand you better if you tell him" Alice smiled at me
"I know. Its just I don't want to remember it let alone say it out loud" I explained
"I think you can. No scrape that I know you can! Cause you are a strong independent women! Who has been though a horrible thing and has come out the other side stronger than ever!" Alice spoke as if she was giving a prep talk.
"Thanks Alice" I smiled at her "I wish I had as much confidence in me as you do"
"You do it just doesn't come out till you put some alcohol in you" Alice laughed
"Maybe I should drink all the time then" I suggested laughing with her
"Oh God I am not sending you home an alcoholic Charlie would kill me!" Alice stated
"Yeah I can just imagine it 'You are never going back there again, now sober up girl!'" I mocked Charlie's voice laughing
"Have you thought about what you're going to do when you have to go back to America?" Alice asked suddenly serious
"Yeah I've been thinking about it a lot really but what can I do Alice? I mean I love America. It's been my home since I was a kid. My mum and Dad are both there. Even my job is normally there. Yet here I've got you and Rose and everyone. Then there's Edward and I know its going to kill me to leave him but I'm not going to ask him to give up everything he has here for me. He's ten times closer to his family than I am with Renee and Charlie. I feel like I have a family here Alice and I don't know what I'm going to do when I have to leave" I explained to her
"Bella, if you start looking around now to stay in England it will be easy. I mean start looking for a job you can start when your exchange thing ends and then if you apply for a full visa now it should come round in time for you to only be gone a couple of weeks before you come back. As for Renee and Charlie they'd want you to be happy and its clear to see your happier here. Plus you have all of us here. Were family now. Not five days ago Esme was telling me how nice it was to have an even amount of daughters to sons in the house" Alice countered
"Alice, really? You really want me to stay?" I was stuck
"Of course I do! I mean have you seen my family since you got here! Everyone is actually smiling and not just smiling to make it seem like there happy. There beaming. Edward is actually having a life instead of working!" Alice exclaimed
"You really think we can do this? What about if I can't get a visa! Or can't find a new job or something? Alice I can't rely on you and your family to keep me it's not fair" I ranted at her
"I am only hearing reasons why you can't? Think of the reasons you can" Alice stated
"We need to research this Alice before I even decide what to do" I told her
"Well then I guess that what will be doing this afternoon" Alice grinned pulling me into her room where her laptop was.
So that's what we did. We sat on her bed and researched everything I'd need to stay in England. From Visa's to jobs that I could we looked at everything. Alice once said that I could just marry Edward to stay in the country. I just hit her with a pillow and she laughed at me. We'd been researching for over 3 hours when I heard my phone going off in the living room. It was Edward saying he'd pick me up in about 30 minutes. We put away the laptop and headed into the kitchen and sat talking about random things. Alice promised not mention anything to Edward because I wasn't sure it would even work out. I still had to talk to my mum and dad. Not to mention think about the fact I'd have to leave my job that I loved so much. However no matter what came up in my mind I couldn't find anything that would cause me more pain than to leave this family I seemed to have gained being here. Edward arrived and I hugged Alice goodbye and told her everything with Jasper would really be fine and headed out to meet Edward.
"Good evening love" He smiled at me giving me a quick kiss.
"Hey" I grinned at him "Come on lets go"
"Somebody in a hurry?" he laughed while I pulled him along
"I just want to be gone by the time Jasper gets here that's all" I told him
"He's not going to hurt her is he Bella?" Edward suddenly asked
"No he's not. Will you not worry about him? He's a really great guy. He just needs to tell Alice some stuff about him that he's scared might scare her away." I explained
"Are we just talking about Jasper?" he seemed to of caught onto the fact that I wasn't just referring to Jasper.
"We all have things were scared might cause someone we care about to leave us because of things that have happened in the past. I mean people say that the past doesn't affect your future but that's not true cause the past made you who you are in the present" I ranted
"Calm down Bella" Edward put his hands up in defense "I get the point. Now are you going to tell me why you're suddenly being so defensive of Jasper?"
"I just know what he's going through." I mumbled and got into his car.
"Bella you know you can tell me anything right?" Edward asked after we'd been driving for a bit
"I know. Its just some things I'd rather I never had to tell anyone about" I sighed
"That bad?" he asked
"Yeah but I promised you I'd tell you and I will you'll just have to be patient with me tonight?" I told him
"I'll wait for the whole year if I have to. You take your time" Edward smiled at me taking my hand in his and squeezing it.
How was it I got this lucky to have Edward in my life? Looking at him I still couldn't quite believe that this amazing man was mine. That he loved me. It just seemed like sometimes he was too good for me. I wasn't going to argue though. I'd keep this man for the rest of my life if I could. We pulled into his building and walked up to his flat together. Once we were inside I walked over to his kitchen and started to look through his food so I could decide what to make for dinner. I always cooked when I was nervous about things or wanted to just prolong what I knew was going to be a painful conversation for me. I finally decided that I wasn't actually hungry and went and sat on the sofa next to Edward. He put his arms around me pulling me to him and hugging me. I sighed. Maybe it wouldn't be as bad as I thought. Nope it was going to be just as painful as I knew it would be. Well I guess I might as well get it over with.
"Well I guess I should start from the beginning. As you know I moved to Forks when I was younger and I was fine with it. I mean I got to hang out with all my old friends. There was Jacob, Paul, Seth, Sam, Quil and lots more. The only problem was they all lived and went to school on the reservation. This meant I was on my own when I went to Forks high school. But it wasn't for long. This girl Lauren was a really good friend of mine I wouldn't say she was my best friend ever but she was nice to me. I was introduced to some friends of hers and we got on really well. Then Lauren started going out with this guy called Eric and Lauren wasn't allowed to go out with a boy on her own cause of her dad so she begged me to come along. So I did and Eric brought his mate Tyler along. Before I knew it me and Tyler got on really well and were going out. So I was happy and so was Lauren. It wasn't bad at all I was happy. I had friends and a boyfriend. It wasn't till senior year that things started going down hill. I was still with Tyler but Lauren had broken up with Eric. So she started to get annoyed at me because I was still with Tyler. Then Jacob started to have a go at me because I didn't hang out down the reservation a lot any more. I told him Tyler didn't like me going down there. I mean I understood I was hanging out with a load of guys. But to please Jacob I agreed to go to a bonfire they always had. I'd been to them before and knew they were always a good laugh. Jacob had a girlfriend Leah and she was there. We'd always been good friends so I thought Tyler wouldn't mind cause Leah was there. The bonfire was fun like always but when I got home Tyler was there and asked where I'd been. I told him and he got angry and said that he told me he didn't like me going down there. I got angry back and told him that I was allowed to see my friends when ever I wanted. That was the first time he hit me." I felt Edward tense behind me "He hit me straight across the face. I was shocked at first too. I don't think he meant to do it. I told him that it was over and went in side. I didn't tell anyone about what had happened and the next day at school I avoided him like hell. I didn't want to see him. Jacob didn't even know. It was three days later that he came up to me and begged me to just listen to him. I decided it couldn't hurt to talk to him. He promised he'd never do it again and that he'd just been under a lot of stress. So I forgave him and looking back on it now I was stupid too but I was young and I truly believed I loved him." I had tears rolling down my face by this point "Still once that was over I tried my hardest to please him. I tried to stay away from anything that I knew would upset him. But soon I did something he didn't like and he hit me again. Every time he'd apologies and I'd believe him. This continued for so long because for me Tyler was everything I had! I mean Lauren had ditched me because she thought I'd chosen Tyler over her. So that's were Alice came in. Tyler and me went to the same college and by this point I was a shell of the girl that moved to Fork's from Phoenix." I couldn't help at remember Alice when I'd met her "Then there she was this hyped up girl who looked just so happy about everything. I introduced Alice to Tyler so happy that I actually had a friend. Tyler straight away said that he liked her but then something happened. Alice noticed the bruises I had. I told her I was just clumsy and it was true I really was clumsy. It wasn't till Alice saw him hit me that I couldn't deny to her what he'd been doing. Straight away she walked over to him and told him to get his sorry ass of a human being out of her sight and out of our lives. She damned that he never speak to her or me again. Then I told her everything when we got back to our room and Alice was in tears with me because she wanted to help me but I didn't know how to function without Tyler. So Alice literally became my life line. Tyler tried and failed many times to talk to me. I believe Alice actually broke his nose at some point." Edward smirked at that and I laughed at the memory of little Alice punching Tyler who was at least twice her size "Then I was walking back from the library on my own and well Tyler found me. He attacked me and if it wasn't for the fact that Sam found me I hate to think what Tyler would have done to me. Tyler got arrested after that and kicked out of college. I don't know what happened to him after that. Then I carried on with college became more of a person, more independent. It took me forever to trust someone. Let alone trust a guy again but I did. Alice became the most amazing best friend and made me happy. I hate him for what he did to me and the fact that he made me lose who I was. So that's why I sometimes get a bit weird with you and the reason I kind of went off with the whole Mike thing." Once I'd finished the story I actually felt relieved that he knew. It probably explains why I did some of the thing I do.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I'm sorry that you had to go through that! If I was there I would have protected you from him! He's an asshole! You know I'd never ever do something like that to you? Never" He made me look at him.
"Of course I know that! I just don't like it when people get extremely mad or really jealous! I overrated on the Mike thing! I think I was just having a bad day" I smiled at him
"You can shout at me any time! Thinking back on it you're quite sexy when you're mad" Edward grinned at me
I laughed at him "Oh really! Well sorry to disappoint you but there's no anger in me what's so ever! I am totally and utterly loved up and happy"
"Well that's good too!" Edward smiled at me "Have I told you that I love you lately"
"Not in the past hour" I told him
"Well then I love you Isabella" He stated
"I Love you too Edward" I grinned at him and kissed him
With that we settled into the couch and watched TV, my head on his lap and him playing with my hair. This was the life I dreamed of having; coming home from work to him and eating dinner then sitting down for the evening and just relaxing with each other. I knew now that he knew about Tyler that we could really be together. Everyday I seemed to fall in love with this country even more. As Alice look for the reasons I can stay. Being here with Edward I knew that I had to find a way of staying in England with him. Me and Alice would work on that together and when I felt it was right I'd tell him. I still had to talk to Charlie and Renee about it but I knew they'd just want me to be happy. Before I even knew it I was drifting off to sleep with Edward playing with my hair. My last thought was that I'd find a way to make this all work as long as he was here with me.
Woop! Another Chapter! Tad bit shorter but hey! Love it hate it! Tell me! Mrs Jodie Hale! The Jasper part was for you ;) x Love you all
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