Chapter 41: Lower Levels

Akihiko had enough. He was sick of the silence, drama, and sexual tension in his body for Misaki. So, he sent Misaki to Takahiro's and Goda sent Mio away. But Goda hid behind a couch and said, "Can we take this slowly…also, a condom. Please wear one."

He said, "I do not wear one for Misaki, besides, I bet you are clean."

Goda blushed and said, "Are you sure?"

Akihiko posed with his hands on his hips and said, "what are you so afraid of? Before, you were hot and annoying as hell…now a weak, pathetic, and begging child. Common, make me desire you like before."

Goda moaned and stood straight. He said, "I…don't know if I should. My body is…well…not normal."

Akihiko sat on the couch and said, "Show me then we can continue upstairs."

Goda slowly went in front of Akihiko and said, "Akihiko…my real name is Hetzumi Taka, remember?"

Akihiko nodded as he said, "I know, so?"

Goda moaned as he slowly removed his buttoned shirt. Akihiko smirked at the slow movements, but his smile disappeared at the sight… Goda showed him breasts…slightly swollen breasts with lightly darkened areolas, maybe small in comparison to most women Akihiko knew, but those were female genitalia.

Akihiko blinked as Goda continued to remove the clothing. His mouth dropped at the sight…Goda had no penis or scrotum. Akihiko was staring at a slightly enlarged clitoris, but that was no penis…

Goda cleared his voice and said in a feminine voice, "Akihiko, I am a woman that looks like a man."

Akihiko stood and said weakly, "you…no…I…Misaki…no…what? What? You…were a man…right? You did this…when we were apart…right?" He leaned on the couch side as Goda kept still.

Goda said as a woman, "When I was born, I had a penis."

Akihiko's mouth dropped as he gasped for breath. He just could not make words as Goda kept talking like a woman, "I was born an intersex or hermaphrodite; which way you prefer, I was born with both male and female genitalia. My parents had doctors remove my scrotum as a baby."

Akihiko slowly went to the floor as he just could not form words. He kept staring at Goda like his entire life depended on it. His breathing was slow, but his body was preparing for running mode…

Goda explained more, "as I grew, my clitoris grew like…a penis, sort of. I never made semen, but I do have a menstruation cycle. So, I am more female…but I wanted to be a man. So, I cut my hair, wear sports' bras, and…" She blushed and said, "I own a fake dick to make my member look more pronounced when I dress in tight clothes."

Akihiko gulped and slowly stood. He said, "What does this mean for me or Misaki?"

Goda blinked and said, "Well, whatever you want. I just want to be accepted as whom I am, but not by whom I pretend to be…" She turned her voice to male as he said, "please Akihiko, be honest. What do you think?"

"You are a freak!" Akihiko said as he pointed a finger at Goda.

Goda slowly covered his breasts and lower parts. He said, "I knew you would be like this…so, I meant very little to you, right?"

Akihiko said, "Get out, now. I refuse to allow you to stay here a moment longer! I do not want Misaki or Mio to see this…this secret is between us."

Goda got dressed and held his stomach. He said, "Just so you know…I was raped during that Editors' and Writers' party…that is why…god, I feel strange! Conto…"

Akihiko slightly felt the urge to hold Goda, but he snarled, "My pity for you has dried up. You are no longer allowed to live here. Get out."

Goda sighed and said, "That is why I transferred my stuff to my cousin's place…but Akihiko. Tell me this…was you ever attracted to me, besides this fact…" He revealed his breasts by shifting his shirt as Akihiko turned his head away.

Akihiko said, "Lust…possibly, but…I never been so disgusted in my life at myself. You a woman…I am a…"

Goda started to sob and said, "Now you know my pain! Now you see what I am! I could be a man if I tried! I could be a woman if I tried! I hate this body! I have no idea what I want to be! I am so confused…and yet…you look like all my other lovers! They call me freak, or stare, or…beg me to change…I do not know who I am! How can I change when I like the thought I could have children, but I want a penis? Tell me Akihiko…tell me…would you keep me or throw me away like so many other lovers of mine did… Would you?"

Akihiko snarled, "Do not blame me for your lies! You have been lying since the beginning, so get out. I am sick and tired of your games."

Goda sniffed and grabbed his coat. He said, "I hope you understand at least this…" He opened the door and screamed, "Misaki might leave you for good someday if you are this cruel to me!" His slamming of the door rattled the pictures on the wall and the sound rattled in Akihiko's ears for a few seconds.

Akihiko quickly went to the phone and dialed Takahiro's number, luckily, Misaki answered, "hello, Takahashi residence."

Misaki waited as Akihiko said, "I love you…"

Akihiko heard Misaki gasp and said to Takahiro, "it's…a friend. I will take this in the other room." He listened to Misaki moving away from his brother and closed a door.

Misaki said, "Usagi, what is this call for? You said that you needed a night with Goda…do not tell me you already did it! You…had five hours alone, but…are you okay? You sound like you are crying."

He was as Akihiko said, "I…broke up with Goda…"

Misaki stopped breathing and said, "what…why…how?"

Akihiko said, "Forget that…Goda was a problem to begin with. Please Misaki…can we move on without him?"

Misaki sighed and said, "Yes…we should try…"

Akihiko stopped crying and said, "Are you serious?"

Misaki said, "Before, I would have defended Goda and try to protect him. But since he started to live with us, Goda changed…into a silent and unresponsive person. I liked him better during the Uke Trade-Off than now."

Akihiko smiled and said, "I agree…that is why I asked you and Mio to leave…I needed to talk to him."

"Do you want me to return home?" Misaki asked as Akihiko imagined him blushing when he moaned at his question.

Akihiko smiled and wiped his tears away. He said, "No, we could use this time to calm down. Please remember this…you will always have my heart."

Misaki moaned, "do you always have to be this embarrassing?"

Akihiko said, "Only to you, my Misaki."

Misaki moaned and said, "are you sure, damn me!"

Akihiko said, "I love you…and yes, I am sure. I need this night to…think properly alone. I am having Mio sent to Hiroki's to spend the night. Sleep well, my wonderful and only…" He smiled as he heard Misaki moaned and twitch on the other side.

Misaki said, "I will see you after school…okay? Want anything special for supper tomorrow?"

Akihiko said, "No…pick whatever you wish. I love you."

Misaki groaned and said, "I love you too, dammit!" He gasped and stopped breathing.

Akihiko giggled gently and said, "good night," as he hung up. He smiled as he walked to his bedroom. His trek brought him to his bed as he moaned, "a woman! Does that mean…"

He sat up and wondered does that mean Misaki and he were bisexual? Akihiko shivered and removed his shirt. He did miss Misaki's body heat, but he really needed time to remove that image from his mind…Goda naked was not he expected.

A/N: Well, this is what Goda really looks like underneath the clothing…what does the readers think? Please comment, I am curious to hear from the readers XD