A/N: Thank you for all the reviews! (Even though there weren't that many last chapter...At least, I don't think there was. I can't really remember.) If I didn't respond, I'm sorry, but I tried. My laptop sent like, half of them, and then it crashed, and every time I try to respond to the other ones it gives me some weird error message. But they mean a lot to me! Even though I didn't get as many as usual, I decided to update again. And besides, I didn't have much else to do, and...movies are inspiring me to write.
Disclaimer: I still don't own. (And I was so sad, because Seth only had, like, two lines in Eclipse. He was practically the whole reason I went to go see it!)
Songs:
Fences- Paramore
Conspiracy- Paramore
Hayley POV
I have no idea when I fell asleep, but I woke up when it was dark, laying on Seth's bed. He wasn't in the room, but I could hear the TV downstairs, so after a few minutes of trying and failing to go back to sleep, I got up and went down the stairs.
He was sitting on the couch with Paul, and they were watching something that I wasn't even going to pretend to understand. They both turned around when I entered the room, Paul smirking and Seth beaming.
God damn it, Seth! I really wish you would stop doing that. Keep it up, and I'm going to actually think you're a normal person. Other than the whole giant furball thing.
"Hayley, are you, like, nocturnal or something?" Paul asked, still smirking as he glanced between Seth and I.
My brow furrowed in confusion. "Huh?"
They both laughed a little and Seth said, "You fell asleep at about two in the afternoon, and it is now eleven thirty."
My eyes widened. "Fuck. Embry's going to kill me."
They both laughed again. "Don't worry, little one," Paul said, smirking as I galred at him about the 'little one' comment. "We called Embry earlier and told him you were totally out. He told us it would be a very bad idea to disturb you."
I smiled a little at that, I've been known to get very cranky and violent whenever someone wakes me up if I still want to sleep. Embry had seen that first-hand too many times to count, but it had made him very wary of me whenever I was asleep, especially considering I'm such a light sleeper.
I'm still not entirely sure how I felt about the whole shapeshifter thing. Okay, so they weren't werewolves, they didn't want to eat me, they didn't want to kill me, and they only existed to protect the town from vampires. They could heal fast, run fast, hear extremely well, (Which reminded me that I would have to stop saying things out loud if I don't want anyone to hear them.) and they were made to fight vampires.
Even if Seth was still the same Seth, (And I still wasn't really sure who that was. Stalker? Nice guy? Creeper?) and if Paul was still the same asshole that we call Paul, and Embry was still the Embry that I'd known since I was little, them being shapeshifters made everything different. Instead of thinking they were all at the beach or something, now I knew that they were on patrol. Instead of wondering if they were all tense because Paul said something stupid, I now knew that it was because they'd found a new vampire or something like that. it had been bad enough before, when I'd worried what Embry did in his free-time, (I was still kinda convinced that Sam ran a gay prostitution ring or something, except for the fact that he was engaged to Emily.) but now I had to worry about all of them getting eaten and sucked dry.
I was worried about them all, but for some reason I was most worried about Seth. I'm not sure why that was, because he wasn't the youngest, I knew that Collin and Brady were younger than him. And after I'd apologized to Seth this afternoon, he'd told me all about the battle with the newborns and how he'd even fought one of them, so I knew that he would be able to take care of himself. But that didn't stop me from worrying about him. Some part of me knew that if he was hurt, I would be, too.
Which was completely ridiculous, considering I'd only been here for about a month and barely knew him, and when I'd first met him I'd thought that he was a creepy staring stalker guy.
I was also worried about Paul. He was strong and smart, I knew that, but he was also impulsive and easily angered. His temper could get him into trouble in a fight, and he could lose his concentration. If someone he loved was threatened, I knew that he would do anything to stop it. And even if that could be a good thing, it could also be a deadly thing.
But why was I even worried about this? There were no vampires around at the moment, except for the Cullens, who I'd heard didn't drink human blood. It's not like there was going to an imminent war soon or anything!
...Except...I couldn't shake that feeling that there was going to be a war soon.
When I finally went home, Embry was waiting, sitting in one of the kitchen chairs, staring out the window. He laughed when he saw the look on my face. "I'm not going to tie a bomb to you, Hayley."
I looked away. "Yeah, but you might find something in the woods and make it bite me." I looked over at him. "Sorry, but you guys are the wild animals. I'd appreciate not getting rabies today."
He rolled his eyes. "Does that mean I can give it to you tomorrow?" I laughed and sat down in one of the other chairs, Echo jumping up onto my lap. "Because seriously, psycho Hayley isn't enough, I need a rabid Hayley, too."
I laughed, petting Echo as she began to purr. "You do need a rabid Hayley. She'd destroy your house and eat all your food, and you'd go so insane that you'd have to leave. And then rabid Hayley would have the destroyed house all to herself. And her kitty," I added, looking down at Echo.
Embry chuckled. "Yeah, I guess I would have to run away from a rabid Hayley. Normal Hayley is scary enough." He sighed and his face turned serious, his eyes looking a little sad. He was staring intently at a spot on the table, as if he was willing it to do something. "Listen, Hales, I know that you forgave Seth and all, and that's good, because I couldn't really handle his moping and all, but..." He looked back up at me and continued. "Just...Don't think any different of us. Please. I know that you're scared because of what happened, but we're not like that. We-"
"Embry." I stated sternly, cutting him off. "I know, okay? I understand. You explained it, and I believe you. Besides, all the evidence shows that you're not like that. And I know that you and Seth could never be like that..." I trailed off, cursing myself for having brought Seth back into the conversation.
Embry smiled grimly, and even a little bit sadly. "He hasn't told you, has he?"
"Huh?" I asked, genuinely confused.
Embry shook his head, muttering, "If he doesn't tell you soon, I will." And then he stood up, said, "I've got patrol, and stalked out the door.
Yeah...I'm...not even gonna ask.
The next day, I finally went back to school. I wasn't limping anymore, but my leg still hurt, and I think Seth noticed. He walked me to class, glancing down at my leg every few seconds. But he didn't say anything about it, so I wasn't even annoyed.
Lunch was when the real 'fun' started.
Obviously, for the past month, (even though I hadn't been at school for the past week and a half) I'd always sat with Aidan and Lilly. Today, however, I'd decided that I wanted to sit with Seth, Collin, Brady, and their other friend, who was also a part of the pack, Jason.
And, you know, there was the little fact that I'd totally forgotten that I had a date with Aidan on the same night that I crashed my car. On my way to Seth's house. Somehow, everyone seemed to know that that was where I'd been going.
And there was the little fact that I'd kind of forgotten about Aidan until I saw him glaring at me during lunch when I sat down next to Brady. Katherine, Brady's imprint, was also sitting with us.
I had to admit that Katherine was a very pretty girl, but it was obvious that she wasn't Quileute. She wasn't pale, but she wasn't tan either, and she had dark brown, wavy hair that went just to her shoulder and honey-brown eyes that reminded me of Seth's.
Brady looked overjoyed to be with her, and I remembered that Seth had told me about how her parents already had someone lined up to marry her, how they were from some high society and their family still followed old traditions. They didn't care too much about who her friends were, just as long as they weren't total troublemakers, but when it came to who she dated...Well, she just wasn't allowed to date. Seth had told me that Katherine's parents had said that if they were in New York or something like that, it would be different story, but that no one here was 'suitable' enough.
In other words, they weren't rich enough, and her parents thought that everyone here was going to end up broke and deadbeat.
But Katherine seemed perfectly fine while she was with Brady, and it seemed like they were both just trying to enjoy the time they had together, instead of being sad about the fact that they didn't have enough of it.
It was actually kinda sweet.
And the fact that I thought that made me want to gag. Just...I should not be having these thoughts. Bad, bad, Hayley. No mushy lovey-dovey things. Think about...dead horsies.
Wait...isn't that what guys think about when they're trying not to get a massive hard-on?
Just...Just...Ewwww.
Collin seemed to notice my disgusted face and laughed. "What, can't wait to get away from Seth? Already? I mean, damn, I knew he would drive you off eventually, but before we even start to eat?" He looked at Seth. "Pathetic, man, pathetic."
Seth growled while I giggled, ignoring Aidan, whose eyes were burning a hole in the back of my head. "Sorry to crush your dreams, Collin, but you're stuck with me for now. I'm maybe sorta kinda avoiding Aidan..."
Jason looked over at me and raised his eyebrows. (Ha ha! Can't raise both, can you?) "And why exactly would that be, young ginger?"
"Umm...I'm not exactly a ginger. Gingers are awesome, though."
Jason rolled his eyes. "You have red hair. That makes you a ginger."
I rolled my eyes. "No, gingers have bright red hair. I have darker red hair. I am not a ginger."
"Whatever. You never answered the question."
I smiled, knowing that I had won. I always win. But the smile quickly fell as soon as I remembered his question. "Umm...Well...I kinda might have forgotten that I had a date with him?"
Jason barked out a laugh and Brady joined him. Collin just raised an eyebrow, (Damn! You're not supposed to be able to do that, wolfy-boy.) and Katherine looked very amused. Seth had his head down, and I couldn't see his expression, but he looked like he was shaking.
"How in the hell do you forget about a date with someone?" Brady asked, still laughing.
"Well, uh...I guess I just...wasn't that excited." I hadn't realized it until now, but that really was the truth. I hadn't been very interested in the first place, but as it drew closer to the date, I really hadn't cared at all. In fact, I think I flat-out just didn't want to go.
Seth had stopped shaking now, and his eyes even looked a little hopeful.
And at first, that gave me warm, fuzzy feeling. But then I remembered about the whole imprinting thing, and how Seth was most likely going to imprint on whoever was perfect for him.
I sighed, louder than intended, and they all stared at me. Brady looked concerned, and so did Katherine, so I knew that my expression probably made me look like I was about to cry. Seth, who was sitting on my other side, grabbed the hand sitting on my lap and placed our intertwined hands onto his lap. He looked at me worriedly, which just made me feel worse. I sighed again, and looked away from him, only to see everyone else at the table quickly glance away and start a conversation amongst themselves.
"Hayley, what's wrong?" Seth's warm breath washed over my face, blowing some of my hair into my eyes. He reached up with his free hand to brush it away, his eyes looking tortured.
I sighed for the third time. I was going to say some bull about nothing being wrong, but when I looked back up into his eyes, somehow I ended up blurting out the truth. "Seth, I really wish you wouldn't act like this."
"Like what?" He asked me, obviously not understanding.
"Like...Like...The way you act!" I said, frustrated that I was unable to explain. "You need to stop making me feel like you actually care, okay? Because then I'm going to be all upset when you imprint, and...ugh!" I knew that they were all listening, even Katherine, but I couldn't bring myself to care. "Leading people on is never okay, Seth, and I know that you're just being nice and everything, but that's not what it seems like! So can't you just, I don't know, leave me alone or something?"
"Hayley-" I didn't let him respond, though; I ripped my hand from his and stood up, storming out of the cafeteria.
I went and sat down right at the edge of the woods, out of sight from anyone in the school. The ground was slightly damp, but I ignored it and leaned back against a tree, wondering why the hell I had just done that.
If I was going to be honest with myself, (And really, how more honest can one get when they talk to themselves about blue unicorns?) I didn't want Seth to leave me alone. I liked being friends with him, and I liked being around him. For some reason, he could always make me feel better without even trying. All he had to was walk into the room, and no matter what I was upset about seemed to just...go away. And I knew that he wasn't happy right now, that much was obvious when I'd glanced at his face before I walked out; But the fact that he was upset made me upset. I felt like there was a burning hole in my chest, slowly getting bigger and bigger, burning brighter and brighter.
I'm not sure how long I sat there, trying not to think about Seth, but the bell eventually rang. I stood up grabbed my bag, and walked back into what most people consider their personal hell without a second thought.
Because if people think school is Hell, then I guess they're lucky they don't know about vampires and werewolves.
Shorter than the last one, but the last chapter was unusually long. Anyways...Review! Do it. Press that weird little button that was way cooler when it was green and type in a few words. I don't care if it just says one word. Just give me a freaking review.
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