Ahhhhhhh, the Mortal Instruments. You tormented me with your wonderfulness. And Alec with your complete AWESOMENESS and ABILITY TO NOT DO ANYTHING AND MAKE ME LOVE YOU (Stupid Magnus…)

Disclaimer: The Mortal Instruments is not mine (Haha… Omigosh Valentine I don't have them!) I didn't word that right… I do not own the trilogy that's what I meant sooo….. Enjoy.

CHAPTER 2

*Clary's POV*

I sat beside Simon on his messy bed. It wasn't that messy, but as close to messy as I could get. My house was clean, my mom and her clean obsession. We were watching some show on his TV, well I wasn't really watching so much as drawing. His dark brown eyes were glued to the only movement in the whole room. Or so I thought. I turned my head a quarter inch to find him staring intently on me.

I grinned stupidly. I was totally comfortable around him, but his stare was odd. Not Simon-like. He smiled back showing a mouthful of perfect white teeth. "Hi, Simon."

"Hey, Clary" He was still smiling.

I gave him an oddly confused glance. "What?"

"You know, Clary, I'm not sure. You seem kinda out of it today…-"

Really? Then I looked down at my sketch pad. I had drawn a hand. Not my hand, but a much larger one, possibly a grown man's or maybe even a large teenage boy's. I know not exactly strange. But there were markings on the wrist leading in the invisible arm that I had not drawn yet. Strange ink looking ones. There was an eye looking one on the back of his hand, and an odd mess of beautiful swirls overlapping one another going down the arm.

"…Huh?" Simon finished.

I snapped out of my daydream and stared into his big eyes from behind his glasses. I shook my head to regain my thoughts and my head started to throb. "What?"

"I said what the hell is that? I mean, most of the time you draw… You know… Real things around a room but this…?" He gestured to my art.

I looked down at it again. I sighed. "I don't know. I mean I do know… I want to know. I remember drawing, just not this." It was true

"Well, you've been acting funny… ish."

I had to agree. I mean I've felt a change, but ignored it thinking it was like a weird girl hormone or stage that would pass eventually, but now my friend(s) have noticed it? "… Oh."

"Well?" He looked expectant.

"'Well?'" I repeated in the same tone.

"What's up? I know something's bothering you…"

I thought for a minute of to about what I was going to say, but I told Simon everything. And I would never lie to him. "I don't know what's wrong with me…"

*Alec's POV*

Sneaking out of the Institute wasn't at all hard. Well, we did it all of the time, and of course it wasn't hard. We're fast, strong Shadowhunters with only my sister and our "guardian" to hold us back.

My hands were in my jacket pocket curiously fumbling around for my stele. Once it was in my hand, I clasped it tightly, not daring to let it go. Something could happen at any moment (Of course, nothing ever did) but that wasn't the main reason I liked it so much. Not only did it make me feel safe, it made me feel like a brave Shadowhunter, more like Jace, closer to Jace.

Jace

Wonderful, beautiful, strong, fast, smart-ass Jace. His golden eyes always looked at me with a brotherly affection. I wish he would see me through a new perspective. I've always wanted him to look at me the way I felt about him. I've always wanted something way more then brotherhood or friendship. I should be happy that at least I'm someone in his eyes, but not the right type for him, the right gender for him. What is love when there's a problem with how you're born? Someone that's born not to like the opposite sex has always been frowned upon among Shadowhunters. I would never be able to express my true feelings for Jace- ever. I'm a coward.

A shock of pain shot up my arm. With cat-like reflexes I pulled my hand out of my leather jacket to find four bloody indentions on my pale palm where my finger nails had dug into it. My jaw ached from biting my tongue and silver metallic taste began to form in my mouth. I suck the blood a little then gritted my teeth and forced myself not to scream my affections out loud. But I didn't.

Jace finally turned his head and looked at me. "You ok?"

NO. "Yeah, I'm fine." I clenched my fists to avoid talking, he usually never talked to me when I showed signs of anger. Sure enough he stopped talking, but a look of confusion remained on his gorgeous face.

We kept walking. Walking in silence until we reached Jace's favorite diner. We walked in casually and sat down. Nobody looked up from what they were doing but I could imagine some of the Downworlder's thoughts. Nepilim.

I sat across from Jace looking at my shaking hands under the table. Then the usual waitress came over staring flirtatiously at him with pupiless eyes. Kaelie. As usual, of course, he would flirt back only to make her want him even more.

She gave us our menus and turned away giving Jace a quick wink. Jace waved and changed his position on his seat. I was still looking down, but could tell he was watching me intently. I looked up at him through the messy hair in my face, and smiled uncomfortably.

"Alec…? Something's bothering you. Are you sure you're ok?"

"I'm fine, Jace!" My hands slammed down on the table and my voice raised to a yell. "Everything is perfect, why the hell would something be wrong! My life is one big ball of sunshine." I had never been so angry, but with Jace I could never stay mad at him for long. I looked around the restaurant at everyone staring from me to Jace then back to me.

I glanced at Jace. "Hey, I'm sorry. I haven't been getting much sleep lately. It tends to make me emotional." I lied. Well, I emotional all of the time, and this just adds to the problem. I could hear Jace's voice in the back of my head, "Yeah, that's why you slept for almost half of the day."

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