I'd been out of hospital for 3 days now after a week stay and to be honest I think I preferred the nurses and doctors to Edward and Alice's constant badgering. I don't think in the past 3 days I'd had a moment of peace. They were driving me insane with all there 'nursing'. They are constantly asking me if I need anything and bringing me food. Making sure I don't have to move to get anything so I won't hurt my leg. It was like I was going to break if I moved a muscle. I'm surprised there still letting me feed myself. Though I'm sure Edward would have offered if I hadn't had a constant frown on my face. At this point I was lying in my bed while Alice was making sure the bed covers were comfortable. Edward was in the kitchen making himself something to eat. He came in then with a tray of food.
"Edward I said I wasn't hungry" I sighed
"You need to keep your energy up Bella" he replied
"Okay that's it!" I exclaimed pushing the covers off me "I do not need mollycoddling! I was shot not paralyzed! I can do things for myself!" With that I sat on the side of my bed. My leg still hurt a bit but I could walk fine just with a limp
"Bella what are you doing?" Edward asked me
"I am going into the front room to get away from doctor Edward and nurse Alice!" I told him hobbling to the front room
"Come back to bed Bella!" Edward cam up behind me
"No! I'm going to do what I want and that's that! You can both leave now if your just going to treat me like an invalid!" I plopped down on the couch and turned on the TV ignoring them. I heard Alice sigh from behind me.
"I'm going to go see Jasper" She stated grabbing her bag and coat. "See you later Bella" she came over and hugged me.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap at you" I apologized so only she could hear
"Don't worry I understand" Alice smiled at me "So It's Friday, I was wondering if you wanted a movie night?" Alice asked both me and Edward
"Yes!" I all but shouted
"Sure why not" Edward shrugged
"Okay well I'll call the rest of them and see you guys later" Alice grinned and left me and Edward
I turned back to the TV when Alice was gone. I wasn't angry at either of them I was just fed up with being treated like a child. I could do things myself I didn't need them to do everything. Edward stayed standing in the doorway of the front room looking at me. I could tell by the look on the face he was upset. I knew he was only trying to help me but he was taking It over the top. He tried his best to hide the fact he still felt guilty about what had happened but I could still see it. I sighed and turned to look at him. I opened my arms to him. I wanted him close to me for as long as I could have him. He gave me a smile and came over and sat down pulling me into his lap. I laid my head on his chest and pulled him tight. I knew both of us had gone through hell in the past few weeks and right now I just needed to be close to him. He seemed to understand as well because he wrapped his arms around my waist holding me close.
"I'm sorry I snapped at you" I told him
"I know. I guess we took it a tad bit far" Edward muttered into my hair.
"I just want to get back to normal. You know? I want to go to work and mess around with Angela. Make Mike go get us coffee when we can't be bothered. I want to meet you for Lunch and talk about everything and nothing all at the same time. I want to be able to come home on a Friday and have Alice dragging me around to get ready to go out for the night on the town. I know it's going to take some time to get back to the way it use to be but something's I can do now. Like a movie night." I explained
"Your right. We should get things back to the way they use to be before all of this" Edward agreed
I turned in his arms so my face was level with his and smiled at him "Did I ever tell you you're the best boyfriend ever?"
"No I don't think you have" Edward smirked back "But thank you"
"Do you think I'm well enough for a kiss?" I mocked
"Hmmm…I'm not sure" Edward teased
"Well I think I am" I stated leaning closer to him so my lips were just above his "but if you don't think I am maybe…" before I could finish the sentence Edward's lips were on mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck playing with bit of hair at the back of his head. Just when things were getting good there was a knock at the front door. I groaned and I felt Edward chuckle "I swear if it's Alice and she's forgotten her keys I'll kill her bad leg or not"
Edward just laughed as he headed over to the door to get it. While he did that I laid back on the couch and looked at whatever rubbish was on TV. I turned to look at the hall when I heard voices. Looking up I saw Jacob stood next to Edward. I hadn't really spoken to him since our argument but they were all heading home tomorrow so I guess I'd run out of time to have this discussion with him. Edward went to leave us but I stopped him and told him to come and sit down. Edward took a seat next to me while Jacob sat opposite us in one of the chairs.
"Right, let's get this over with" I sighed "Jacob you think I should come back to America because of everything that has happened. You also think the reason I won't move back is because Edward won't be with me. Well part of that is true but also I've already accepted the job here and to be honest if I left England it wouldn't make things any better. I've learnt running away from things only make them worse. If you face them head on then you're more likely to get over them"
"Oh don't give me that crap Bella! You know very well you just don't want to leave here because he wouldn't come with you!" Jacob shot back
"If Bella wants me there I'd go with her any where" Edward argued
"You say that now because you know she's actually thinking of staying home!" Jacob glared at Edward
"No. I've told her it before no matter where she wants to live I'll follow her if she wanted me too. I've told you a million times Jake I won't leave her until she tells me she doesn't want me any more" Edward explained
"Your good a playing this game Edward. I'll give you that! You have her wrapped around your finger but not me" Jacob responded
"This isn't a game! This is my life Jake!" I exclaimed "It's not about who I love more. It's about what is best for me. My whole life I've been doing things for other people. I moved to Forks to give my mother a life and to spend some time with Charlie. I stayed in Seattle because it was close to you and the guys. I even stayed with Tyler because I thought he needed me. Your fine with all those decisions but now I want to do this for me I'm not allowed because you don't like it! I'm sorry that you feel that way but for once in my life I'm doing this for me. Not for you or any one else!"
"But your not doing this for you! You're doing it for him!" Jake demanded
"How many times do I have to tell you Jake! This has nothing to do with him! Ever since Tyler Forks has just been a place full of bad memories and no matter how hard I tried to forget them or think about the good ones it just wouldn't work. But then I came here and within a week I felt more at home than I had for years in Forks. Okay maybe Edward is part of the reason behind that. But I've always been out of step in Forks. I've always been out of stuff but here I feel like I fit in. People get me. I have a family and an amazing Job. Why can't you understand that I'm happy here?" I questioned
"Because I love you!" Jake shouted. I looked back at him completely shocked "I love you! I have for a long time. I just pushed it off as a love for a sister but it hasn't been like that in a while. Hell I'm not sure it ever was like that"
"Jake…" I didn't know what to say. I looked at Edward next to me but he didn't even look surprised by this.
"You love me too! I know you do. I can see it in your eyes" He stated
"Of course I love you Jake just not in the way you want me too" I sighed "I thought we went through this"
"How do you know if you've never tried? If you've never thought about it?" He argued
"Because I love Edward! Jake my love for you and my love for Edward are to completely different things" I shook my head. In a minute I'd wake up and this would all be a bad dream
"You can love more than one person at a time Bella" Jake repeated Alice's words
"What about Leah? Jake you guys have been together forever. You can't hurt her like that. I won't hurt her like that. What ever your feelings for me are that doesn't change the fact that she is in your life" I sighed "So maybe this is the best for me to move here"
"What? How?" Jacob asked
"You and Leah are happy Jake. Please don't ruin that. I'm happy. Edward is all I've ever wanted" I begged
"You'll never know how truly happy you could be until you give us a go" Jacob shrugged
"There isn't a us! There never will be an us! Your going back to America and I'm staying here with Edward!" I told him
"I was actually thinking I might stick around for a bit" Jacob grinned
"No! Go home. Go back with Leah and think this whole thing through! Because I'm certain that when you get home and back to your life you'll realize that I'm right. So when you get your mind back you can start talking to me again" I explained
"Fine I'll go home but it's not going to change anything Bella. There always going to be there; them feelings. Anyway I don't see what's so great about preppy here. He isn't even that good looking" Jacob stood
"Jake! Just go! You can talk to me again when your not being such a dick!" I demanded
"Aww! Come on Bells! I didn't mean to hurt his feelings!" Jacob smirked
"Oh don't worry you didn't. I don't listen to comments from children" Edward shrugged
"Who you calling a kid?" Jacob squared up to Edward
"The one who has self steam issues. You're obviously unsure if you have to comment on my looks to assure yourself that your better than me" Edward grinned
"Watch it Cullen. I won't hesitate to hurt you" Jacob threatened
"And I won't hesitate to retaliate" Edward didn't back down
"Stop it! Both of you! Jake get out right now before I call the rest of the guys to come remove you!" I pushed between them
"I can do that myself" Edward growled
"Just try!" Jacob challenged
"STOP IT!" I shouted at them "Just go Jake!"
"Don't worry I'm going!" I he turned his eyes to mine "See you around Bells" he smiled at me and left.
Once he was gone I fell back on to the couch and just sat there starring at the wall. Jacob loved me and not in a sisterly way. But he was with Leah. Why was this such a shock to me? It's been starring you in the face for ages. I'd seen the looks and the felt the touches. I'd heard the words. I didn't want it though. So I convinced myself it was nothing. That its what all best friends were like. But did I feel the same? No. I loved Edward! But Alice was right you could love two people at once. No! I was positive the feelings I had for Jacob were nothing but for a brother. That I was sure of. Jacob never made me feel like I was floating on cloud nine or knew just how to take my mind off everything. Sure he could distract me but only for a while. With Edward he could do that and I would forget about everything that was going wrong and not remember till someone brought it up again. Edward was the one I was screaming for when I woke up from horrible nightmares. I love him with my whole heart. He already had it. It belonged to him. I must have been quite for at least half an hour going through everything in my head. I finally turned to look at Edward. He was sat next to me watching me carefully as if waiting for me to jump up and chase after Jacob. But I didn't want to. So I moved over to him and got into his lap and laid my head on his chest. His arms went around my waist.
"I love you" I sighed
"I know. And with all that I am I love you too" Edward murmured into my hair "But that doesn't mean you don't love him too"
"Of course I love Jake. Just not in the way he wants me too" I replied
"But if you've never thought about it then how do you know if you don't or not?" Edward asked
I learnt back so I could look at his eyes "The truth is I have thought about it. Even without wanting too. Jake was the one person when I was younger I could tell anything too. He's been a big part of my life for so long. He was bound to leave an effect on me. I've sat there and seen him stare at me and know he wasn't looking at me in a way a guy looks at a friend of his. I just didn't want to believe it because I didn't want to be that with him. I knew I should have talked to him about it but I didn't want to lose the one person that I could go to. Then everything with Tyler happened and Jake was literally the only friend I had so there was no way I could lose him then." I knew I had tears in my eyes but I needed him to understand why I was so sure I wanted to be with him and not Jake "But then I came here and I met you. I met the guy behind the phone calls that made my stomach flutter and made me think like a high school kid all over again. I put it down to the fact I had a thing for your accent but then I met you and got to know the guy behind the cute accent. Before I was even aware of it I had someone that gave me the same look Jake did but I wasn't repulsed by the idea of being with you. I denied my feelings for you because I was scared that you didn't like me like that. That the looks I was seeing were what I wanted to see. But then Alice demanded I do something about it. She saw the looks too so I knew I wasn't imagining it. I wanted to be with you. My heart wanted to be with you before my head even knew it. So I do know what I want and don't want" when I was finished I continued to look at Edward. He rose his hand to my face brushing the tears away that had escaped. He smiled and kissed my lightly on the lips and just like that I knew we'd be okay.
"So I have a cute accent do I?" Edward smirked. Lightening the mood
"What can I say I have a thing for a British guy" I smiled
"Well I'll tell you a secret" he learnt close to my ear "I have a thing for an American girl"
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