Chapter 55: New Year's (part 7)

Shinobu gasped, moaned and twisted under Miyagi. He blushed and opened up more…Miyagi was so desirous and roamed his hands all over Shinobu's body. Both men groaned and continued their feverish kissing. Miyagi did not undress Shinobu as they just rubbed each other. Shinobu grasped Miyagi's clothes as he groaned and moaned for more. Miyagi smirked as he finally started to remove some clothing—

BRIIINNG, BRRRIIINNNG, BRRRIINNGG, the noise filled the room as both men stared at each other with flushed faces. Miyagi growled, "Who the fuck is that?"

Shinobu turned purple and said, "no…one…special…" He knew who it was…he always set special ring tones to everyone…but why would he call at a time like this? His moan was long and annoyed as he picked up his cell phone to look at the text message.

The message says, need to talk…call me soon or I will call you again.

Shinobu groaned at his growing erection and his glaring fiancée. He said, "it is Nowaki…he wants to talk about something."

Miyagi sighed and removed his body from Shinobu. He said, "Fine, but remember…you asked me to marry you. No adultery…or things might get very nasty for you."

Shinobu gulped at Miyagi's tone, but he quickly kissed Miyagi's cheek. He said, "I love you, remember? Nowaki is getting married to Hiroki, so…there is nothing to worry about."

Miyagi sighed and said, "we will plan the wedding later…be sure to come to my apartment tonight." He slipped the spare key into Shinobu's pants as his hand stroked Shinobu's erection. His giggle was damn seductive as he said, "we might have to finish this…or both our bodies might explode from the lack of touching."

Shinobu reddened as he reached forward for another kiss—BRRIINNG! BRRRRIIINNNG, BRRRIINNNGGG, he growled and quickly ran out of the room. Shinobu went down the hall quickly to a warm food storage room and slammed the door closed as he answered, "WHAT NEKO?"

Neko laughed on the line as he said, "well, aren't you nice this morning? Happy New Year."

Shinobu blinked quickly as he looked at the small watch on his cell phone…it was the New Year. He smiled and answered, "Fine, whatever…Happy New Year. What do you want? I was in the middle of a fucking session with…" His blush turned purple when he admitted, "with…Miyagi."

Neko hummed and said, "Back together, huh?"

Shinobu moaned, "Yes…but why did you call?"

Neko moaned and said, "Can I delay that for a few seconds? I need to ask you something first."

Shinobu moaned again as he said, "fire the shooting squad…it's about Camille, right?"

Neko stopped breathing and slowly said, "How…did you…know?"

Shinobu moaned, "She told me that she knew you…penpals, right?"

Neko snickered and said, "yep, but funny she never knew that I was Goda's older brother. She started writing to me after I legally changed my name. Weird how coincidences always occur when you least expects them… Anyhow, I just wanted to check that because a friend of mine said you were dating her. I expect she brought Randy with her, right?"

Shinobu moaned, "You know about Randy?"

Neko laughed and said, "of course I do! I gave her the idea!"

Shinobu groaned and slumped to the floor. He mumbled, "you…are a sick…bastard."

Neko snickered and said, "I did not, in a million years, expect you to play with Randy. Well, that is interesting…anyhow, back to the present. I hear Goda is missing too, correct?"

Shinobu sighed and nodded. He said, "I have not seen nor heard from him for days…I kind of hoped he would come over to meet Camille and have tea with us…Goda never responded back to me."

Neko said quickly, "how long ago did you ask Goda to visit you?"

Shinobu sighed and said, "Possibly…a few days after the homosexual marriage law passed…yeah. Around then, why?"

Neko sighed and said, "Shinobu…can I be honest with you?"

Shinobu blinked and said, "sure…is there something wrong with Goda? Is he…I mean she…okay?"

Neko sighed again, long and sadly, saying, "my sister…well…is having a very bad time right now. She had a very messy miscarriage on the day the bill passed."

Shinobu paled as he said, "Goda…was pregnant? Who was the father?"

Neko said, "I am not sure…but I am sure it was Conto. A friend and body guard of Goda's, but that is not the point… Goda is missing, completely vanished. I am worried sick about her."

Shinobu sat up straighter and said, "what can I do to help?"

Neko sighed, "I am not sure if you can help…but I partially created your phone with Goda…sorry Shinobu but…I heard your entire proposal to Miyagi."

Shinobu turned purple and screamed, "YOU BASTARD! YOU THINK THIS IS FUNNY! THIS IS INVADING PERSONAL PRIVACY FOR YOUR PERSONAL GAIN! I HATE YOU!"

Neko laughed the entire time Shinobu screamed this. He kept laughing as Shinobu huffed and puffed angrily. Neko slowly calmed down after two minutes of solid laughing and said, "sorry…but that was too funny for words! But yes…I tapped your phone."

Shinobu snarled, "Can I ask you why you are listening to me from my phone?"

Neko snickered and said, "I needed to keep a close eye on you…I had a feeling you would find Goda before I did. So…I tapped it."

Shinobu stiffened and said, "Are you psychic or something? How could you known that I was going to meet Goda?"

Neko said, "out of all the players…you were the smart one. Usami-san was the target, so he would naturally be given all the toys and told the truth. Misaki was the arrow, so he was temptation and issues for both Usami-san and Goda. Nowaki…was a distraction for you, but he did not stop you from a few adventures. Hiroki…was a mere detail for the page of the story. Miyagi was Goda's teacher, but nothing more than another detail. As for you…you were the only one that did not have a purpose until you ended the game. Which I might add, Goda was glad you did."

Shinobu blinked twice and said, "You seem to know a lot about the Uke Trade-Off…how?"

Neko snickered and said, "My dear friend, Goda is my sister. She told me everything."

Shinobu blushed and said, "so…the earring thing…"

Neko said, "A sorry accident, but I was asked to look after you. I was another guard, just in case, things got rough."

Shinobu blinked twice and said, "So…Goda really planned this out…damn she is good."

Neko sighed and said, "even the best games go astray…she did not plan many issues like Miyagi's job problems, Hiroki's employment rise, Usami-san's mother and Mio, and a few minor details that involved Settori. Goda played well, but even the game master gets burned in the end… She lost a lot due to that game. You can only imagine it…"

Shinobu said, "What did she lost?"

Neko admitted, "Her sense of clarity."

Shinobu grimaced and said, "I am confused…"

Neko sighed, "You are a tad slow…oh well. Goda had an overwhelming sense of running away and taming people into her way of thinking…but she could not do that to the players…or Mio got involved."

Shinobu blushed and said, "that Usami-san look a…dammit! That teen is Akihiko Usami's…little brother?"

Neko hummed in agreement and said, "yes, but that is not only the issue."

Shinobu blinked as Neko explained, "Mio has a painful past with homosexuality…his lover committed suicide than accepting patience for an opening to love Mio. So, Mio gave into depression and almost committed suicide himself…which this has bothered Goda deeply when she found out."

Neko sighed when Shinobu said nothing. He continued, "Goda told me about it and showed me the cell phone videos…the videos are chilling. Even the last message that Adam gave Mio before he died…what kind of lover calls his boyfriend and dies while speaking to him… I do not blame, for one minute, that Mio has a very hard time with accepting this fact. His lover killed himself on the phone, so he must be lonely and very upset when it comes to homosexuality. I would be…if I was Mio."

Shinobu just sat there with his mouth open and stared at the wall in disbelief. That teenager…that wild, good dancing and beautiful fifteen-year old…went through all that? He would have never…he just wanted to kiss him for fun's sake, but nothing more. Mio looked excited for it, so they got close…but Akihiko and Miyagi got in the middle of the kiss. But still…Shinobu never imagined this for anyone to face… He slowly said, "So…what did Goda do after seeing the videos?"

Neko sighed and said, "She told Akihiko the entire truth for the game…to destroy him and have him meet my youngest sister's dying son, Tanko. Of course, Tanko's death was hard on all of them…but still. Mio…I believe caused the downfall of Goda's clarity and showed her something she forgot for years…"

Shinobu stopped breathing as he tried to think of the answer. He did not wait long to ask, "What?"

Neko said, "The pain…the pain of losing something so dear…and walking on. Breathing, living, and acting life can be lived on without this precious person or item."

Shinobu said quickly, "what is this thing Goda lost? Can be found?"

Neko sighed and said, "You already sound like a friend of Goda's…please if she calls you…call me. Please, I need to know if she is okay. It would put my mind at ease."

Shinobu nodded and said, "Please answer my question."

Neko said, "Goda has a twisted mind about her sexuality…since she was born an intersex. She had both genitals, male and female. My parents forced her to be female, but she always tried to be male. This sexual battle always forced her into a spin of trying new things like people and hobbies…she was never satisfied. Never. She kept running and trying to find her purpose…as she transformed into a man, Hozumi Goda. She found some comfort, but her love life sucked. Her partners found her body to be disgusting and hard to get by…so they asked her to pick a side, male or female. This troubled her into running and hating herself sometimes… I remember her so clearly saying, 'who am I, Hetzumi Taka or Hozumi Goda? What am I, female or male? What am I? WHAT AM I?' She said this so often when we were together at America that I tried to soothe her. She always sobbed, 'do not patronize me…tell me…who am I?' I told her that she was my sister. She always refused to believe that…"

Shinobu nodded as Neko continued after a few breaths, "Hetzumi…she tried so hard to hide her female side, but of course…she had her menstruation cycle. Her attitude changed so much during that week of the month…sometimes; she got much more reckless than usual."

Neko sighed as Shinobu said, "what the Uke Trade-Off…during her time of the month?"

Shinobu waited as Neko snickered, "yes…the second week of the game…I presume."

Neko continued, "Anyways, long explanation for this little bit…Hetzumi does not know who she is. She has tried so many personas, relationships, friendships, and pretended to seem clear minded…she is as clouded as a tornado. Hetzumi does not know who or what sexuality to follow…so seeing the pain Mio has been through…she does not like the fact that she has enough money to change. About ten times over, to actually pick a side…she wanted to finalize her body to become a man, twice during the Uke Trade-Off…but she stopped…after seeing Mio."

Shinobu blinked and said, "This is…wow. This is deep…I never would have guessed all of this about Goda…I mean Taka-san."

Neko sighed and said, "This took me years of watching and listening to her to get this far…but Shinobu, please. If you understand any of this, please understand that I care for my sister very much. I do not want to see her get hurt by any asshole that wants to force her into one side of her sexuality. She can be both…I told her this many times. She just needs to calm down and allow herself to be Goda than force herself to act like Hetzumi…but she reverted so many times to both sides…I cannot tell the difference sometimes."

"Multiple personality disorder?" Shinobu asked.

Neko snickered weakly and said, "no…just…I am not sure. I am not saying she actually acts completely different between her 'male' and 'female' sides. She just gives a masculine persona, but sometimes…she acts so feminine. That is what I mean…she cannot make a perfect one side of the gender spectrum. She is two sexualities so…it is hard for her to follow one side perfectly."

Shinobu rolled his eyes and said, "She needs help."

Neko laughed gently and said, "Yes…I told her to see a therapist, but she refused. She was afraid to admit to anyone about her body or her inner turmoil…so she suffers alone."

Nothing more was said for a few seconds as Shinobu said, "I promise to keep a close eye for her. I cannot guarantee that I will see her but…I will try."

Neko sighed in relief and said, "Thank you, but I also listened to your proposal with Miyagi…you can deny it but…I am curious to hear your reactions about this proposal."

Shinobu stiffened as Neko said, "Do you want to have kids with Miyagi?" He turned purple so fast… Shinobu said, "Well…maybe…we could adopt…"

Neko snickered and said, "what if you could have the baby yourself?"

Shinobu turned pale and said, "me…pregnant? How the hell? Wait…how?"

Neko snickered and said, "Are you interested?"

Shinobu stiffened into a rock and snarled, "you cannot be…how?"

Neko repeated, "Are you interested?"

Shinobu softened as he looked down…to his flat belly. He rubbed it as he imagined it rounding with Miyagi's child… His face turned into a smile as he could also imagine feeling the baby moving and looking like Miyagi…boy or girl…he blushed at the thoughts in his mind.

Neko snickered and said, "Can you imagine it? Of course, pregnancy is no fun for women…so men will have some difficulties during their pregnancy. But it would be interesting to have your own child than adopting a stranger's children or a surrogate…wouldn't it?"

Shinobu slowly said, "How is it done?" His hand remained on his flat belly as he looked up.

Neko said, "Well…that is depending if you agree to this proposal. Yes or no, this is a once-in-a-life-time offer. I will not mention this again if I call you…I will give you—"

"YES!" Shinobu shrieked as his hand gripped the cloth around his belly. He breathed heavily and repeated, "Yes…I want to do this…"

Neko laughed for a few seconds and said, "Well then, I will send the paperwork after your wedding. I want you to receive this alone…Miyagi might reject the idea of he finds out. So, this is between us, okay?"

Shinobu nodded and said, "How much is this?"

Neko said, "about…ninety thousand dollars every three months, in American money, but the conversion…you can imagine it."

Shinobu's mouth dropped as his hand dropped as well. He gasped, "why…is it…so…much?"

Neko giggled and said, "Well, the price covers the expenses for a personal maternity doctor and insurance. Also, the doctor can be either seen or comes to you. Also the tests for pregnancy are not cheap, so…the price is within the total."

Shinobu converted the amount to yen as he stuttered, "7,840,350.00 yen…damn! That is a lot!"

Neko snickered and said, "Well, pregnancy and children need budgets. That is why I will give you a few weeks after you two are married before I send the paperwork and…the parasite."

Shinobu stiffened and said, "Parasite?"

Neko snickered and said, "Do not worry; I will help any way I can when you get to that point. But, I need you to stop all bad habits like smoking and drinking…the manufacturers of this parasite do not like 'unclean' patients. Because they ask for detailed reports, you need to keep track of your pregnancy closely while the doctor records them into their record logs."

Shinobu blinked and said, "You seem to know a lot about this…why?"

Neko snickered and said, "I tried one…"

Shinobu gasped and said, "are you pregnant?"

Neko sighed and said, "No…the sperm donor that I had sex with did not impregnate me. If the sperm does not fertilize the egg…well, expect pain. I had a very bad few days after the parasite left my body."

"What if the egg does fertilize…" Shinobu said as he looked down again…imagining his belly rounding with child…

Neko said, "Well, you won't know, like a woman, for a month or so. The egg takes silent time to form, so that is why I need you clean before this process happens. Do not take this lightly either, pregnancy can be very dangerous…but for men…triple it. Your body is not made to withstand a pregnancy so…it will be very painful. Beautiful, worthwhile and meaningful to have your lover's child but…painful. Please remember this and more…also, check out a maternity book to see what you will be going through. Very interesting read if I do say so myself."

Shinobu gulped and said, "This sounds intense…"

Neko said, "are you sure you still want to do this?"

Shinobu said, "yes," very clearly as he continued, "I would do anything for Miyagi…I am not sure if he wants kids like babies and such but…it would be worth the pain if he would stay with me."

Neko sighed and said, "Maybe you should tell him—"

"NO! He would stop me! Besides…you will help me if he leaves me…right?" Shinobu said as he shivered. He could slightly see Miyagi getting mad about this but…also…he could never read the old man right. Maybe…Miyagi would consent and help and be with Shinobu throughout the pregnancy…

Neko said, "I would gladly take care of you. Either way, I will be with you if you need me."

Shinobu blushed as he said, "can you…be my best man?"

Neko giggled and said, "Ask Miyagi first."

Shinobu snarled, "He will have to accept it! I am the groom!"

Neko stalled then laughed. He snickered, "yes…I will be your best man! This is too much…but I have to go. Call me later about the wedding date and…if Goda calls you."

Shinobu blinked and said, "Why would she call me?"

Neko said clearly, "you are the only man, besides me, that has her cell phone number…good day." He hung up as Shinobu listened to the dial tone for w few seconds.

Shinobu hung up as he looked down to his flat stomach again. He smiled and blushed at the idea of having a baby on his terms. His wildest dreams could not make this up, but still…he could imagine it now. A baby…with Miyagi! He felt like rushing to Miyagi and telling him…but he couldn't. Like he and Neko said, Miyagi would probably stop him. So…this was his little secret…for now.

He blinked and wondered about Neko's accusation about Goda's number on his phone. Shinobu quickly looked as Neko was saying the truth…Goda's cell phone number was there. He clicked through his phone and looked at the messages. His body stiffened when he saw another new text message…he missed it a few days ago, but it was from Goda.

It said, sorry I missed your call…I was sick during that time. But we do need to speak. Call me…my number is on your contact list.

Shinobu blinked and wondered, what would he say now after speaking to Neko about Goda?