Chapter 62: Powder (part 2)

Cassiro was distant for most of the day and supper. He hid in his room after supper as he lay on the bed and kept staring at the wall. A few of his friends asked what was wrong, but only Mio and Ryhiro knew some of the reason…Totio. But more of the reason…Cassiro did not know what to say or do in front of Mio, Ryhiro or Totio. He just felt lost in various emotions that swirled in his head and body…like a constant hurricane of fears, desires, and confusion. Cassiro just wanted these feelings to stop, so he could enjoy his vacation and be normal…but the moment Ryhiro or Mio looked at him…he felt uneasy. Mio was a good friend, but his protectiveness…it was so comforting to Cassiro that Mio cared so much. But Ryhiro…it angered him. Cassiro hated Ryhiro mocking his homosexuality and protecting him…when Ryhiro already found a new girlfriend.

He shivered and covered his arms around his body. Cassiro knew Ryhiro and he was never a pair…but Ryhiro kept mocking by this protective response, hanging all over him, and always using his smiles and passionate voice to make Cassiro obey… Cassiro hated himself for it. Especially the Settori mess; Settori lessened his grip due to the disappearance of Goda from the Usami residence. But Settori still expected information about Mio…

Cassiro sighed and wrapped his comforter over his shivering body. He remembered a few conversations that he had with Mio…Mio was open and explained a lot about his own homosexuality. They would talk after school when they went home…Mio told Cassiro…about Adam. Cassiro gasped and said, "No…you were forced to…"

Mio turned to him and looked very somber. He said, "That force killed Adam…"

Cassiro remembered being silent for the reminder of the walk as Mio finished, "please…don't tell Ryhiro or the others…I am seeing a counselor and other means to move on. I am but…I do not need everyone to be worried about me."

Mio smirked at Cassiro's confused face and finished, "I told you because I trust you. I want us to be best friends…if you don't mind? Cassiro? What is wrong?"

Cassiro's eyes leaked tears as he ran away…he could not say it. Cassiro was betraying Mio…for Settori and information…as his body was covered in microphones and Settori heard everything…

Settori called him and said, "Do not tell Mio anything. Be stoic and get what I want. Mio might know where Goda is…be firm. Understand?"

Cassiro sighed, "I hate you…"

Settori said, "I do not need you to like me. Just get what I want, and I will disappear sooner." He hung up as Cassiro slipped to the carpet and sobbed.

Cassiro was sobbing in the present due to Mio's trust, Ryhiro's pushy jealousy and Totio… He curled into a ball and remembered Totio…

Totio was nothing Cassiro would find attractive. The man was covered in metal and taller than Cassiro…but his smile and concerned face… Cassiro never felt his heart race like that before. He felt like he was running…just those dark brown eyes…those eyes made him feel so weird and still. Ryhiro never made Cassiro feel like this…never.

Cassiro stalled his shivering when the door opened and gently closed. Thankfully, his roommate was neither Mio nor Ryhiro, but his roommate came to his bed… He breathed slower as Mio said, "Cassiro, can we talk?"

Mio continued, "Totio…really wants to see you. Nothing bad or anything…I will stay in the room if you want. Please come with me. I have a good feeling about this guy."

Cassiro shivered and said, "I don't like him."

Mio sighed and said, "How are you sure? You only met the guy…besides…Ryhiro has a new girlfriend, right?"

Cassiro sat up and glared at Mio. He growled, "Yes! Ryhiro has a new, goddamn girlfriend! But right does he have to act gay and protect me? He is so…infuriating! I hate him…" His fists clenched as he lay back down. He moaned, "Ryhiro always tries to get his way with his glances and trying to kiss me…"

Mio growled and stood as he walked out.

Cassiro blinked and sat up. He slowly got the hint and chased after Mio. He yelled, "MIO, I was—" He grimaced when Mio found Ryhiro and slammed his fist into Ryhiro's face.

Ryhiro slipped to the ground and glared at Mio. He snarled, "what the fuck is your problem?"

Mio snarled, "What the fuck is your problem? You think it is funny to play with men's emotions when you claim to be heterosexual? Do you think that your hyjinks do not hurt Cassiro into tears every time he looks at you? Are you satisfied with your life or do you want to be someone else when people try to move onto Cassiro? Pick a goddamn side and be friendly to Cassiro! Not this faking shit and picking on him."

Ryhiro slowly stood and snarled, "I have been nothing but nice to him! When did I ever admit that I was gay? You and that Totio are in alliance to make me look like the bad guy…trust me. Cassiro is on my side!"

Cassiro yelled, "who said I was?"

Ryhiro and Mio looked at him. Cassiro shivered and said, "Ryhiro, I did love you…a lot. But you are…so cruel…and hurt me…with all those gay inflicted touching. Please…be nice to me. But…do not think that I am ever going to change heterosexual for you! I love men! I rather be homosexual with other men than being controlled by you!"

Cassiro started to sob as he turned and ran into the elevator. He slammed into a body as he moaned, "sorry I just…" His face turned instantly red as Totio blinked and smiled at him. He gulped and tried to get out; Totio held onto him as the doors closed.

Totio said, "I will not harm you…please, come to my room for a reprieve from your friends. I will not touch or say anything until you are ready."

Cassiro shivered and said, "get your hands off of me…this is not helping."

Totio did as told as the elevator doors opened, and he went down the hall to his room. Cassiro followed as they came to a small room; a bed, a table, a small bathroom in the corner, and a plasma TV in front of the bed decorated the room. Totio went to the table and sat down. He motioned Cassiro to go on the bed, but Cassiro sat on the floor and curled his legs close to his chest.

Cassiro stared at Totio's Nike shoes…old but covered in crazy doodles, names and stripes with permanent marker on it. The shoes almost glowed in the dark room…as Totio turned to light over the table on. He blinked as his eyes got used to the light and more tears streamed down his face.

Knock, knock, knock, came from the door as Cassiro quickly hid on the other side of the bed. Totio smirked as he passed and went to the door.

Mio burst in and quickly went to the bed; he sighed and said, "Cassiro…I am sorry. I just could not help it. Ryhiro pissed me off when I heard about how he hurts you…I am very sorry."

Cassiro just sobbed as he covered his face into his knees. He shivered and sobbed for a few minutes as Mio lay on the bed and did nothing to Cassiro. Totio closed the door and went back to his chair. Cassiro's sobs were the only noise in the room as he slowly stopped and hiccupped on his remaining tears.

Mio sat up and said, "I never…pushed you, did I?"

Cassiro sighed and shook his head. He mumbled, "I hardly known you that long…besides. I know you are gay and not attracted to me. Ryhiro…always confuses me. He just…I know that my love for him could be still there but…I cannot love him. The pain that he put me through…it still hurts."

Totio clenched his fists and said, "Did Ryhiro rape you?"

Cassiro shook his head and slowly shrugged. He mumbled, "He kissed me a few times…but nothing too physical."

Totio sighed and came closer to Cassiro.

Cassiro could smell his thick cologne…like evergreen mountains as he could see the thick sweat pants from in between his legs. He bit his lips and mumbled, "Please…don't touch me…"

Totio said, "I would never hurt you. Please, look at me."

Cassiro slowly did as those brown eyes…Totio smiled with his whole heart as he said, "its okay, Mio and I will keep Ryhiro away from you. Okay? I will do whatever I can to help."

Totio gently touched Cassiro's face and wiped his tears away. His face slowly inched closer to Cassiro's as Cassiro gasped and kept Totio away.

Cassiro blushed and said, "Way too fast! Not that fast! Please…not that…" He sighed when Totio held his hands into Cassiro's as Totio advanced and kissed Cassiro's forehead. He gulped as his heart raced faster; he did something that he would never do…he captured Totio's mouth with his.

Totio gasped but pressed back for more. They enveloped their arms around each other as Totio licked and sucked into Cassiro's mouth. Cassiro groaned and allowed the tongue evasion; he wrapped his arms tightly around Totio's head as they moaned and rubbed their mouths close together. Totio backed Cassiro to the bed as he rubbed Cassiro's face and kept pressing for tongue. Cassiro allowed Totio in as he shivered and gasped; he shoved Totio away and turned purple.

Cassiro's eyes enlarged as he breathed, "I…am…so…sorry…that was…" He was turning deeper crimson at Totio's passionate smile and his hand rubbed Cassiro's face.

Totio said, "I never knew…you were that into me…so, do you want to go out? I live in Tokyo…do you?"

Cassiro yelped, "ACK!" He quickly jumped out of the way and backed to the wall. His breathing was ragged as he stood there…Totio came to him again. Cassiro could not move…as Totio kissed him again.

Totio slowly put his body closer to Cassiro as Cassiro moaned and wrapped his arms around Totio again. They rubbed their mouths closer as they moaned and rubbed more into each other. Cassiro rubbed his fingers into Totio's hair as Totio's hand wrapped around Cassiro's waist. They got closer as their mouths roamed each other deeply…

Cassiro…never felt this stupid and…involved with anyone this quickly. He allowed Totio's tongue and mouth to roam over his…the rare emotions and desire…it overflowed from Cassiro into Totio than back to Cassiro… He felt like he was drowning…then getting air…then just adoring the motions in his mouth. Cassiro gasped and roamed for more…Totio did not rush but did not hold back… They moaned and continued their oral sex.

Totio backed Cassiro to the wall as they rubbed their bodies closer. Cassiro opened his legs a little more as Totio came into the opening… They kept kissing as Cassiro opened his eyes and realized what was happening. Cassiro groaned and gently pushed Totio off. Totio moaned and gasped for breath…as they looked at each other.

Cassiro knew he was red but…he could not go that far. He tried to say the words, but Totio said breathlessly, "we…need to…talk."

Totio smirked as Cassiro nodded. He backed away, but Cassiro quickly got back into Totio's arms. Totio shivered but giggled as he embraced Cassiro close to him. He gently tipped Cassiro's head up as he said, "relax…I think we need…some space…"

Cassiro admitted, "I never kissed a man like that…I always…was the dominated one…"

Totio snickered and said, "You are a pretty good kisser for an uke."

Cassiro turned purple and moaned, "you know about…yaoi?"

Totio snickered and whispered, "Yaoi…is my porn…can't help it. I always adore the ukes with a fighting spirit…it makes me horny."

Cassiro yelped and did not release Totio. He stared into Totio's eyes as Totio smirked and looked into Cassiro's eyes. They breathed a little rugged from their kiss and the heated emotions from between them…their mouths reconnected.

Totio pressed in for more as Cassiro allowed it and wrapped closely around Totio's shoulders. Cassiro found kissing lip ring not that painful…as Totio slowly stopped and rubbed his face around Cassiro's. They moaned as they looked at each other. Their breathing was rugged as they blushed at each other. Cassiro shivered at Totio's blushing face, but Totio giggled breathlessly. They did not part as they kept looking deeply into each other's eyes.

Mio slowly said, "Do you want me to leave?"

Cassiro screamed and shoved Totio off his feet. He backed to the wall and stared huge eyed at Mio. His mouth could not utter a sound as he gasped for a word and breath.

Totio laughed and smirked at Cassiro. He turned to Mio and said, "You…owe me big for that one…idiot."

Mio snickered and said, "you two should talk…so Cassiro, do you want to date Totio or not?"

Cassiro stared at Mio then to a smirking Totio. He blinked as he closed his mouth and returned to his normal color. His voice was slightly calmer as he said, "never."

Totio lost his smile and said, "you kissed me…do you do this for fun by kissing other men then dumping them to the floor?"

Cassiro glared at Totio and snarled, "I do not fuck men over! Unlike you! You think your pretty face, words, or kindness change a goddamn thing! No, I may have given you a kiss, but this was just a vacation thing."

Totio stood and said, "This is not you, so stop pretending to be a tough guy. What do you want from me? I am not the type to kiss and forget easily."

Cassiro said, "Do not test me! I am not a simple uke!"

Totio snarled, "So you rather take shit from a heterosexual teenager that confuses you to tears!"

Cassiro stiffened and growled, "I…do not need your help!"

Totio backed Cassiro to the wall and said, "I refuse to forget you or this night. I want to date you in a kind and gentle fashion…but if I need to prove my feelings to you. I would gladly beat the living shit out of Ryhiro for you."

Cassiro snarled, "If you do that, I would never forgive you. Like Mio…I dislike him right now too."

Mio sighed and walked out. The door slammed gently after him.

Cassiro glared at Totio and said, "Back off."

Totio looked at him and said, "please tell me your number…I want to know more about you."

Cassiro snarled, "Fuck you."

Totio backed away and sat on his bed. He said, "You need help! One minute crying then kissing me than snarling! What the hell is wrong with you?"

Cassiro said, "I got swept in the moment! It happens all the time…get over yourself and…" He stormed to the door as he finished, "this is—"

Totio slammed the door closed as he breathed over Cassiro's ear. He whispered, "I can be devilish, you know. My boyfriends have told me that I am addicting…but very patient. I will wait, but I can guarantee you this…if you leave this onsen without telling me your phone number. I will find you again. Trust me…I will."

Cassiro snarled, "I will call the police, you fucking stalker."

Totio snickered and gently turned Cassiro around. He gently rubbed his lips over Cassiro's. Cassiro tried to keep angry…to keep focus…but their mouths reconnected as their bodies twisted into each other. Totio rubbed deeper and slowly… Cassiro gasped and pressed for more…trying to remember why he got angry…he was losing all resolve and begging for that addicting kiss…

They moaned as their kissing resumed. Totio enveloped Cassiro close as Cassiro leaned closer to Totio. They licked each other's lips as Totio snickered and said breathlessly, "damn…tell me your phone number…please…I need to know."

Cassiro breathed, "No…"

Totio stiffened and said, "Why did you kiss me if you are not interested?"

Cassiro looked at Totio and said, "Teenager hormones…I blame them…"

Totio snickered and said, "I will believe that…when pigs fly to Saturn… You are interested." He backed away and said, "If you are not, I am extremely interested in you." His eyes…so dark and so passionate…Cassiro could not rip his eyes away…

Cassiro opened and closed his mouth. He said and turned away, "you are older…why do you want me?"

Totio said, "Because you are interesting…I want to know who you are."

Cassiro blushed and said, "I could be something you hate…"

Totio said as he titled Cassiro head towards his. He said, "there is something else on your mind…I can see it in your eyes. Tell me. I will do whatever it takes to help and protect you…" His hands rubbed Cassiro's face as he came closer to Cassiro's face.

Cassiro mumbled, "I am…fine…"

"Liar." Totio said all over Cassiro's face…like a scar and trying to deepen it on his skin…

Cassiro gulped and moaned. He shivered as his heart raced and his body just could not fight Totio's advances…he wanted this. Cassiro was shocked by his own desire…as he recaptured Totio's lips.

Totio moaned as they gently rubbed and moaned when they parted. He said, "Damn…I usually do not kiss my boyfriend until the sixth date…please do not think I am a slut…I really, really, really…like you. You…also kissed me first, remember?"

Cassiro moaned and nodded. He said, "I need…time to think…"

Totio backed away and said, "I will give you until the time you leave. I have to return to Tokyo for spring semester."

Cassiro blinked and said, "You go to college?"

Totio snickered and said, "yep, my senior year. I am studying to get my business degree."

Cassiro stared at his metal piercing as Totio laughed again. Totio said, "These are removable."

Totio took out the lip, eye brow, and nose ring…he looked very…hot, seductive and…wow. He smirked and said, "I wear these on my vacation or when I am on campus. Unfortunately, soon I have to abandon my love for piercing when I take over the family business."

Cassiro blinked and said, "What is your family business?"

Totio said, "Groceries."

Cassiro blinked twice and said, "You are going to take over…a grocery store?"

Totio nodded and said, "Didn't expect that, huh?"

Cassiro nodded and said, "Your shoes and piercings…I thought you were an art major."

Totio snickered and said, "No, no, no…one of my boyfriends was. He went a little crazy on my shoes, and I asked him to pierce me."

Cassiro said, "How many boyfriends did you have?"

Totio said, "Three."

Cassiro blushed and said, "I…well…"

Totio gently came back and held Cassiro's hand. He lifted Cassiro's hand and kissed it. His voice was tender as he said, "I will never hurt you. I may have some more experience than you, but every new relationship is like being a virgin again…you have to change for your new lover. Relax Cassiro…I will be very gentle."

Cassiro gulped as his heart could not calm down. His mouth and body wanted another kiss…and another…and another… He mumbled, "Damn…."

Totio looked at him as Cassiro said, "my name…is Jubular, Cassiro…that is all the information you are getting from me!"

Cassiro turned purple as Totio pulled him close for a hug.

Totio said, "Can I still call you Cassiro?"

Cassiro mumbled, "Yes…you can..."

Totio sighed happily as they looked into each other's eyes. They leaned close for another kiss but…they gently backed away from each other. Totio went to his bed and said, "Good night…and have sweet dreams…Cassiro."

Cassiro blushed crimson and tried to get out…his hands were so sweaty and near impossible to open anything. His heart raced and his mind was still deluded by the kiss… He gasped when he smelt and felt Totio's body close to his; Totio opened the door, and he whispered his phone number into Cassiro's ear. Cassiro stood there as he moaned and leaned back onto Totio. Totio smirked and held Cassiro close.

Totio said, "you better go…you have a long day tomorrow…you might need your sleep."

Cassiro mumbled, "I might never sleep…"

Totio gently shoved him out and said, "You will…if you want to imagine my face again." He winked as he closed the door.

Cassiro was so tempted to knock the door down and ravage Totio's mouth again…and again…and many times more… He gulped and yearned for water or Totio's saliva to calm his desire… His body slowly moved to the elevator as he lowered to his room level. He quickly opened the door and slammed onto his bed. Cassiro wrapped his blankets around him and moaned…

Totio was right…the moment Cassiro closed his eyes…Totio was there without his piercing and smiling at him. The vision was addicting as Cassiro imagined kissing him again…the heat, the untamed emotions, and the addiction…Cassiro never wanted to hit and kiss the same man so much in his life… He was slightly scared, but mostly…addicted to this new man in his life…