A/N: Ok. I have a question for all of you lovely readers. What would you like me to do? Would you rather I postpone the rest of the story until I finish it, or wait the long distance in between chapters? Please let me know. Now on to the next chapter. Oh also I changed my pen name to kairiyuna15 because well I'm now 15, and have been since April but I thought it would be cool to change it every year when I turn a year older. Just so you all know.
Chap14.
"You're what?" Paine asked.
"I'm pregnant." I said walking over to the sink and cupping my hand under the running water to rinse my mouth out.
"How far along are you?"
"I'm going on my second month tomorrow." I replied.
"Does Gippal know?"
"Yea, him, pops, Brother, though he was very pissed and looked like he wanted to kill Gippal, you and the doctor, who confirmed it, are the only ones who know. We don't too many people to know, about it though. You may tell Baralai, and I guess we should tell Yuna and Tidus, but that's all we'll tell until I start showing."
Paine was silent for a moment. Then she smiled at me, she actually smiled, and I smiled back. "Hey, let's go to the kitchens, and get something to eat."
"But, the meeting . . . " I started.
"The guys can handle it without us."
"Sure, why not."
On our way to the kitchens we bumped into one of the many priests still residing here.
"Good afternoon Lady Paine, and guest." He said, saying the last part somewhat venomously.
Paine definitely caught his tone of voice. "Hey, when you address a guest you will do it politely. Do I make my self clear?" She said or rather should I say snapped at the priest.
"Yes ma'am, I am truly sorry." He said, facing me and bowing, though he still glared at me. "Is there anything I can do for you?" He asked Paine.
"Yes there is. You can go inform Sir Baralai, and his guest that the ladies have gone down to the kitchens."
"As you wish." He said bowing again.
"I'm sorry Rikku." She began.
"Paine, it's ok. I lived fifteen years of my life like this, small things like that don't bother me too much anymore. Things have gotten better in the two years since Sin was defeated. Although, that guard that escorted us here could be spoken to. He annoyed me the most. He was so cold toward us." I said.
"I know, and we're sorry but he was the only guard we could spare. The rest are assisting the police and protecting potential targets for the bombings that have been happening lately."
"That's all right, in fact you didn't really have to do that, I mean I'm touched that you did and all."
"No we really did have to send someone to escort you, with all of the bombings it's not safe at all for any Al Bhed to wander the streets anymore."
"Has it really gotten that bad?"
"I'm afraid so."
I just merely sighed as we continued our journey to the kitchens. Before we knew it, we were there.
"So, onto a lighter subject. What do you think you can eat right now?" She asked me.
"I don't know, maybe crackers for now. Do you have any ginger ale? (I know probably not in their world)." I replied.
"I'm sure we do somewhere." She said, searching through all of the numerous cabinets in the kitchens. "Ah here we go." Paine said taking out the crackers along with some peanut butter. Paine then went to the fridge and took out some butter and ginger ale, while I got the cups, plates, knives and napkins.
We sat down at one of the counter tops and started munching on crackers with peanut butter and some with butter, sipping the ginger ale.
"So how's married life?" I asked.
"Not to bad. Baralai's a great guy. No matter how much work he may have, he always makes time for us. Whether it be dinner or trips to the sphere theater, or even just alone time. He always finds time to spend with me, and it he's to busy, he includes me in whatever he's doing." She responded.
"Awww that's so sweet. So any children in the near future?" I teased.
She laughed "No, not yet we prefer to wait a while on that."
I just stuck my tongue out at her.
"So what about you? How has Gippal taken to you being pregnant?"
"Pretty well actually. Though he won't admit it to me, I know that he feels bad whenever I get sick. I think he partially blames himself. That and he's a little over protective, but otherwise not to bad. But we still want this baby more than ever, and we're going to finish this investigation together." I replied.
We were both quiet for a few minutes, both of us reflecting on how much our lives have changed since the defeat of Sin and Vegnagun.
"It's weird, ya know. I never thought I could ever be this happy. I have a great fiancee who loves me and our baby very much. I never thought I would get to see a time when my people weren't hated. I'm glad that I have, but now sigh now though, we're being hated and accused for a crime we haven't committed." I said.
"I can only imagine what it must be like, but I can assure you that your friends will always be here for you, Baralai and I included, no matter where we may be years form now, we will always be there." Paine told me.
"Thanks Paine." I said with a smile.
All of a sudden there was a loud explosion, the room shook, and the lights went out. When the room shook, I fell off my chair and landed on my butt.
"Owie." I moaned.
"Rikku, are you all right?" Paine asked form the other side of the counter.
"Yea, I just landed hard on my butt." I said blinking back the tears that sprang into my eyes form the initial impact of my butt making an acquaintance with the floor.
A few minutes later the guys came running in.
"PAINE!" Baralai shouted through the dark.
"RIKKU!" Gippal shouted at the same time as Baralai.
"I'm over here." Paine said, as Baralai followed her voice.
"And I'm down here." I said, still on the floor.
Paine changed into her Alchemist dress sphere. "Everyone shield your eyes for a minute." She said, throwing a flash bomb up into the air to light the room.
With the little light that still lingered from the bomb Gippal found me still on the floor. When he found me, he bent down to my level.
"Are you ok?" He asked.
"Yea, I just fell on my butt. Hard." I replied.
Gippal stood up and then took my hands in his and pulled me up to my feet.
"What happened?" I asked Baralai.
"We don't know. Why don't we go and see?"
So we all walked to the bottom floor of Bevelle, me of course walking a little weird due to the fact that my butt was still a little sore. But anyway when we got there we were very disturbed by what we saw. What we saw was the racist guard, practically blown to pieces. I quickly swallowed a wave of nausea.
His arms and legs were almost completely severed, his eyes were open and bloodshot, and there was blood every ware. He had gashes all over his body. His eyes were wide in shock and pain and his mouth was open also.
I turned around and buried my head in Gippal's chest as he wrapped his arms tightly around my waist.
"What the . . . " Was all Gippal or Baralai could say, and Paine went noticeably pale and had a pain stricken face. Baralai also wrapped his arms around her.
Within seconds the Bevelle police had arrived. We were all taken to separate rooms and were asked to give statements. Gippal came close to fighting with then to stay with me.
"She just saw a dead body. She's in shock and you want to question her alone?" Gippal shouted.
"Sir, I understand your concern, but we'll make sure that she'll be ok." The police officer replied.
"Yea but she's . . . " Gippal started and then trailed off.
"She's what?" The officer asked curiously.
"Never mind. Look can I please just go in with her? I promise I'll keep my mouth shut." Gippal pleaded.
"Gippal, it's ok. I'll be fine." I told him.
"Yea but you're . . . " He said but I cut him off.
"I know Gippal."I said putting my hand on the side of his face. "I'll be fine."
He nodded his head as I walked off with the officer. He led me into one of the rooms and me to have a seat.
"I'm just going to ask you a few simple questions. All right?" He asked.
"Ok."
"Let's start with your name."
I hesitated for minute. "If I tell you my name can you promise that neither my name nor my fiancee's name will be release to the press or to anyone." I said.
"We'll do the best we can." He replied.
"Alright. My name is Rikku."
A look of recognition crossed his face. "The Lady Rikku? The one who helped to defeat Sin?"
I sighed. "Yes. Wait how do you know who I am? Hardy anyone except for my family and the Al Bhed race know that I helped Yuna to defeat Sin." I asked incredulously.
"I'm half Al Bhed my self. I just got lucky enough not to get the hair or the eyes so no one realized what I was." He replied.
"Then you know why I don't want our names to be leaked to the press." I said.
"Yes I understand. So can I ask you what you, the Lady Paine, Praetor Baralai, and Gippal were doing before and during the blast?"
"Wait a minute. I never mentioned Gippal's name." I said
"I recognized him form the Machine Faction."
"Right." I said a little suspiciously, but I continued anyway. "Paine and I were in the kitchens talking and catching up on current events because it's been awhile since we had the chance to talk. Baralai and Gippal were discussing important matters, in Baralai's study." I said "Paine and I were in the kitchens when we herd the blast and felt the building shake. The power went out and a few minutes later. Baralai and Gippal ran in to see if we were ok. Then we went downstairs to see what had happened. Then we saw . . . We saw." I couldn't finish. Images of the body came sharply into focus.
"Thank you Lady Rikku. We have all we need to know from you. You've been a great help." The officer said.
I nodded my head yes as he opened the door for me. Gippal was already waiting for me.
"Are you all right?" He asked as he noticed my slighted distracted look as I tried to clear my head of the images running through my mind.
I smiled at him, hiding the emotional turmoil I was feling at having seen the body. "Yea, I'm fine. It was just a few simple questions."
"Alright. Let's go find Paine and Baralai." He answered. If he recognized my false smile, he didn't show it.
Baralai and Paine were a couple of rooms away waiting for us. Paine as always looked bored as she stood standing against the wall with her arms and ankles crossed.
"So what did they ask you?" Paine asked with a slightly more annoyed voice than usual.
"He asked me what we were doing at the time of the explosion, and what my name was." I replied.
"Did you tell them your name?" Gippal asked.
"Yea, and he recognized me from the time I helped Yunie defeat Sin. I made him promise not to release my name or yours if you had told them."
Gippal's face paled slightly.
"Gippal, what's wrong?" I asked worriedly.
"Well I didn't think that you would give your name and so when they asked why I was so worried I told them you were pregnant, and that you shouldn't get too stressed out." Gippal told me.
"Please tell me you didn't."
"Sorry. I didn't think that you would actually give your name."
"Yea but everyone knows that we're engaged because of Yuna's speech. Besides if he watched the speech than he would've already known who we were. We had better hope that, that doesn't get leaked out. Other wise that will start a huge controversy, and that nosy reporter Shelinda will hunt us down for 'the scoop', and I really don't want to deal with her, and if we do end up in the news then everyone will defiantly recognize us and we won't be able to finish the investigation in quiet. Now I know why Yuna lives on Besaid." I said muttering the last part to my self.
"Sorry." He answered.
I sighed. "It's ok so what did they ask you guys?" I asked Paine and Baralai.
"They asked us for our autograph, and then they inquired about you two. They didn't ask anything about the investigation. I didn't tell them anything except that you two were close friends and when they wanted more information I left the room and Baralai followed me out. Oh and by the way Baralai, did you notice that guys eyes? He was Al Bhed. Since when did the Bevelle police force include Al Bhed. I thought the people still hated them too much to allow that?" She said.
"No, I didn't notice his eyes. And there aren't any Al Bhed on the police force for the very same reason you mentioned. That and no Al Bhed live in Bevelle." He replied.
"Wait they let you in with Paine, but I couldn't go in with Rikku? Why?" Gippal asked sounding very pissed.
"Probably because I'm the Praetor and she's my wife. Unfortunately because of that we get treated differently." Baralai said as he returned to the conversation. Gippal did the same.
"But the cop who questioned us was Al Bhed. I saw the eyes." She said.
"And the cop who questioned me said he was half Al Bhed when I asked him how he knew who I was. But if what you say is true. Then he was either lying or he managed to sneak into the police force because he didn't have the Al Bhed eyes or hair. But if he was lying then how did he know who we were?"
"I don't know, but I think it would be best if the both of you stay with us tonight in one of the guest rooms. I'll call the real police and Paine and I will give our statements, and tell them about the imposters. But in order to do this Paine and I are going to have to release your names, and Rikku, we might have to tell them you're pregnant, if they ask us what you two told the imposters.
"It doesn't matter anymore, tell them anything you need to. I should've realized something was wrong. The real police would've let Gippal in with me if they only wanted a statement. That and Paine said that we needed the escort because we're hated to much, so if that was true than why would the Al Bhed be on the Police force. And he would've known about us if he watched Yuna's speech."
"Rikku, don't blame yourself. You couldn't have known. They fooled all of us." Paine said.
I looked at her, still not used to this new Paine. A Paine who's more open and shows more emotion, but I smiled at her none the less.
Then out of no where I started to feel tired as I stifled a yawn.
"Why don't I show you to your rooms while Baralai calls the real police?"
"No, not yet. We should be here when you give your statements. Only we know what we said." I replied.
"But Rikku, you're pregnant, you need your rest." Paine said.
I sighed. "I know I'm pregnant. Can you all just stop reminding me? After a while, when that's all you constantly hear it get slightly annoying. All of a sudden everyone thinks they know what's best for you as if they've been through it themselves, when they haven't." I snapped.
As soon I did that I quickly covered my mouth, shocked that I got that mad. "Oh my faith, I am so sorry, I never meant to snap at you like that."
But they didn't seem to mind.
"It's ok Rikku, we know you didn't mean it. It's just the mood swings talking." Paine answered.
"This sucks. I love being pregnant, I'm just not crazy about the mood swings and morning sickness." I said pouting.
Gippal just chuckled slightly as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"I'm sorry Neggi," He said calling me by my name if it were to be translated into Al Bhed, even though it's an Al Bhed name.(kinda lame nickname but I couldn't think of anything else)
"For what?" I asked.
"For everything."
I think that Baralai and Paine sensed that this conversation was going to become personal so they left to go call the real Bevelle police.
"Gippal, don't be."
"But Rikku, I feel so bad. We're only 18, and already we're expecting our first child. Look what I've done to you. I got you pregnant, and you're only 18." He said to me.
"Gippal look at me. I knew the risks when we did this, I knew exactly what could've happened, and I didn't care. I love you more than anything. I don't care if I'm only 18 and pregnant. I want this child more than anything, and I want you to want it too. So please don't blame yourself for anything. I have no regrets." I told him.
"I want this child more than anything too Rikku, and I also love you more then anything. I just hate it when you get sick, and I feel bad. I also feel bad when you snap at someone when you didn't mean to." He said.
"I know, but weather or not we waited a couple of years to have a child I'd still get sick and I'd still be moody. It all comes with pregnancy Gippal. That and my stomach getting bigger. There's nothing we can do to stop it, so please don't feel bad."
"Are you sure? No regrets?"
"Absolutely."
He hugged me tightly, then kissed me deeply.
"Ah-hem" We heard quietly.
When we heard this we pulled apart, and saw Paine and Baralai, standing in the doorway, looking away slightly.
"Hiya Paine, what's up?"
"The real police are on the way. They said that they were on the way when they heard the blast, but couldn't get through because someone had blocked all of the streets with fiends. They don't know who, but there was at least one hundred on all of the streets leading here, and they had to protect the people and kill the fiends to get through. But they should be here soon. Are you going to talk to them also?" Asked Paine.
"Yes. Only I know what I said to him and what he said to me." I said.
"Alright. Gippal, are you talking to them too?" Paine asked
"Yes, and I'll be right by Rikku's side." He said , his arm tightening around my waist.
"Alright. Then we might as well wait here."
It only took five minutes, from when we sat down, till the police arrived. This time I had no doubt about who they were. They had a different air about them. It felt authoritative. Like they knew exactly what they were doing, and there was to be no fooling around.
There was four altogether, and they looked a little beat up, and a little worse for wear.
"Praetor Baralai, Lady Paine." They said with respective nods, "and guests."
The one who looked like their chief stepped forward slightly. "Praetor Baralai, Lady Paine, please forgive us for being so late, and letting a few fiends stop us."
"Nonsense, what happened was not your fault, not to much harm has been done, though we need you to call the proper authorities to deal with the only causality." Baralai replied.
"Gentleman, would you allow me to call a white mage to attend to your injuries and restore your strength?" Paine asked.
It was weird to hear Paine talk like a "lady" and with such a proper attitude.
"That would be most gracious of you. Yes we would allow that if you can spare one." He said.
"Paine if I may, and if neither of you nor they would object, I could heal them. I have mastered the arts of white magic." I suggested.
"If you wish. Do you object sir?" Paine asked.
"Oh, I could not trouble your guest, Lady Paine."
"It would be no trouble at all." I replied.
"Very well, we would honored."
I quickly changed dress spheres, and carefully observed each of their injuries, silently deciding which spell is best for each. One of them needed a simple curaga spell, another needed an antidote and a curaga, the next needed eye drops, and the chief needed a holy water and curaga. After they were all healed and returned to full strength, I changed back into my thief outfit, fighting back a wave of dizziness.
"Thank you, we are truly indebted to you." The chief replied.
"Think nothing of it. The only thing I can ask of you would to please not be to judgmental of me or my fiancee because of our race." I replied.
"With you selfless act, I wouldn't think of it. Never in all my years have I seen nor heard of an Al Bhed willingly help someone else." He replied.
"That's because my people were never given the chance. We were always forced to stay hidden. We would never go out of our way to hurt anyone." I answered.
"I see that now and regret my error. Please forgive me." He asked. Asked with a bow.
I was completely taken aback. I never expected this. "You are forgiven." I answered "Thank you. Well shall we continue the investigation?" The chief asked.
The chief and one his men led Gippal and I to one room and Paine and Baralai to another.
"So, why we start from the beginning. What happened today?" The chief asked as the other officer sat down and took out a notepad to take our statements.
"At Around twelve Gippal and I arrived at Bevelle harbor and was escorted to Baralai's study, so we could discuss important maters. After about ten minutes, I asked to Paine to show me where the bathrooms were. From there we decided to go to te kitchens to go get something to eat while Gippal and Baralai continued the discussion. Paine and I were in the kitchens for about a half an hour when we heard the explosion and felt the room shake. Due to the explosion the light went out, and a few minuets later Baralai and Gippal came in to see if we were ok. We then proceeded to go down to the lower level, and when we got there we saw the damage the explosion had caused." I said, not wanting to recall the images of the body.
"The explosion had caused the death of the security guard." Gippal said taking over for me. "After a few minutes, people claiming to be the bevelle police came and insisted on taking our statements. They wouldn't let me in with her and so I argued with them. But rikku had insisted that she would be fine and I trust her judgement. So, I let her go while I was taken into another room to be questioned. They asked me why I was so reluctant to let her be questioned alone, and why I was so worried about her. I told them why. I told them that she was pregnant and that she shouldn't be stressed to much, and if they made her recall the image of the security guards body it might freak her out to much. Now I only reveled this because I didn't think she would give them her name." Gippal said.
"Why would it be bad if they knew her name and knew that she was pregnant?" the chief asked.
I hesitated for a second. "My father is the leader of the Al Bhed. I'm next in line to take over once he steps down, since my brother isn't competent enough to be our leader, or leader of anything for that matter. Gippal and I are investigating the destruction at Djose temple. Gippal was the leader of the Machine Faction. We had no knowledge of the other explosions until today. We had been visiting my father, who is in the hospital at Bikanel island, for serious injuries he had received from an unknown attacker.
"Forget the fact that the people of Spira don't know who my father is, they know me from my actions in helping Yuna defeat Sin and Vegnagun, f they had found out that I was pregnant before I was married, then that would've caused a huge controversy and my fiancee and I would not be able to finish our investigation on our own. We don't feel like having reporters follow us and trying to interview us and getting in our way. Plus, as I mentioned before, the people of Spira know that I helped Yuna defeat Sin and Vegnagun and they might think she's involved in some way, all though I don't know where she stands on this subject just yet considering that I haven't talked to her in a while." I replied
"I see, so what happened after that?"
"While they were questioning me, they asked me to recall what had happened." I replied taking over the conversation again. "The one guy reveled to me, though I'm sure he was lying, that he was half Al Bhed and just got lucky enough to not get our blonde hair or green eyes, and I believed him. I told him my name and I told him exactly what happened. I told them everything I told you." I finished.
"Hmmm, that could be a problem if it does get leaked to the press."
I put my head in my hands, again wondering why anything can't go right for once., and slightly mad at myself that I didn't realize they were lying. I should've realized that he was lying because of hair and eye traits are dominate genes and that even if he was half Al Bhed he would've gotten our hair and eye color. "I messed things up big time, didn't I?" I asked.
"You made an honest mistake, anyone would've done it." The chief replied.
"Yea but..." I started
"Rikku, it's ok." Gippal told me.
I just nodded my head.
"And what did you tell them?" He asked Gippal.
'I argued with them for a little while and then they asked why I was so adamant about being with her, and as I said before, I accidentally let slip she was pregnant and shouldn't be stressed out. I'm just a bit over protective." He admitted sheepishly.
"First child?"
"Yea."
"I was the same way when Marley, my wife, was pregnant with our first. It's only to be expected. You'll realize in time that women instinctively know what they can and can not do and that she'll be fine. Anyway, what happened next?"
"Well then they asked me the same thing they asked Rikku. I told them everything she did up to the part when she and Paine left. Baralai and I had continued our discussion and about 15 to 20 minutes later we heard the explosion and felt the building shake. Then the both of us, worried about our significant others, ran down to the kitchens, because they had told one of the priests to let us know where we were, to see if they were ok. When we were sure that they were ok we decided to go and see what had happened. We discovered the body of the only casualty, and the rest you know." Gippal finished.
For a few minutes the only sound to be heard was that of the other police officer writing on the notepad.
"Ok. Well thank you for your help, it should prove to be very useful." the chief said, as we all stood up to leave, and shook our hands.
We stepped out of one of the side rooms and saw, that thankfully, the body of the guard had been dealt with.
Paine and Baralai walked out a few minutes later. The police all gathered and turned to us.
"Thank you Lady Paine and Sir Baralai, and honored guests, for all of your help, and we offer our deepest regrets that we couldn't have gotten here sooner." the chief us.
"That's alright. Not to much damage has been done." Baralai replied.
"Well, we shall be returning to the station and start to review our notes, and will continue our investigation form there. We shall try our hardest to find the imposters and I personally promise we will do the best we can to ensure nothing is leaked to the press, Lady Rikku." He said acknowledging my status as an equal.
"Thank you. You have no idea how much that means to me." I replied.
With one final bow, the chief and his men left.
A huge yawn came over me as I quickly tried to hide it. I was surprised at how quickly I got tired lately.
I gave a small squeak as I felt my feet leave the floor, and quit suddenly found myself in Gippal's arms.
"Permission to carry my princess to our room?"
"Permission granted, my prince." I responded coyly.
"Would the lady Dr. P" Gippal said grinning. "Kindly show us where our room is?"
Paine waked up to us, smacked Gippal and said "Right this way."
Our room was located on the third floor, the same floor as theirs incase anything happened, we could find each other easily.
"Thank you Dr. P, Much obliged." He said
She glared slightly at him and walked away muttering under her breath.
The room was huge. It looked like one floor of a normal house. The living room was furnished in blues and white, with a T.V. on the right wall. To the left of the living room the kitchen with all of the latest appliances and black and white tiling. Through the kitchen was a short hallway leading to the bedroom. The bedroom was decorated in a reddish pink, and the bed was huge.
I couldn't resist, so as soon as Gippal put me down, I ran and jumped onto the bed, face first. It was so unbelievably comfortable. It felt like I was laying on a cloud. Gippal kicked off his boots and joined me. I turned on my side to face him, and he did the same. I kicked off my shoes and snuggled next to him as he wrapped his arm around me and kissed my forehead lightly.
I puled my head back and kissed him lightly and I smiled ,a smile filed with love, and thankfulness that he's here beside me and to help me cope with the difficult times.
He kissed me back, and before we knew it we were making out. Not as feverishly as we usually are, but softly, tenderly.
We pulled apart after a few minutes, and just stayed in each others arms.
"I should go take a shower." I said eventually.
"Uh huh" He replied, not letting go of me.
"And in order for me to do that, you have to let me up." I said
"If you can get out of my grasp, you can take a shower." He told me.
"Ok" I replied planning to just wiggle my way out. But then he flipped me under him, effectively pinning me to the bed so I couldn't got out."
"That's not fair." I whined.
"I said to get out of my grasp. I never said what kind of grasp you had to get out of and you never asked."
"It's still not fair."I pouted.
"I think it's pretty fair. I'm kinda liking this advantage." He said leaning his head closer to mine.
I could fell his warm breath on my face and closed my eyes in anticipation. I soon felt his warm lips on my own, and wrapped my arms around his neck brining him closer to me, if that was even possible. I parted my lips and allowed his tongue access. I couldn't help the moan that escaped and Gippal moved to trail kisses down my neck. He stopped at my collar bone and surprised me when he kissed my bare stomach. I was currently wearing my thief outfit
"Hello in there." he said talking to my stomach. "I know you probably can't hear me, but it's me your daddy. I just... I just wanted you to hear my voice and know that you have a wonderful and beautiful mommy who loves you and well an average and very lucky daddy who loves you and mommy more than anything." He finished, kissing my stomach one last time.
He rested his head against my chest and I lightly started stroking his hair. I was to overwhelmed with emotion to say anything. Maybe it was my messed up hormones but that was the sweetest thing I ever heard anyone say, and I was lucky enough to have him as my fiancee.
"I guess you want to take your shower now?" He asked.
"Nah. It can wait until morning." I told him kissing the top of his head.
We eventually laid on our sides, with his arms around me, and my head resting under his chin, and that's how we fell asleep.
A/N: well how did you like it? So what do you want me to do? Do you want me to wait until I finish the entire story and then update, or update whenever I finish a chapter?