Ok. So apparently I fell and lost a couple of those brain cells that I needed, because HC has been kicking my ass lately, and you can't write Fanfic when you have multiple papers to write and you're constantly thinking you're failing. Fortunately during my down time I would write, or whenever I got a PM or review asking me to update. Believe me I heard you and I would write for you. So I have 3 chapters done, and just waiting to be Beta'd. ;) So enjoy this for now and there is more to come. :)

Elliot threw the file on his desk and drew his hand down over his face, trying to wipe the sleep from his eyes. It had been a long three weeks.

"Baby keeping you up?" Munch asked from his desk.

"Yea."

"How's Olivia?"

"She's…Ok. I guess."

"About as good as you're gonna be after losing ten years of your life, huh?"

"Something like that."

"So, what's up with Kayla? I thought she was a good baby."

"She is. It's just… Olivia never weaned her before the accident, so she's not exactly eating, but she's hungry and cranky, and it's starting to drive me crazy."

"Why can't Olivia just nurse her? It's her kid," Fin piped up from his desk.

"What if somebody asked you if some kid can suck on your nipple. How comfortable would you feel about that?" John questioned.

"It's not some kid. It's her kid."

"Yea, a kid she knows nothing about," John countered.

"That, and she hasn't been cleared by the doctor to resume nursing yet, especially with the medications she has been taking. She gets that it's her kid, and Maureen says she's been handling her a lot, but she's not eating properly and she's starting to lose weight. Her doctor says I might have to meet with a nutritionist."

"I don't get this. She's not the first kid to randomly stop nursing. They don't just stop eating."

"She eats the puréed food and oatmeal, but she still needs the milk, and she seemed to inherit both stubborn genes from me and Liv. She wants what she wants, and she's not going to give up until she gets it. No matter what."

"Oh. Well good luck with that. Let me know if I can help," Fin said before picking up the phone to place a call.

Elliot nodded and stood. It was time to turn in for the day and see how long it would take tonight to win a war with an eighth month old.

"C'mon Kayla. Please?" he pleaded with her as if she would have sympathy for her father and take the formula-filled bottle he was offering her. He was so tired right now and he knew she was hungry. She had to be. Maureen told him that she hadn't had dinner before she left for Kathy's that evening. Kayla cried and pushed away the bottle, kicking and screaming her disapproval at his dinner selection.

"Need some help?"

He looked up to see Olivia leaning against the door post. "No offense Olivia, but I really don't think you can do any better."

"Of course I can," she replied pushing off of the post and heading towards them. "I'm her mother." Upon seeing her, Kayla immediately stretched out her arms to her.

"She doesn't want formula. I don't know what you can do to magically make her like it."

"I'm not going to give her formula Elliot," she said taking her daughter from him.

"Then what are you going to give her?"

"I'm going to nurse her."

"No, that's ok. If you're not comfortable with that I don't want you to put yourself out." He stood to take Kayla from her, but she simply sidestepped him and took his place in the glider chair.

She exposed her full breast and Kayla need no encouragement as she immediately began to suckle from her. "I want to, Elliot. She's my baby, and she hasn't been eating right. She's losing weight," she said as she stared down at her and swiped away her daughter's tears.

"Are you sure you can? I mean what about the drugs."

"Doctor cleared me at my appointment yesterday, and because I've been squeezing it out every day in the shower he said it was ok," she answered, never looking up at him. She locked eyes with her baby and smiled down at her as she allowed Kayla to grip her finger.

"Oh. Ok then. I'm gonna go… make up the couch."

"K," She nodded, still not looking at him.

He left them alone, allowing them to bond with each other, although he wasn't sure that that was such a good idea. It wasn't long before Olivia came back out and joined him on the a

"Everything go ok?" He asked.

"Yea. She fell asleep while I was nursing her."

"Did you burp her?" he asked, standing to do just that.

She held out an arm to stop him. "Yes. She's fine."

"Good. So how've you been?"

"Ok. I remember some things, but not enough to make sense of anything."

"It'll come back soon."

"Hopefully. Thanks for helping me out so much. I really appreciate it."

"No problem. I'm happy to help."

" So, Elliot, refresh my memory. Tell me about you. You seem like a pretty ok guy, but I still don't know anything about you."

"Well…"

Olivia wiped the tears from her eyes as she tried to contain her laughter. They had been talking for hours about anything and everything under the sun. From his kids to his childhood to her childhood to whatever else she remembered about her life. He told her about old times working together and how great their partnership had been. How he missed working with her, and how stupid some of their suspects had been.

"God. It really sounds like we use to have a good time together."

"We did."

"Then what happened to us? You make it sound like we had this amazing relationship as partners, so you would think we were great romantically."

He sighed. He really didn't want to have this conversation again. He hated this subject, but he owed her an explanation. "I cheated on you." He looked over at her and it was like his words never fazed her. Like she already knew.

She tilted her head to the side strands of caramel and chocolate falling into her eyes, and she easily swept them to the side. "Why?"

He groaned. "Olivia, we already had this conversation, and it didn't end well."

"I'm not going to judge you or get mad at you. I just want to know what happened," she said solemnly.

"Well. I had gone over to Kathy's for dinner. It had been awhile since I'd seen them and I missed them and vice versa. I remember sitting around the table and listening to the kids tell me about what was going on in their lives and bickering and I missed it. I felt like I had left my home and I wanted to go back. I wanted that every day. I wanted to go home, and I thought about breaking up with you and asking Kathy to take me back. To see if maybe we could work something out, but I never intended to cheat on you. Never you, I would never ever do that to you." He looked her in the eye, and watched as she swiped a tear away. "Kathy and I cleaned up together and then sat down on the couch with a couple of beers and we started talking about the kids. Things that had come up. Dickie going to summer camp. Maureen's internship with some fashion company. Kathleen's behavior, and eventually it turned to other stuff. I remember laughing, a lot. The next thing I knew it was the next morning and I was in bed with her, and I never hated myself more. I knew I had to tell you and it killed me inside, because I knew you wouldn't understand. That you wouldn't listen, and you had every right not to. I knew you would hate me and that we would break up because you didn't deal with cheaters. You mentioned that before. It was then that I realized how much I loved you, and the thought of losing you killed me inside. I was in love with you," he told her sincerely.

She leaned closer to him and touched her lips tentatively to his. She paused for a moment and traced his lips with her tongue. When his lips parted she slid her tongue into his mouth and tasted him for what felt like the first time. His hand slipped into her hair and he pulled her closer to him, slipping his tongue into her mouth. She slid up onto him and straddled his lap, circling her arms around his neck. She moaned as she felt his hand slide up her bare, toned leg to caress the skin underneath her pajama shorts. His lips moved across her skin and settled on her neck. It was instinct. He knew she loved to be kissed there. She arched into him and moaned. He could feel himself getting hard, and he knew he had to stop. He couldn't do this. Not with what he was planning to do.

"Olivia we have to stop."

She continued to kiss him. "Why?" she asked between kisses.

He slid her off of him and sat her down beside him. "I'm sorry, but I can't take advantage of you like this."

"You're not taking advantage of me. I want to," she replied, caressing his cheek.

"Olivia, you barely know me. If I was some random guy would you be doing this?"

"Elliot, we've been living together for nearly a month. If we were dating I'm pretty sure we would have slept together already."

He knew she was right. He was just making excuses because of what he had to tell her. He wanted to wait a little longer, but tonight seemed to be the night."Olivia, I'm… leaving."

She looked at him with confusion in her eyes.

"Look. I know I might sound like an ass right now, but I can't do this anymore, and I can't put our daughter through it either."

"What are you talking about?"

"You don't know this, but you and I have been going through things for awhile now, and now with the accident… I just can't do it anymore. I'm going home and I'm taking Kayla with me."

"What? No! You're not taking her anywhere."

"Olivia, you can't even take care of her right now. I'm not going to keep her away from you; I just think that it's best she stay with me."

She stood and looked at him with pure conviction in her eyes. "Listen to me Elliot. I never expected you to stick around through this, and I don't expect that to change now. The fact that you lasted this long surprises me. So you can go, but don't think you can take my daughter without a fight. In fact, you can leave now, but she stays here." She walked around the couch and to her bedroom. "If she's not here in the morning, I'm calling the police and reporting your ass for kidnapping." She slammed the door behind her leaving him there, stunned

Review! Also a big thank you for reading. I am currently doing an internship and I am tired at the end of the day, but I'm still going to try and write. So take it easy on me and I have a little faith. I promise I won't let you down. :D