The next morning Lily woke up feeling horrible. However, not as horrible as she felt when she remembered why.
Lily decided to re-read the letter to see if she could try to piece together what James had been talking about. When she finished she realised why James continued to hate Severus so much. He knew about the night before the wedding.
She had never really told anyone what she had done, and James knowing was the worst-case scenario for her. No wonder he had started bothering her every time she left the house.
How had he mistreated Harry though? Harry was his son. What could have he possibly done?
Then there was Severus. How could he say that he loved her when it his fault Voldemort was after her and Harry in the first place. He should have told her right away.
Lily tore James letter apart, and shoved the pieces in the back of the night tables drawer. Today was not going to be a good day for getting out of bed.
"Liars," Lily whispered to herself, "they are all liars."
With that, she burst into tears and fell back onto her pillow.
When Severus woke up he made himself some toast with jam. He also gave Harry some of his mashed banana when Harry woke up too.
This morning Severus was smart enough not to read Harry his favourite fairy tale, and instead left Lily a note in case she woke up that he had Harry and that he was taking him to see Hagrid.
Severus didn't like Hagrid's bad grammar, but he knew Harry would like meeting more people.
"Severus!" exclaimed Harry, saying his name correctly again.
"Yes?" Severus replied, smirking.
"Ware we go?"
Severus grimaced to himself. Just when he had been thinking about bad grammar. "Where are we going." He corrected.
Harry blinked at him. "Candy store" he guessed hopefully.
Severus groaned. "No Harry, we are going to see a friend." Of course Harry was to young to understand that he was correcting his grammar.
"Why you ask me."
"Never mind Harry we are here."
Severus knocked the brown door of Hagrid's hut.
"Who's there?" a gruff voice called. Hagrid opened the door and looked at Severus Snape. "What are yeh doing here?"
Hagrid was dressed in all black. Of course, he is morning James death - I wouldn't go so far as to call it a loss though.
Severus was about to answer but Harry did instead. "Who are you?"
Hagrid looked down at Harry, who was hiding behind Severus's leg. Severus gently took Harry in his arms and picked him up. "I thought you and Harry ought to meet."
"Harry!" exclaimed Hagrid, looking a little to happy to Severus's discomfort. "Good ter see yeh! Come on in!"
"You're big." Harry told him, Squirming out of Severus's arms so he could stand on the table.
"That isn't polite Harry." Said Severus.
"S'all righ," said Hagrid. "You're just a cute 'lil tyke aren't yeh. Look just like yer-"
"Hagrid!" Severus said sharply, realising he was about to say 'yer dad'.
Hagrid looked at him blankly for a moment. "Oh, righ - must be hard fer him…" Finally mis-understanding Severus.
Severus relaxed. True it wasn't hard on Harry that his father was gone, but right now he figured it best to mention James around Harry.
The rest of the time they spent with Hagrid was uneventful - except for when Harry petted fang and Fang decided to 'adopt' him. Fang got Harry to lay down on the dog bed, while Fang put a paw over him and began licking him. Harry giggled quite a bit. Severus and Hagrid had to spend a long time getting Harry from the growling protective Fang . Severus could not wait to tell Lily all this.
Once they were back in the castle Severus took Harry to Lily's compartments. He let Harry sit on the kitchen table with some crayons and muggle paper, after putting childproofing spells on them and all around the room.
He knocked on Lily's bedroom door. There was no answer. A little worried Severus decided to open the door.
Lily was lying sideways on the bed facing him. He face was red, and Severus could tell that she had been crying.
"Lily" Severus said, shaking her awake.
The moment she awoke he felt a sound slap on his cheek.
"Hey what was that for?"
"You are a LIAR," Lily cried out angrily, "and it is all your fault that Voldemort is after me and Harry. Go to hell!"
Severus just stared at her. She knew. She must have read the letter from James.
What could he do to make things better? What could he say to her? Could he say anything to her?
It was then Severus realised her was crying. Boys don't cry. He told himself sternly. Or at least grown men don't. Stop it Severus. Just stop it.
"I hate you." Lily told him. "I hate you so much - way more than I did last time. I hope you rot in hell for what you did. You the most disgusting, evil, ugly person I have ever met. So Leave now!"