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It was close to four in the morning and he still couldn't believe what had just happened. He had just seen a glimpse of the old Olivia. The hard-nosed cop that didn't take shit from anybody. The mother that would die before she let a scratch harm the perfect skin of their daughter, let alone let him, the child's father, take her from her.

One other thing he noticed was that he was an ass.

A.

Big.

Fat.

Ass.

Throughout her entire ordeal he had been thinking solely about himself. How this was affecting him and what this meant for him, and in the process he forgot about her. Yes, he understood that it was hard for her, but he never thought about how it was affecting her. He figured that her only worry would be about how vulnerable she was, but he forgot to look deeper. Yes, she was vulnerable, but she was also alone and had forgotten everything that had made her her for the past eight years of her life. Everything that she had once known no longer existed and there was nothing more that she could do other than to accept it.

As he sat there longer and longer and reflected on the past few hours he had spent with her, he remembered why he had fallen in love with her. It wasn't that she knew him like the back of her hand or understood him better than she understood herself, it was who she was without the badge and gun. How she was witty, caring, and kind. How she could hold her liquor and joke around with the guys. How she could become incredibly sensual and seductive when she wanted to be but tough and strong at other times. Most of all, he loved that she was sexy as hell through all of it, and he loved the way she loved him. She put her whole heart into it, and when it came down to it, she wasn't afraid to show her sensitive side. She was Olivia Benson, and despite everything that they had been through, she still held the key to his heart.

He knew then that he couldn't leave her. His Olivia was still there and whether or not she decided to re-appear, he knew he would be with her forever, because that was how much he loved her. Getting used to the new Olivia would be tough, and that was what sent him running in the first place, but he was now willing to put forth the effort and be with her no matter what.

He heard her door open and light footsteps as she made her way to the kitchen. Her throat was dry from crying and she reached into the fridge to retrieve a gallon of water. She heard him come in behind her as she filled the glass.

"What are you still doing here?" she asked without turning around. She took a long drink and nearly choked when she felt his arms circle around her waist.

"I'm sorry," he whispered into her ear.

She ignored the pull low in her belly at the feel of his warm breath on her skin. She turned around and faced him. "That doesn't mean anything to me. You wanted to leave me when I needed you the most, and take my daughter with you. You think a simple 'sorry' is going to fix that?" She tried to move past him, but he spun her back and trapped her between his arms.

"I was thinking about me and not about you. I'm so tired of being the only one fighting for us…I didn't want to put the work into rebuilding our relationship from scratch and thought it would be easier on both of us if I just left. I wanted to take Kayla because I didn't want to burden you with a kid that you didn't even know."

"She's my daughter."

"I know bu-"

"My daughter Elliot. My. Daughter." She stared deep into blue eyes while he stared deep into brown, and as she saw his fill with hope, he watched hers fill with disappointment. "I think you should go," she stated simply.

"Olivia."

"If you can't stand by me through this how the hell are we supposed to have a future Elliot?" She pushed past him and proceeded to head back to her bedroom.

"I fucked up! OK?" He yelled to her retreating back. "And I know I'm a piece of shit for doing that. And I know I keep doing it, and I'm always sorry for it every time, but you can't remember the fact that I've been fighting for you for YEARS! Every time you said no. I stood and waited until you said yes. Every time you turned me away I came back. Every time you ran away from me I came running after you. Every time you fall I'm there to catch you. Every time you go in blind I always have your back and you don't seem to realize that. You NEVER realize that!"

She visibly softened and she turned to face him. He watched as those brown eyes filled with tears and washed away the disappointment. "How do I know? How do I know you won't do it again? You know more about me than I know about myself. You know exactly how to hurt me. How to break me, and it's like…"

"I don't do it on purpose. I messed up," he took a step toward her. "But every time I hurt you. I hurt right along with you." Another step. "Every time you break I break right along with you." And another. "And you make me want to be better," He now stood before her. Merely centimeters from her, but he didn't touch her and her body hummed with the anticipation of him doing so. "You make me think more," he wiped away her tears. "Hope more," he tucked a few loose wisps of hair behind her ear. "Love more."

"Why?" she whispered.

"Because I love you. Look, you might not get your memory back, and I accept that. I still want to be with you. I'm willing to continue this journey with you, and I admit I was an ass for bailing on you, but it won't happen again. I promise. I can't… I can't lose you, Liv."

His lips touched hers and as much as she wanted to fight him, to hurt him the way that he had hurt her, she couldn't. She fell into his kiss and pulled him close to her. There was no use in fighting, when this was where she wanted to be. Where she was meant to be. Trapped in his arms and surrounded by his love. Her lips parted and he could truly taste her for the first time in what felt like forever. He ran his fingers up her smooth tanned skin, his thumb brushing over her scar. A permanent reminder of how he could have lost her for good. He pulled her closer to him and only parted from her when he felt her nimble fingers reaching for his shirt. He allowed her to lift it off of him before returning to her. He loved the moans the escaped from her as he trailed kisses down her neck.

He walked her over to the couch where he sat her down then lifted her shirt off of her. She stared up at him with desire- filled eyes and grinned at him. She crooked a finger at him and he lay her down easily beneath him. The next thing he knew they were skin to skin, heated breaths passing between them. They locked eyes as he slid inside of her and it felt like home. Her nails raked down his back as he pushed inside her, moans and desperate pleas were called out into the darkness of the night and when felt her let go and give herself to him he did the same and came deep inside her. He shifted to lie beside her and slept with his arms wrapped around her.

Hours later he woke up to darkness. He could feel the warm body curled into his side and leaned down and kissed her head. He rolled off of the couch, being careful not to wake her and looked around. Maureen would be back early in the morning and he didn't want her to find them like this. He lifted her easily off of the couch and carried her into her bedroom and tucked her into bed. He returned to the living room and removed the sheets from his makeshift bed before picking up their discarded clothes. He balled them up and tossed them into the corner of her bedroom just as she was shifting in bed.

She sat up and rested on her elbows. "Elliot?" she called into the shadows.

"Yea," he answered.

"You're coming to bed right?"

"Yea, why?"

She ducked her head shyly, hoping the darkness would conceal the gesture. "N-nothing."

He walked over to the bed and sat down beside her. He felt for her in the dark and caressed the side of her cheek. "What's wrong?"

"I just… I thought you were leaving me."

He shook his head and tilted her lips up to his. "I'm not leaving you. Ever. I'm in this for the long run."

"I love you."

"Me too," his breath caressed her lips and she leaned up and kissed him.

"Make love to me."

"Don't have to tell me twice," he chuckled.

She laughed quietly into his kiss and pulled him down against her. He slipped beneath her sheets and pressed his large, warm body against hers. He pushed inside of her and grinned when he heard her sigh. "I never get tired of hearing that."

"I never get tired of you making me do it."

He pushed deep inside her. "Good."

She arched her hips to meet his, falling into sync with him. "Elliot, what if I don't ever get my entire memory back?"

"Then you don't get it back. I'm not here because I'm waiting for things to get better. I'm sticking around because this is where I want to be. No matter what. I was an idiot before. I don't know what I was thinking. I just want to be with you." He pulled back and pressed forward again.

She moaned digging her nails into his back. "You sure," she moaned again when he pushed even deeper.

"There's no place I'd rather be."

"I know," she stopped and nipped at his lips. "But are you sure?"

"More than anything else in the world," he whispered in her ear then covered her lips with his.

Review! Also as always a big thank you for reading. I apologize for taking so long. We had major issues on this chapter. As you know I don't believe in giving you subpar work, I always try to give you all what I believe is my best, and my beta and I agreed that my first draft of this chapter wasn't my best. So I rewrote it. Then my beta was uber busy and took a little longer than normal to get it back. On the bright side she did 2 for me and the second version of this chapter (what you just read) was WAY better. So I SHOULD be posting tomorrow, hopefully all goes well and I can. If not then on Monday. :D