Chapter 8. All my fault.
EPOV
Me and Tanya drove to school in silence. "Eddie, What are we doing today?" Tanya asked as I parked the car in my normal parked spot. "I don't know." I answered. I wanted to talk to Bella. I missed her soo much. Tanya was getting on my nerves. I honestly don't know why I fell for her. When ever im around her im in love with her, and if shes not with me I cant stand her. Its so frustrating. Maybe Tanya has the power to make people do stuff that she wants them to do.. I never asked her about a power. It didn't really matter to me. The bell rang and I went to class. This day went by really slow, probably because I wanted to see Bella. Me and my family were sitting a table away from Bella's family but Bella wasn't there. I groaned. I Needed to talk to her. I wanted her to forgive me. I wanted to met our kids. Bella walked into the cafeteria a few minutes later. I looked at the clock, The bell was gonna ring in 15 minutes. This is my only change. I got up and walked over to Bella's table. "Bella." I said from behinde her. She groaned. "What Edward?" She asked not turning to face me. she's not going to forgive you, she's not going to forgive you, she's not going to forgive you, I chanted in my head. "Can I see them?" I asked. She just shook my head. The bell rang and I sighed "We'll talk about this later." I said and walked out of the cafeteria. I had biology after lunch. I winced. Bella, Bella, Bella please forgive me. I was a wreck. I needed her to say 'I forgive you' I miss her so much. I walked into biology and sat in my seat waiting for Bella. She walked in and sat next to me. "Bella, why cant I see them. Im their father." I said. "Yeah, sadly you are." She said harshly. I winced. "I am not having you meet them Edward. Because as soon as you get bored with them and me you'll leave. Just like you did to me." She said lower then before. I stayed silent for a few minutes then said. "Bella, I only left you for your safety." I told me. She laughed. "Yeah and Edward I wasn't safe. I got changed by Victoria then I go missing." She said missing with air quotes. "Charlie dies soon after, then Renee. My best friend was a werewolf, Edward I was sure as hell not SAFE!" She yelled the last part and everyone looked at us. She looked down embarrasses. I miss her blush. "Bella, I do love you and don't ever think else wise. and I did NOT get bored of you." I whispered. "Whatever." She said and the bell rang. I walked out to my car, I was skipping last period. Its healthy to ditch every once in a while. I mentally kicked my self. That's what I told Bella last time in forks. It was like everything was coming back to haunt me. Someone knocked on my window. I looked over and saw Allie? I unlocked the passenger door and she got in. "Hey Edward." She said. She was another Alice. Pixie like, bubbly. Dear lord. "Hello." I answered. "I wanted to talk about Bella." I said. I looked over at her, interested. I never really saw Allie before now. She was Alice's height with the same hair color only longer, about to her shoulder. "Okay." I said. "Bella's scared Edward, She scared you'll hurt her again." She told me. I layed my head back on the head rest on my seat. "I will never forgive myself for leaving Bella." I said pained now. She smiled sadly. "You have to fight for her Edward." She said. I nodded. "But how, She has Nathan." I asked. She shrugged. "I cant help you there Edward. I might be like Alice... But I cant see the future. I don't know yours and Bella's passed." She said. "Maybe take her to that meadow, she talks about it all the time." Allie said smiling. I smiled back. Allie was really helpful. "Thank you." I told her and she nodded. "Your welcome, make her happy again." She told me and got out of the car. I watched her walk back to the school then I started the car and drove home. I will call Alice and tell her to drive Tanya. I was in my room thinking about how to get Bella to forgive me and what Allie said today when Tanya burst throw my door. "Why Did you leave me at school, by myself!" She yelled. I got up off the bed and walked over to her. "I had stuff to deal with." I told her and walked out of the room but before I reached the door I turned around and said "I could have left you without a drive home." then left, I couldn't deal with her right now. She stomped down the stairs and sat next to Emmett in the living room. I was going to have to talk to Alice. Just then Alice came in the door with Jasper by her side. I talked to Alice about what I should do and Alice had an amazing Idea. Now all we have to do is wait.