I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT BUT I'D LIKE TO
Chapters 6 & 7 are dedicated to a Miss Jane -sorry I don't know your last name-. Thank you for all your lovely reviews and for pushing me to update. I really needed that. But thank you mom for hooking up the internet these two ladies brought the following to you. -
BeinG ChANgeD
Day 1 & 2
After placing me in the center of the sea of red (a.k.a. the bed).They all changed back into their regular clothes in the bathroom. Nick left the room while the girls changed me into a pair of pj's that were loose, and tied my hair into a loose bun. They layed down next to me while I waited for the pain to come. They all whispered that I would be okay and that the pain would be well worth it. Nick didn't enter the room again until after I was changed.
I tried to speak to them, but that proved to be a bad idea. It felt like nails were scraping the sides of my throat raw beyond belief. I cried out, not knowing what else to do. I wondered how long this would take, 3 days or more? I never asked them that. I franticly tried to figure out away to communicate with them.
Terry most of got what I was trying to do and told me to blink twice for yes and only once for no. She rattled off questions to see if that was what I wanted.
"Too hot?"
Blink
"Too cold?"
Blink
"Guys any ideas?" she asked Jenny and Mel.
"Knowing Bella, she's worrying about something" Jenny said.
Blink Blink
"Alright we got that she's worrying about, but what? Could it be?" Melisa asked
"Pain?"
Blink
"What power you'll get?" Jenny joked
Eye roll then Blink
"Hey, no need for the 'tude" Terry laughed
"Alright alright, lets think... I know" Melisa said bouncing the bed. I glared at her for making the bed flip me around.
"Oh. Sorry 'bout that Bells" She said with a sheepish grin.
"You want to know how long this is going to take? Am I right" She said
Blink Blink Blink Blink Blink Blink Blink Blink Blink Blink
"And we have ourselves a winner ladies and gents." Terry said raising Mel's arm over her head.
"The crowd goes wild, "Arrrr" "ohhh" Jenny mimicked a crowd then hopped onto the bed with me.
"Bella you don't have to worry about that, it will take 6 days in total, but before you loose it, you'll only be in pain for around...hmm... two to four days the other days your off in la-la land" Jenny stated
I was relived that I knew how long it would roughly be. I hoped that I would finally have some good luck and only have to endure two days of pain, but how my luck has been going as of late. I knew some where deep that I would be in for the long hall of four days of crazy, mind boggling and numbing pain to put up with.
Hours went by and I still couldn't feel anything nor talk, but I was okay with that. The other option was a hellish fire or something close like it. The girls never left my side for a moment, they talked about random things from what type of nail polish would go with Mel's new hair colour to who they thought would win the election McCain or Obama? I tuned in and out of their conversations, desperately trying to sleep but never getting it.
When they were talking about the 'New Kids On The Block's' come back the pain began. It started of as being very uncomfortable, I would try to shift my position (I could move by then but not speak) but nothing helped. Terry noticed and told me I had already went through 24 hours and I still had 5 days left. She seemed a bit concerned that I was already feeling pain but she just played it off as nothing.
As I was begining to get used to being uncomfortable the real pain shot through me. I screamed with out thinking and coughed up a bit of blood, it felt like lava slowly chugging its way through my veins. On top of the lava, knifes of fire were being plunged deep into my skin. I withered and hollered at the top of my lungs. Squishing my face up to try to endure the unadulterated pain I was feeling. I was in hell. I had to be, no pain was this great on earth it just wasn't possible I died during the transformation and now I was in hell. I felt my bones shatter, the heat then melting them and molding them into something different and new. I felt things rearrange and reform slowly in my body.
After what felt like four days I opened my eyes and saw they were a huddled close to me trying to cool my off. I was gulping air like a dehydrated person, I just couldn't get enough. Terrified I looked over at the clock, only four hours had passed. I didn't know if I could make the rest of the six days. When I finally caught my breath I was over come with white hot heat. I felt like had been struck with lighting . Or I was being burned from the inside out, I clawed at the sheets under me. I was pouring buckets of sweat so much that they filled the tub with frigid water and gently put me in. I couldn't think, all coherent thoughts were long gone by then. I was in the tub of water full of ice and ice cold water for half an hour (Jenny told me this part), I had to get out because I heated it so much that it began to boil with me in it. I was going to cook myself in scalding water if I was left in there for much longer.
When they got me out of the tub I barely noticed they changed the sheets from a bloody red to a royal blue. They striped me down and put buckets of ice all around me while they gave me a group hug.That took off the edge a bit but I still felt like I was put in a microwave. Waves of heat were rolling off of me, at one point it got so bad I blacked out. Retreating into my mind, I knew that I was in a huge amount of pain but I hid from it. When I was brave enough to come out of my mind to see what was happening I felt sore and just a little over heated. I feel asleep until the next day.
Day 3 & 4
I woke up feeling like the under side of crud. The lava through my veins was rapidly turning cold. So fast I was getting worried about freezing all the sweat around me. I got the attention of Jenny and she placed her hand over my for head.
"Shit Bella your freezing cold. Oh god, Terry her lips are turning blue" Jenny screamed.
"What blue? Mel turn on the hot water quick and get the hot water bottle" Terry instructed her to do.
"'Kay I'm on it" was all I heard because she had already left the room.
"It's supposed to be hot or cold. Damn it, not both." Jenny paced the room as the shower warmed up.
Jenny and Terry were keeping their distance as to not speed up the cooling process. My teeth were chattering some much I bit my tongue twice and my lips were a lovely shade of light blue by the time they got me in the shower. The shower felt like it was heaven smack dab in the middle of hell. The hot water was welcomed with wide open arms, I stayed in there for a few hours, because Melisa could control the heat to keep it hot. She later told me she was bad at keeping things cold thats how come I was only in the tub for a little while.
After Mel couldn't keep the water hot they put me in long sleeves and fleece pants. Next I was bundled in blankets and hot water bottles. I felt very toasty for a whole of 22 minutes. By then everything was as cold as me. Terry placed her hand on my cheek and was shocked to find we were the same temperature.
What hit me next no one would have guessed. Instead of lava in my veins, it was liquid nitrogen, freezing everything in it's path. My blood was slowly and excruciating painful turning into solid ice. My skin was freezing and getting stiff. I squirmed trying to keep up my circulation, but nothing seemed to help. The tears streaking down my cheeks were freezing my eyelids open and moving anything hurt. I felt like I was getting stabbed again and again with the tinyest movements. I tried to hide in my mind again but even there in my own thoughts of sun and sand were being turned into blizzards and white-outs. I felt like I was turning into a block of ice, but no where was numb from the cold, it just got worse and worse. Thankfully I snapped and I found myself surrounded in darkness. I blackout again.
When I woke up again I knew the end was near. I felt my heart slowing down and I was getting stronger. I could hear the foot steps of the animals above us and I could see everything in high definition. Still not being able to speak I looked over at Terry, she, Jenny and Melisa looked worried beyond anything I had ever seen. I wanted to tell them I was getting stronger, but I just couldn't find my voice. Instead I opened my arms for a hug, they were very sore but I needed some support. I knew the pain would be well worth it to know they were there for me. Thankfully they took the hint and came for a one.
Before I even realised it I was crying. I don't know what for, but I was and I couldn't stop. Melisa wiped them away and told me, I was on my last few days of the transformation . My pain and suffering would be over soon enough. She also told me that once my transformation was done we were moving to anywhere I wanted.
During the day I kept going in and out of consciousness. I was relieved that there was no more pain. You never appreciate how much you have until it's gone. As my heart slowed down, every now and then skipping a beat, I thought of everything that had every happened to me.
Day 5 & 6
I retreated into my mind. It was like being at a cinema, I found my self in a dark room with nothing but my memories being projected onto a blank wall. It was through someone else's eyes I saw my memories.
The first memory I saw myself walking into the cafeteria with Jessica on the first day of school. We sat down and thats when I noticed them. (A/N I'm not going to go on in detail about the memories for we all no what happened ) Next was when Tyler nearly ran me over and he saved me. The images varied in importance to me. From seeing us laying on my bed, to the first time I went to the meadow. Somehow his face was always slightly out of focus, I wasn't sure if I should be happy or not that couldn't really see his face clearly. It was probably for the better that way, I didn't need the hole in my chest to flare up.
When I was watching my memories I realized something incredible. He loved me! At least in the begining, I will always have the memories nothing can take that away from me. Plus now that I'm a vampire -well almost- I would be able to be friends with him. Maybe. But at least there would be Alice, I missed her so much, I even missed being her Barbie. I wouldn't let myself wallow in self misery anymore. Today was a new day and a new Bella. I will be the best I can be with the cards that were dealt to me.
As soon as I had this epiphany the wall burned away, and there was only light. I felt weightless, I knew that my heart had stopped. I couldn't e exactly sure when I noticed it but then I was moving toward someone, I wasn't sure who it was. It was Charlie, I saw him hunched behind his desk looking at a picture of me. He looked so sad, my heart ached at the sight. He was now more alone then ever before.
He must of felt my eyes on him, because he abruptly looked up at me. We just stared at each other for a moment. Suddenly he began to cry, "Why is he crying not like he can see me" I thought quietly to myself.
"Oh Bells I knew you were my angel but did you have to go so soon?" He choked out. I was stunned, he could see me.
"Daddy, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to leave you so early, but it's better this way. Please trust me on that. I'm sorry that I went into depression for a while, daddy." I was in tears.
"No, need to be sorry Bells. Are you alright up there?" Next thing he did surprised me. He hugged me.
"Bells I love you and now I know you'll be okay." He kissed my forehead as I hugged him back.
"I love you daddy, I'm just sorry our time together was cut so short. I love you" My tears were flowing freely by this point. Charlie gave me one more tight squeeze.
"Bella I love you. Now go where you belong" His tears were also flowing slowly.
"Bye Dad" and with that I was pulled to another familiar voice I knew.
Renee was sobbing while looking at one of our old albums. The picture she was looking at was my first trip to the hospital. I was smiling, missing my two front teeth and proudly showing off my first cast. Renee was on the floor surrounded by picture of the both of us over the years.
I appeared behind her, knowing that she could see me if she felt my eyes I waited until she was done sobbing, giving her some privacy.
"Mom" She immediately stopped going stock still.
"Mom" I tried again
Her head slowly scanned the entire room. Everywhere, where I wasn't.
"Mom behind you, please look at me" I was crying. Why wouldn't she look at me?
"NO! Bella's DEAD! MY BABY'S DEAD" She shrieked
"Mom I'm right here" I whispered. She still refused to look at me.
"OH YEAH! YEAH! I CAN'T LOOK CAUSE IF I DO THE VOICE WILL STOP AND YOU'LL BE GONE ! DAMN IT YOU'LL BE NOTHING BUT MY IMAGINATION AGAIN!" She broke down into a heap on the rug.
I couldn't take it anymore I ran (well if you want to be technical I really floated) over to her and threw my arms around her. I hugged her like my life depended on it. After a while she began to respond, we rocked back and forth . We stayed like that on the floor until she was done crying.
"Hey, are you okay?" I shook her gently to see if I could get a response from her.
"Bella is it really you" She said it such a small voice, she was so vulnerable.
"Yeah, it's me" I whispered A/N they will be whispering from then on
"Oh" was all she said for a while. It seemed like she was trying to take it all in.
"Bella, why did you leave so suddenly? Why are you here? Will you be staying?"
"I'm Sorry Mom, I never meant to leave you guys so suddenly it all happened just so fast. Jacob tried to avoid the animal and then we flipped. I'm just so sorry." I hugged her tight and never wanted to let go.
"Oh Bella. There's nothing to be sorry about. Of course we are all going to be sad, but how could we not? You were the sun on a cloudy day, the one thing I knew would always be there. I know that my marrige to Charlie wasn't the best, but I will never regret it in anyway. Why, because of that I got you and you were and are the most person in my life. I know that I'm not the most relaible person out there, but please believe me when I say that I'm so sorry, Honey." Tears were flowing downs both our cheeks like waterfalls, and mine just wouldn't stop- no matter how I tried. I wanted this to be easier for her and now that we were both in tears that certainly wouldn't happen now.
"Mom... Mom why are you sorry?" I was bewildered to why she would be sorry.
"You had to leave the love of your life, here on earth behind. Yes, I know you two weren't together at the moment, but I know you two are meant together. I have the oddest feeling that you two will meet again. Huh." She shook her head and squeezed me tighter.
"I'm being silly aren't I? Honey I love you. For now, forever and for always." And with that she let me go and kissed me on my cheek. I was once again pulled toward familiar voices, but before I left.
"Mom I'll all ways love you and Dad. Be Safe" With that I was in the dark.
Time Shift '
" Bella!...Bella!...Bella!" Some one was calling me and they were far away.
"Bella... Bella... Honey can you hear us" This time it was a different voice.
"Alright here's what we do girls we slap her." NO! I don't want to be slapped.
"Jenny have you lost your mind?" Thank God someone stopped her.
"Not like it will hurt her Terry." The Jenny girl said to the one named Terry
"Guys, do me a favor" A third new voice floated to me
"What is it Mel?" Terry and Jenny said together.
"Well for one, SHUT UP! and look she's already coming to. If you guys weren't bickering you would have already known that." Melisa said.
I opened my eyes and everything came back to me.
A/N: Alright internet is still completely down. So sad school's about to start.
Next chapter : AFteR tHe FacT
This will be the final chapter of Bella's Flash back. This chapter will lead you into the present. How did Bella go with blood lust? How did she end up with the Volturi? What are her powers? Where's Nicholas?
All those questions will be answered and more in the following chapter.
Forever Tye-Tye