Meredith ran after Derek as fast as she could she looked outside once she reached the door and saw him sitting on the steps with his fists clenched in his hair. Just by looking at him, all Meredith wanted to do was take away the pain her mother and best friend had caused him. She walked up to him and saw his bloodshot eyes from crying and his elbows on his knees holding up his head for support. I thought to myself that I have never knew Derek's life was that bad, I sat down next to him and put my head on his shoulder after about five minutes in a comfortable but painful silence his body relaxed.

"Hey" he said in a hoarse voice.

"Hey…I'm really sorry about what my mom said in there."

"It's really fine I think I just overreacted."

"No it's really not fine because she already knew what happened and she just kept pressing the conversation." I didn't know why I felt the need to defend him from my mom.

"I feel so weak my dad died 10 years ago and I still can't even think about it without getting angry and throwing a temper tantrum." I didn't know why he was disgusted with himself for being angry that his dad died because I knew I was always angry for my dad leaving me.

"It's okay, when I think about my dad I get so angry everyone says I'm on a warpath and that no one should talk to me."

"Why does it always have to be so hard and hurt so much that the pain is permanent on you?" He looked at me with hurt, abandonment, pain, and all these other emotions that made his eyes into the darkest shade of blue I have ever seen then these words that I never knew was inside of me started spilling out.

"…because you loved him so much and he was there for you everyday then all of a sudden he leaves and you feel abandoned and you feel like it was your fault and you are stuck in a tree and the person that you care about most isn't there to catch you anymore and for a while you feel lost without that person and you are always falling and you believe you cant live without that person until a new person comes a long and they are your everything and you forget about them as much as you could because the new person dulls the pain and you feel like it will be impossible to ever feel that loss again so you try your damn hardest to prevent it then when you fail you have to fall off the tree again and that's all it takes to break and become the person you are and there is another person out there saying why did they have to leave? about you so…I like to believe it hurts because you are scared of falling off the tree or whatever and if you already fell then you are scared it's going to happen again." I looked up at him shocked with myself and I could see that I changed his view on things and that he understands.

"Just like riding a bike…"he looked up at me "you fall off the first time then you get scared and sometimes you quit and the brave ones are just really scared shitless." I felt the urge to laugh but I just gave him a small smile and said…

"Yeah…exactly like riding a bike."

"Life is so hard without my dad in my life right now and I want answers and my father isn't here to answer them and go camping with me and take me fishing and just do the fatherly things he used to do."

"Ok…I will make a deal with you I will let you borrow Richard to talk to if you make your mom get me out of detention next week." I couldn't help but laugh at this and he looked at me and the sparkling blue was back in his eyes. It was then that I realized Derek's emotions and story all showed in his eyes.

"That's a hard one but I will try and use the father card on my mom and how did you get detention anyways?"

"For fighting this girl because she called me a whore and that I should just go do drugs and let guys do things to me." I shuddered at even thinking about some guy touching me or even doing drugs. I looked at Derek's eyes to see his reaction and you could tell he was mad and looked like he would throw up at the thought.

"I make no promises and you are definitely not a whore who does those types of things I bet you any money that girl was doing crack herself." We both laughed at the thought of this.

"Well I make no promises either Richard is barely home."

Just then the door opened and my mother came out looking at me with a look I have never seen on her.

"Hey I'm going to the hospital if you need anything ask Richard and I'm sorry, Derek, for not controlling myself then all of a sudden out of nowhere she gave Derek a hug and then turned to me and hugged me and whispered "I like him he's definitely a keeper."

She then walked to her car got in and drove the familiar path to the hospital.

"Did she just do that?…" Derek asked looking to where my mother drove off "…because she scares me then she hugs me its just getting freaky." We both started laughing at his choice of words.

"yeah" I said. That was unbelievable all of a sudden i noticed how cold it was and started to shudder.

"Lets go inside its getting cold." Derek said and led me back into my house.

We went in and Richard was cleaning the table and we went up to my room where Cristina and Preston were hanging out.

"Finally get ready so we can actually go to the party!" Cristina said as she grabbed my arm and I pulled away as a wave of nausea washed over me and I ran into the closest bathroom and threw up. As I was running someone was running after me and collected my hair as I bent over the toilet and started rubbing my back for comfort. After about a minute I realized it was Derek.

"Hey you ok?" He asked full of concern.

"Yeah I'm fine we should go get ready to go to the um party I mean." He helped me up and we stood so close together for a minute and I stared into his eyes.

"Are you sure because you look sick and pale but your still beautiful and I wouldn't want you getting more sick? I think maybe you should stay home. I mean I wouldn't mind staying with you." I couldn't believe he was actually telling me this but I didn't want to ruin the fun for everyone.

"Thanks but no I'm fine lets just go."

I practically dragged him out of the bathroom with me so he wouldn't say anything else because if he asked once more I think I would just go curl up in my bed like I feel like doing and stay there forever but I had to go to the party with them I couldn't make them stay with me and miss the party because that would be bad. I went into my bedroom to get dressed and Preston and Derek went into the tv room across the hall. As I was zipping my hoodie up I felt nauseous again and ran to my attached bathroom. As I was getting up Cristina came in and I sat back down and she stared at me for a while.

After a moment of just starring she said "You are not going."

I looked at her in disbelief she was actually telling me what to do. "What?" I asked her.

"I said you are not going to the damn party, you are throwing up like every 20 minutes and add tequila to that it will never stop. So just stay home and do what people do when they are sick. Derek and Burke can go to the stupid damn party and ill stay here with you okay?"

I couldn't believe Cristina was saying any of this she was the kind of girl that wouldn't miss a party for the world and she was offering to stay with me and miss a huge party. "This…it's okay you guys go have fun ill stay here and watch movies and just sleep there is no point of you being here if I'm sleeping the whole time what are you going to do watch me sleep like a stalker."

"Well…there is no point of me going without you there so just stay home and I'll watch crappy movies with you and when you fall asleep I'll still be watching crappy movies but once I get tire I'm going home. Why are you throwing up anyways?"

"I think it was the Chinese food you never know what they do to that shit even though it is good food."

"Funny but I'm fine from the Chinese food."

"Then maybe it doesn't fit with my stomach I swear I'm never eating it ever again from now on I hate Chinese food!"

"Well…" Cristina started but then Burke and Derek came in. Derek still had that look of concern in his face and he helped me up from the floor for the second time in the same day. "Thanks" I siad as I was straightening my clothes out.

"Throwing up again that must not be good." Burke said.

"Yea obviously." Cristina said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"I think you should really stay home Mer, going to the party might just make it all worse." Derek said out of concern

"Well I am staying home so you guys can all go to the party and have fun don't worry about me ill be fine watching movies." I really didn't want them to miss out on this because of me and the stupid Chinese food.

"If she's staying I'm staying." Cristina said

"Well then I'll stay too." he looked at Derek expectantly.

"I'm not going anywhere either and I could go down to the store and get a few movies to watch."

"Are you guys sure I don't want to make you guys miss this party for me I would feel awful."

"Trust us when we say we rather stay with you" Burke said

"I'm going to the store with Derek to get movies because he will probably get sucky movies. Do you want anything Meredith?"

"um…get bags of chips salt and vinegar especially and get a good movie to watch and if you want there is 50 bucks on the counter and you can buy anything else."

"Okay we will be back in a little while with good movies." she glared at Derek then walked out of the room.

"Bye we will be back in a little while." Derek said and walked out after Cristina.