When Cristina got down the stairs she went straight to the kitchen and took the $50 that Richard left for Meredith before he followed Ellis back to the hospital. Derek came downstairs after her and saw her taking the money.

"Are you really going to take her money because I have money and I will not use her money." Derek told her in a firm voice.

"Well Meredith said take the money and if we don't I'm sure she is going to be so pissed and when Meredith is pissed she beats people up and drinks and lots of other things so we take the money and It doesn't necessarily mean we have to use it just keep it until you buy her something which is what I do."

"Ok as long as she doesn't get pissed."

"Trust me she wont get pissed if we do something she tells us to do." Derek smiled at the thought of Meredith being bossy and walked out of the house with a huge charming smile. Cristina thought "he is so mcdreamy".

Once they got into blockbuster Cristina told Derek to get lots of chips but candy too and she would get the movies. As he was looking through all the different kinds of chips he heard Cristina talking on the phone to someone with a worried look on her face. She looked up at Derek and he dropped the bag of chips he was carrying as she started running through the store towards him.

"Derek…it's Meredith we have to go!" Cristina said while already making her way to the car. Derek pushed all the chip bags back in the shelf and ran after her. All he though was 'What's wrong with mer? Why is Cristina so worried? Is Mer ok? What happened?' Before he knew it he was speeding towards Mer's house like it was an already familiar route for him. Cristina was tapping on the seat impatiently and when Derek looked over he never knew this side of her. As he pulled up to the driveway he saw no one was there but the lights in the house were on. Cristina ran out of the car and up to Meredith's room and Derek followed closely behind. They saw Burke standing there with the same worried expression.

"Is she still in there?" Cristina asked him.

"Yeah and she hasn't said anything and I don't hear anything." Burke replied knowing she would understand. Cristina went up to the bathroom door aand knocked on the door and said "Meredith can you please open up? When she got no reply and knocked again and said "At least tell us y0ou are ok in there?" She still got no answer and looked at Derek for help.

"Let me try." He said still confused about everything.

"Well try fast because she might hurt herself in their." Cristina said with plead in her eyes. Derek swallowed hard wondering how the most beautiful girl he knew could ever hurt herself when she deserved everything.

"Mer…it's Derek can you please open this door for me?" Derek got no reply and looked at Cristina and Burke and said "Can you guys please go downstairs or something for a little while?" Burke nodded and looked at Cristina knowing she would put up a fight and said "Lets go Cristina give him a chance we will only be across the hall okay?" Surprisingly Cristina nodded and let Burke lead her out of the room.

Derek looked at the bathroom door and decided to try again. "Mer its only me let me in…Cristina and Burke left the room and I promise you don't have to talk to me because you barely know me and all…just let me in…let me make sure you are ok." When Derek was about to sit down agaist the door he heard movement and tried again. "Mer…please" What shocked Derek was the door being unlocked. He looked at the doorknob for a few seconds before slowly opening the door and stepping in. As he stepped in he closed the door behind him and locked him. When he fully got to see the room he saw Meredith sitting in the bathtub with her clothes on and the water running. The room was steamy so he knew the water was hot. He looked into Meredith's eyes and when she looked up into his eyes after about 5 seconds she started sobbing.

"oh mer…whats wrong?" he went to the side of the tub and picked her up in his arms and she buried her head into his neck and he turned the water off and he sat on the floor with her holding onto him like it was all she had left. He didn't care that she was getting him all wet as long as he was able to comfort her.

"I…I…it…hurts…really…bad." That seemed to be the only thing Derek could understand.

"Mer just breathe then you can try to talk. Just breathe. In and out." Her sobs seemed to dye down but she was still crying. "You got it mer…just breathe. Now talk to me tell me whats wrong."

"It hurts a lot like someone is trying to kill me."

"What hurts Mer…" When he saw her trying to close herself off from him he lifter her chin up so that his eyes can meet his and said "Talk to me Mer I'm here and I'm not going anywhere."

"Everything just hurts and I'm sick of pretending it doesn't because it hurts and not just a little pinch, it hurts a lot." Derek didn't understand what she was talking about and was at a lost for words for her to actually open up to someone she barely knew. "What do you mean?" He wanted to understand what was hurting so he could stop it.

"It's a very long story." She said with a sad voice.

"Well I'm here and I'm not going anywhere and I have all the time in the world for you and I can make time for you too." He didn't know why he was saying this but he had a feeling that Meredith Grey was going to be in his life for a long time or maybe even forever and she deserved all of his time.

Meredith started crying again and when Derek noticed he pulled her closer into his chest wanting her pain to go away. "Shh…its ok just let everything out Mer… I'm here…"

"I…I…I used to want to kill myself…my mother was never home and my dad left me…I thought no one wanted me so I thought if I ended it…no one would ever be hurting anymore…and I go to therapy every week…Richard found me in the kitchen…I cut myself so bad because I just wanted everything to get better…but now I just want to be normal…and it all hurts because I…cant even think about cutting anymore…and that was my only release…I'm sorry about this-" Before she could say anything else Derek interrupted her.

"It's ok Mer and I mean it. You should have never gone through any of that and thank god for Richard finding you in time and never be sorry about that. It's in the past now and It's ok to cry. I have temper tantrums and you have suicide attempts and you cry and that's ok because I have thought about being with my father again that I picked up a knife before but I would never give up my life for my dad he doesn't deserve it. Your life only belongs to yourself so don't do anything unless you want to. And Mer you are so wrong now that I met you I think I need you here you are a breath of fresh air for me and me and you are so alike and after this most amazing day that I spent with you I think I feel better and I haven't felt like this since before my dad died. You are really something special Meredith and never let anyone tell you that your are less." Meredith looked up at Derek's shining blue eyes and she kissed him. He didn't waste anytime kissing her back. They both felt the electricity and neither of them wanted it to stop. Meredith parted her lips and Derek deepened the kiss until they both had to pull away for air.

"Wow…" Meredith said "Now that's something I can get used to." She looked into Derek's eyes and she saw the same expression and she couldn't help but smile at him and before she knew it they were kissing again. But this time Meredith pulled away fast and ran to the toilet to throw up. Derek was right behind her and held up her hair once again and helped her up for the third time that day. As Derek went to kiss her again Meredith lightly pushed him away and when she looked at him eyes she saw he was hurt by her reaction. She laughed lightly at this and ran her hands through his hair and said "I just threw up and you want to kiss me with my nasty breath I don't want to kill you Derek." They both laughed at her comment.

"I really don't care if you have the worst breath in the world I still would want to kiss you." He pulled her in and without any other interruptions he kissed her. She pulled away and went to the sink to brush her teeth and went to the bath tub to take the water blocker out so it could drain. When he was done he went to the sink to wash his hands and stood really close to Meredith then when he went to dry his hands Meredith was done. He went up to get and kissed her again.

"I should get you and myself dry clothes I'm sorry for wetting you." She said as they were walking out of the bathroom.

"It's fine I didn't mind and you definitely need a change of clothes we don't want you getting any more sicker than you already are." She nodded and made her way into the hall he followed her and noticed she went in a room when she came out she had a blue polo shirt and a pair of black gym shorts.

"I thought it would be weird for you to wear Richard's clothes and we have Alex's clothes in storage because he lived with us for a while so I just grabbed the first thing I saw."

"Yeah that's fine." When she got clothes enough he kissed her again before going off into the bathroom to change. She went in her room to change as well and as she was getting just about to get dressed she went back into the hall to wait for Derek. When he got out he breath got caught in her throat at how good he looked in the clothes she picked out. The blue shirt brought out his eyes and they were amazing.

"I thought you were going to change." he said as he came out of the bathroom with his clothes in his hand.

"I was but when I was getting my clothes I thought I would just take a shower already and then I thought about how you would be out here alone then I wondered where Cristina and burke were. You said they left the room so I wasn't sure." She rambled and Derek couldn't help but smile even bigger and pull her in for a kiss before she could start again.

"They should be in the TV room or somewhere in this house…" When he looked to the TV room he saw that the door was closed. "…And I don't think we should go in there for a while you never know what they could be doing." They both laughed at this and this time Meredith pulled Derek in for a kiss.

"Yeah…so I'm going to take a shower but you are free to roam around if you would like and if you get hungry or anything there is food downstairs or you can just hangout in my room or something." As she was heading back to her bathroom she looked back at him. "One more thing if you eat in the living room my mom will have your head." He laughed at this and went to give her a quick kiss before heading downstairs seeing what he could find to do.