Chapter 21-
Edward's point of view
Something was on her mind. Something was bothering her and I didn't know how to approach it. Should I let her tell me when she's ready or should I ask her straight out. I didn't want to seem rude or demanding but I didn't like the feeling of not knowing, especially if that something was making her this way.
I decided to take the latter approach for it was the only way to keep my sanity in check.
I leaned in closer, if possible, and placed my lips closed to her ears.
"Care to tell me what's wrong?" I whispered as softly as my voice would allow me to. I felt a shiver run through her but I didn't know if it was from being cold or something else.
She took awhile as she thought it over in her head. I could literally hear the gears turning in her head as she contemplated on if she should tell me or not.
"Your fan girls are going to eat me alive." The answer was simple and confusing at the same time, I couldn't help it but let out a humorous chuckle.
"How so?" I asked just as simply, curious as to how she would respond. She bent down so that her hands touched the ground, as if to search for something underneath. I couldn't help but admire the small patch of pale skin that was exposed when her shirt lifted up.
What I wouldn't give to have her that way. I love her, I admit that. It made all the difference just admitting it. She was mine, in a sense, but I wanted all of her. I was ready for that but I didn't know if she was. I didn't know if her feelings ran as strong as mine did. She might have told me that she loved me but I wanted to be sure. I wanted to be sure before anything happened.
She sat back up and as she did, much to my disappointment, her shirt slid back down and hid what was forbidden. Now.
She handed me a stack of papers. Newspapers. A large picture was on the front page, it was of us at the park during the morning. Part of me was irritated that someone, anyone, had the nerve to disturb such a private moment, but then I figured it was for the best. Now everyone know she was taken. The thought put a smile to my face. I carelessly tossed the paper behind me.
"There's no need to worry." Only she would be worried about something so silly.
"Oh? Care to tell why?" she asked, amusement lighting her eyes. I loved it most when smiled in such a carefree way. It tugged at my heart more than anything to know that I had caused it to be there.
"I won't let anyone hurt you," I answered simply and pulled her tightly against me. I meant every word I said.
"Can't argue with that," she said quietly and let out a sigh that even I could detect the contentment behind it. I beamed like the sun that would be coming up in a couple of hours.
I was awoken by the bright stream of light that flashed before my eyes. I let out a groan before I realized that Bella was not in my arms that way I was already getting used to. I shot straight up with panic sneaking up from behind me already.
Where was she? Where could she have gone? My mind was racing but I tried to control myself. She was a big girl and I was just a protective boyfriend... or whatever I am to her. She could have gone to the store or something. I just needed to calm down. I got out of bed with a sigh and walked downstairs when I heard voice, loud voice from outside the apartment.
The door quickly opened but was quickly slammed as Bella turned quickly around. She let out a scream that stopped short.
"Are you alright, love?" I asked, making my way quickly towards her and enveloping her into a hug.
"No, you're fan girls are going to eat me live," she breathed, bringing to my attention the statement that she had made earlier. Huh, was all I could think. How ironic.
I'm terribly sorry if I haven't updated in such a long time. I've been working hard on writing my book. I've got 52 pages in total and I've been trying to find more motivation that I have been having. I've just past another bout of my depression, but it's still there and lurking to attack when I let myself down. But, I'll try to update when I can. Good bye.