They slowly descended the stairs and every step closer to the kitchen Meredith held Derek's hand tighter and tighter. They stepped into the kitchen and Richard was standing next to Ellis with his arms crossed and Ellis was holding onto the counter with anger.
"Sit down." Meredith and Derek both sat down obediently. "You two are going to ruin your lives by doing this. You both have high school and college ahead of you and please for god's sake Meredith please tell me you were smart and used protection." Ellis said getting angrier by the second.
"I'm sorry." Meredith said in a little voice Derek felt guilty for making her face her parents alone but he just couldn't talk.
"Your parents are both doctors how can you be stupid enough to not use protection. You know me Meredith and you know I don't get mad easily but right now I'm more than pissed with you right now. I'm very disappointed in you." Richard said angrily.
"With all do respect Richard you are not my father. I do not have a father and what I choose to do with my life is none of your business. This was me and Derek's decision and no one else's so I don't care how pissed or how much you are disappointed in me because if I wanted a father I would have gone and have found Thatcher because he is the only one who will ever have my permission to be my father." Meredith didn't care that she was being rude and Richard walked to his office even more angry then when he started off.
"Meredith who do you think you are?" Meredith shot a glare at her mother.
"Who do I think I am? I'm Meredith freaking Grey and I think you should answer your own questions. You walk in here once a month and think just because you leave money for me makes you a mother. Just so you know you are as dead to me as my father is. Let's go Derek." They both stood up and as they were about to leave the kitchen Derek turned back to Ellis.
"I'm very sorry. This was all unplanned and I know we let a lot of people down but don't blame Meredith for everything it takes two people to do this." With that Derek walked out of the house and Meredith walked out after him slamming all the doors she could as hard as she could. Derek opened the passenger seat door for her and she got in thanking him. He went around after closing the door for her and got in on his side.
Derek stopped by pizza hut and picked up the pizza his sister texted him to get that she already ordered. Meredith wanted to stay in the car and he put the boxes and soda bottles in the back seat when he came out. The car was in complete silence and when they stopped at a red light Derek looked over at Meredith and she was leaning her head against the window.
"Are you okay?" He got no response. "Mer…" He grabbed her hand and she looked at him. "You okay?"
"I'm fine I'm just thinking. I don't know what made me snap at them." Derek nodded and drove when the light turned green. "I didn't want to snap at them. I was so cruel to Richard when he has been the only father figure that I've ever had." Derek turned into his driveway and turned the car off. "I think if your mom finds out she is going to be pissed and you were supposed to wait. You had everything planned out. Why didn't you stick to your plan Derek?" She started crying and he picked her up and sat her down on his lap.
"I couldn't help myself you were the only one I was really thinking about. I wasn't thinking about our parents or god or my future. And as many people we hurt I will never regret what we did. We could have used protection but we didn't and I believe if god really loves us then everything will be fine. Your mother will accept what we did. My mother will accept what we did. Hopefully I didn't get you pregnant but if I did then we will love our baby no matter what." Meredith pulled Derek in for a kiss and opened the door to get out.
"Thank you for saying that." Derek smiled and nodded as he got out as well. He went in the back seat and got the pizzas and Meredith carried the soda. They went inside and everyone was in the living room.
"We brought pizza and soda." They put the stuff down on the coffee table and sat down on the couch.
Carolyn stared at the difference from when they were together this morning until now. When she noticed what happened she stared Derek down to get answers. When he didn't make eye contact with her she knew her assumptions about what happened was true.
"Derek can you come with me upstairs to get the movies?" He nodded and kissed Meredith's cheek before getting up and walking in front of Carolyn into the tv/game room. She closed the door knowing that the room was built soundproof.
"Derek please tell me you did not have sex" Derek looked his mother in the eyes for the first time that night.
"I had sex with Meredith mom." Derek didn't know what to say to her but he knew lying to his mother wouldn't be right because she always found out these things.
"You are out of control Derek I did not raise you like this." She yelled at him at that point Derek was done.
"Yeah of course you didn't because you barely raised me at all!" Derek didn't know what was making him snap lately.
"Derek Shepherd do not scream at me. I did the best I could with five kids if you thought it was easy you go have five kids then you will understand. You don't know Meredith at all. From what I heard she is all bad news. You need to think about everything and don't you think this is happening ever again Derek. I will not have my son giving himself to some whore he barely knows!" Derek looked at his mother and walked out of the room slamming the door.
He walked downstairs furious with his mother's words. He went into the living room and when he saw Meredith all the angriness in him went away and he just stopped for a moment. They made eye contact and the whole world disappeared. Their contact was interrupted by his mother calling him and coming after him.
"Let's go Meredith." Meredith got up and started putting her shoes on.
"Derek where are you going?" His mother asked.
"I'm going somewhere that you will never be. I'm coming tomorrow for my stuff and I'm moving out. I can't live with you anymore. You are not part of my family anymore because my mother would have sat me down and talked to me and gave me options but instead you yelled and screamed and called her a whore and you called yourself my mother. You say I changed but I am not the only one and its abut time you take a look in the mirror. You were supposed to always be there for me after dad died it was like I died to you too and you don't know how much that hurt." At this point he was crying and he didn't care who saw him. "You always told me that men don't cry and I'm the man of the house, when I was grieving too. You didn't even notice all those times I ran away. My sisters came after me when all I wanted was my mother but you stayed home and pretended like I never happened. And want to know why I started eating out all the time because you went from serving seven people to serving five after dad died. You only put 5 plates on the table every night and I would tell you I ate already when I didn't. The worst part of it all is that when we moved here you left me back in New York for a week until you noticed I was gone. Thank god my grandparents came to check on the house. You have been a bitch to me so no I'm not staying with you and you do not get any say in my life anymore."
He turned to Meredith to check if she was ready and saw the shock in her face after his speech. He grabbed her hand and walked out of the house feeling relieved.
"Derek give me your keys." when he didn't respond to her she squeezed his hand. "Derek?"
"I'm ok to drive I'm just thinking about how relieved I am." He smiled at her and pulled her in for a kiss before opening the passenger seat door for her to sit in. He went around and sat in the driver's seat.
"So where are we going Derek? We are like homeless people right now and I'm hungry so that just makes me cranky." Derek looked over at her and gave her a smile.
"We can get take out then head out to the trailer for the night if you want." She nodded and after getting another pizza he drove out to the ferry boats. Derek parked the car and they went up to the dock. Derek wrapped his arms around Meredith and breathed in her scent. Meredith felt protected feeling Derek's heart thumping against her back.
"Do you regret what we did?" Meredith asked wondering if after leaving his mother he regretted her.
"No I don't. I didn't think anything could have been more special and I couldn't have chosen a better person to give myself too. They are all wrong you are not a whore and I will not let anyone call you that. It feels like everything is moving so fast but I could care less because with you I just want to forget everything else and just be with you. We had to get it over with sooner or later and I know you won't leave me and the same thing goes for me. I don't know why but I feel like everything will be okay as long as I don't let you go."
"Thank you and you are right this is all just so crazy. I had sex with the guy I think I'm falling in love with and part of me wants this to end but the other part wants to sink further and further into you." Derek smiled at her and they leaned into each other for a kiss.
"If I were to choose I like the part of you that wants me more." Derek gave her his dreamy smile and she hit him playfully on the chest. "When are you going to find out that your tiny ineffectual fists don't hurt?"
"Derek!" Meredith heard before she got to reply. "Hey man a bunch of us are going to the beach for the night want to come?" Mark said looking back at the group of girls and guys.
"Nah I'm good I'm going to hang with Mer but some other time." Mark looked at Meredith for the first time and that's when he first noticed her and nodded at her.
"Ok man you got it but you are going to the party tonight right? Even if you hate Finn since you met him go anyways because a party is a party."
"I'm good maybe another day though." Derek said grabbing Meredith's hand to hold.
"Ok see ya then and hit me up so we can hang out tomorrow or something." Derek nodded and turned back to Meredith.
"You could have gone with them I wouldn't have minded."
"I didn't want to and I rather spend time with you then with them." He gave her his dreamy smile and pulled her in for a kiss. They made their way down the stairs back to the car.
"Derek we have to sort things out with our parents. We have no where to stay and as much as I loved what I saw that day we can't live there!"
"Meredith don't worry we will figure things out but lets just relax and give them a day to rest on it and we will see where it takes us." Derek said giving her a reassuring smile.
"Did all those things you said about your mom really happen?" She said softly.
"Yeah like I already told you my mother forgot about me in every way possible. I'm done with her already I can't say that I don't love her or care for her but she is way to much and when she talked about you that way it was the end. She would have never even thought about it if it was one of my sisters but since it was me she said things and she knows the only virgin that was still in the family is Stephanie and me. When my two older sisters lost their's she went to the doctors to get birth control and told them to stay safe. With me its just different it's like I'm somebody else's son and she is always…I don't know anymore its stupid."
"It's definitely not stupid Derek. I think your mom just doesn't know what to do with you because you could have been really like your dad or something. I'm thankful I look like my mother and not my father everyday because my mother would hate me every single day if she had to look at me and see Thatcher. My father is a coward is what she always says to me and if I looked like him I would be a even bigger failure to her."
Meredith leaned across the armrest and kissed his cheek and got out of the car. Derek smiled and got out after her. He took her out stretched hand and they went into the trailer together knowing everything would turn out fine. They ate and layed down in each others arms. That was when Meredith knew for the first time in her whole entire life she was in love with Derek Shepherd. She was having a major breakdown in her head but she couldn't let Derek know.
"I have to go to the bathroom I will be right back." She kissed him and went to the bathroom and got her cell. She texted Cristina right away.
To Cristina: Help me Im in huge trouble!
She waited a minute until she got a reply.
To Meredith: Wats wrong?
To Cristina: Well I basically disowned myself from my parents and I was laying down with Derek on his land's trailer and I just got the feeling that I am in love with him. Wat should I do?
To Meredith: SERIOUSLY! Woah I missed a lot tonight or what! I say don't tell him until you sort things out with ur parents so then if he breaks things off u will have them. Nd there is the choice of telling him nd then he loves you back. But SERIOUSLY it took you like not even a week to fall for him!
To Cristina: Yeah I kno should I stay with him tonight or should I run?
To Meredith: Stay there he will get suspicious if you just leave.
To Cristina: Ok thanks lots!
Meredith flushed the toilet so it would sound like she actually went to the bathroom. Washed her hands and walked out of the bathroom not knowing what she would do.
Derek closed his phone when he saw Meredith standing in front of him playing with her bracelet. "Mer? You ok?" Meredith looked up at him and she felt like a deer caught in the headlights.
"Ok this is going to be really weird for me to say this and all and especially I'm saying this to you. And it's ok if you are shocked and what not because I was shocked too. But after I say this I will go if you want me to leave but you would have to drive me there and that would make an awkward car ride-"
"Mer what are you trying to say?" Derek looked worried.
"Iminlovewithyou." Meredith mumbled under her breath.
"Mer slow down and speak louder I don't know what you are trying to say." Meredith looked up at him and could see the concern.
"I said I'm in love with you and I know it for sure." Derek looked at Meredith shocked and then there was a sparkle in his eyes and he moved closer to Meredith.
"I'm in love with you too." He whispered before leaning in to her and kissing her passionately. They pulled away and they both had big grins on their faces. They moved towards the bed and had an amazing night of love-making.
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