I'm so sorry for the time lapse in which I have updated a chapter. I plan on updating all my stories and I might throw in a few new stories as well. As always let me know what you think.

Spencer was at his Aunt Alexis house playing with his cousins, Christina and Molly. They were In the living room playing on the floor having a good time. He loved it when he got to visit his cousins; it was a rare occasion when he got to play with anyone his age. He spends most of his days with nannies and tutors, mostly adults. His cousins and him were laughing and having fun playing with each other. The doorbell rings and Alexis go to answer it while the kids continue to play with each other. She opens the door and sees Nadine and invites her in. Nadine walks in and sees Spencer playing and immediately smiles and continues to watch him for a few seconds. Then Spencer spots Nadine and his face immediately lit up. He gets up and runs right towards her and into her arms.

"Nadine!" he says excitedly.

She picks him up and holds him.

"I've missed you, "Spencer says.

"I've missed you too," Nadine replies.

Alexis watched the interaction between the two and noticed Spencer's demeanor with Nadine. She immediately realized Nikolas knew exactly what he was doing and what was best for Spencer. At first Alexis felt hurt that Nikolas didn't want to leave Spencer to her since they were family but now she knew he was just doing what was best for his son and nobody else.

Nadine put Spencer down and he grabbed her hand and pulled her over to Christina and Molly. The two girls looked at Nadine with curiosity. They had no idea who she was.

"Come on, Nadine, play with us?"

"Of course. Do you want to introduce me to your friends?"

"Nadine, these are my cousins, Christina and Molly. This is my friend, Nadine."

"It's a pleasure."

Nadine sat on the floor next to Spencer as he continued to play.

"So what are we playing?"

"Knights and Castles."

"I see."

Nadine sat there on the floor as she watched the kids play with each other.

Alexis walked over to the kids, "I need to borrow Nadine for a bit."

Nadine gets off the floor and follows Alexis into the kitchen.

"Can I get you a cup of coffee?"

"Sure, thank you."

Alexis goes over to the coffeemaker and puts a pot of coffee on and then walks to the kitchen table and sits across from Nadine.

"Nadine, how are you doing?"

"I'm okay now. I read Nikolas' letter today."

"So how was that? I bet emotional."

"Yeah…You could say that. But I think it did help. He was trying to explain why never told me how he felt and tried to apologize for so much but by the end he was asking me to take care of Spencer and for me to love again and move on. The truth is that I have loved him for so long and I never let myself try to move on. This is the first time some sense was knocked into me showing me that is what I need to do. Now I don't have to think of just myself. I will need to think of Spencer first and what he will need. I can't tell you how many times I told Nikolas after Emily died when he wanted to give up how he needs to live and be there for Spencer. I don't want to be like that."

"Are you mad at Nikolas?"

"No, I understand why he did what he did. It makes me more frustrated than anything. He was always making decisions for me because he thought he was doing the right thing."

Alexis automatically felt guilty.

"Nadine, I think I owe you an apology."

"For what?"

"Back then when you were together and I saw how you felt about and him and how he didn't reciprocate those feelings. I told him he needed to let you go so you would be able to find someone who could love you. I now feel that I took precious time form you guys. Time where you could be happy. Time for him to really evaluate his feelings for you."

"Alexis, it is not your fault but thank you for telling me. It's really nobody's fault. Is it my fault for letting him go and not staying and fighting? Is it his fault for not realizing his feelings at that time? You were just telling him the truth. It's really nobody's fault. I can't even blame Rebecca for it."

"Well I can. I never trusted that woman."

Nadine and Alexis laughed in unison.

"I never said I liked her," Nadine replied.

Alexis went to get the coffee and poured it into the coffee mugs. She went to bring the mugs to the kitchen table and sat back down.

"All I can say is that I'm sorry. He was my nephew and I loved him but I feel sad that in the end he was alone. He didn't have to be."

"Well you can't blame him for that. Don't we all think that we have all the time in the world and he was still young?"

"Yeah…I guess I can't say I haven't done the same thing over the years. But, I'm glad that whatever Nikolas said in the letter was helpful for you moving forward. I know that is what he would want."

"I know. Thank you so much. How are you really holding up?"

"Okay. I guess. I just miss him."

"I know that feeling."

"How did you want to tell Spencer?"

"Just being direct and honest. Try answering all his questions and just being there for him."

"Are you ready?"

"Not really…but as ready as I will ever be."

"I think it's time to be honest with Spencer. He thinks Nikolas will be back any day now. He needs to know the truth."

"Okay let's go."

They both get up from the kitchen table and walk towards the living room and preparing themselves for what was about to transpire. They hated what they were about to do but they knew they needed to do it. It was time Spencer knew about what happened to his father. Unfortunately, there was no one else to be the bearer of the bad news. That was there job as Spencer's only family left.