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John POV:

It was the longest ride I have ever been on, although it was five minutes away, but as soon as I reached the park I was so scared, yeah John Winchester was scared…. At that moment I realize that I have no idea what to say to her, how she'd react, she got all the right to hate me but still when II think about it she got me out of hell that must mean something, right?? But still I have no Idea how to start, but when I think about her mom she was the easy to talk to kind of girls, she'd pick the silliest subject and make it so interesting, god I screwed up so bad, but I got a second chance and I'm gonna take it, I'll make it up for her and for her mom, I'm sorry Becky, I really am.

I stopped the car in the parking lot of the park, and went to search for my daughter… fortunately I didn't have to look for long, she was sitting under a willow near her black bike, her legs were up to her chest and her head on her knees. I walked over and sat down next to her leaning up against the tree; she left her head up and turns to look at me.

God, she looked so beautiful, her oval face, her small and full lips, her short brown hair was framing her face like a picture frame, and her eyes, her eyes were talking the unsaid words, they were looking back at me with kindness although I didn't deserve that.

It seems that she's been crying her eyes were bloodshot from crying , and they were welled up again, but as a Winchester she'd never let them down, not in front of me anyway…. She looked at me and then turns to look at the green field in front of us, and then suddenly she chuckled softly "what??" I asked

"you don't know how to start don't you??" she said and look back at me "you don't even know what to say??"

"well I… ah… I was never good with words" I said

"yeah I know, mom told me" she said

"she did huh??" I asked remembering the first conversation with Becky

"yeah, she said that she had to pray the words out of you" she said with a smile, although it was a small smile but all of her face lighten up

"yeah well, what can I say I'm a man of showing not telling" I said looking at her but the look on her face told me that I said something wrong "what's wrong??"

"then why??" she said hurt was dripping from her words, she wasn't even looking at me

"why what??" I said

"all you showed me was hate??" she asked and sparks of anger were flying from her eyes "you said that you're good at showing not telling, and all you showed me is hate, it was load and clear"

"you're wrong I don't hate you" I said, I tried to put my hand on her knees but she push it away

"then why??" she yelled standing up facing me "do you have any idea how a ten year old feels when her hero" she said the last part bitterly "just don't give a crap about her….. do you know how many nights I cried my heart out thinking that maybe it's my fault that you left" she took a deep breath and wiped away the tears that were falling none stop on her rosy cheeks, it hurts me like hell seeing how much damage I've done to her "hell I don't know what to call you" she said after a minuet facing the field

I stood up and went toward her and I put my hands on her shoulder I could feel her tense under my touch, I turned her to face me but her head was hung down I caught her chin between my fingers and tilted her head up to look down at her, there was war of emotion happening inside her hazel brown eyes, I could see the hurt, pain, guilt and fear and it hurt me to see her like this, I could feel the limp start to form in my throat but I swallowed it down, I cupped her face with my hand

"what about dad" as I said that she start to cry I pulled her to me and held her tight and she held me back, she buried her head in my chest and kept on crying "it's ok baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" I said kissing the top of her head.

We stayed like this for another five minutes then she pulled away and wiped her eyes and looked up at me "this was so under the chick flick category" she said with a chuckle

"you sound so much like Dean" I said "your brother" I added

"yeah I know" she said "I was there"

"where?" I asked

"the day you came back, when they were in the motel room, I asked Paimon for a prove and he told me where to find you"

"Paimon??" I asked

"the demon I made deal with, the one that killed mom" she answered "now that I'm free I'll find him and kill him, not just send him back to hell, I will kill him" she said, god she is so much like her brother that fire and her love for her family, she's and Dean will become very close, I'm sure.

Dean POV:

Dad took my car keys to chase after my sister, Jake told us to wait inside coz apparently Lu and Dad gonna have a long talk… and he was right it's been two hours since dad left and I was starting to get impatient and worried

"hay Jake" I heard Sam call, he was sitting next to me but I was too deep in my own world

"yeah" Jake answered from the kitchen a minute later he came carrying four cold beer bottles, he handed us each one a bottle and then he sat on the chair near the fire place

"what she's like??" Sam asked

"you mean Lusha" Sam nod "well, she's the kind of girls who always be there for you no matter what, her friends and family means a lot to her, she's so simple I mean you can actually put a smile on her face just by buying her a burger, she's a good hunter, she saved my ass so many times that I lost count…. She's a really good listener and a good friend" he said smiling "you're really lucky to have her as a sister"

"you two seem really close" I said

"yeah well after my parents died I went and lived with pastor Jim for a while and that's when I met Lusha and since then we're friends, and when pastor Jim died she started to hunt on her own, I helped her couple of times, coz I couldn't leave her alone, I mean she was only fifteen when he died"

"you mean she start hunting when she was fifteen??" Bobby asked

"no, she start hunting own her own when she was fifteen, but pastor Jim took her on simple hunts before that, I think since she was eleven" he said

"since when do you know her Bobby??" I asked

"after your dad died, she came and said the she was looking for him I told her he was dead, I told her if she had something with him she should got to you guys, and by the look on her face I say that was the first time she knew that she had brothers" he said then he took a swing from his beer "and the second time after I heard how good she was and all I called her and told her that we need help with your deal" he said pointing at me

"yeah, after that she went missing for a month" Jake said "she was trying to find away to help you guys, but Cas told her that there is no way to get you out of this deal, so she had this crazy idea that if she brought back John, he'd know what to do and how to stop the deal"

"but it didn't work" Sam said

"yeah, three months later after her death I heard that you went down stairs too, I'm sorry man" Jake said to me

"it's ok" I said after a minute "so you're saying that I was the reason she went to hell??"

"you were part of the reason" came a soft voice from behind "but I really wanted dad back" she finished, I turned around and I was shocked, it's her…. The girl, the one I tortured, she was my sister, and I was the reason she's there…. Does she know??? Does she remember?? How can I face her when I was part of her misery and pain? For ten hell years I kept on torturing her, the same innocent eyes looking back at me, I can never forgive myself, never… I could hear her in the background saying hellos to Bobby and Sam, and I think she just called my name

"Dean? Dean??" her voice brought me back to reality I looked at her and her eyes fill with worry and concern, but for whom?? "are you ok??" for me "you look like you've seen a ghost" she said with smile that lit up her face

"yeah, I'm fine" I replied coldly looking down, I took a peek at her and she seemed hurt by the what I said

"so you are our sister??" leave it to Sam to ask the "smart" question

"yup" she said then she looked at me like she was excepting me to say something and when I didn't she looked back at Sam "how tall are you??" she asked lightening the air, everybody sheared a good laugh including me, after that we all went and sat, I went and sit in the same spot Sam too, dad sat near the table next to Bobby and Jake went and sat near the fire place leaving Lusha to sit next to me, as soon as she sat my body tense I know it's stupid but it jast happen, she looked at me and hurt was written all over her face, she just muttered I'm sorry and then she left and disappeared in the kitchen "way to go jerk" I said to myself, she came back a minute later carrying a chair she place it near Jake and the sat down on it looking down on her fingers instead of looking at me

Dad must've notice coz he looked at me then at her "Lusha, you're ok?" he asked, she just looked at him with a wide smile on her face

"yes, sir…. Ah, I mean Dad" she just smile again and then she looked back down, after a minuet of awkward silence Bobby decide to break it

"so LuAnn, you were in hell too??" I thought only Sam have ask these "smart" questions but apparently Bobby does too

"yeah I came back three days before Dean" she said quietly

"how long you stayed there??" I asked

"seven months" she answered not looking at me.

"so guys" Jake said when he notice that Lu wasn't feeling comfortable "anyone hungry??" he asked

"I'm starving" Bobby answered

"yeah, me too" Dad said

"I can eat" Sam Said, then he turn to me and gave me a look

"yeah, I'm starving" I said

"aren't you hungry??" Jake asked Lusha

Lusha POV:

"no, not really" I replied, and I really wasn't I just had breakfast, well I didn't have it now, I had it at six in the morning which was six hours from now, but I just wasn't hungry

"but…" Jake began but I cut him

"I'm not hungry, plus I need a shower" I said giving him I need to be alone look and I think he get it coz he just nod

"we don't have anything in the fridge, let's go to a diner" he said, as everyone head out I mouthed thank you to him and he mouthed you welcome, after a second I heard the door closed.

I sat back on my chair and start to think, about Dean and why does he hate, coz the look he gave me it was so far from love, it was like he was disgusted by me, and when I sat next to him he actually flinched, I mean what did I do no……. I was cut by the sound of the door opening and closing, I stood up and went to the entrance to find Sam standing there "what are you doing here??"

"I wasn't that hungry" he said, I raised my eyebrow questionly

"you're not hungry??" I repeated not convinced by what he said

"oh well, I'm hungry, but I wanted to know you" he said and I smiled… I was jumping from the inside; I mean my brother wanted to know me… we went to the kitchen, he sat on one of the chairs and I stood at the door way "you ok??" he said looking at me with his puppy dog eye

"yeah I'm fine" I said but he gave me a look "no I'm not" I said a minute later

"what is it??" he said "you can tell me anything lil sis" he said with a smile and I smiled back and start to walk to the fridge, when I opened it he must notice that it was full "it's full??" I looked back at him knowing what he meant

"I needed sometime alone, Jake knew that so he lied" I explained while I was making him a sandwich

"you two seem pretty close" he said

"well he's my best friend, I knew him since I was eleven, he was practically my first friend" I said with a smile remembering how we met, I finished the making the sandwich I put it in a plate and hand it to Sam, I went back to the fridge and put the stuff back and get him a beer and a seven up for me, I placed the beer in front of him and then sit down and popped my bottle up

"thanks" he said and start to eat his sandwich "so how was it like??"

"what do you mean??" I asked and took a swing from my bottle

"your life, what was it like?" he asked me as he pushed the now empty plat and taking swing from his beer bottle

"well" I took a deep breath "the first three years were ok, until one day Miss Lena was driving me home; she was my kindergarten's teacher and also my mom's best friend, anyways, she was driving me back home when we saw all the ambulance and police cars surrounding my house" I swallowed the limp that was forming from remembering how everything went bad so easily from that point, I bit my bottom lip to control my emotion I exhaled and continue "after that Miss Lena told me that my mom died, after that I never went home"

"you can stop if you want to" he said looking worried

"don't worry, telling or remembering is not the worse part" I said

"then what is?" he asked, standing up and taking the set next to me

"living it" I answered then I continue "as I said I never went home after that Miss Lena went there and brought me some clothes and a box she said that mom told her were to find it, at that time I didn't understand how did my mom told her but after a while I knew that mom knew that she was gonna die" I took a swing from my bottle and continue "anyways, the next seven years I spend it with the Milligan's, they were two average couples, at least that what I thought…and their son, Joshua…." I was about to finish but Sam cut me off

"what happened to Miss Lena??" he asked

"after a month from mom's death the state took me from her and said that she have to adopt me, and she told me she would, but before she did her boyfriend killed her" I said feeling so sad to the kind woman

"oh god, I'm sorry" he said putting his hand on my shoulder

"it's ok, it's not your fault or anything" I said putting a weak smile on and continue "well, let's just say that the Milligan's weren't as kind as Miss Lena"

"what do you mean?" he asked

"well at this seven years the bathroom was my room and Dean's car rag is better than my cloths and I was the best punch bag that their son could ever get" I said with a bitter smile "on my tenth birthday I was set on running away, I got everything ready, but lucky me Joshua found out and told his parents, and they kicked the crap out of me" I said

"language" he said with a smile I just laughed at that, I mean he's been my big brother for couple of hours and he's already fitting in the role, after controlling my laughter I continued

"it seems that they hit me really hard and I was bleeding very badly that the sheets in josh's room turned from white to red so Mrs. Milligan throw it away her neighbor called the police and told them that they heard shouting and screaming and that the next day they found the bloody sheet" I felt the damn tingle in my nose, and damn it I wasn't gonna cry.

"so they didn't take you to the hospital??" he asked looking angry

"no, they tried to hide me in the basement until I die, if it wasn't for Kathrin I would be dead" I said trying to hold back the tears

"the neighbor??" he asked I just nod and continue

"so the police found me and took me to the hospital a three months later I woke up and that's when I called pastor Jim and he called dad, dad came and took me and dropped me off at pastor Jim's, a year after that I met Jake" when I finished I looked away I know that my eyes were welling up, but I couldn't cry in front of him, but suddenly I felt his fingers under my chin turning my face so I can face him and when I looked at him he looked angry, sad, hurt and guilt… I blinked and the tear fall down

"I'm sorry that you had to go through this alone…. But I promise you that you'll never be alone again, you're with your family now" as soon as he said that I began to sob and he just pulled me to him and held me tight, running his hand up and down my back to soothe me "it's ok, shhhhhh, it's gonna be ok"

After what seems like a lifetime I pulled away and wiped my tears away I looked up at him and smiled "this was so a chick flick moment" he laughed so hard

"you sound just like Dean" he said

"Speaking of Dean, he's always like that??" I asked remembering the look he gave me, I wish to god that it gonna change

"like what??" he asked

"you know he looked like he was gonna kill me back there" I said

"no, he would never, trust me, he was so excited to meat you on the way here" he said

"then what happen??" I asked confuse

"it's just the things that happened lately, you know.. Him coming out of hell, angels, god, a sister who happened to be was in hell with him" he said, he was right

"I see" I said

"Cas said that you're half angel??" he asked after a moment

"yeah" I answered back

"so does that mean you can fly and do what Cas do?" I asked after realizing that they saw uncle Cas

"so you met Uncle Cas?? How is he??" I asked eagerly missing the angel so much, he's my family after all

"uncle Cas???" he asked with a chuckle I just nod "and yeah we met him, he looked like he was about to kill dad, he looked very angry" I just nod and looked down "are you ok??"

"yeah, I just miss him, and still he didn't came to see me, it's just not like him??" I said swallowing the limp

"how come he never show up here??" he asked

"he's mad at me for going to hell" I said "anyways, to answer your question I'm not like uncle Cas, he's a full angel, I'm only half"

"what's the difference??" he asked

"well I can't fly for starters, I have powers; such as healing, predicting the future and knowledge, but other than that I'm like any human, I die like one too" I said

"you said you can heal, how come you can heal yourself??" he asked looking worried

"I give but I don't take" I said "oh, I almost forgot Demon blood"

"what about it??" he tensed when I said the word demon blood

"it's like poison to me" I said

"oh, ok….. so did you finish your study??" he asked

"I finished high school, that's where I was when Pastor Jim died" I said

"where?"

"Spencer" I said "I got a lot of scholarship but I'm too busy to go to college now, what about you??" I asked

We sat like this for another couple of hours, Sam was telling me about his mom and Jess and the Azazel, and Stanford and what happened to him in those years of hunting with Dean that's when we heard the sound of the cars coming and then the engines turning off, I looked at the clock and it said 6:30 pm, so much for couple of hours.

"it's about time" Sam Said

"Sam" I called after him when he left the kitchen, he turned around and face me

"huh??" he asked concern

"don't tell anyone" I said and then I added "about what we talked about" and I give him the please look

"it's our lil secret lil sis" he said with a smile

"thanks big bro" just as I finish the door swing open and the four men came in "hay" I said to all four of them

"hay kiddo" said Bobby ruffling my hair "hay girly" Jake said and wake past me to the kitchen "hay baby girl" came from dad he patted me on the shoulder and went to the library with Bobby, I looked up at Dean but he just looked the other way

"you must be starving Sam, I brought you something" Dean said after a minute of uncomfortable silence, I turned around so I can leave them alone but "and you too" Dean words stopped me I looked back at him and it was the first time all day that he looked at me

"thanks" I said with a smile and he returned it with muttering "whatever", me and Sam fallowed him to the living room we sat on the couch and I turned on the TV Dean handed me the brown bag and I sat back down next to him, I looked up at him "if you don't mind me sitting here" I said

"and why would I mind" he said and look back at the TV, Nightmare on Alim Street, I took my burger out and I sniffed it smell "your boyfriend said that you like cheeseburger" Dean said

"what?? I don't have a boyfriend" I said defensively

"whoa, whoa, easy… I meant Jake boy in there" he said nodding toward the kitchen

"he's not my boyfriend, he's my best friend" I said annoyed, I mean they've been my brothers less than 24 hours and they're acting like that

"sound the same thing to me, right Sammy??" I gleared at Dean and looked at Sam to see what he's gonna say

"I think your right Dean it sound the same to me to me too" he said grinning

"oh, so it's gonna be this way from now on" I said looking between Sam and Dean

"like what??" asked Dean innocently

"teeming up on me" I said and they just grinned at me "so it's gonna be like that?" I asked and the nod grinning "fine with me" I said

"so you're not mad??" Sam asked

"I'm having the best time of my life, why should I be mad" I said and stood up "but I have to go to sleep it's gonna be an early start tomorrow"

"what are you talking about its only seven thirty??" Dean asked to I just pointed at the living room's door where dad and Bobby came in a minute later

"hay boys, it's gonna be an early start tomorrow, we're heading back to Bobby's" Dad said, I just smiled

"goodnight Sammy" I said and kissed his cheek

"goodnight kiddo" he said and kissed me back

"goodnight Dean" I said but I was afraid to kiss him but I did

"goodnight" he said and turn his face before I kiss him I looked at him for a minute and then looked back at dad

"goodnight Dad" I said and kiss his cheek too he kiss me back

"sweet dreams honey" I said and I looked at the boys

"what??" Dean asked

"you are sitting on my bad" I pointed to the couch

"thought you had a room" dad said

"yeah I have one but the sleeping arrangement has changed" I said "Sam you gonna sleep with Jake"

"huh??" he said

"he have two beds… anyways Bobby and Dad you gonna take the guest room and Dean you gonna have my room" I said

"and why is that??" he asked standing up

"coz you won't fit in this couch and the bad in my room is bigger and much comfier" I said "come on let me show you" they all followed me up stairs I showed them their rooms. Leaving me and Dean the last since my room is the last room in the lobby, I opened my door and entered I switch the light on "come on in, I'm just gonna take my stuff and leave" I said already making my way to the closet

"I don't mind me staying in the living room" he said I took a look at him and he look uncomfortable

"well if you wanna a sore back" I said knowingly "I really don't mind, plus it's just one night" I said finishing what I was doing which was taking my pj and taking a pillow and a cover "goodnight Dean" I said

"yeah, you too" he said not looking at me, I closed the door and went down stairs to the living room I laid everything on the couch and laid down "it's gonna be a long day tomorrow" I said before I drift to sleep.

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