I sat on the edge of my bed,fresh new tears streaming down my face while hugging one of my pillows. I stared at the red brick wall,deep in my thoughts. Suddenly I heard a knock from the door. It shook me out of my thoughts and my head shot in the direction of the door. I held the pillow close to my chest,and headed to the door. As I swung the door open I saw him. His jet-black hair was messy like always and his emerald green eyes that I loved,had this sparkle in them.

Merlin,why in the bloody hell is he here now?He took a step toward me. I didn't move,I didn't breathe. I couldn't.

He looked at me dead in the eye "H-hey."

I didn't answer him,I just stared into his eyes,as if I was under a spell. Why was he here? Was he here to explain? To tell me why he gave up? Maybe-

I blinked,I sounded so bloody pathetic. I was about to slam the door shut but he stopped the door from closing and waltzed right into my room. He reached out and grabbed my hand. Something ran through my body as he touched it. I shoved him with all the strength my petite body had.

"Dont touch me. " I growled at him, my voice sounding cold as Snape's. He closed his eyes,only to open them,and locking eyes with me again.

He took another step closer. As he did I dropped the pillow that was still clutched to my chest and whipped out my wand. Pointed directly at his heart. He sighed. `

"Put your wand away,Lex. Im not going to draw mine against you. "

" Oh,what a gentleman. " I said sarcasticly,my head tilted slightly to the right. "But,of course, Weasley must be taking care of your wand work now,right? " I snarled,stabbing him with my wand.

" Youre angry-"

"BLIMEY of course not,Potter! I`m doing quite well actually,after I knocked you out. "

His jaw hardened,and I noticed his hands turned into fists."You have no right to be angry—"

"Oh,excuse me.You should be angry at me.I can't believe I didn't think of it that way."

He let out an angry sigh. "Stop it,Lexi."

I let out a fake howl of laughter. "But were having so much fun,Harry!"

His green eyes,I could see they turned red. But I could also tell he was trying to calm himself down. "Bloody damn hell,Lexi! I asked YOU. I ASKED YOU IF YOU LOVED ME—"

"Love you?" I swallowed the lump that formed in my throat. "I trusted you!" I felt hot angry tears trickle down my pale face.

Harry gulped, and for a second I saw the undeniable pain in his eyes. He took one more step and the tip of my wand now touched his chest,

"Just please go away Harry..." I whispered. "You dont want me to do this,again."

His hand reached out and brushed my black hair out of my eyes. His breathing picked up,my heart was beating so fast that my chest would explode. A memory of him kissing me flashed before my eyes,his laugh in my ears...

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. " Why did you have to ruin it,Harry? Why?"

Before he could move muscle,I whispered the spell.

"Petrificus Totalus."

Harry's body went rigid and fell to the ground. I sniffed and wiped my eyes,then,knowing he could hear me still,I knelt down next to him.

"You should have known better,than to break me. Cause I would break you more." I gulped. "Now listen carefully,Harry Potter." I forced myself to speak,even though it ached me to continue talking to him. " From this moment now, I dont give a bloody hell about you. You made this happen,from the moment you kissed her,you were dead to me and I was dead to you." I closed me eyes then reopened them. "Your nothing to me now."

I stood up and looked at him one last time.

"Goodbye,for good.I'll remove the spell when I get to the Owlery. I dont want you following me." I shakily whispered.

I went out of my dorm and dashed out of the common room and ran to the Owlery. It was only after 30 minutes I muttered the counter curse. Then I whispered the same thing over and over,and I stared at Harry's owl Hedwig.

"This is for the best,this is for the best..."

But was it really?