I turned on the TV and poured myself a glass of wine. My brother was out at work for the next five hours and I needed some noise in the room so that I couldn't hear myself think. My mind kept straying to topics like Zach and then I immediately shoved it away. I sighed and stood behind the couch, absently staring at the screen. Then I realized what channel I was on and what show I was watching.

In the corner of the screen was that little icon for StarCrossed and then I saw Zach walk onto the stage with Linda all the while smiling. It wasn't live so I was guessing they'd prerecorded it earlier today. It had been almost three days since the incident in the limo, and I still couldn't get over the shock that Zach had used an innocent girl for his fame. And thought it was okay.

"So tell me Zach, how are things between you and Cammie?" Linda asked. Couldn't she mind her own business?

"Same as the last time you asked, Linda." He responded. He looked depressed. Good. He should be. He should be feeling guilty too.

I grabbed the remote and pressed the off button with all my might. I didn't want to listen to him mope about something that was his entire fault. He should've been honest and told me about Laurel. Well, no, that would lead to the same situation we were currently in. He shouldn't have dated Laurel in the first place without having feelings for her. That was it. Wait, what was I doing pondering over Zach? I thought I was supposed to be avoiding him altogether.

I heard a knock at the door and walked over to it. Once it opened I regretted that I had. I rolled my eyes with a sigh. "What do you want?"

"Cammie, please, you can't keep on avoiding me." He pleaded.

I lifted my eyebrows. "Watch me." I started closing the door but he pushed it open again. "I will call security if you don't leave."

"I'll leave once you talk to me." He walked into the apartment and I had no choice but to close the door behind him.

"I already made it clear, Zach. We're done. I don't want to see you anymore. How else can I put it?" He leaned against the bar table, watching me as I kept my distance from him.

"Cammie, look, I'm sorry about Laurel. I really am. That was two years ago. I was a different person back then. I wasn't used to any of this. I wasn't used to having a life where every single one I my decisions counted. And every one of those decisions was practically monitored by the public."

"So you thought, 'oh hey, I'm gonna date a really famous girl just so I can be famous too, and then I'll dump her ass when I'm done using her'. Is that right?" I crossed my arms, careful not to spill the wine.

"I didn't know what to do, okay?"

"That's a lame excuse. Don't even try it." I put away the glass and headed for the door. "Leave. Now."

His face crumpled. He was probably hoping that everything would be okay between us once he left. "Please don't do this."

"I am." I pointed to the hallway that was waiting for him. "Out."

He was about to leave when he turned back. "I didn't use you, Cammie."

I narrowed my eyes at him. "You made that pretty clear in the limo, Zach."

"Look, I didn't mean to say what I did." He walked over to stand in front of me, cornering me with his hands on the door. "Cammie, you're wonderful. I want us to have something."

"Then why do you keep pushing me away?" I insisted.

"Because then they'll get to you. The paparazzi, the press, everyone. I don't want to ruin your life. I'm speaking from experience here. When our band first started I thought I wouldn't be able to handle all the drama. You can make one little mistake and they will twist it into some ugly lie that the whole world knows about in a day." His eyes searched mine hoping to see understanding. I did. Sort of. I knew what it was like living with pain and constant guilt.

"You didn't have to say what you did." I said quietly. "I've been called a lot of nasty things by a lot of people. But hearing that from you just made it so much worse."

"I know, and I'm so so sorry. You don't know how sorry I am. I realize I hurt you, and if I could, I would take it back. Just please, don't shut me out. I love you, Cammie." The words were out. The three words with the little L word that meant so much.

I froze, caught off guard. Then my face softened and my hands found there way to his shoulders. I brought my face close to his but didn't kiss him. "I love you too."

The tension in his body faded away and he grabbed my waist, pulling me close to him. He pressed me up against the door as his lips came crashing down to mine and my hand fumbled for the lock. Once it clicked my fingers were gripping his shirt and pulling it over his head.

We stumbled to my bedroom with him eagerly responding. He took off my shirt and his hands caressed my bare back. I hit the doorframe and winced but ignored the pain. I moaned as his lips touched against my jaw line. My fingers fumbled with his jeans and my knees buckled underneath me once they hit the bed causing him to topple over me. I kicked my pants off and his came off too.

I sat up and shift backwards to move from the edge of the bed. For a second he pulled away, looking at me with those gorgeous green eyes. "Are you sure you want to do this?"

I bit my lip and nodded with a giggle. I don't know why I was giggling. Probably from the excitement of what we were about to do. Maybe because we'd gotten back together. Or maybe because we'd finally told eachother how we truly felt.

He pressed his lips to mine and I felt that no matter how much he kissed me, it wasn't enough.

He deftly unhooked the clasp of my bra and threw it to the floor.

I can't say that this was going to be my first time, but it felt like it. That time with Dean had been a one-nighter that certainly went wrong what with Macey catching us and me not feeling anything for the guy. And all those times with Josh I realized had never been truly passionate since he'd been hooking up with some other girl behind my back.

Right now I knew Zach wanted me, and only me. He hadn't felt this way about anyone for years and that made me feel special.

The last of our clothes came off and what came next was pure bliss.

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