Disclaimer: I own nothing Twilight related. This is strictly fiction…hence the fiction in fanfiction.

A/N: So I've had some people say "All that medical stuff isn't right! She should be doing -blah blah- right now! Not that!"... People, I know. This is just a FANFICTION. Hardly any of this medical stuff is gonna be right. If you want a more medically accurate story, go read (and review) my story Express Yourself. Thanks!

And I say sorry to whatgirl003 and anyone else who is following both FLCT and EY. These stories are sort of similar. This one sort of set off the other one. You might get some repeat situations. :(

Chapter 12:

BPOV

It seemed that the world was mocking me. I would over hear the name Edward from someone at the coffee shop or I would read about some guy named Edward in the newspaper.

I flopped down ont he couch at home and flipped on the TV. It just so happened to be on TLC's show A Baby Story. And I about screamed out loud when the family's last name was Edwards. I turned off the TV and buried my face in the couch. I screamed into a pillow.

I hadn't talked to Edward for almost a week. He'd tried calling me. He'd sent flowers. He'd even sent his brother, Emmett, to come talk to me. But I was still angry at him and wasn't prepared to talk to him yet. I still hadn't made my decision if I wanted to forgive him and give him a second chance.

On the one hand, he had been honest with me and told me himself rather than me finding out myself. And he could've just not told me at all and dumped Tanya and his child. But he's a good man, sort of, and he wouldn't do that.

But then on the other hand, he was a lying, cheating, bastard who broke my heart.

I laid on the couch for almost an hour thinking things through. But eventually I had to get up. I had another doctors appointment today. Today Dr. Nichols and I were going to look at a new possible treatment for my lukemia.

As I drove to the doctors office, I found myself subconciously driving by Edward's apartment. I saw his silver Volvo parked on the street outside of it. As the tears started in my eyes I sped up and drove away. I felt all torn up inside.

At the doctor's office, I calmed down a little. I sat in Dr. Nichols's with him and we talked about my illness.

"So, Bella, it looks like your next best bet is a bone-marrow transplant." Dr. Nichols said to me.

I nodded. "When can we start that?"

"As soon as we find you a bone-marrow match for the transplant." He looked through his files. "And it seems that all your immidiate family have no match to you."

I sighed. "That's really unfortunate. Is there any other way I can get a transplant match?"

He looked sad. "Well, we do have a transplant waiting list but it could take months before your number gets called, so to speak. Is there anyone else you could ask about testing for a match?"

I bit my lip. I'd already had my family do test a while ago, and none of them matched. My friends had also tested too. There was only one person who I knew and hadn't asked to test yet...Edward.

"Well, there is one person..."

I drove down the familiar street as slow as I could. I didn't really want to ask Edward to do this for me, because I still hadn't made my decision about he and I yet.

But this was literally, a life or death matter. He'd help me right?

I parked my car in front of his apartment and sat for a bit trying to bring up my courage. I took a deep breath and slowly exited the car. I walked carefully up the steps and to the door of the apartment. I took another deep breath as I pressed the call button for his apartment.

"Yeah?" Edward's beautiful voice answered. But it didn't sound as smooth as normal. I missed him so much.

I hadn't said anything so Edward asked again. "Yeah? Tanya, is that you?"

Tayna. I should've known he'd be waiting on her. She could show up any second. Why had I come here? He was obviously over me. He wouldn't help me now. I turned to walk away but dropped my keys. I had trouble finding them on the ground because my eyes were blurred with tears.

Then I heard the door behind me open. "Bella!" Then I was pulled into a pair of strong arms that calmed me instantly. "Shh...love, it's okay. What's wrong?" I didn't care that I was crying on Edward's chest. I didn't care that I was crying because of him. I didn't care that he saw me having a breakdown. I just didn't care.

Once I was calmed down enough to speak, Edward looked straight into my eyes. His were red and puffy, like he'd been crying, too. "Bella...please, talk to me." He begged. I looked away.

"I n-need your...h-help." I said.

He brushed his fingers along my jaw line. "Of course. Anything, you name it."

I looked at him now. "Are you sure?"

He nodded quickly. "Yes, anything you want, I'll give to you. I promise."

"Can we go inside first?" I wiped my eyes on my shirt sleeve as he took my hand and led me inside.

I sat down on the couch in the small living room while Edward got me a glass of water. "Are you alright?" He asked as he sat down in the armchair across from me.

I nodded, then paused, then shook my head. "No...It's about my lukemia."

I saw his body go stiff. I knew he wouldn't want to help. "What about it?" He asked sharply.

I might as well tell him anyway. "My doctor and I are going to try a bone-marrow transplant and see if that works. But, I need a match first. None of my family or friends have a match to me and if I go onto a waiting list for a match it could be months, or never, before I can get a match." I explained to him. "I was wondering if you'd test and see if you're a match for me."

He opened his mouth to speak. Here it comes...I thought. "How soon can we get this done?"

Huh? "Huh?"

"How soon can I test to be a match with you? I don't want you to have to wait very long."

"Wait, so you'll help me?" I asked, dumbfounded.

He looked at me funny. "Why wouldn't I?"

I shrugged. "Oh, I don't know. Maybe because I've been avoiding you for the past week, and maybe because you're about to be a dad to your girlfriend's baby."

"Ex."

"What?" I asked him.

"Ex-girlfriend. She and I are no longer together. But I am still going to step up and be a dad to that baby." He said the last part in a final and devotional tone.

Knowing that he wouldn't just abandon his child made me crack a small smile. But it disappeared from my face before Edward could see. "So, I guess we could have the tests done as soon as possible. When are you off work next?"

He sighed. "I, uh...I don't work at the advertising firm anymore."

My brow furrowed. "Why not?"

He smiled a faintly. "I got that job at Seattle Memorial Hospital."

"Oh, well that's great." I said honestly with a smile. I couldn't believe that we'd only been talking and in each other's presence for a few mintues and I was already smiling again. Maybe forgiveness wasn't completely ruled out...

We continued with small talk for a little while longer before I decided to bring up the big elephant in the room.

"So...why'd you do it?" I asked him.

He sighed and ran a hand through his unruly bronze hair. "The honest truth is that I was only dating Tanya because her uncle was my boss and my boss basically said if I dated her, my job performance would increase imensly. I know that sounds completely horrible, and it is. I should never have done it. I regret it so much. But then when I met you, I didn't think about Tanya at all. I just went with my heart and it was screaming at me to love you. And I did. I fell in love with you and it was probably the easiest thing I have ever done. It's so easy to love you." He took a breath. "And then I had my brilliant idea of taking both of you to Oahu. I am so sorry about that. And I really was going to break up with Tanya. But then she dropped the bomb and thing just sort of fell apart from there." He sighed a shaky sigh. "And seeing you walk out that door that night broke my heart into a million different pieces, all of which you took with you." He got down on his knees in front of me and took my hand in his. "Bella, I am so sorry. I don't know how many times I can say that. And I know it's going to take a fucking miracle for you to forgive me or at least talk to me again, but even if I have to wait a lifetime, I will. I will wait forever for you." He took another breath and said his next words with a very devotional tone. "I love you, Isabella Swan. You are the only woman for me...ever. I promise you that." He let go of my hand, stood up, and walked into the kitchen.

I sat there for a few minutes thinking about all the information he'd given me. He loved me. And with love, things always turn out okay in the end.

I stood up from the couch and went into the kitchen. He was leaning on the counter with his head in his hands rubbing his temples. I put my hand on his arm.

"I'm not saying I forgive you completely. It's going to take a while for that, but what I am going to do is try to forgive you a little bit more each day. I love you, too, Edward. More than you probably know. And what you did to both me and Tanya was mean, heartless, and selfish. I'm glad you're going to take care of your child regerless of my decision. That's a real man." I dropped my hand. "We can talk to Dr. Nichols about the tests tomorrow afternoon if that's okay with you."

He smiled a bit and nodded. "That's perfect."

As I was about to leave, I turned to him. "I love you, Edward."

He smiled. "I love you too, Bella."

I got into my car and drove home.

Soo...Did y'all hate it? Please tell me in a review!

And here's a short AN for Express Yourself: I'm currently working on chapter 8. It's taking longer than I thought, with school and other things keeping me busy. I'll try to get it up by next weekend!

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-Kelli