Every Little Thing is Gonna Be Alright
As stupid as it may seem, I cried myself to sleep that night in Ben's arms with him comforting me. It was all backwards, but I had the whole car ride home to think about Ben's life and it just made it worse and worse until I snapped. He ended up carrying my into the house I think.
No matter, I was in his arms in the morning with cheeks stained from dry tears.
I wish he had told me sooner.
I let him sleep and snuck my way out of the room and down the stairs (after washing my face) to be greeted by my parents, Darryl and Auriele, Samuel had obviously flown back, Mary Jo, Warren, Honey and Peter, and…why the hell was Carlos here? He isn't needed!
Carlos is the wolf right above Ben in the rankings and there for-supposedly-right above me, short side, muscular, tan, goatee, almost black hair, dark beady eyes, I think he was of Mexican descent but I'm not entirely sure, he could just as easily be Italian, though the name throws me more towards Mexican.
Not that it really mattered to me in the long run.
"So he told you." Dad nodded.
"Yeah." I whispered.
"What do you think?" Darryl asked and I let out a low growl.
"You think that, because of something that happened when he was a kid, I would change my mind?" I could feel my upper lip twitch and I shook the feeling off. "Sorry." I muttered blinking a few times, "Not your fault."
He remained startled for a moment before blinking and nodding, turning back to his breakfast. Auriele watched me a little wearily before she decided I was no loner a threat to her mate and went back to her food as well.
"It helps to have a new understanding of things." Mom nodded.
"I guess." I nodded, grabbing a cup of coffee. "So, full moon in three days…"
"We are having another meeting tonight to discuss strategy." My father nodded, "You'll need to be here for this one."
"Gotcha." I nodded, climbing the stairs back to my room. "Good morning." I left them and sat on the floor in my room, watching Ben sleep as I sipped the nice caffeinated drink that no longer had any affect on me.
Finally, his eyes opened and he stared at me.
"Morning." I smiled.
He half smiled and I felt a little self conscious. Usually, when someone half smiled and you weren't talking about something sad, they weren't telling you the entire truth. If they were talking about something sad it just means they don't find it that sad anymore or ever.
"You left?" He asked and I could smell his worry.
"I just needed some coffee." I soothed, "I didn't want to wake you."
He paused for a moment before sighing.
"I'm sorry. I just though…never mind." He shook his head and I walked over to him.
"I won't leave you, Ben." I promised, "Ever."
"Don't you go making promises." He snapped, "You don't know if you'll be able to keep them."
"Ben, I will not intentionally leave you." I fixed my original sentence.
"Better…" He trailed off, "Intentionally…don't you die on me this week. I agreed with your decision to go, if you die, just, just don't okay? Just don't die."
"I'll…try my best." I assured.
"You'll try harder than your best." He grumbled, he was grumpy this morning. Although, I guess spilling his guts to a fifteen year old girl was not the way he intended his life to go. He rolled onto his back and put his hands behind his head, staring up at the ceiling.
"Catch me if you can." I taunted quietly in his ear to cheer him up before dashing across the room to the window. He had already jumped out of bed, he had slept in his jeans, and was glaring at me.
"Don't you dare." He growled but I had already slipped out the window and slid down the little patch of roof outside it and onto the ground. I squealed when I heard him land behind me and my mother yell "there are in fact doors for this sort of thing!" and ran faster before just Changing altogether and stumbling into a run on all fours with piles of clothes I needed to dispose of.
"Porsche!"
I took the slight advantage I had and used it to shimmy myself out of my pants and panties and pull my shirt over my head as I ran. It took a little longer to get my bra off, but I managed it while running.
"Fucking mutt, get back here!"
I growled and let out a half angry yip half angry bark, still running the other way.
"Yeah, I called you a mutt, you coyote, wolf halfbreed." I looked back and he was smirking behind me. I growled again and launched myself at him, making the change back in midair before knocking him down successfully and landing on top. He smiled.
I realized what he had done.
"You asshole! You knew I would change back!" I growled out. He raised both his eyebrows but they were back to normal in a flash. "Stop staring at me you sicko!"
"Nothing you haven't showed me." He smirked.
"Nothing I haven't given you." I corrected. "And there's nothing you haven't given me. But why are you shirtless with a freaking eight pack and skinny jeans?"
"Because I'm wearing what I slept in." He smiled. "Unlike you who scattered her clothes all around in the middle of a chase. You got your shirt in that tree by the way." He pointed.
"Damn." I looked up at it. "Stupid teeth, everything gets screwed up when you don't hand opposable thumbs."
"That is very true." He laughed and gently rolled so he had me pinned. I felt me hear rate pick up, though it really shouldn't have made a difference. "That's all." He got up and took a few steps away from me, turning his back to me and bending over to pick something up.
My shorts landed on my head when he tossed them at me and he grinned.
"You may want to put some clothes on."
"BEN!" I screeched as he ran away, back towards the house. I let out a sigh and looked around.
"I really wish wolves had opposable thumbs." I groaned.
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"He's-" Mary Jo began.
"No need, I know." I growled, "The guy tells you his whole life's story, all but begs you not to leave, then wants to see you naked. Where is the sense in that?"
"He's a guy." Mary Jo shrugged, "They can be weird like that."
"Unfortunately, I know that." I stormed into the kitchen and pointed my finger at Ben where he sat eating with Warren. "You are so dead!"
Warren coughed up some of his orange juice.
"Put down the bagel, you're already fat enough!" I stepped towards him.
"At least we know she's not with you for your body." Honey commented.
"And he's with me for mine."
"Let's not do anything rash now…" Ben held his hands up in innocence. "You're the one who changed back."
"You're the one who called me a mutt and a half breed." I countered.
"Ouch, Ben! Do you want the girl to commit suicide?" Auriele decided to invite herself into our conversation as well.
"Porsche, you know I love you." He looked a little worried for a moment before I replied.
"And you know I love you." I agreed, "Now why must you go causing problems? Especially after so many nice conversations!"
"Makes it a normal day when I taunt you." He smirked.
"That is-true." I sighed, "So, fatty, when are ya gonna cut back on the calories?"
"As soon as you stop drooling." He turned back to his breakfast.
"Hey! HEY!" I whined, "I do not DROOL!"
"You got a little something there." Warren pointed to the corner of his mouth.
"Don't you encourage this," I glared at him.
"Why do I pay for cable?" Auriele asked Honey and Honey shrugged.
"I feel the same way," She sighed, "When I see things like this especially."
"Exactly."
"Where's my Mother?" I asked Warren, sounding frighteningly like a book that I believe was written by Eric Carl, perhaps not. "I need to borrow her gun."
"Can't take me in a fight?" Ben teased.
"Nah, I can, but if I use a gun it just screams rampaging werewolf."
"And now we break for commercial." Honey sighed, motioning in boredom to what had just happened.
Ben had jumped off the chair and caught me by surprise, again, pinning me against the wall with both of my arms being held above my head by one of his hands. His other hand was just to the right of my right shoulder so he could lean over.
"If you shoot me, I'd miss you awfully much where I went."
I was breathing heavily for no reason and my heart rate had picked up again.
"I just realized I pay for cable so I can change the channel when stuff like that happens." Auriele said before turning to me and Ben. "No extreme PDA in the kitchen else I'll hand you over to Adam to deal with." She warned.
God she sounded like a teacher.
Oh…wait…
I watched Ben's face as he pushed off the wall and let go, leaving me standing there in shock like a total idiot.
Finally, I turned to Auriele.
"Fine, we'll go to the living room."
"Just be warned your parents are in the basement." She waved us onward in an "I-could-care-less" way.
"K-K!" I called behind me, dragging Ben out of the room. In the living room, I turned around to face him and raised an eyebrow.
"I can make your heart flutter." He smiled.
"Yeah," I muttered, I really wish he couldn't do that. "You can and you do." I hate the fact he does it in a room full of werewolves with super hearing.
"What's up?" He asked, now looking concerned, searching my eyes for my problem.
"What are my parents doing downstairs?"
"Carolos left and so did Peter, they're with Darryl right now, they already spoke to Warren. Soon they'll both be there together discussing-"
I pulled him down for a kiss. When it ended his eyes were wide.
"Strat-e-geee what was that for?"
I frowned.
"Never make me think you're going to kiss me and then fail me ever again." I warned.
"If I have that to look forward to, I'll do it more often." He smirked.
"Just, just don't okay?" My eyes narrowed, "It's like I'm high or something…it feels weird."
Ben laughed.
"Whatever." I shook my head. He leaned down and kissed the corner of my mouth and pulled back. I hummed.
"Really?" He laughed.
"Yes, really, it seemed appropriate!" I rolled my eyes and started singing, "I just can't get you, off my mind. Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug. Your love your love your love. I said-" He covered my mouth with his to shut me up.
"I heard you." He chuckled.
"Is my love your drug?" I breathed in his ear. His grip on me tightened.
"You're going to be the death of me, I'll tell you that."
A/N-
Thank you for the reviews!
Notloggedin: oh…wow…only 4 times? well…thats actually not as bad as originally (i had 10 but i rephrased everything to cut down on the term xD) good im happy!
yeah thats y i put her in this part of the story instead of in the next chapter say cuz of the whole depressing chapter problem, i just cant write an entirely depressing chapter, my life doesn't work that way aha.
i think she's perfect 4 ben…well…no maybe not…but they r nice together xD
yeah! irk! i was typing in all of the cities i knew in washington in the locator and there were NONE! i was like "wtf?"
hehe yeah i try to keep them the same the best i can but its hard wen i want them 2 b one way but briggs wrote them another so i kinda put those in more 2 remind myself than anything hehe no offense wonderful viewers! i put them in for u too! its just i have terrible memory xD and yeah i was re-reading silver borne so i thought that'd b…different to add that in cuz i could c mercy telling her kid something completely off topic like that after the whole "okay, you have your money? your cellphone? you have my number right, in case anything goes wrong? okay, stay safe, don't talk with ghosts or make deals with fae, never say thank you, avoid rogue wolves and vampires-OH! and don't go throwing bowling balls at toddlers! that makes men very angry!"
yes i can stalk u!…and ud never see it coming *steps on twig* oh crud muffins
car talk? hehe besides the fact i was looking at cars 2 buy myself wen i become rich (not gonna happen xD) and the fact i actually love cars in general? (Ford girl personally) just to add a little more to the conversation, i figured as a girl raised in montana where they are allowed to drive at an earlier age than the "norm" that shed kno a bit about cars (besides the fact she's mercy's daughter) and that shed probably want one of her own :) and yeah…miserable date…we've all been on those *gags* i had one where the guy told me this really depressing story about his grandma dying as he twisted my arm in an attempt to hold my hand…and yes, im glad i like ur comments 2 haha
:D i have tons of weird phrases…
Wow…that was LONG! NEXT PERSON! xD
rozabelikov: YAY! xD haha glad u liked it and yeah i kno :( i feel bad for Ben too. Did u notice most of Patricia Briggs' characters have been raped or gone through a terribly traumatic experience? maybe i should almost kill Porsche or have her get raped or something…no i wouldn't do that im not mean to her! im only mean to every other character i created for this xD poor jamie, i liked him too!
I was going to put (for the Ke$ha quote) instead of "Is my love your drug?" it was supposed to be"Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement" then i realized, not even i have that sick of a mind. (and my mind is pretty strange considering i sat next to lucas for a year or two of my life) so i figured "how the hell would i finish the 1/2 chapter if i put that quote in? With "Oh hell yeah?" i mean…i could've ended it the same i guess, or with Ben actually dying…xD that'd b weird
OKAY! STORY FOR TODAY/YESTERDAY!
2day i climbed 214 stairs to the top of a freaking light house just 2 effing have a full out panic attack and hug the wall b4 almost passing out. in the end i almost killed my mother hugging her so tightly…she was laughing, she finds my phobias funny
some mother
and yesterday i bought an antique key (no idea in hell watt its to), american civil war battlefield artifacts, an "antique" locket (i think its plastic…), and a pewter wolf charm for a bracelet or necklace that more than literally fell on my head as i walked by. actually…it fell on my head then down my shirt and i had to try to figure out watt the hell was in my bra and how the hell to get it out in the middle of-you guessed it-an antique store
im bloody brilliant i am
so i got it out no worries but its ADORABLE so i ended up buying it aha
scary thing is that no one was in the room wen it fell on my head, it just did. creepy but ah well it is awesome
and now im eating key lime pie!
SO FORGIVE ME THE EXTREMELY SHRT CHAPTER THAT I HAD CUT IN HALF TO POST AS TWO SEPEARTE CHAPTERS BECAUSE IM A CHEATER!
don't make it make u not review!
..did that even make sense?
SO AFTER AN AUTHOR'S NOTE LONGER THAN THE CHAPTER YOU WILL REVIEW AND I DON'T GIVE WHAT THE PACK SAYS ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU WILL AND I WILL GO FIND MYSELF A BOYFRIEND! ahahaha xD
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