Twist and Shout

"How is this my fault?" I asked.

"I think that it may have worked backwards. I think instead of you taking Ben's position, he took yours." Dad explained his slightly far-fetched reasoning.

"What if we just swap back and forth?" I asked. "Could that work?"

"I don't honestly know, you're the first walker/wolf hybrid I've met." He shrugged, "Perhaps it can."

I nodded.

"So…wait…" Darryl still looked slightly confused, "Is Ben higher in the rankings or what?"

"I'd say, right above Gregory who is only a couple of people up from him in the long run." Dad shrugged, "It's not as if we've tried to find out."

Ben snorted.

"No, I just held lowest because I was told to."

And so, the topic of leadership came up for us to discuss. This was going to be…interesting.

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The annoying sensation was back and I pressed closer to Ben in the bed. He stirred until he woke up completely within moments and kissed my shoulder.

"You okay?"

"No." I whined. "I hate this!"

He paused for a moment.

"Did you take off your shirt when I was sleeping?"

"No! I went to sleep without one! Yes, I took it off, it was so hot!" I complained.

"Porsche, calm down." He murmured, "No reason to be cranky."

"There's tons of reason!" I wriggled uncomfortably. "I was so tired earlier and now I can't sleep!"

"Just close your eyes." He soothed, but his eyes were getting to a lighter blue when I turned around and the smell of his wolf was powerful.

"I tried!" I said. "I tried, but I just can't!" He shook his head, to clear the wolf I think, and he was back to normal.

"What will make you fall asleep?"

"I want it to go away, I can't live a month like this!" I whined, "But the only way to make it leave is to get pregnant."

"I don't think that's a good idea-" Ben startled.

"I didn't say I wanted you to get me pregnant!" A tear escaped, "It just bothers me so much! I want it to go away for good!"

"Porsche, it's nothing to cry over!" He tried to calm me down. "Do you want something to eat or drink?"

I shook my head.

"Okay, what can I do for you then?" He asked softly.

"What you already did was just temporary relief." I rolled over and just pressed against him. "I'm fine."

"No, you're not." He kissed my forehead, drumming his fingers on my side just ever so lightly, I shivered. He froze. "Sorry." He muttered, moving his hand.

I rolled over again and pressed my back against him, trying once again to get comfortable. I could feel his warm breath on the back of my neck and it just made me more antsy. I squirmed some more until he held me firmly in place.

"Sleep." He whispered.

"I can't!"

He let out a sigh.

"Hush little Porsche-ah," He said my name in that funny way some people did and some people didn't where they added the extra syllable. "Don't say a word. Daddy's gonna buy you the whole damned world."

"I knew it was too sweet to be true." I grumbled and he chuckled.

"You can't deny the truth, Adam would do just about anything for you."

"Except forget to yell at you for sleeping with me." I closed my eyes.s

"Well, this time he had reason to…I did cross the line." He sounded angry with himself and I opened my eyes just to roll them.

"I begged you to cross over the damned line." I muttered.

"However you see it, Porsche." He left it at that, "And if that whole damned world don't spin…er…Daddy's gonna buy you a…blue whale's fin."

"I think it's diamond ring." I laughed, my misery easing up.

"Shut it," It was cute in a British accent, "I'm singing the song! I can rewrite the lyrics however I want." He picked up where he left off, "And if that blue whale's fin rots too fast-"

"This is just charming, you know that?"

"Daddy's gonna buy you a a looking glass." He continued, unfazed.

"So you do know the words?" I smiled.

"Yes, in fact I do," He nuzzled me, "And if that looking glass gets broke-"

"Pappa's gonna give me his big red wolf."

"That doesn't rhyme." He smiled against the back of my neck.

"It didn't have to," I told him. "And if that big red wolf-"

"Falls down," He cut me off, "You'll still be mine."

"Hey! That doesn't rhyme either!" I laughed, forgetting the reason I couldn't fall asleep.

"Fine," He sighed, "You'll still be the…it's between prettiest and weirdest…little she-wolf in town."

"Hmmmmmmmmm…" I pretended to ponder, "I like the first one."

"Prettiest then."

"No, the other one." I disagreed.

"Weirdest?"

"Mine." I corrected.

"Mmm, I like that one too." He held me to him and I closed my eyes. About five minutes later I started fidgeting again.

"I still can't sleep!"

"Porsche, tell me seriously, are you okay?" He turned me over to face him so he could look me over.

"It always happens and i can never get a good nights sleep!" I writhed.

"Do you want me to turn the AC up so you can put your shirt back on?" He asked. "Or a glass of water or ice cream or Advil or anything at all?" He was seriously concerned.

"I don't need anything." I whispered, taking deep breaths.

"You're lying." He wrinkled his nose. I pressed my lips to his firmly before making the change into something a little more heated. Ben didn't move when he pulled me on top of him and I was surprised because I had half expected him to pin me.

"It seriously has to last a month?" He groaned, "Can't it be shorter?"

"Anywhere from three to four weeks." I stretched out and yawned. Seeing my yawn, his arms wrapped around me to hold me close, his hands were a little lower than where I'd prefer them but I didn't move to fix it.

"You need to sleep." I rested my head on his chest and sighed in relief.

"I like it here."

He chuckled and my whole body moved with it like ripples in a pond.

"I'm glad, now get to sleep, we have a long few days ahead of us and an even longer month."

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"Porsche should be able to go, we can't just suddenly pull back and say 'no' just because of something she can't control." I heard voices downstairs and blinked to realize I was alone. It was seven in the morning.

"It's more dangerous than it was before, we don't know how these wolves will react, but we won't have the element of surprise if we bring her with us." Dad argued with multiple someones, "You can smell her from a mile away."

"Is there a way to hide it or dim it or something?" Honey asked.

"Not that I know of." Ben replied. "But it's put a lot more stress on her."

"Can she focus?"

"She can if you watch what you do or say. But she's set off really easily and it seems she's in pain."

I could hear them talking about me like they were in the room. It really was very rude and it made me extremely upset.

"Is there any kind of cure for it?" Auriele asked.

"I'm not sure, she said there was one, but it's not something within reason." Ben answered.

I writhed in the sudden discomfort.

"She's awake." Ben whispered.

Porsche, are you okay?

I need you! I bit my lip and curled myself up in the covers just to roll out.

Deep breaths, Porsche, calm down. If you wiggle around it only makes it more uncomfortable. Stay still.

I tried but the effort made me pant and I tossed and turned again.

"I'll be right back." Ben was in the room in a flash, kneeling at the floor by the side of the bed I was on. He reached up and his fingers just brushed my face. "How are you feeling?"

"It hurts." I whined, I sounded so pathetic, but to be honest it wasn't as bad as it had been at Aspen Creek when I had no one to help me.

"How does it hurt?" He invited me to elaborate and I bit my lip and shook my head as I turned over. He got up and sat on the edge of the bed. "What do you want me to do?"

He leaned over and met my eyes again and I pulled his lips to mine, hooking my right leg around his waist. He detangled himself, pulling my hands gently out of his hair and moving my leg back to the mattress and finally pulling his lips from mine.

"Porsche, I'm still talking with everyone downstairs. I need to sort this out." He looked at me apologetically, "I'm sorry, when it's done maybe."

I squirmed under him and tears decided to pour down my cheeks for no reason at all.

"It hurts." I whimpered. "I want it to go away."

"I don't want you to hurt, Porsche, but I can't fix this." He looked like he hated the fact he couldn't fix my problem. "I'm sorry. I'll ask you Mom if she can come up and bring you some Advil or something." He got off the bed and went to the AC control by the door before he left. "I'm sorry."

I just wanted to kerplode or something. The fire in my belly was too much to handle alone.

Come back.

Please.

We're sorry, we have to fix this first.

I hate how Mom never knocks before she enters and I buried my face in my pillow.

"Porsche," Mom sat on the edge of my bed. "I can't believe you never told me about this."

"I don't like to talk about it." I whined.

"How long has this ben going on for?"

"Since yesterday during dinner." I kicked the bed a few times. Temper tantrums were not my usual thing.

"Overall." She added.

"Since I turned twelve!"

"Why didn't you ever talk about it?" She asked softly, I felt her hand on the back of my head.

"Because if I told you you would want to take me back here and I was scared okay?" I cried, dear Lord I hate the mood swings.

"Scared?"

"Of Dad!" I kicked the bed, "He hates me!"

"Porsche! He doesn't hate you!" She sounded startled, "He's just…well…him I guess. He just wants to know that everything is going to turn out all right for his daughters."

"I don't like it." I growled.

"No one does, but he wouldn't be your father without it." She laughed.

I guess he wouldn't.

"I want Ben back." I whimpered, and I rely wanted to kill myself for sounding so…helpless and pathetic, this happened every single year.

Mom was silent for a few moments and I could just feel her watching me carefully, as if she were judging what I was.

"You want an Advil?" She asked finally.

"You know what? Since everyone seems to think it's the answer to my problems, sure! Go ahead! Get me an Advil! It's the miracle pill!"

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Holy shit, Advil is the miracle pill! It barely took ten minutes for my head to clear and the feeling in my stomach remained dull and didn't flare up whenever someone walked too close.

Ben smiled.

"I asked if you needed Advil and you said 'no' but look at you now!" He shook his head.

"No need to rub it in that you were right!" I grumbled. "But…thanks."

"Anytime, Porsche." He kissed my forehead. "Just tell me if you're not feeling okay."

I nodded.

"Hey, Ben?" I thought suddenly.

"Yes?"

"Have you been fired yet?" I asked innocently.

"What?" He jumped at my random question.

"You know, like have you been fired, you don't really go into work very much." I pointed out.

"Because I have work to do with your father first, my boss knows what I am and he respects my decision that pack comes before work."

"Oh." I nodded.

"And you come before pack."

I blushed.

"That was a flashback from a romance flick I saw last year." I rolled my eyes. "You know, ever since that famous guy-"

"Adam Lambart?" Ben knew what I was talking about.

"Yeah, since he announced he was a wolf, people just…won't stop creating misinformed movies and TV shows."

Ben chuckled.

"You're just figuring this out?"

"No…"

A/N-

THANK YOU TO:

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and thanks again for your review on chapter 17! Yes, it was wicked good :D if i do say so myself

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he hasn't been put in his place yet *evil grin* no worries…u may not kno if he dies or if he kills some1 but i do hehehe

neither can i! im going to try to post the entire chapter on the net real full moon this coming tuesday i believe (tho it may be much much sooner depending…)

well, this chapter doesn't explain thoroughly watt is going ot happen but thats mostly because i don't like 2 give everything away no matter how much i love u guys xD

Notloggedin: Wait I have to say this first I FRIGGIN FORGOT ABOUT TIM! GOSH DARNNIT! i was all trying to think of weird names (not that timothy is weird but most ppl would say tim which didn't ring a bell until u said it and i went "crud…mercy was raped by a tim…I AM GONNA KILL MESELF!) not rlly tho…im 2 self-centered xD

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im a walker! i turn into a domestic cat! because im egyptian? xD no im part canadian native american which i don't kno the name 4 but assuming we r all on the same north america i can say native americans…right? well we r from some tribe centered around horses says my mother so if i turned into anything it'd b a horse…but i cant *sigh* it'd b awesome tho if i could!

im scared of heights…

darning again about tim

:D i don't remember wat i write so ill smile and nodd *smiles and nodds*

eh yeah i wasn't sure if id do that or not but i decided to, i was conflicted 4 ages but i finally decided on this route (it ends the same anyways so watt the heck does it matter? she just gets hooked on Advil xD)

im not…i hated writing that period point blank but im bad at smut and lemons or watt ev the heckler u wanna call it so thats y other than that i do think i kinda made him ooh there xD ah well im not briggs else id say "4get it he's a snark he can do watever i tell him 2! AHA!"

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