I'm Not Crazy...
I woke up again, about the fourth or fifth time that night, and listened to my stomach growling.
Damn him for being right.
"Ben, I'm hungry." I said matter-of-factly. "You should get me something to eat."
"I told you you'd be hungry." He muttered, "Go to sleep, it's only a little while before the normal people wake up and have breakfast."
"Normal people don't wake up at six." I complained, seeing it was 5:15am already. "Please get me something?"
"Porsche, I told you that you would have eaten."
"But I was nauseous!" I whined, "Please get me something? My neck hurts too much to get up."
"Which is another thing I told you that you shouldn't have done." He grumbled, "You should start listening."
"You didn't tell me shit until it already happened." I pushed him. "Now get me food."
"No."
The black lump on the end of the bed was starting to wake up. He blinked his eyes a few times before yawning and getting up. I rolled my eyes and sighed when Ben got up as well.
"Morning, Jamie and Jamie's wolf." I smiled pleasantly, "You should go wake up my father, but I doubt he's asleep anyhow. You can go into the living room and watch TV if someone is up there, if they aren't I expect you to come right back down."
He nodded and jumped down from the bed before somehow managing to open the door with his teeth (wish I knew how to do that…) and somewhat closing it behind him, leaving it only a crack away from perfect.
"Good." Ben nodded before looking at me, "Are you positive he didn't do anything?"
"How the hell could I not be?" I snapped, "No, Ben, I'm fine. You already know he sees me as his alpha and I'm mated, he knows how to respect it."
Ben frowned as if he didn't agree.
"Plus…it helps when you command them not to do something." I smiled. "I could live with being alpha. It's fun bossing people around."
"The Marrok would kill himself before he let you become an alpha." Ben snorted and he kissed my forehead. "You'd be a dangerous alpha."
"That's not entirely true." I disagreed. "I know how to be responsible."
"With your pets."
"I trained them military style." I smiled, "I think I did pretty damn well for a four year old-ish kid."
"That is true." Ben admitted. "Now go to sleep, we have another forty minutes before we need to wake up."
"We're already awake." I rolled my eyes.
"Well you should get some more sleep."
"If I didn't have to risk popping an artery, I would kill you right now." I grumbled.
"No doubt you would." He laughed before growing serious. "How is your neck?"
"Better." I shrugged, "Almost like it's gone."
"When do you need to change it?" He asked.
"Sam will probably do that this morning." I sighed. "Oh calm down, he's a doctor! It's not like he didn't help to raise me! And he fixed me last night, you seemed perfectly fine asking me to go home to him."
"But not go back." He pulled me tighter.
"You are such a territorial, low-ranking wolf." I frowned. "Loosen up." I flicked his nose. He drew back, surprised and I sat on his lap.
"I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon." I murmured, kissing the shirt over where his heart was.
"You're a supernova." I looked up at him. He smiled. "I'm not deaf, I can hear what you listen to on your ipod."
I blushed a little.
"That's eavesdropping." I told him.
"I wasn't in the eaves." He disagreed and brought my lips to his.
I had him down on the bed and had straddled his waist before Samuel knocked on the door angrily.
"If you're infecting that injury to her neck, Ben, I will kill you. I had enough of a problem extracting your slobber from it in the first place." He warned, "Porsche with an infection is not my favorite thing in the world. In fact, it could be my least favorite."
I worked to steady my heart rate and control my breathing. Ben looked slightly angry at being disrupted I kissed him gently before rolling back onto my spot in the bed.
"I hate that man." He grumbled. I laughed.
"You're so mean to Samuel." I shook my head slowly, just because my neck was feeling miraculously better didn't mean I wanted to make it sore again.
"I do not trust him." He answered simply.
"He's not going to steal me from you." I rolled my eyes, "He's just someone who helped me through my life in Montana."
"Helped you through life how?" Ben asked suspiciously.
"Gave me money when I begged for it." I chuckled. "Bran didn't trust me with money and Charles less so. He banned Anna from giving me money, not that she listened, but still, the intent was clear."
"Well I don't entirely trust you with money either. I was thinking it over," Ben murmured into my back, "What the hell would you do with a ring?"
"Oh…that's true…I suppose Changing would be complicated…" I paused, "But everyone else wear theirs…"
"Everyone else isn't you, or me for that matter. You have to admit you'd lose it putting it down somewhere, and you Change in your clothes half the time."
"Only when I'm careful I do that. Sometimes they just rip." I sighed, "I guess you'll have to be the creative one then because you're going to think of something."
"You're trusting me with this decision?" He faked shocked.
"Yes," I agreed. "Very shocking isn't- -what are you doing?" Ben tugged at my shirt, I let him pull it over my head, slightly confused.
"Damn it you have bruises everywhere." He growled.
"Most of them are gone, the ones that are there were open cuts that closed." I told him, "How'd you know?"
"You were 'yipping' in your sleep whenever you moved." He whispered, "And you weren't very careful trying to keep it from me."
Stupid bond, why is mine the one that lets me speak to him? Things like seeing the future are so much more useful! I think Mom and Dad could share thoughts, that's what they told me. Anna and Charles' was pretty damn complicated because Anna was the one I asked about mating to begin with and her explanation made it unlikely I'd ever like this very much.
I don't very much like it now, but it's better than I thought it would be. It kind of felt like those stupid walkie-talkie cups where you'd tie one end of the string to one cup and one end of the string to another cup. It's a shitty explanation but it's true, and every so often there'd be this buzz of emotion or it'd feel like a mouse chewed the line.
"Of course." I sighed. I felt him gently unclasp my bra with two hands for once, slipping it off slowly. "What the hell are you doing now?" Not to say I wasn't enjoying it just a bit. I shivered when he brushed a kiss on my spine right above the waist of my shorts.
Of course he didn't bother to answer my question, just continued his way slowly up my back until he reached the damned spot on my right side that made me spazz. I didn't do anything stupid, it's just got a mind of it's own and tends to dance away from whatever touched it, leaving the rest of me behind. Ben chuckled.
"I forgot you had that."
"When did you ever know?" I moved myself back to where I had been.
"To a four year old, the greatest weapon is tickling." He softly kissed the middle of my back. "You never won against me and Warren, I'll tell you that."
"So you just happened to find my spazz spot one day?"
"No," He blew a raspberry right on the spot in question and I nearly toppled off the bed. "That is how Warren found it." Dear God, I thought Warren was gay, why the hell was he blowing raspberries on a four year old's side/back area?
"Dear God you guys were terrible to your alpha's daughter!" I gasped, "What did my Dad do?"
"Nothing usually, I had to back off before he got home so usually he found Warren with you. Not that i don't think he knew." Another kiss right between my shoulder blades. "He just was glad to see you happy and it didn't hurt that I had Warren with me."
Each time he spoke, his lips moves against my skin and it got to the point where I was trembling for sake of wanting more. After a kiss on each of my shoulders, he backed off. I growled and rolled over to look at him.
"Breakfast time." He grinned.
"I. Hate. You." I moaned, closing my eyes.
"Love you too, sweetheart." He kissed me full on the mouth and rolled on top of me, carefully keeping his weight off of me. He left me breathless as always before kissing me once on the cheek and running out the door and up the stairs.
"Damn him!" I pulled my bra back on and the shirt back over my head. The dull ache in my stomach fired up again. I climbed the stairs slowly, running my fingers through my hair. "Damn him, damn him, damn him!"
"Good morning to you too, darling daughter of mine." Mom looked amused. "What happened this time?"
"Never you mind, mother dearest." I frowned. "Where is he?"
"Eating breakfast." I turned around to see Samuel. "Which means now is the time to change the dressing."
"Can we just let me die of infection? I hate this." I whined.
"Don't think I'm thrilled about it either, last time we did this you tried to eat me." He looked amused as well. I was just so entertaining today.
"Can I at least have my coffee?" I sighed.
"No, that would make you more awake." Mom laughed, "Which would make you more likely to eat this here ancient wolf which would put your father in quite a situation wouldn't it?"
"I suppose." I mumbled.
"Come on, let's work fast and get this over with."
I followed him before Ben joined us, looking slightly angry and I realized that, besides the fact he probably could hear us, he'd be able to hear me thinking very loudly about all the shit I went through for puncture wounds on the same part of my neck every time.
"Good morning, Benjamin." Samuel greeted properly and I stifled a laugh. "I assume you're joining us no matter what I say?"
I held Ben's hand.
"It's okay, I'm not going to die at the hand of the werewolf doctor." I assured, still trying not to laugh, it's just…he was so serious! It was funny! "Oh fine, you can join us for tea and crumpets."
"Don't you go making fun of my nationality." He growled in my ear. "I know a whole hell a lot about you I can use as ammo."
That was…true, I suppose when you've known someone your whole life and then ended up mated to them when you're fifteen they would know quite a bit. Like the whole spot on my side, no one knew that I thought.
Apparently Warren and Ben do!
Samuel sighed and brought us into the little area he had made his work room in the basement. I sat down on the bed in there, unlike last night where we'd worked in the room I had slept in, and - attempting not to throw a fit - I allowed Samuel to peel the bandages from my neck.
Last night, letting him have access to my throat and neck wasn't too hard, as much as I hate to admit it it was a life or death situation and the instinct to survive sort of over ruled the dislike of submitting.
"Did Jamie eat?" I tried to distract myself as he worked the first bandage off.
"Like a wolf and now I know why." He answered with a chuckle.
"What?"
"Are you sure that's where she was bitten?" Ben asked disbelievingly.
"What?"
"I'm positive." Samuel nodded.
"ABOUT WHAT?"
"Porsche, you're practically healed." He laughed. "Maybe one more day because I suppose there are only two wolves you can draw from, but you're almost healed. It's just a little cut now."
"Dad is going to kill me!" I groaned. "Big time!"
"I told you last night, he will not." Samuel shook his head, eyes still glittering as he peeled off the other bandages. "For the damage you had done and only two wolves and then your own healing rate, this is pretty damn good."
"Thank you, I do try to form packs behind my father's back for this specific reason, Sam." I glared at him.
"How are the bruises?"
"Bruises are gone, just a few more where some bigger scrapes were." Ben answered for me.
"That is not true!" I snapped and Samuel raised an eyebrow, looking at me, "All of the bruises are gone, they always are, and the only problem I have is where those three big cuts were, they're closed but they're a little sore. No worries."
"That's the same-" Ben began before Samuel cut him off with a glance that said "just don't" and he turned back to me.
"Good to know." And he re-bandaged before sending me upstairs.
"I still need a bandage?" I whined when we got upstairs
"Don't want to ruin the healing now." Samuel answered before calling into the kitchen, "Someone keep Jamie well fed!"
"I need to discuss that with you, Porsche." Dad stepped out of the living room. "Would you come in here for a moment?" He gave Ben a look, "Warren needs help with his search, you are dismissed."
Ben gave me one last look before he nodded and went to find his third.
"In here." Dad motioned and I followed him.
He stared at me for a while which wasn't like him.
"Porsche," He spoke slowly, "I don't agree with you starting a pack on my pack's territory. To be entirely truthful, I don't like the idea of you starting one at all. Please explain to me what went through your mind."
"I haven't been conducting blood ceremonies behind your back if that's what your asking. No, Jamie was just used to me being in charge in the band, I suppose he just carried it with him when he made the Change." My stomach growled and I realized that I had really been neglecting this whole "eat" thing.
"Your his alpha."
"Not by blood or flesh or…whatever." I told him.
"On my territory…"
"Well…yeah, but I'm not trying to take over, in fact, as much as it hurts to give him away like a piece of clothing, you can have him if it makes you happy." It made me feel really guilty and like a failure or something to have to give him away, but I was most certainly not looking to be an alpha on my own somewhere, and being a female wouldn't get me much respect. "So…yeah."
"I'd like to have you back in my pack too." He said calmly.
"Oh, hell no. I'm fine with Bran, thank you." I shook my head. "My father as my alpha and my mate's alpha? That would be a nightmare!"
"I would feel more comfortable with you in my ranks." He frowned.
"I'd like having Bran's pack. Of course, I can't feel them this far away, but Bran can still feel me so I'm fine with it." I shrugged.
"Consider it, it's a full moon tonight." He stood up and walked away, "But I am taking Jamie in."
"Okay." I nodded, trying not to wince in the pain of what doing that was causing me.
A/N-
not my longest chapter, but it's still within reason I think.
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i kinda had this chapter planned when i wrote that…it'd of made more sense if i just combined them i suppose…not that it made sense in the long run but nonsense things are the stuff that make sense to me and not to other people…that doesn't make sense…
because its the same thing every one does "i don't love u!" and its like "yeah i do, but i just don't want to admit it because if i do then ill fall apart and ill c thru me" and all that shluffy stuff similar to that
yes, shluffy is a new word i invented
that is probably true, but even i don't predict these violent swings that come with being in heat and im the frigid author! xD
its true! ok! ben tells the truth sometimes!
not so much important as it was just…i kinda screwed it up there…well…not kinda i did screw it up, i made her hungry because i wasn't thinking straight I guess, i may go back and edit that chapter and this one but i did screw it up, even if u cant get watt i was going for, just trust that i screwed up
that could b a problem couldnt it...
u probably do :) in ur attic or something, they hold ur roof up but u usually see them in really really old buildings
that…could work but they're hard to avoid sometimes
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well he's very possessive for a wolf low in the ranks…
and well, yeah, porsche thinks brilliantly!
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