Shortest Chapter

Ben POV

I wonder if she knows what she does to me. I wonder if she knows how much it kills me when we're apart and how much I really care for her.

Take this past week for example. Jamie completely dominated Paul, but obviously neither of them were quite in control afterwards. The fight itself took a while, but that was the problem.

Well, the whole Darryl thing was found out first, because he tried to get Jamie calm when Adam went to Paul who is admittably more dangerous even though he was half dead. I had sat back, well…sort of. I mean we were all hyped up, but I stayed out of the way.

And then…I don't really know. There was this…thing and suddenly I just pinpointed the quietest sound in the entire basement.

Gregory and Timothy are not the best combination of people, I will tell you that.

You see, when you know her mother, you know Porsche is going to be trouble. What I didn't know was the kind of attention she was going to be getting. She's sixteen for fucks sakes! And barely! She's barely her mother's height! Just because she chooses to torture me with her lack of decent clothing around her house does not mean that everyone can just…stare at her.

I hadn't even noticed them watching her like that which shows you how bloody brilliant I've been. I just heard them and I snapped because it was hard keeping myself even in that place with the blood and pain and fear and everything that makes a fight what it is.

Thing is, I snapped in front of the whole pack. If it was just those two, you'd better damn believe I'd handle it.

Jamie is going to be a perfect alpha because he just jumped into this control that he had lacked for all of five whole seconds and he was the first to stop me because he had heard them too. Darryl was second to hold me back.

I've never hated someone more than those two jackasses.

The thing that set me off wasn't the original comments about things I don't want to think about anyone else being able to talk about, but what they said afterwards.

It just…frightened me I guess and I lashed out.

I couldn't let Porsche know exactly what it was else she'd hate me for a week for not trusting her, but damn it it isn't my fault. It's not as if she lacked total belief in me for a bit.

"She'd leave him in a heartbeat!"

Damn it! It's not my fault! They said it!

Funny how such a small sentence can have such a big impact.

And even funnier how one moment can unravel a lifetime of lies.

I just let him out like that, I hadn't done it since I gained control of him. I don't like letting my wolf out to play on purpose. He'll take over when I'm with Porsche on occasion, but it's a mate thing. I hadn't let him out like that for others to deal with in a long time.

But Darryl couldn't take it.

Warren and Jamie could.

Of course Adam knew what had happened, though I doubt he heard it because he had been inside- -he had helped Paul along with whoever else had helped Paul. He just knew when he took one look at me and I just felt terrible for everything, but I didn't feel it as much because rage was pretty dominant and I was trying to hide my fear of the sentence being true.

To be completely honest, I didn't calm until Porsche came home and I could just hold her.

I know it's stupid but the thought of her leaving me…it terrifies me. And as pathetic as it sounds I just…went off.

Damn morning isn't going to come soon enough.

Porsche POV

"Morning." I blinked tiredly up at Ben. Toli had thankfully gone to get breakfast with Warren.

"Didn't eat her?" Ben looked slightly amused.

I shook my head.

He sighed and sat down next to me, pulling me closer by my hands until he kissed both my wrists. I drew back.

"What do you want?"

"I didn't mean to hurt you last night." He murmured.

"You could've opened it." I narrowed my eyes.

"Yes, I admit I could have." He nodded.

"You should have." I told him sharply. "I got no sleep. Mei had me up all night worrying when it wasn't the physical pain keeping my eyes open."

"I'm sorry." And he meant it, "Can we talk about that?"

"We are." I pointed out.

"I mean, in a little more detail." He frowned.

"As in?" I raised and eyebrow and tried again to pull my wrists from his hands.

"As in this." He rubbed one of the scars. I winced and looked at him.

"What do you want to talk about?"

"About why you'd do this to yourself after Mercy took you home." He growled and let go as I pulled again. I turned away and pulled back my hair from my shoulders.

"That's why." I whispered.

A/N-

Short again but i hate school and i need to get back into the swing. i now have theatre to look forward to and i am trying out for our fall drama, i hope i make it but there r only 7 parts and im a freshman so i doubt i will make the cut, but im going to try my best.

besides reading and writing and horseback riding theatre and horses are my life. Its hard to combine them because they're both so time consuming but i do manage! we're doing "Blithe Spirit" and i want the role of Elvira (dead 1st wife) but i wont even get the housekeeper if im up against the brilliant ppl i met 2day!

besides that im so killer frustrated with all the drama going on, i had 3 kids ask me out today? um, no i don't even kno u…

ah well besides that life is miserable! i finally opened my gym lock so i now have a gym locker but i FORGOT MY GYM PANTS! so i had to borrow someones XD

Notloggedin: thats…yeah that makes u a bad person!

no, no need to fear, we got thru it ok!

hm…perhaps…

but then it would take so much effort!

i am!

XxxxIceQueenxxxX:

its fine! im in the same boat :(

and thanks

Julz: yeah…u should b asleep!

lolz he is isn't he? and yeah i feel 4 porsche too, i may take my anger at my locker out on her and have her suddenly assigned a new locker THAT WONT OPEN!

i hate pressure XD lolz thanks its deff gonna go on cuz vie already got my "list" for the next (and possibly?) final sequel but there may actually b 4 in all (not including growing up wolf) i haven't decided!

so please review! sorry its short and late but i tried!

GIMH