Sorry guys, you are going to hate the ending of this chapter. :( . Oh, and next time, give me a chance before telling me what to do.

Clare's POV

I hang up the phone and look back at Alli.

She closes her eyes. "I'm nervous."

My stomach turns into knots. "You're nervous?" I tell her. "Think about how I feel."

I take a deep breath and pick up the test. When I saw the negative sign, my heart stopped in a good way. I let out a large sigh in relief.

"What?" Alli says and runs over to me and looks over my shoulder at the test strip that said negative.

I set it down and look at her. We pause for a minute but then I let out a small tear of joy and she pulls me into a hug.

"I am so relieved," I say. She lets go and looks at me with relief in her eyes.

I pull out my phone. "I better tell Eli," I say.

She grabs my arm and pulls down my phone. "Why?" She asks coldly.

"Because he wanted to know how it went," I say to her obviously.

"But he broke up with you," She says. "You're not pissed off about it at all?"

My face falls and reminds me to that day he looked devastated and sad. I look back at Alli and sigh. "I'm just going to tell him how it went." I say and hold up my phone and start to dial. As it rings I think about how I really do still love Eli, but I didn't want him to know it.

"Hello," I hear the phone pick up witch scared me a bit.

"Hey Eli," I say.

"So, how did it go?" He asks nervously. Before I could say anything, he starts to speak again. "Before you tell me what happens, I just want to say that whatever it is, I'm sorry. I'm going to help you through this."

I hesitate and couldn't make out any words. I didn't know if I would be happy or just nervous that if I say that it was negative, he wouldn't stick around. But if I said it was positive, he would "help me through this."

"Eli," I start. "…It was…" I hesitate, "Positive!" I blurt out.

"What?" Alli says in the background. I lift my finger shushing her.
Eli didn't say anything, and I started to think he wasn't there. "Uh," I start. "Hello?"

"Uh," He starts. "Really?" He asks as if I didn't believe my words.

"Yeah…" I lie. "I'm uh…Pregnant."

I hear him laugh nervously. "Wow," He starts. "Clare, I'm so sorry."

I look back at Alli who is shaking her head. "It's fine." I say to Eli. "I'm going to try and make it through."

"What can I do to help?" He asks.

I shake my head. "I don't know." I say. "I'm still trying to figure out how I was so stupid."

"It's not your fault Clare," He says. "Don't think that it is."

Alli stands by the door. "Clare," She signals for me and I look at her. She makes hand gestures for me to hang up as she says "Your mom wants us downstairs."

"Right," I say to Alli, and then back to Eli. "Listen, I have to go. I'll talk to you at school tomorrow."

He says goodbye and I hang up the phone and look at Alli. "What the hell is wrong with you?" Alli asks me.

"I'm sorry!" I let out. "He said that he'd be there for me."

"And the perfect way to make him stick around is saying that you're pregnant?" Alli says sarcastically. She lifts up her hands. "How log are going to pull that off?"

I look down and realize how stupid I am. "…I'm stupid." I say. "I just miss him."

"Clare," Alli starts. "What happened to you?"

I sit down on my bed. "I'm such a sad excuse for Clare Edwards." I say.

She sits down next to me. "If he loves you," She starts. "He'd understand. Then maybe he will still stick around." I give her a look from her saying "maybe". "Clare," Se begins again. "If you can't tell him the truth, then he isn't worth it."

I roll my eyes. Maybe she's right…

"I'll tell him the truth tomorrow." I say.

I walk into the school and stalked quickly to my locker avoiding anyone that wanted to talk to me. I opened in deadly and noticed the blankness on my face from my mirror I stuck in there. Not only the blankness I noticed, it was also that small tear streaming down my cheek that I noticed also. I wiped it off and had no clue why I was crying. Probably because another lie came yet again from me to Eli which I regretted deeply.

I still don't know why I was scarred so much from my decision for having sex. I was concealing in my mind why I was so angry. The only thing that came to my mind was making the choice to risk my relationship, and also, risking my reputation from Saint Clare to Trashy Slut.

"Knock, knock." I heard a voice deadpan behind me and figured it was Eli. Why now, Eli? I wasn't ready to tell him yet. I turn around and see a blank expression on Eli's face. "Sorry to bother you." He says in a questionable tone.

"Its fine," I say turning back to my locker and grabbing various items like my books and such.

"Are you ok?" He asks me.

I close my eyes and shake my head. "I lied to you," I say refusing to look him in the eye.

I felt his anger build up although I didn't see him, but I knew he was angry. "What?" He asks vaguely.

"I'm not pregnant." I say as if I was relieved.

"Did you just find this out?" He asks.

"No," I say and turn back around to him. "I never thought I was. The test said negative the first thing."

His mouth cracked to a flat out frown. "Why do you keep doing this to me Clare?" He raises starts to yell like I've never heard him yell like this before. "I was freaking out for nothing!"

"I'm so sorry Eli!" He looks away and then jerks back to me. I start to feel more tears run down my face. I let my head down and start to say calmly. "I just thought that you wouldn't help me with this if I wasn't."

"So lying to me about being pregnant makes it so much better!" He says sarcastically but not in a good way. "Clare, your-

"A slut?" I finish. He rolls his eyes.

"That's not what I was going to say."

"We're you going to say crazy? Stupid, insane, anything related to that?" I basically yell that out to the entire hall but I hardly had time to care.

He looks at me disappointed. "I used to have hope in you, but now I know that that's impossible now. I was going to say hopeless." He says. "If you could've just come to me-

"You couldn't come to me about Julia!"

"I had to learn from your witness. You heard about it from me."

"That's because your witness is dead!" I yell at him and then quickly regret it.

He looks at me looking even angrier than before. "You know what Clare," He says. "…I can't help you anymore." He finishes and then starts to walk away.