HEy guys, back with chapter 12 ! yaya

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The Dirt Road

JPOV

I smiled contently as I wove through the cars on the highway. I held Nessie's hand as though she was my life line, which was partly true, because I knew I wouldn't be able to live without her anymore.

She looked so stunning tonight. Her dress ended a few inches before her knees, and they were just begging me to touch them. Her long creamy legs were in some black laboutine heels, and they made her look so hot. She took my breath away in every sense and I noticed that my heart hadn't stopped since I stepped into her house.

I wanted today to be special, because it was our first night out together, and I knew that she deserved the best.

I took her to a high class restaurant, which I liked very much. They had everything there and I couldn't wait to show it to her. I also had another trip planned after our dinner and I hope she liked it. I wanted to impress her really badly because I knew she deserved someone better than me, but I wasn't giving up just yet.

As I walked her to the front doors, I asked for the table under Black.

"Ah, yes, the reserved table". An attendant came over and walked us over to a secluded area in the restaurant. It was still near the main sitting area but far enough that there was some privacy. I opened up Nessie's chair, and she sat down, looking around, not believing her eyes.

She unconsciously took of her black shawl, and I couldn't help but stare at the newly exposed skin of her neck and shoulders. I was so possessed by her beauty that I almost missed my chair, as I went to sit beside her.

"What do you think?" I asked her. Damn. She didn't like it, why was I so stupid?

"Jake this place is beautiful. Are you sure we're in the right place?" she asked.

I smiled at her wonder. "Yes, I'm sure. Do you like it?"

The night went perfectly. We ordered our food, and I had to stop my self myself from attacking her, as I saw her pink lips as they puckered out and as she licked them after every bite. She was going to kill me.

By dessert, she ordered some type of chocolate cake, which I hadn't tried before. I decided to order the same thing because it looked delicious. It tasted as delicious as it looked too.

Conversation flew by naturally. And about half way through desert, she placed her hand lightly on my thigh. It felt like heaven. I liked it when the brave Nessie came out and played like this.

"You have chocolate all over your lips." she giggled.

"Really? Where?" I asked, daring her.

"Over here," she leaned into me, and sucked on my lower lip, "Mmm, my two favourite flavours." she moaned as she continued to suck on my lower lip, and I her upper lip. This was such a turn on for me. I laced my hands through her hair, as she continued to deepen the kiss.

It was extremely sexy when she took control like that. She continued to suck and place open mouthed kisses down my chin and across my jaws. I had already died and gone to heaven.

I pulled her up, and placed her on my lap, her legs on either side of me. I placed my hands on each of her legs, and brushed my thumbs across the inside of her thighs. Her breath caught at the intimacy of our position, but she seemed to like it because she brought her lips to mine hungrily.

After some intense moments of kissing, she pulled back to give me access as I bent down, placing butterfly kisses along her collar bone. I bent down further south and kissed along the neckline of her dress.

"Oh, shit... that feels so good," She moaned.

I smiled against her skin; it amazed me that I had that kind of effect on her. I loved it when she moaned my name like that. God, this is the hottest make out session ever.

"Gosh Nessie," I chuckled, "we're in public."

She leaned back in, and laid her head on my shoulder. "That was so hot, why did you stop?" she whispered in my ear, and kissed it.

"You want to leave now? I have another place planned." I said, as she looked back at me.

"Really, but this is already too much,"

"Nothing's too much for you baby,"

I gave her another kiss, and called for the waiter. She blushed as she noticed that she was still in my lap. She jumped off and sat on her chair. But I immediately felt the emptiness hit me once more. I took her hand and paid the bill. We headed out and I drove off.

I took her hand and placed it by my lips.

We stayed silent for the ten minute ride. And when I pulled over to the dirt road that leads to my favourite place, Nessie looked confused.

I thought I would show her the meadow that I had always loved to go visit. But Nessie looked like she'd seen a ghost.

I stepped out of the car, and ran around to open her door. I helped her out and she seemed to be thinking of something else, because she didn't reply when I talked to her.

"Nessie?"

She looked up at me, terror in her eyes.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I asked worriedly, taking her face in my hands, but she flinched away. What the hell is going on? What did I do? She was fine a few minutes ago, was it because where we were? "Nessie, What's wrong what did I do?" but I kept my hands to my self as she looked like she was about to cry.

"Just do it!" she yelled, "just say it and get it over with." I couldn't take in the fact that she was hurting. Then all of a sudden, she walked to me and smacked both her hands against my chest.

"Nessie, I... just tell me what I did wrong... I don't know what you're talking about." My voice started shaking.

She was full out crying now, "All of you are the same! The same lies! Who do you think I am?" she screamed at me, but I had no fucking idea what she was talking about. It was freaking me out.

But before I could say anything, she started again, "So who is she? Is that the 'something' you had to do today?" she seethed.

She stopped to take a breath and I used it to say something, "Nessie, you're scaring me, telling me what you're talking about and maybe I'd have some answers." and she abruptly cut me off.

"Oh don't give me that shit, you know what I'm talking about, you bring me here to the middle of nowhere, I hate you Lucas!" her voice cracked, and the tears were falling faster than ever. "You're breaking up with me aren't you?" but it was muffled by her sobs.

"What! No," what the hell? "Why would you ever think that? Nessie, I just got you, you don't know how happy I am that we're finally together. I would never dream of letting you go,"

Now she seemed confused. "What... how... what are we doing here then?" she asked "why did you bring me to the end of a dirt road. I... I'm sorry for snapping like that. I... I just thought... that you..." she struggled for words.

I couldn't stand seeing her in tears like that. I wanted to take her hurt away. I cautiously made my way over, silently asking permission. "It's okay, everything's going to be alright." I said, as I reached out a hand and tried to remove those dreadful tears.

She leaned into my hand, and I took that as an encouraging sign. I pulled her into a tight hug that transferred all my feelings for her, I hope she understood how much I cared about her, because I know I would never want to break up with her for another girl. I thought she already knew that but I guess we're going to have to talk about it.

I breathed in, memorizing the sweet sent of her hair. "Nessie," I said gently, "can you please tell me what's going on? I'm really worried. Does this have anything to do with what happened yesterday?"

She pulled back and looked into my eyes, "Do you really like me Jacob?"

"Of course, I don't want you to ever doubt that. I like you very, very much."

"I...I'm going to tell you... but you have to promise to not judge me, not once,"

"Of course, I wouldn't ever dream of it,"

"Where were you going to take me again? You said there was another plan,"

"Yeah, I did," I tried to clear my head as I remembered where we were. "It's actually a bit of a walk. But don't worry, I won't bite."

I led her through the trees for a couple of minutes until we reached my favourite place. I used to come to this meadow when I was little, to escape the outside world. It was so peaceful and I never told anyone about. Fearing that they might tell people, and then it won't be my peaceful thinking pod anymore. But now I felt like I had to share it with Nessie. I didn't know what she would think though; would she be disgusted by the nature or mesmerized by the beauty as I am?

It seemed to be the later. As we stepped out of the trees, she looked around in wonder at the beautiful scene. It was a big Meadow that was filled with wild nature and the sky looked beautiful and clear. I loved to come here at night and gaze up at the stars.

"What do you think?" I asked her.

"It's... It's so beautiful." she looked in awe as I snaked my hand around her waist. She gripped on to me tightly, like she never wanted to let go.

She looked up at me, "I'm sorry Jake. I'm sorry I misunderstood you... I just thought... I'm so stupid, I ruined our perfect night."

"No, you didn't ruin anything," I cut her off, placing my hands around her face. I walked her further into the meadow and sat down on the grass, bringing her down in my lap. "Now, would you like to tell me what's wrong?" I asked gently.

She got this far off look, and started with her story.

My anger boiled as she told me about that bastard. He had used her and dumped her like she was recyclable. I was glad she was in my arms now, because she seemed to soothe me a bit.

As I listened I made the connections and regretted deeply that I had ever said those things to make her remember. And when I brought her through that dirt road it reminded her of the stupid son of a bitch who dumped her in the middle of nowhere.

I wanted nothing but to take away her pain right now. She cried all through out her speech and I couldn't do anything but kiss them away.

Then I heard what he said about her not being pretty, and not worth his time. I was seriously about to jump up and go hunt him down.

By the end, she was paler than yesterday night, and I was feeling the fury build up in my body. I wanted to kill that son of a bitch.

"So," she said, uncertainly "I guess our relationship is kind of similar, that's what set off the memories.

"But there is one major difference that you forgot about Nessie," I replied, "Ours is real," I said from my heart. "I don't want you to ever doubt that. And I'm so sorry that I scared you by bringing you here. I should've thought before I acted."

"No, no," she cut me off. "I'm glad you brought me here. It's so beautiful and peaceful. If anything, I should be sorry, I knew that you wanted tonight to be special, and I just blew up over there."

I smiled down at her. I knew this was all too good to be true. But I knew we were strong enough to make it through. We just have to work together. "Please tell me if this bothers you again," I whispered, "call me selfish, but I don't ever want to see you in pain again,"

"Thank you," she whispered back, "for listening to me, and not giving up on me. You don't know how much I appreciate that."

She leaned up and placed a chaste kiss on my lips, as a fresh wave of fire burned through my body. But this time it had nothing to do with fury. It was the love I was feeling for Nessie.

Wait love? Was I possibly falling in love with this girl? I think I was. I didn't ever want to be separated from her. But did that mean this was love? We've only known each other for less than a month for Pete's sake. Maybe it's just a fluke that lead my mind into weird places.

I let it go, and just laid there with Nessie, staring at the night's sky. I just want to lay here forever and not be interrupted my anything. But then I remembered that there was work tomorrow.

Damn. The world seemed to not exist when I was with Nessie. I even forgot there were such things as humans, who live their schedules everyday, the go to work and spend time with friends, and I forgot that I was included in that category.

After what felt like minutes, I checked my watch, and noticed, it was twelve. Wow, really? That's weird; it felt like only moments ago I was at Maggie's trying to pick the perfect flower.

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