Heyyy. i know this chapter is kinda short again. but i was busy all week.. blame it on school.. and this is all i got to writing, and didn't have much more tim to write what is in my head, so i kinda split it in half so that you guys wouldn't be waiting too long again. But there is still more.. the next chapter is still in Jacobs pov. because it just feels better from his. and yea ..

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JPOV

OH NO..

I mentally groaned as I realized I was starting to wake up. But I didn't want to. I wanted to stay like this forever, whatever this was. I wasn't conscious enough to know where I was, but I knew I didn't want to ever move, because I was as relaxed as ever. And not just that, but I felt so heavenly, it was like nothing I had ever experienced before.

I didn't want to move. Or wake up at all for that matter. But I could already feel my brain waking up and stretching and I could already feel my body begin to start working also. Godamnit. Can't anyone just rest in peace?

Now I couldn't go back to my peaceful, Nessie filled dreams. But all I could do was keep my eyes shut closed, and cherish in the moment. Nessie's arms were wrapped up around my waist, and her head resting gently on my chest. My arms were also embracing her tightly, and I held onto her for life. It was like I couldn't even live without her anymore.

I wrapped us up more tightly together, as a slight twinge throbbed in my head, and I cringed, remembering all the drinking from last night and the drunken state I was in. That led to me remember what had happened last night after we went to the club. I don't even have a clue what happened in the last hours, and how we had gotten home, but suddenly I was stirring in bed. And seeing Nessie right there in her sleeping attire, I couldn't help it. All the lust I had for her that had been pilled up all those months we've been together.

Wow. It had been the best thing I have ever experienced, and I couldn't hold my self back any more. The whole night was so pleasurable. I didn't think she'd, as they'd called it, go down on me, but god, was it the hottest thing I've ever seen. And that's not the half of it; feeling her mouth on me was about to make me release in two seconds, and I didn't even think that was possible. But she was just that sexy and she didn't even know it. This turned me on even further.

I don't even know what had gotten in me, but now that I think back, I realized I was a bit harsh with her. Had she even wanted this? I was being such an idiot and just started devouring her like an animal. What kind of man was I? I started to regret what I had done. Not the part of having sensational sex with Nessie. But how I had acted last night. It was nauseating that I had the courage to do that. I just started it, just like that. Without even taking her permission. She was probably not going o forgive me. What is she wasn't ready? I could have done something. I could have hurt her, why was I so fucking stupid?

Then as I continued to think about yesterday night, a thought crossed my mind. We didn't even use a fucking condom! Shit. Oh god. Why do I have to be so dim-witted? After all these months we've been together, she's now going to leave like the bag of trash I was. And there was no doubt about it. Why would she even forgive me?

I was so caught up in my thoughts; I didn't even notice that Nessie had woken up. She was lightly drawing circles on my chest and looking up at me happily. As soon as my eyes found hers, she smiled widely and brought her head up to kiss me softly. "Good morning,"

"Morning." I mumbled against her lips. God, she tasted so amazing. But how can I even think about this after I had done.

She pulled pack and looked at me intently, "You look thoughtful today. Something wrong?" she asked innocently.

Yes. I'm a sick bastard. "No, everything's fine," not. How do I bring this up? It was pretty important, and I know she'd want to talk about it sooner than later.

Her frowned and looked at me knowingly. "Please tell me what's bothering you". She reached up and kneaded her fingers through my forehead which was also starting to crumple up.

I reached up to crease her cheek, "Last night…" I didn't know what to say. Do you regret it? Was I too hard? I'm sorry?

She saw me struggle for words, and finished for me. Smiling she said, "It was amazing. Really, thank you." her smile didn't seem to falter.

What was wrong? It's like she was hypnotized or something. She should be mad at me. "No, you don't understand." I sat up in bed, making her get up as well. She brought the covers up to cover herself, and sat next to me; a confused look on her face. "I'm sorry," I stuttered, looking away.

"What are you talking about? Jake-"

"Don't act like that." I snapped, immediately regretting it because she flinched back. "Don't act like you're okay with it." I added trying to lower my voice. "I was stupid, okay? I didn't mean to… make you do anything, or force you into it, when you didn't want to." Ugh. Why was it so hard to talk to her now? And I couldn't even seem to look at her face.

"Jacob, look at me!" She grabbed my face, and I was forced to look into her intense eyes. "I don't know what the hell you're talking about, but last I checked; having sex was a two person thing. And I was as much a part of it as you. To tell you the truth, I've wanted it ages ago; I was just waiting for the right time, because I wanted our first time to be special."

"But that's just it! I was acting like a fucking animal, and you don't deserve that." I got out of bed, grabbed my boxers and stuffed my legs into them. I walked over to the window. "You wanted your special romantic night. Not a fucked up drunk dude who thought he could just get his way just because he was fucking horny and drunk."

"Jacob, it wasn't like that to me. The whole night was just full of love and affection from the both of us. It was the best. And I don't regret any second of it." She was suddenly walking up behind me.

I turned around to face her, and she was wearing a silky bath robe. I looked into her eyes; all I could see was love and adoration, and nothing else. No regret or hatred. And I knew she was telling the truth. I decided to believe her. May be I was just overreacting?

I cradled her beautiful face in my hands gently and looked at her. "I truly am sorry. I swear, I didn't mean to hurt you or push you into something you didn't want." She opened her mouth to say something, but I kept going. "I promise it will never happen again. And I'll make it up to you, if it takes forever. I just hope you'll forgive me."

"Jacob, I was never mad at you."

"Please, just humor me."

She smiled, leaning into rest our foreheads together. "You're forgiven."

"Thank you," I was finally able to breath properly.

"Now, may I please get my proper good morning kiss?"

I grinned. "Gladly." I bent down, capturing her lips passionately.

After a couple of minutes I remembered there was another point to my out burst. I groaned. Couldn't anything just be normal for a few seconds? I pulled away.

"What? What's wrong?" Nessie asked.

"How could I be so stupid?" I tried to move but Nessie held my arms tightly. "We forgot to use a fucking condom!" Nessie let out a sudden snicker, "What? This isn't time for laughing Nessie."

"Oh Jake, you're so cute. Don't worry, I'm on the pill." She giggled.

I breathed out another sigh of relief, "Are you sure?"

"Yea, of course, I started it a month ago."

I stared at her. I couldn't have a better woman in my life than the one in front of me right now. I don't know what in the world I had done to deserve her.

I leaned down and wrapped my arms around her waist. "I love you,"

"I love you more…"

"Impossible." I bent down for another kiss, but she leaned her head back.

"What now?" I asked, what was wrong with this morning.

"Morning breath, need to brush my teeth first." She smiled innocently.

Now it was my turn to chuckle. "Are you serious?" she nodded. "I don't see anything wrong,"

"I'm not kidding Jacob. Let me go," she squeaked, as I tried for another one.

"Not a chance in hell." I walked us both into the washroom, and tried not to think about what had just happened. I will spend how ever long it took, worshiping her so she would forgive me.

So tell me what you think.. did he over react? i didn't really know how this chapter will go, and im slightly worried about it, so review and tell me some thoughts.

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