Hide Me
By ss1998ftw/Swifty444
Character's are Tite Kubo's not mine
No, these ARE NOT song lyrics
I feel my body struggle
It's in need of release
I can feel it burning
Look what you did
I'm growing weak
So small and frail
My voice is gone
My mind's gone black
I can't help but feel broken
There's no going back.
The group of Espada started to break into worried sweat all awaiting the outcome of this torturous waiting game. Szayel's hands were shaking furiously, reviving Cirucci was taking all too long and he was in fear that it may have been the end. Szayel gripped his scalp, how could he have killed her! He was a beast no better than Aizen! Cirucci hated Aizen for taking the lives of the weak and innocent, though Cirucci wasn't what he'd call weak, but at the execution her reatuis were weak and spiked with a fear that suffocated him. How could he so effortlessly take the life of the person he loved the most, and at the order of Aizen? That would kill him; it'd drive him insane, all the guilt and loneliness driving him into a depression too severe for anyone to deal with. By this time he was shaking furiously and he started to cry. Nell looked at him and she felt herself grow sad. She could see he needed comfort. She knelt in front of him and wrapped her arms around him and she felt him fall into her embrace, he was broken, he was nothing; nothing without the woman he'd grown to love. She ran her hands through his silky pink hair whispering sweetly.
"She'll come back Szayel, don't give up. Love always prevails"
Don't you wish that were true?
That all things right
Like love
Justice
And truth
Would always beat those wrong?
Szayel continued to sob he wouldn't, no he couldn't, live without her. He'd kill him self right there if he couldn't save her. He wanted to hear her sweet breathing, the light thud of her heart beating, and the sound of her voice. It was torture he had to do something, there was no time to cry; he had suck it up and work. Szayel wiped his face of tears and hugged Nell back, which had also turned into a crying mess and he stood up.
"Not if we just sit around sobbing, we've got to get to work, for her."
How do you do that?
Laugh while you cry
And shout while you whisper?
How do you do that?
Put so much truth in your lie
And so much pain in your pleasure?
How do you do the things you do?
And always keep my wondering.
They were all at a last resort; they'd all sold what was left of their tortured, dirtied souls and given into what the enemy wanted. Szayel, Nell, Grimmjow, Nnoitra, and Ulquiorra were all on their knees, palms pressed together or hands held tight; praying to whatever force was above them, in hopes it'd hear their pleas.
What if God is deaf?
And all my praying goes to waste?
What if God just doesn't care?
Then what would be the matter?
What if there never was a God?
What if we're all just fools?
What would be of the world then?
Nell started to breathe heavily, how could she let her best friend fall so hard? Sure, she hadn't seen her in years, and their reunion was brief; but she'd grown to love her company all over again and they'd grown to be better friends then ever. But now, now that was all gone. Another tear ran down her already stained cheeks and she held her shaking hands tighter together.
"Dear Lord, please, whoever you are just …"
I'll try and find the words
Once I try and find the time
Because if I keep stalling
The time will come before I'm ready
And I'll shudder silently
Speechlessly and inconveniently
I'll let you down without a word
Nnoitra took in his surroundings, there were tears, there were frowns, and there were frustrated grunts; there was everything but happiness. Nnoitra bit his lip and fidgeted slightly; it was hard to balance on viciously shaking knees. How could he let his only pure goal, a goal of good intentions; just fade and die before his slinted eyes? It was impossibly irritating, that a man as strong as he was feeling so weak and defenseless. Nnoitra swallowed hard and watched as his vision blurred with frustration.
"You Bastard, you never do know when to stop hurtin' the innocent do you?"
I don't mean it
When I yell and scream and bitch
I don't mean it
When I shove the blame at you
I don't mean it
When I let you cry and tell you
"You deserve it"
…
I don't mean it
You're just too pure of a creature
Ulquiorra was emotionless on the outside, but his heart and mind were racing. How could he be such a fool? To think any person at the standards of a god, would do such vile things; it was ridiculous. How could he let himself lose the angel who'd opened his eyes wide open to a fate so cruel? Ulquiorra opened an eye and he looked at all the suffering souls.
"I'm sorry I've mistaken you for a man as vile as Aizen."
I was always been expected to achieve perfection
But I just can't deal with that pressure
I want to be accepted
But no one opens their doors to a person like me
Would you do that for me?
Would you let me under your beautifully crafted wings?
Would you take me as I am and never ask for it any other way?
Grimmjow stayed silent and distant his eyes squeezed shut, he wanted to runaway, he wanted Cirucci to come back; he wanted the world to make sense. He held back tears he couldn't believe he let another soldier fall, especially one he'd been so determined to save. He knew he couldn't hide but maybe if he just kept his eyes closed and he took deep enough a breath, the world would just disappear.
"Please, we've been through too much, even for our strength we can't take this on too."
The devil's language is tainted
In lust and lies
Just like me
But I'll change
I'll change if you'll just grant me this
I want it so bad it hurts
I won't sleep
I won't eat
I won't live
Not without that joy she gave us
They need a savior, they needed to be heard, they need a miracle, it wasn't too much to ask, was it?
The room stayed quiet and tense. It was unbearable, till suddenly the room filled with life; someone was gasping for air.
The four turned around in shock looks of relief and worry as Szayel rushed to comfort the shocked figure on the table. He held her hand tight till her breathing steadied and he watched her breathe. The chest raising slightly her eyes wide; she was alive. Cirucci smiled after a while seeing everyone gathered around to watch her breathe.
"You guys," Cirucci sighed "Are jerks!" Cirucci slapped Szayel across the face with all her force. "I thought I was dead I didn't even know what to think! When you started crying Szayel I thought you lost fate and didn't want to go through with the plan! I was so scared! Do you know what it's like!" Cirucci shrieked.
"Do I know what it's like? Do I know what it's like!" Szayel looked ready to rip his hair out. "You were on that table not even breathing or showing any signs of life for that matter and you're asking if I know what it's like! You're freaking nuts! I thought I'd lost you!" Szayel cried causing Cirucci to wrap her arms around him and nuzzle his neck. "Cirucci I'm so sorry," He murmured into her hair.
"I'm sorry too," Cirucci mumbled "I'm sorry all of you, I've probably traumatized you guys," She said leaving Szayel's embrace slowly and sniffling a bit smiling.
"Oh Cirucci you baka!" Nell sniffled "All the trauma in the world is worth knowing you okay! You better not die on us or I swear to god I'll—" Nell burst out sobbing and she wrapped her arms around Cirucci.
"I'm so sorry Nell-chan, you seem so hurt." Cirucci murmured pulling Nell gently out of the embrace with a gentle smile. "I'm fine now, you guys should get rest." Cirucci stated causing Grimmjow to pout.
"What the hell is this, you're sending us away without a hug!" Grimmjow mused as Cirucci smiled and murmured an apology. Grimmjow Cirucci wrapped her arms around Grimmjow and Nell smiled.
"Group hug!"
So little people
Have tasted the bitter-sweet tang of a miracle
So little people
Have told all of the people they love just how much they care
So little people
Have danced around death and spit in his face
…
Yet so many people
Have experience pain and suffering
And cried themselves to sleep
Life is so unfair
As they all left the embrace looking relieved, enlightened and safe; the group separated gaining much needed rest, wondering if even after they've laid their head on their pillow; if things will be okay.
We can't help but wonder
It's all just so natural
The fear
The love
The hate
It's all just too natural
"You're so brave Cirucci," Szayel said smirking against her neck. Cirucci smiled and held him closer taking in his scent.
"How 'bout you? Always coming up with these schemes, all just to get some." Cirucci kissed his forehead and Szayel chuckled.
"I wouldn't put it that way, you're not just a tool to get some," He said hesitantly.
The Lolita smiled "The what am I Szayel, enlighten me," She said kissing him deeply.
"The love of my life," He said breathlessly, this time without a doubt; causing Cirucci to blush and smile brightly. So this was how it felt, love.
"Ditto," Cirucci breathed against his neck causing him to smirk.
He ran a hand down her back as she shuddered involuntarily, causing him to grin wildly "Ditto, what, my flower?" he taunted causing her to moan.
"I- no, I can't," She complained as he continued to taunt her with is hands.
"Tell me Cirucci, or I'll leave you be; all needy for my touch." He purred causing her to clench her fists and just give in.
"I love you," Cirucci pouted when he backed away.
"Tell me flower, who is you?" Szayel asked furrowing his brow as he put his hand gently between her legs.
"I love you Szayel Apporo Granz!" Cirucci gasped.
"That's right don't you forget that." Szayel said sweetly.
"Never, now take me I want to be yours!" Cirucci moaned in frustration.
"As you wish Cirucci darling," He swiped her off her feet in victory. Tonight, all their troubles would wash away, may it be for a night or forever; it was good enough for them.
A/N So there it is, the rest of the previous chapter revived by memory, if the original is better I'll replace it but I really like this one so I highly doubt that. I'd really like to hear your thought on whether I should write more serious, edgy (Lol was it edgy?) and fluffy like this or otherwise.
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