"Hey buddy, how does a sandwich sound to you?"

"A sandwich with chocolate?" the kid asked hopeful, taking his eyes off the TV, that was giving Aladdin.

"If you want to." she answered, with a shy smile.

Sometimes, being around Lucas hurt just too much, It reminded her of how she'd given up on her second chance to be a mother, to let Pete and Violet be happy, and make him have his birth mother raising him. It made her feel empty, thinking about the day she and Sam had broken up, because she wasn't ready to give up on her dream, and and he had already accomplished his.

But that was three months earlier. She was moving on now. With the help of Naomi, surprisingly. And her elevator shrink, of course. But she was seeing him less now, just a piece of advice here and there...

She carefully placed the plate on the coffee table in front of Lucas, who thanked her with a big smile. She smiled back, softly, and moved towards the door again, stopping on the doorway to look at the boy.

He had grown up a lot, in the last three years, and was now in preschool, telling everybody that he was 'a big boy now', since he was already four.

"Can Milo come on the couch, Aunt Addie? I think he'd like to watch cartoons with me."

"Oh, sure, don't worry. I always let him come on the couch."

Agitation grew inside Addison's heart, as a similar sentence, said by his mother, crushed onto her.

I got up this morning and Betsey was watching cartoons with Lucas, she had taken him from the crib while I was sleeping...

Suddenly, a crazy thought brightened her mind, and she had to do something about it.

Flashes of old conversations she had with Sam, Violet and, before that, with Naomi, surrounded her; Violet's face when she looked at all of them, saying 'we did a bad thing', hit her with plain pain.

"Buddy, I have to make a call, I'll be right back okay?"

He nodded, and she grabbed her phone hurrying up upstairs, her body trembling excited.

She dialed the number feverishly. "Nae it's me, it's Addison, I have to ask you a question."

"Are you okay?"

"Do you think I would be a good mother?"

"Yes, of course-"

"Do you think I could make it?"he knuckles were turning white.

"Addie..."

"Do you?" she repeated insistently.

"Yes, I do. What's happening, what are you talking about?"

"I-I was watching Lucas, and, and-"

"Addie. Breathe. Slow down and breathe."

"I'm baby sitting Lucas... Nae, I want to have a baby."

"You're not thinking about kidnapping him, right? Because you sound a little crazy at the moment."

"I don't want necessary a baby. I just want a kid, a son or a daughter." she explained more calmly.

"You mean adoption, but you don't care about the age? That's what you mean?"

"I mean adoption, of a specific person."

"Addison. You get that you can't take Lucas, don't you? He has a family."

"I'm not going crazy Nae. He made me think of Betsey." she paused. "Do you think..."

"Oh, Addison." Naomi sighed. "I know you want it badly. We could find out who adopted her if you want, make her a visit."

"How do you know she's been adopted? You can't be sure."

"I'll make some calls, okay? Go back to Lucas."

"Call me tonight."

"Sure, as soon as I know something."

xxx

"So, she's not adopted." Naomi said when Addison opened the door. "But we're going to sit down and talk about it, 'cause it's not a straightaway decision."

Naomi sat on the couch, and Addison reluctantly did the same.

"What did they say?"

"They e-mailed me a photo." she showed her the picture, letting her looking at it for a while.

"She looks good."

"Yeah, she does." she said softly. "There were two families, Addie. That wanted to adopt her. The social worker told me that she behaved so badly that they sent her back."

"She behaved badly?"

"She has problems, Addison. Come on, we all knew it. She talks back, disrespects adults, once or twice she hit other kids. She comes from a difficult situation, Addison. Life have her a hard time. When Violet and Pete didn't adopt her... it was like the cherry on top of the cake."

"She still needs someone."

"Are you sure you can do it Addie? You would be a single parent."

"Think about it, Nae. She knows me, she's been at the practice and around us. After school, she could come at work and stay with Lucas in the playing room. I'd help her with homework between a patient and the other. I have space here at home; there's the beach and also a park in the nearby. I would love her. And, I'd never 'send her back'."

"It will be difficult."

"I know. And it's also something that I really want. So, are you helping me or not?"

"Of course I am." the black woman sighed

xxx

"I talked to the social workers for the nth time." Naomi announced a few days later, entering Addison's office with Olivia peacefully placed on her hip.

"Hey. Hi Olivia... hey baby." she walked over and gave her a big kiss; she giggled. "What did they say? Please tell me something new." she looked at Nae.

"They'll call later this afternoon, to schedule an appointment at your house."

Addison inhaled hair deeply. "Okay."

Naomi smiled softly at her.

"I'm really doing this. I'm having a daughter."

"Are you having a baby, Aunt Addison?" Olive asked.

""You're having a baby?" Lucas' voice echoed from the doorway.

"Oh, hey! Hi, buddy. It's not totally sure yet kiddo, but I'm doing my best to adopt a girl."

"Mommy! Did you know that Aunt Addie is having baby?" he yelled seeing his mother across the hall.

Violet walked over, and caressed Lucas on his head. "I thought you were barren."

"Yep. I... am." she answered slowly.

"So?" Violet raised her eyebrows.

"She's adopting." Naomi added.

"Oh, really? Well, Addison, I'm really happy for you."

"Can I play with her when she comes?"

"Sure."

"When is she coming?"

"I don't know yes, buddy."

"And how old is she?"

"Ten."

"But she's bigger than me!"

"Older." the three women automatically corrected him.

"Does she have a name?" Lucas continued.

"Of course she has a name. She's called Bets-" Addison stopped, and looked at Violet. "We should talk alone for a minute."

"Okay."

Naomi moved towards the door, and waited for Lucas to follow her.

"Can't I stay here with them?"

"Don't you want come play with Livvy?"

"Later."

"Come on, Lucas. Mommy will be there in a minute."

"Pleeease. Pretty, pretty, pretty please."

Violet smiled.

"I'll come too buddy. And I promise you a very big ice-cream." Addison said.

"Yay!" he screamed in excitement, finally going out.

"Okay, is there a specific reason why you're spoiling my kid more than usual?" she turned back towards the redhead.

"I do not spoil him." she paused. "The girl I'm trying to adopt... she's Betsey."

"Excuse me?"

"Dell's daughter. Look Violet I-I know what you're thinking, but I wasn't ready back then when I had the chance. I think you can understand. When you weren't ready for Lucas, he was still there for you when you 'healed'. You had your second chance, I want to have mine. I think that somehow, I deserve it a little."

Violet remained silent, not knowing how to answer to this.

I love this fic, I seriously do. xD And have you noticed that Lucas only calls Addison 'Aunt Addie', and that she always calls him 'buddy'? Isn't that sweet? *.*

Chapter two is almost entirely written, so don't worry.

Please tell me what you think... it'll make me happy and I'll update sooner (I'm kidding :D)

Oh,and I didn't remember if Maya's daughter's name is Olive or Olivia...