Broken Plans and What Comes Next

I slipped down the stairs..
...I slid down the whole way
Right into the web you've woven
'Just Like Me' by Paramore
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As it was, Natalie didn't see Billy again as soon as she'd counted on. He'd called her Friday afternoon to tell her he wouldn't be at the bar and rescheduled, but he'd called Saturday afternoon to do the same thing. He cancelled Sunday, too, and grumpily asked her to come out on Wednesday instead. She was never able to get much out of him as far as details of what he was doing that was getting so hectic, though, which was annoying.

When Natalie woke up later Monday night (or early Tuesday morning, depending) she wasn't expecting it to have anything to do with Billy. Her phone was ringing and she had to fumble around to find it in the dark, still partially asleep.

"Hello?…Hello?….Billy?" she asked after pulling the phone away to squint at the caller ID. "Billy?" she asked again after clearing her throat.

"Yeah, hey--- you're 'wake"

"Now, sure…are you drunk?' she mumbled, flopping down onto her back.

"…yeah, pretty much," she heard him grunt, imagining him stretching. "I was gonna call ya t' come out but I know ya gotta go t' that early class…"

"So you're calling at 2AM?' Natalie sighed while burrowing under the covers.

"…guess it ain't the smartest way t' go, but you're up now," he decided easily.

"And why am I up?"

"'Cause I called"

"Why did you call?" she asked in exasperation, too tired for this if he was just doing to talk about nothing.

" 'Cause I wanted t' talk t' ya -- why the hell else would I call anyone…" he sneered. "Bodie, what?…fuck off."

"Where are you?"

"Back room o' the bar"

"Oh…so what did you need to talk about?"

"…I dunno"

"Billy…"

"What? 'kay, hockey? We can talk 'bout that"

"You like hockey?"

"Sure I like hockey"

Natalie mulled that over, picturing Billy and the guys crowded around a TV with the game on. She liked the visual; it was nice and normal.

"…you 'wake?"

"Yes"

"Good… surprised ya haven' hung up on me yet…"

"Well I can if you want"

"No!"

"I was just kidding"

"Right, right…ya wouldn' hang up cuz you're nice…you're too nice t' me, ya know that?" he decided.

"Am I supposed to be mean?" she managed to ask around a yawn, just to humor him.

"No, then I wouldn' like you…which I do, but ya already know that…"

Natalie grinned at he drawled out the confession. She'd found that Billy was typically a nice enough drunk unless he was drinking specifically because he was pissed off. He could still bark orders at the boys but for the most part drinking loosened him up, at least from what she'd seen.

"I suspected, yeah"

"Suspected," he mocked. "If ya only suspected then ya ain't very smart for a college chick…I don't usually even hang out with chicks…"

"And what did I do to deserve that honor?" Natalie asked curiously.

"…t' hell if I know…ya just ain't like other broads 'round here."

"I've seen of the girls that hang around you guys, so I'm going to take that as a compliment."

He laughed over the line and Natalie suddenly wished she were there; Billy didn't really laugh a whole lot.

"It was one, cuz girls 'round here are bitches. Like…just like the other night when I came over. They never wouldda helped me, these broads….they wouldn' give two shits an' clean me up. You did though…for nothin'…how weird's that?" he prattled on.

Natalie wasn't sure she knew just what he was asking so she just made a hum of agreement over the line, thinking about what he said. About how no one cared for him…

"…ya tired…fuck, I shouldntta called this late," he groaned, rubbing a hand over his face. "I'll go….Bodie's still lookin' 'round like he wants somethin' so I'll take care o' that and leave ya alone."

"Alright. Go home and go to bed soon"

"Sure, mother," he mocked.

"Bye," she laughed softly.

"Later," he grunted.

The next time she talked to him on the phone it was Wednesday and just long enough to tell her and Paige not to come to the bar because none of the guys would be there…

"Again!" Paige complained.

"Yeah…I guess something came up…I don't know what's been going on lately"

Paige continued to scowl and Natalie didn't disagree; this was pretty last minute. Paige had come over after classes and they'd hung out and done some work. They'd just been changing to go meet the guys when Billy called.

"Well, look, no reason to waste a night when neither of us have an early class; let's go out for dinner. We'll come back and watch a movie or go out in the hot tub…"

"I like the sounds of the hot tub," Paige approved.

So a night out turned into a girl's night, but that wasn't so bad. They got some good food and came back for the hot tub and gossip before going inside to watch a movie. Paige declined the invite to sleep over and went home for the night. Natalie still felt awake so she got her bathing suite back on to get in the hot tub again. She flicked through a magazine for a while before resting her head back and closing her eyes.

"….look what we have here…"

Natalie jumped but maybe she shouldn't have been so surprised that Billy would show up when least expected. Head up and eyes open she could see him leaning on a beam that held up the awning that covered half of the back patio.

"Hey…"

"Hey yourself," he responded, eying her sitting there in her black bikini.

Natalie was flattered but also annoyed. Annoyed at how many time she'd been cancelled on.

"Don't be pissed," Billy rolled his eyes, reading her face all-too easily once his eyes fell there. "You look good."

"…gonna come in and join?"

"Do I look like I brought some kindda bathing suite along?" he asked sarcastically with an edge to his tone.

Natalie was about to ask if he really needed one but then decided she wouldn't put it past him to climb right in naked and she wasn't sure she wanted that…did she?

Besides, he didn't seem like he was in the best mood.

"So what were you busy with tonight?" she asked casually.

He gave her a warning look.

"What? I'm just asking," she defended herself. "You've been busy lately…"

"We're short and we've been pushin' to make up for it…then we owed some more for bein' late…"

"Short?'

"Yeah. Short. Short on money; we've got people t' pay," he told her tersely.

"…I thought people paid you?'

"A certain percent of the money always goes up," he explained, breathing deeply to remind himself not to get annoyed because all this was foreign to her.

"…how far up?"

Natalie wasn't sure if she was pushing her luck with all she was asking, but if he was talking she'd take it in.

"…goes up t' the boss," he explained after eyeing her for a long moment. "I'm the boss on the streets, but there's always a fat fucker away from the heat that reaps some of the damn profit. Bones."'

"…bones?"

"It's a name"

That was the end of his offered explanations and she nodded and relaxed back. It's not like he was secretive about what he was and what he did but he usually left things in general terms and let her imagine the details since she knew what the guys did…for the most part.

"What'd you do tonight then?" Billy asked to get the focus off of himself, leaning against the edge of the hot tub.

"Well Paige and I were all dressed up with nowhere to go, so we went out to dinner and sat out here and then watched a movie. She only left a little while ago."

"Good timin' on my part then…"

"Why? You like Paige," Natalie frowned.

"She's alright," Billy shrugged dismissively.

"…you like her," Natalie repeated, raising her hand out of the water to take his hand and lace her fingers in his to get his attention.

"Sure, sure"

She shook his hand to get his attention again, and he sent a sidelong glance down at her and he took a step behind her to bend down and tilt her face up to kiss her from behind. Hard.

His hands rested on her shoulders, fingers dancing up the side of her exposed neck.

"…how about you come in here?" she grinned invitingly.

"Nah, you get out here," he grunted, grabbing under her arms to straighten and lift her out.

He sat her on the edge and tugged on her leg to get her to turn around.

"…no, I don't want to get you wet," she hesitated to wrap her arms around him.

"…I think that's gonna happen the other way around," he told her smugly.

He stepped closer and grabbed her knees to pull her closer. She smiled back and circled her arms around his neck, and he delved into her mouth and splayed his hands over her damp skin. The water was cooling against her skin and she shivered, leaning into him more. He helped her and pulled her closer, tight against him. His arms stayed flexed around her, desperately pulling her to him.

She broke the kiss for a second to catch her breath and Billy immediately zeroed-in on her neck, biting at her racing pulse. His hands danced over her sides and he sucked on her earlobe, chuckling into her ear when she gasped softly. His mouth quickly came back to hers and she ran her hands down his chest inside of his coat and down over his stomach. She found the bottom of his shirt and he pulled back to watch her hesitantly slip her hands pass the hem to feel smooth, taut skin. He was pretty sure a girl had never touched him hesitantly before, but her soft touch roused a groan from him and he grabbed her wrist and pushed her hands further up his shirt, grazing a few short hairs, and pulling her close again.

His hands pressed into her skin, keeping her closer as he ravished her mouth. She moaned as his hands caressed her lower back and tugged her hips closer to his and his abs twitched under her light touch.

Billy dragged his hands up her back to her hair to try to free it. As she'd pulled it up in a sloppy sort of bun, he couldn't quite get manage it.

"Get it out," Billy groaned impatiently, chest heaving.

Natalie stifled a giggle at his annoyance and undid the band to let her hair fall around her shoulders. His hands were immediately in it, twisting his fingers around the dark locks. His mouth left hers again after a bit and Billy gave her hair a pull, exposing her neck to him so he could suck on and lick her throat. Her hands grabbed his shoulders and she bit her lip and moaned softly.

"Billy…"

He hummed his acknowledgement and nuzzled her neck, biting the soft skin lightly. She could feel her pulse still racing and her breath was ragged. She wasn't sure how well she was keeping up with him but she pressed her hips forward and felt a little rewarded by his groan. Slowly, she slid from the side of the tub and Billy let his lips part from her as she lowered herself to her feet. Her body slid against his and he hissed softly, gazing down at her calculatingly.

"It's cold out here," she explained.

He nodded and let her step around him to lead the way inside but he caught her arm and looked over her. He hadn't gotten the best look at her sitting down in the water but he let his eyes travel her now, slowly tracing the soft curves and lean physique.

"Ya really do look good…"

Natalie smiled and shivered, both from the cold and from watching his eyes shamelessly take her in.

"Come on; it's cold"

"We even allowed in there?"

"We can get to my room if we're quiet…"

His mouth hitched up in a half-grin, letting himself be led in through the sliding glass door. They entered the kitchen and Natalie turned off lights as they went. Once the first floor was dark Billy grabbed her and lifted her up so her legs were wrapped around his waist and he had to silence a small squeal of surprise with his mouth.

A light was on upstairs in Natalie's room so he managed the stairs fairly well. Natalie could feel him through only the thin fabric of her suit and tightened her legs around him to nearly grind against him. Billy knew he had to be quiet so he swallowed a groan, but he faltered and stumbled, grabbing the rail to steady himself. Natalie's arms tightened around his neck but she giggled softly and when he straightened up he put a few fingers over her lips.

"Ya wanna wake your old man and deal with that mess?" he hissed.

She shook her head but her eyes were still crinkled in amusement. He stared into them…carefree…innocent…

He slipped his hand from her face around to the back of her head to pull her back into a deep kiss. Natalie gladly melted into it and removed a hand from his neck to caress his arm, which was flexed to hold her up. He headed into her room and pushed the door closed quietly with his foot. He crossed to the bed and laid her down, propping himself up on his arms.

"…look at you. Sexy," he informed her.

Natalie blushed and slid her hands into his jacket to push it off. Billy complied, raising to stand on his knees and shrug his coat off hurriedly. He dropped back down to his hands and ducked his head to kiss her and trail kisses down her neck. Natalie moaned softly when he lowered himself onto his forearms and more of his weight settled on her.

He was soon cupping her breast in a large hand, and her mouth was on his neck, licking the sensitive skin and grazing her teeth there gently. It wasn't long before he was moving lower, his mouth working his way between her breasts, sucking on the side of her breast hard enough she was sure it would leave a mark. She squeezed his shoulders, then, which only prompted him further. His mouth hovered over the damp material over her breasts and covered the area over her nipple, biting at the area quickly. Natalie gasped and arched her back to press closer to his mouth. He chuckled but traveled away from her chest, heading lower once again. He explored her flat stomach, his facial hair tickling the soft skin.

Natalie ran her hands over his head and neck as he did so, swallowing a giggle now and then when he found a sensitive area that started to tickle. She watched him bite at her belly button, and then just lower he bite the top of her bikini bottoms and tugged a little. Her hands twitched on his head because her first reaction was to stop him, but she recognized that she didn't actually want to.

His fingers hooked around the fabric of her bottoms after she didn't stop his initial attempts, and he slowly, tantalizingly, pulled them down her legs and away. Natalie watched with bated breath and sighed contentedly when he wrapped his hands around her ankles and, still slowly, pushed them back up her legs. It had been a long time since she'd really been touched this way and she shivered in anticipation.

Billy kissed her thigh, nipping at it as well just to tease her, and gently prompted her legs a little further apart.

He touched her softly, exploring, and looked up at her with a satisfied grin when she inhaled sharply and bit her lip. He brought his mouth back up to hers, kissing her hard as he slipped two fingers inside of her. He continued to go slowly, though his kiss was anything but. Natalie bent her knees a little further and he felt her toes curl against his calf. Her soft moans were lost in his mouth and her hand snuck up the back of his shirt, fingers digging at his back.

Billy groaned when her nails grazed his spine and he pulled his mouth from hers. He again moved down her body and bit at the inside of her thigh again before turning his head to suck on her most sensitive skin.

Even though she'd expected it, Natalie cried out softly before she could stop herself and Billy's hand shot out to cover her mouth. He looked amused, though, when his face hovered above hers again.

"Shhh…"

She nodded and he removed his hand to rest his elbow beside her head. She immediately bit her lip and squeezed her eyes shut to muffle a groan when his fingers curled up inside her. He grinned.

Billy tugged her lip from between her teeth with his thumb and slid his finger inside instead. She bit it lightly with an amused glint to her eye and he retaliated by curling his fingers again and moving them faster as his thumb rubbed her. She sucked at his fingers a little harder and did her best to keep quiet.

Billy watched her intently while he worked her, watching how her lips closed around his finger, her tongue playing over the end of it. His mind immediately went to the thoughts of her mouth on other important parts of him, and his jeans tightened.

A twinge of regret hit him for starting all of this at her house with her damned parents around. He didn't want to keep her quiet, he wanted to hear the moans she had to muffle and keep her mouth shut for. Her soft sounds were getting to him and he really wanted to take her somewhere else so they could do what they wanted and be loud if they wanted.

He got her to her finish before his jeans could become painfully uncomfortable, delving into her mouth again as she came beneath him and grabbed at the back of his shirt.

Natalie was still breathing heavily as she began to relax and kiss him back a little more passionately now that she was thinking straight again. She pushed him back and got him standing tall on his knees before squirming out from under him. She, too, stood on her knees and wasted no time getting his shirt up and over his head to drop it aside. All of his tattoos were visible to her and she was actually in a position to take the time and appreciate them, so she traced one of the swirling designs from his neck over his shoulder.

Billy leaned in towards her touch but wasn't sharing her patience and wrapped his arms around her to pull her against him. He gave her bare ass a squeeze just because he could and was pleased when she smiled against his lips. He was just deciding to get to work untying her top when one of her hands skirted past the waist of his pants and cupped him through his jeans. He groaned lowly and broke the kiss to rest his forehead on hers, hand still fisted loosely in her hair.

She pressed her palm against him a little more firmly and he exhale sharply, letting his eyes fall closed. Natalie grinned and kissed him slowly, twisting to get off the bed and stand on the floor. Billy followed suit and, with a finger on his chest, Natalie nudged him back to sit down on the bed and she squatted down between his legs, pushing her hands from his knees to the inside of his thighs.

Billy watched her though half-closed eyes, reminding himself over and over to keep quiet through all of this. He wondered how well he'd fair with it since this had all been on his mind for quite some time, but to hell if he was going to stop her.

Natalie could feel him hard in his jeans and slowly worked his button and fly open with one hand while the other slowly rubbed against him. She was starting to pull down his jeans, his boxer briefs would be next, when his phone rang.

He snatched it quickly to stop the noise and answered with a gruff "what?"

"This better be fuckin' life an' death, Tommy," he growled, voice low and tight.

He allowed Natalie to keep stroking him through his underwear as he listened to Tommy quickly go on.

"So?" Billy spat.

Natalie gave him a soft squeeze but this time his free hand shot out to still her.

"What?" he managed to get out between his teeth.

She chuckled to herself and leaned back on her heels slightly to wait.

"He fuckin' did what?! Where the hell'd he go?"

He waited a second for a response, glaring at nothing.

"Right," he bit before closing the phone with a snap. "Fuck. I gotta go."

"Oh…"

Natalie was annoyed but could also recognized this seemed important, so she stood up without more of a say. Billy raked his eyes over her again and watched her find a pair of sweatpants on her dresser and pull them on, along with a white tank top over her suite. When Natalie turned back around it was to see Billy with his head in his hands, perhaps willing away his erection. He remained that way for only a second before leaning to grab his shirt and pull it back on. Then he stood and before he got his hands on his jeans, Natalie was there to redo them for him. She looked up at him with a small smile and gave him a quick kiss before handing him his coat.

"I'm gonna see you soon," he told her pointedly, shrugging the jacket on.

She nodded and he grabbed the back of her head to kiss her hard and then get to the window to hurry away and to the latest mess he had to help square-away. Natalie watched him until he disappeared from sight and then let her curtain fall back over the window and backed up to her bed. She sat down and her thoughts raced over the night's events. It had all happened so fast…she felt like she hadn't had a chance to even think about it, to decide if it was even what she'd wanted….

But after a moment a slow smile spread across her face. She knew, rationally, that there were plenty of reasons to not have done what they'd done…but she didn't care so much. She couldn't honestly deny that she was some feelings for him, however misplaced they may be, and it was also undeniably nice just to be touched that way by a man and to touch him. She felt a little bad about the abrupt way he'd had to leave but, then again, that was more his own fault and not hers.

Still smiling, she got around for bed; after all, she still had to go class the next day even though she was guessing falling asleep wouldn't be all that easy tonight.

Friday night, Natalie and Paige were at the Four Roses; the plans had finally all panned out. Everyone was drinking and having a good time. Paige had driven the girls over from her apartment, which was probably good because the way things were going Natalie didn't know if she'd be going back to her friend's to crash for the night.

Billy had his arm slung around her where they were currently sitting at the booth with some of the others. Paige was out of sight playing pool with Baggy, not that Natalie really noticed. She was more interested in Billy and his mouth, which was currently working hers. He kissed her deeply, a show of PDA that would have most people looking away but the other guys sitting with them hardly cared either way. Billy moved his mouth to her neck, sucking the delicate skin behind her ear because by now he knew that'd get a reaction out of her, and passed his hand up her side to grope at her breast.

"Billy," she whispered, brushing his adventurous hand away.

"Somebody's shy," he teased, breath washing over the shell of her ear.

"Guess so," she shrugged him away, sitting back more properly against the booth.

"Ya know nobody cares," he muttered, straightening up himself.

"Well I do," she responded, sliding a hand up his thigh carefully just to make sure he knew she wasn't mad and to insure he wouldn't hold the retreat against her.

"…maybe not so shy," he tensed for a moment before she backed off with a playful grin. "Maybe you're a fuckin' tease," he accused quietly, ducking his head again so she'd hear.

Natalie leaned towards his lips when he tilted his head as if to kiss her but he pulled away just before their lips met.

"Maybe you are," she accused back, amused.

He just smirked and bummed a cigarette off Bodie, using a small, otherwise pointless, candle to light up before taking a drag. Natalie reached for her beer to take a drink and a few minutes later she excused herself to go to the bathroom; she barely got both feet back out of the bathroom afterwards when she was grabbed around the waist. She tensed, scared for a moment, before she recognized Billy by his body and his smell…and then by the way he kissed her.

He pushed her against the wall and ground his hips into her while his lips forced hers open to access her mouth. She sighed contentedly and wrapped her arms around his neck. He was pulling her against him urgently, mouth hard and demanding.

"You smell good… … feel good," he murmured, grabbing under her ass to lift her up and make her wrap her legs around him.

After a minute or two he pushed a hand past her jeans and underwear to grab at her bare ass, and he started to pull at the front of her pants, too, trying to find the button blindly since he was still kissing her.

"Billy, Billy, stop…"

"Why?" he panted, face against her neck.

"Because we're still in the bar," she answered like it was obvious.

He lifted his head and annoyance mixed with agreement on his face and in his eyes.

"Then lets get outta here, huh?"

She nodded agreeably and he slowly let her slide to her feet before taking her hand to lead her none-too patiently to the front exit.

"My jacket," she remembered before they got to the door and would hit the cold air.

"Paige'll get it," he responded simply.

He drove quickly and it was a short distance anyway, so they were back at his apartment shortly. He threw the car in park and killed the engine, reaching across the divided front seats to kiss her while he fumbled with his door. Natalie laughed inwardly and once he opened his door and pulled away to get out she quickly got out as well, joining him around the car as he led the way into the dingy apartment building.

He bypassed the elevator -- the last thing he needed was for it to break down for a while and have her insist that, too, was a "public place." He'd been aching for this something awful since that night at her house and now she was there. He'd enjoyed relaxing with her and the boys for as long as he could but now he could care less about shooting the shit with his brothers.

He grabbed her hand as they hurried up the stairs, pushing the door open to his floor unceremoniously and knocking his door open just as quickly before shutting and locking it behind him.

Billy grabbed her up again and, now in the privacy of his apartment with all the time and space they wanted, Natalie didn't have to keep either of them in check. She happily let him rid her of her shirt and pay her chest as much attention as he wanted. She rid him of his as well, and the rest of their clothes soon fell to the floor along with their shirts.

Billy groaned, reveling in her touch and silently congratulated himself for finally getting her alone so they could both do whatever the hell they wanted. There, with no friends around for Natalie to be bashful in front of -- he'd have to wean her of that insecurity -- and no parents to have to pussy-foot around, they could do what they wanted and be loud if they wanted…she was his tonight.

Aaaaand there's that. Hope you liked. I've really liked seeing that people are still reading and enjoying, so shoot me a review and let me knwo what ya think =)