Chapter 30

"Of course I want to know everything, that's why I'm paying you the outrageous sum of money that you've been getting for the last year. You can get close to her and they are none the wiser. So have you learned anything new?"

"Yeah she's planning something but I don't know what it is. Captain Brass is going to put it together and call her back when he has a final plan. I suppose I could volunteer to help, then find out what it is."

"I don't pay you to suppose I pay you to act. Get me the information I need so that I can get her alone. I want her and I will do anything to have her. Do you understand me?"

"Yes Timmy I understand, I will talk to Brass to see if I can get a heads up as to what she has in mind. I will let you know everything I can just like I always have little brother. I've always had your back and this is one assignment I've really enjoyed. I've gotten to know both women and I can see what you like about Sara."

"You can't let your feelings get in the way though. We may have to kill Catherine to get to Sara. Will you be able to do that?"

"If that's what it takes, that's what I'll do. What about her daughter?"

"Her sleazebag husband will just have to step up and take care of her. Or maybe Grandma will do it. Sure was nice of her to get the kid out of the way for us, just one less thing to worry about. I draw the line a killing kids."

"I like that Timmy, a stalker with scruples."

"Yeah that's me. Now finish up your beer and go home so I can think about how we are going to carry this out." He stood up and headed to the back room.

"Ok Timmy I'll let you know what I find out from Brass."

"You do that Manny."

Sara could not believe how good it felt to just sit with this woman in her arms and do absolutely nothing. She was usually the type that had to keep moving and she hated sitting around her apartment doing nothing. She couldn't stand to be inactive, it usually drove her crazy. After a while she realized Catherine had fallen asleep and she was perfectly content to just hold her. She picked up the remote and changed the channel to the Discovery Channel and sat back to watch TV. After awhile she started to wonder if she could change Catherine's mind about not having sex. She lowered her hands to the hem of Catherine's shirt and rested her hands against her stomach. She left them there until she was sure Catherine was still asleep. She moved one hand to her breast and the other found its way to the soft curls between her legs. She started to rub her clit and soon Catherine was moaning and moving her hips in an effort to increase the pace of Sara's fingers.

"Damn Sara, this is so not fair. How am I supposed to fight it when you pull a sneak attack?"

"And why would you want to fight it? Come on Cat don't hold anything back I want to watch you come for me."

Catherine turned over so that she was facing Sara and crashed her lips against Sara's then rose up so that she was on her knees straddling her. As Catherine's hips moved to the rhythm Sara was setting it was easy for Sara to slip two fingers into her wet folds. "Damn, you feel so good inside me. Are you ok?"

"Oh I am much better than ok. How could I not be?" Sara reached down with her free hand and lowered Catherine's shorts to her knees. Catherine finished the job by lifting her leg and flinging the shorts across the room. When she lowered her knee she placed it between Sara's legs so that it was pressing against her heated center. "Oh shit Cat."

"What is it baby you don't like that?" Sara's answer was to rub herself against Catherine's knee which elicited a moan from both women. "Those shorts have to go." Catherine reached down and pushed the shorts down far enough for Sara to remove them using her feet. "Oh shit you are so wet. Are you sure you're ok?"

"Cat stop worrying about me and enjoy the ride ok?" Sara then inserted another finger and used her thumb to rub against Catherine's clit, soon they were both panting heavily and sweat was pouring off of them. Sara brought Catherine's head down to meet her lips and then she whispered "Come for me baby."

"Only if you join me." Catherine whispered back. Both women climaxed simultaneously and then Catherine collapsed on top of Sara. "Am I hurting you?"

"God no, you feel good just the way you are. You feel better than good actually." Sara reached up and pulled the blanket down from the back of the couch and covered both of them. "How are you doing?"

"Mmmm I do believe I have found my favorite place to sleep." She laid her head on Sara's chest and she just listened to her heartbeat. "Can I just stay here forever?"1

"You wouldn't hear any complaints from me." She adjusted her position just a little to make it more comfortable and then started running her fingers through Catherine's hair.

"Are you sure I'm not hurting your side? I could move." The tone of her voice said that was the last thing she wanted to do.

"No babe you are not hurting me, like I said you are just fine." Sara's voice was beginning to fade as she spoke, Catherine looked up and saw that she had fallen asleep so she moved as careful as she could and slipped off of her. She covered her and sat down on the coffee table and just watched her sleep for a few minutes. She looked so peaceful when she slept, the lines of worry that were usually present were all smoothed out and she looked almost childlike.

Catherine leaned down and kissed her brow then stood up and headed to the kitchen to start dinner. She thought about all that had happened in such a short time and once again her insecurities crept in. Was she going to be enough for Sara? Oh she knew she could keep up with her sexually she just wasn't sure that she was what Sara needed for everything else. They both had baggage that they brought into the relationship and she was hoping she was strong enough to help Sara deal with hers. She was preparing the salad when she heard a piercing scream from the living room. She dropped the lettuce and ran into the living room not knowing what to expect only to find Sara thrashing around on the couch. She was tangled up in the covers and the more she fought the more tangled up she got. She tried to grab Sara's arm but she screamed when touched her. "No Daddy don't hit me anymore. Please, I'll be good Daddy. I promise I'll be good." Catherine couldn't even imagine what must be going on in Sara's subconscious to illicit these pleas. She was able to get the blanket untangled and Sara seemed to calm down a bit but she was still in the throes of her dream. She screamed again and put her arms up to her head as if she were warding off blows. "No more Daddy it hurts!"

Catherine couldn't take watching her so she decided that the only thing she could do was hold her. She sat down on the couch and Sara swung out protectively and hit Catherine on the lip, she could taste blood but she couldn't worry about it now. She pulled Sara to her and put her arms around her and tried to soothe her the way she does with Lindsey during her dreams. "Shhh baby its ok. Sara its ok I've got you. Wake up sweetie. I love you baby come on." Sara still didn't wake up but she was calming down so Catherine just started rocking her and rubbing her back and humming. She didn't know how long she held her before she felt her breathing change letting Catherine know she was finally awake. "Are they always that bad?"

Sara didn't raise her head as she answered. "Believe it or not that one wasn't that bad compared to most of the ones I have." She finally lifted her head to look at Catherine and when she saw her lip she pushed away and stood up. "See, that's why I'm not safe to be around." She ran out to the kitchen and grabbed a towel and added some ice to it. "I'll leave as soon as I can. I am so sorry." She knelt down in front of Catherine with tears in her eyes as she gently cleaned the blood from her lip then held the ice on it. She looked up at Catherine expecting to see anger but Catherine had a smile on her face. "What?"

"This is why you aren't going anywhere."

Sara stood up again and moved away from Catherine. "What do you mean? How can you trust me to not do it again? I can't take that risk. I won't take that risk."

Catherine grabbed her hand and made her sit down beside her. "It was an accident and I will just have to watch out for swinging arms when you have another nightmare. I put up with a lot worse from Eddie when it was intentional so why wouldn't I handle this? I'm not letting you go so deal with it. You are not like your parents, did they show the kind of remorse you are showing? I bet not and that's why you are not like them and never will be. You are a kind and gentle soul and now you are mine." She brought Sara's hands to her lips and kissed the back of them and then pulled her closer so she could kiss her.

"Just make sure that you tell Lindsey to never try to wake me up because I couldn't deal with hurting her." Sara's eyes were pleading with Catherine to help her.

"Do you usually wake yourself up when you have these nightmares?"

"After a while I do, why?"

"Well we'll just make sure that we shut the door when you are sleeping and tell her to get me if you start screaming. How often do you have these dreams?"

"Every night. Sometimes a couple times a night. Then I usually can't get back to sleep."

"No wonder you look so tired when you come to work. I used to think it was because you were drinking all the time. I'm so sorry I misjudged you."

"I usually only drank on the nights I knew you had a date. That's why I stayed in my lab until you left so I wouldn't know if you had a date or not. There were nights when I wanted to see you bad enough to seek you out before you left and then I would regret it when I'd see you all dressed up for a date. And those times you came by my lab to say good night made me want to grab you and ask you not to go out."

"I wish you had, it would have saved us both a lot of heartache sweetie. I would see you in your lab and I wanted to ask you out for breakfast or anything but after you said no the first few times I quit asking. Why did you say no by the way?"

"Because I was afraid if I got too close to you you would see how I felt and it would give you one more thing to throw up in my face when we fought. I guess we were both afraid of getting hurt huh?"

"Ya think?" Catherine pulled her into a tight hug. "So I guess we need to work on our communication skills huh?"

Sara pulled back from her hug so she could look at her. "Ya think?"