It was too early to be awake. But she couldn't sleep.

Rolling over onto her side, Kayli stared out at the room, only being able to see shadows because of how dark it was. She knew who was in which bed, though.

Sighing quietly, she turned to lie on her back again and stared straight up, trying to block a memory from her mind as it tried it's hardest to torment her. Unfortunately, she knew it was working. She also knew there was only one thing she could do to stop its' effects.

That would be to channel her feelings into something bad, but she didn't want to do that. She wanted desperately to be able to let go.

He deserves to die.

Squeezing her eyes shut, Kayli tried to make the voice go away. She needed complete silence without being interrupted by the voice which kept telling her she should do things she didn't want to do.

If you ask Sephiroth he'll send you there. It'll be easy.

Finally deciding enough was enough, she swung her legs over the bed onto the floor and reached around until she found her bag, rummaging within it to try and find her phone. Once it was in her hand she stood and walked over to the door, leaving silently.

Having memorised the route, she quickly made her way up to the small balcony she had used the last time she had to make a night-time call and dialled Gemma's number.

"Beep-beep-beep! I'm hangin' up 'cause whoever y'are needs to go back to sleep!" came the very frustrated and sleepy voice of Gemma.

"Gemma." Kayli said quietly, hoping her friend would stay long enough to hear that and realise who it actually was.

There was a grumble and then a crash, before the click of a light turning on sounded and Gemma sighed.

"Yeah?"

"I can't do this any more."

There was silence for a few minutes as both girls thought about the situation.

"Is this because of what I said about Liam?" Gemma asked quietly, the sleepiness gone from her voice completely now.

"Yeah." Kayli confirmed softly.

"It doesn't change anything, Kayli," Gemma said. "He's heaps far away from you and hopefully you'll never even cross paths with him."

"I'm training to become a SOLDIER, Gemma, they're going to send me to Wutai sooner or later." Kayli pointed out.

"Just ask Sephiroth not to let you go!" Gemma exclaimed.

"He'd want a reason."

Gemma sighed again and the sound of her flopping down on her bed came through the phone.

"So you wanna come home?"

"Yes and no. I don't want to leave my friends, but I can't do this." Kayli said. "I just... I keep seeing him in my head and thinking about going to Wutai, and part of me wants to kill him and-"

"Okay, shush." Gemma said firmly. "Firstly, while you are at ShinRa he cannot get you. Understand? Secondly, if you go crazy and decide to track him down to kill him, I am not paying for your funeral. Thirdly, your parents have begun worrying about you now."

"Oh my gosh. Are you serious?" Kayli gasped.

"Well you've never been gone longer than a few months before so they're beginning to wonder." Gemma said honestly.

"I can't come back, then." Kayli said, her voice suddenly powered by something strong. "If I do, I will have wasted my time like all the other times I left and only ended up going back."

"You mean... you're never coming back?" Gemma asked nervously.

"Not if I can help it." Kayli admitted.

"Then... what are you gonna do about Liam?"

"I-I don't know." The strength disappeared in her voice and once again she was frightened, so she sat down and leant again the railing of the small balcony, closing her eyes. "I can still see his face, Gemma!"

"Maybe... maybe he's changed?"

"Don't give me crap like that, Gemma," Kayli hissed. "If he's seriously still alive then he'll be the same cruel person he was back then."

"Do you want me to come see you again? I could just say I'm visiting Alec." Gemma suggested cautiously.

"No I- I have to deal with this on my own. It'll prove that I can be a SOLDIER." Kayli said.

"As long as you'll be okay," Gemma said, her voice betraying her worry.

"Like you said, what could happen to me here at ShinRa?" Kayli gave a light, fake laugh.

"Please let me know if you need me there to just be some support, okay? I'm guessing you haven't and won't tell anyone else what happened." Gemma said.

"You guessed right. If you hadn't been around when it happened you wouldn't know, either." Kayli said with a sigh. "But okay, if I need you I'll let you know."

"Get some sleep now, okay?" Gemma urged gently, hoping her friend would take her advice.

"Yeah, I probably should." Kayli consented. "Talk to you later, yeah?"

"Absolutely. Sleep well, Kayli!"

"You too. Sorry about waking you up again."

Kayli hung up then and stayed where she was for a few minutes, holding her phone in her hand and keeping her eyes closed to just enjoy the cold night air which hung around the balcony she was on.

Finally, though, she stood and went back to her room, recognising that she did need to get some more sleep before the morning came.

The room was still as dark and quiet as it had been when she left, so she did her best not to disturb any of her room-mates as she put her phone back in her back and lay down under the covers, tuning her thoughts to what classes she had the next day.

Swimming, guns and something else which she couldn't remember. She tried to picture her timetable in her head so that she would be able to figure out what class it was that had slipped her mind, but before she knew it she had fallen asleep and her mind took a turn for the worse.

"Roy? Get up!"

"Get up right now!"

"Roy, you're gonna be late!"

"I don't want to hear you complaining! Shut up and quit your crying!"

"Davis, just leave him."

"No! He'll get mad. Roy! Come on! Wake up!"

"Murderer! Don't touch me!"

A blood-curdling scream suddenly ripped through the air and Roy jerked into a sitting position, eyes wide in fear. Davis and Cloud hurriedly stepped back, before Davis moved forward again.

"Roy? Roy, are you okay?" he asked.

Alec and Rex were standing in the background with worried expressions on their faces as they watched.

"I... I..." Roy swallowed and stared down at his hands, shaking. He couldn't do this anymore. It was going to kill him.

Again.

"Do you want the others to leave?" Davis asked quietly.

"Yeah," Kayli nodded feebly after pushing her nightmare far from her mind. "I need to... talk to you."

Davis turned to face the others and shrugged slightly, glad that he didn't have to say anything as they began filing out quietly. Then it was only him and Kayli in the room and he turned back to her.

"Were you having a nightmare?" he asked softly.

"Yeah." Kayli admitted.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" he asked.

"I... can't. I've been trying to let go of it for years now and if I talk about it I'll never be able to put it behind me." Kayli murmured. "I'm sorry."

"It's okay. Do you want the day off classes? I'll have to take you to the infirmary if you do." Davis reminded her softly.

"No, I want to go to class."

"So," Davis swallowed and sat on the edge of her bed. "What did you need to talk to me about, if it's not your nightmare?"

"I can't stay here." she whispered.

"What do you mean?" Davis asked immediately, eyes narrowed.

"I know that I wanted to prove girls could be SOLDIERs too, but maybe I'm not the right girl to do that. Because I... I can't do this." Kayli explained slowly. "I'm not strong enough."

"You're the strongest girl I've ever met." Davis said, lowering his head.

"It's not only that, but pretending to be a guy all the time is tiring. I don't want to do it anymore." Kayli admitted. "My parents are worried about me too. I promised myself I wouldn't go back... but now I have to. I obviously can't stay here."

Davis was silent for a moment, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion. He didn't understand what had suddenly brought Kayli to this conclusion.

"Seriously... what was in your nightmare?" he finally asked.

Kayli stiffened and swallowed turning away her head and biting her lip nervously.

"I just want to help you! But I can't if you won't talk to me about anything." Davis said in exasperation.

Kayli didn't speak for a few minutes. She didn't know what to say at first because talking about Liam to someone else would only make it much more real. For now she could almost pretend it was make-believe.

And she didn't want it to be real.

"Davis," she whispered. "I have a brother."

Davis shifted so that he could look at her again. "Is his name Roy?"

"His name is Liam and he's a Wutai soldier." Kayli said, closing her eyes.

"Oh," Davis said quietly. "Are you... are you afraid of being sent to Wutai and having to kill him?"

"Yes, but only because it's what I really want to do." Kayli murmured, her voice coming out as a sob as she felt her throat constrict. Why did she have to get to the point of crying when Davis was around!?

"Wha-what? You want to kill your brother?" Davis asked in confusion, moving closer to her and putting an arm around her shoulders.

"I also-" Kayli sniffed. "I also had a brother called Roy. He was my twin." She paused to squeeze her eyes shut and tried to ignore the tears which escape and rolled down her cheeks.

"Wow." Davis breathed out. "Wait... had?"

"He's dead," Kayli spat. "Because of Liam."

Finally breaking and letting out a sob, Kayli turned and buried her head in Davis' shoulder, clutching onto him tightly as she cried.

"R-Roy always w-wanted to go to ShinRa and become a SOLDIER." she mumbled against his shirt. "If he couldn't then I-I wanted to do it for him!"

Davis was silent as he held Kayli and let her cry. He couldn't believe what she'd just told him and wished he knew what had happened to make her so firmly believe that her brother Liam was responsible for her twins' death.

"It's gonna be okay," Davis finally said. "I've got you."

"I'm sorry." Kayli whimpered.

"You have nothing to be sorry for." Davis scolded gently. "I still don't know everything, but to me it seems like you're only acting in a completely rational way to what's happened to you."

"Yeah, because wanting to murder my brother is rational." Kayli scoffed.

Davis narrowed his eyes slightly and remained quiet for a bit, waiting as Kayli calmed down completely and was finally silent as she rested against him, no longer crying.

"I don't think you should go to classes today," he whispered finally. "Stay here and I'll make up some excuse to cover for you."

"Davis, I don't want you to-"

"Quiet." Davis ordered. "Don't argue with your doctor."

Kayli pushed away from him just enough to look up and raise an eyebrow at him. There was a small smile on her face which showed that she was amused and he grinned back.

"So, Doctor," Kayli mocked. "How long are you putting me under house arrest for?"

"Until lunch." Davis replied seriously.

"Davis, I'll be okay." Kayli began to protest again.

"So why were just crying and telling me you wanted to go home? If you're going to be okay, does that mean you've changed your mind and you'll be fine to stay and become a SOLDIER now?" Davis asked, no humour on his face or in his eyes.

Kayli looked down and didn't answer.

"I'll take that as a, 'Sure Davis! I'll stay and become a SOLDIER!'" Davis said when she kept silent.

"I knew I shouldn't have told you." Kayli whispered.

"What? Kayli, don't say that. I'm only trying to help!" Davis pleaded with her.

"Yeah, well it's not much help with you trying to tell me what to do! I need to make up my own mind, but I can't do that when other people keep saying things." Kayli snapped.

Davis sighed and stood up.

"I'm sorry. I'll leave you to choose, then."

Genesis exited his tent, holding his PHS to his ear as he scanned the terrain around him. He was talking to Sephiroth but also checking to make sure the Infantrymen stationed with him there in Wutai were doing a good job of keeping watch.

"Well, yes," he said in response to something Sephiroth had said. "But I know they'll be back."

"And you're sure it's the same ones who attacked the supply truck last week?" Sephiroth's voice came through.

"Seph, I have mako vision, remember? I could see the guys' face from where I was standing." Genesis sighed.

"And you're absolutely positive that he wasn't in charge?"

"He sure acted like it, but it was his superior who stopped him and made him leave." Genesis responded. "I'm telling you, these are the guys we've been after."

"Keep on their trail, then," Sephiroth said after a pause. "Find out where they're heading and make sure you stop whatever they try to do next."

"I thought you'd say that." Genesis rolled his eyes.

"Why did you even call me, then?" Sephiroth asked curiously. "Seeing as you're obviously smart enough to work out these things for yourself."

"There's just one other thing I wanted to ask you about," Genesis said, turning and walking back inside his tent. "When I stop them, do you want me to capture them all so they can be brought to ShinRa and questioned? Do you just want me to kill them? Let them go but ruin their plans?"

"I don't think the President would be too pleased if he found out they'd been killed." Sephiroth pointed out.

"No, but I still thought it was worth asking." Genesis laughed.

"As for which of the other two," Sephiroth said thoughtfully. "I'd try to capture them. They could have a lot of useful information for us."

"Alright, I know who I'll be focusing on catching more than the others." Genesis said.

"Well yes, if you get their leader they'll quickly fall apart." Sephiroth said.

"I wasn't actually talking about him." Genesis said quietly. When Sephiroth didn't respond immediately he sighed. "The one who thinks he's leader but isn't was actually who I was planning to focus on."

"Why do you think that's the best thing to do?" Sephiroth asked carefully, knowing not to shoot down his friends idea right away in case there was some good reason which he hadn't thought of before.

"This guy that I think would be useful also looks incredibly familiar," Genesis said. "At first I couldn't place where I'd seen him before but today I remembered. That's also part of the reason why I called you."

"Who does he look like to you?" Sephiroth asked.

"I can't exactly remember the name, but one of the Infantrymen who only recently joined. He's got black hair and acts really weird." Genesis described.

"Roy Peters?" The frown on Sephiroth's face could be heard through his voice.

"Yeah, that's his name." Genesis agreed.

"And this Wutai soldier looks like him? How much?" Sephiroth enquired.

"Just like an older version," Genesis shrugged. "I seriously wouldn't be surprised if they were actually related."

Sephiroth was silent for a moment and Genesis sat down as he waited for a response.

"Your top priority is capturing the whole group," Sephiroth said finally. "If that can't be done you're to aim for the leader and this other man."

"Understood." Genesis said with a nod.

"I want you to keep what you've told me quiet, Gen," Sephiroth said slowly. "I'll be talking to Roy about whether he has any brothers."

"Okay, sure." Genesis said.

"Good luck."