Hi again BxE lovers. Sorry this is so late in coming but my beautiful laptop passed away. More about that later...
Thankyou MabindaWannaBeEsme for beta'ing yet again and putting up with my angst! And thank you to all the readers for staying with me. Congratulations to Rpattz_dreamer. I wish you all the happiness and love possible. Good work!
I don't own twilight but I did buy some New Moon bandaids to call my own. (Random, I know!)
Bella's POV
So Rosalie wanted to apologise did she? I felt shocked. This was a huge turnaround. She was actually being nice? I hoped I could take everything in...
'Believe me when I say, I really am sorry Bella. There is so much I could say, but I won't go into everything. I was so jealous of you. I'm ashamed of myself, and that's what it boils down to. Edward and I both thought that you and Emmet were together and then when Edward told me that he had overheard you and Emmet making plans to get sweaty and so sore that you would remember him the following day....well...I guess we jumped to conclusions... I think Edward is really sorry too...'
'I'm sure he's ok Rosalie' I said dryly, nodding my head and rolling my eyes. He looked fine just over an hour ago.
'No way, you should have seen him this morning. He looked sick. He was so pissed off when he found out the truth earlier, he got mad at me for not telling him last night when I first found out...but it was late...I would have if I had have known what was going to happen. Believe me when I say, I really am sorry Bella; And...I probably shouldn't be telling you this, but after all the confusion and misunderstanding, I think you need to know..........Well............Um............. Edward really likes you... like, a lot.'
'How do you know?' I was curious despite myself.
'He told me' she said simply. I hope you have some feelings for him...?' She was looking at me questioningly. Should I answer this?
'Yeah, he's ok. He was pretty awful to me Rosalie. It really hurt me.' I said frowning. I didn't want to divulge any of my feelings to Rosalie as I remembered the devastation I felt over Edward's harshness when we had been getting along so well, and I had been hoping for something more.
'Well, you do what you feel you should. I'm just telling you because I was there, and he was really upset over your leaving and especially when he thought you and Emmet were together.'
'Ok, well thanks for telling me Rosalie. I guess I'll catch up with him at some point and we'll talk then'. I still felt some confusion and discomfort being around Rosalie. She had been horrid for so long, and I wasn't going to find it easy to be friends with her. I really just needed some time to work out how I felt about Edward... and Rosalie too I guess.
'Try not to be too hard on him Bella. I know it might seem surprising but he does care for you a lot and is probably still kicking himself over what went wrong.' Rosalie said softly.
'Sure, sure, I'll just wait until we talk though. I'm not going to promise big things. I don't have a great track record with boys.' I laughed at this, because I had only had one boyfriend anyway, but Rosalie didn't need to know that just yet. She was being nice now, but I had seen her dark side and I didn't entirely trust her with my personal information.
We walked to where the others were sitting at the gazebo, and Rosalie went and sat down next to Emmet with a smile and clasped his hand. He looked at her questioningly, and she nodded. There must have been some agreement or he might have bought out the softer side of her.
Alice beckoned me over to sit by her and I complied. Even though my friends loved me immensely, I felt out of place. Alice began talking to me about Edward and the mood she had found him in this morning.
'Bella...Jasper told me how Edward has been all angsty for ages and when I saw him this morning, well...he was all torn up. He looked like he was in a world of agony and guilt and he didn't know what to do with himself. He actually confessed that he likes you. He seemed really heartbroken that you had gone.' While Alice was talking the others nodded their heads in agreement while watching for my reaction. I really needed some time.
'Anyway guys, thanks for your help and information. I'll keep it in mind, but I think I'll just wait until he talks to me himself before I make my mind up ok? So...What have you guys all been up to? How has work been?' I wanted to change the subject. Edward was yet to apologise and I had had enough of hearing second hand how he was feeling.
'Hey Bella! I have a surprise for you!' Alice said in a sing song voice, suddenly animated. 'I talked to Jane and she organised for you to do an early shift and then get off just before lunch so you get to come and have a facial with me! Doesn't that sound great? It's all sorted. Lunch will be delivered too!' She was positively beaming. I mean, don't get me wrong...I was going to love this, but she looked like a kid in a candy store the way her face lit up at the thought of pampering me.
'Yeah, and then you are having a massage with me. I promise I'll make it really good. You'll probably fall asleep and drool. I can pretty well guarantee it!' Rosalie said next, also sounding eager.
'Yeah, let me tell you, she gives a really great massage, just don't piss her off when you haven't got any gear on!' Emmet said in a mock conspiring voice, and then he laughed when Rosalie turned a fierce scowl on him.
'Wow, thanks guys. That is so nice of you both and of Jane too! I can't wait!' I said, amazed that these people would do something so nice for me.
We all talked shop for a little while, the others trading funny stories about people at work and some city people that jumped up and sat on the horse backward, but Emmet said he soon sorted them out. We laughed at the way he put things, it was so funny.
Even though my friends wanted me around and made me feel really comfortable, I still felt out of place. These guys had finally gotten their shit together and I was the third wheel, or the spare tyre dragging along so to speak. I felt like the odd one out. They were all couples and I was tagging along.
Before long, I decided I needed some time alone. Even though I had had a huge sleep during the day, I began to feel tired. I made some excuses to the others and they decided to call it a night too.
We all said our good nights at the door and then I escaped inside. I was tired, but at the same time, I felt a little afraid. What if the stalker delivers another envelope tonight? I needed to brace myself for the reality of it, but I just wanted to bury my head in the sand. The envelopes hadn't been coming every night so maybe I would be safe tonight? The more I thought about it, the more anxious I felt.
I desperately wanted to be strong, but I began to watch the window and door, just in case. The more I watched them, the more I could make out something. Did I just detect a movement? I turned on the lamp light, and saw the shadows were only a pattern of the wood grain in the door, and the curtains bunched at the window. Both were still shut and locked up tight, so I turned the lamp off and curled up under the sheet in childish hope that if I couldn't see the monsters, then they couldn't see me.
There was no noise to be heard. It was almost too quiet. My brain was going into overdrive and badgering me with thoughts of the past twenty four hours. It felt like so much time had lapsed since last night, because a huge amount had happened in that time...and here I was, right back where I started.
My mind turned to all of the information that the others had told me today....
Edward liked me so much that he would treat me badly enough that I would want to leave? Did that even make sense?
I desperately needed to talk to him but I was certainly in no hurry. I was confused. I guess things did fall into place when you looked at how it all panned out, but....maybe the real problem was that it just didn't make sense for someone like HIM to like someone like ME. He was well travelled, well spoken, stunningly gorgeous and a brilliant chef; Michelin quality to be honest.
I really wanted to be with him, like, really bad, but...Could I? After this past week of unpleasantness?
I wasn't sure. I didn't want to be a fool again. After the fiasco with Jacob...I just wasn't certain I could trust my instincts about men anymore.
I must have fallen asleep under the covers at some point because I found myself sitting in a clearing next to a stream. I walked over and peered into the water to see my reflection. I sat and stared at myself, marvelling at the glass like quality of the water, until I realised that something was touching me. I glanced up and there standing over me was James. He had come from nowhere and was watching me lustfully. I felt like a deer stuck in headlights, and I didn't know which way to run. I stood and turned to face him, horror clawing at my chest. He grinned evilly at me, as if reading my thoughts, and then he crouched back a like a wild animal about to attack.
'There is something special about you my precious' He said with a lascivious sneer.
I felt myself become petrified with panic, the terror of the situation showing on my face and I felt my heart begin to race.
I stumbled back and fell into the water, clumsily flailing about and becoming entangled in the weeds, until I could hardly turn any which way except to see the menacing form in front of me, grinning like a jackal at his prey.
'You are mine now, my sweet. There is no escaping me this time.' He said as he slowly moved closer. 'You will learn to like what I do to you, and you will even want me to do it... eventually'. He grinned in anticipation but it came out more like a sneer.
I opened my mouth and screamed in fear, absolutely terrified of what was coming next. My mouth felt dry and I could no longer swallow.
The sound woke me and I found myself unable to move my legs. I could still feel the panic coursing through my body and I quickly turned on the bed side lamp.
I was tangled in my sheets and kicking like mad to get out of my predicament. Once I had freed myself, my heart slowed its erratic pace, but left me feeling uneasy, my stomach in a tight knot. My eyes flew to the bed side table.
Good, no notes had been left.
I noticed the time was just before five. I had to work an early shift this morning, so I dragged my fatigued body out of bed to get ready for my day.
I hadn't quite calmed down from my early morning fright as I left my place, quickly locking up while casting furtive glances behind me and to either side of me. I felt like I was waiting for someone to jump out of the bushes to drag me away, but the place was lit by solar lights and I could detect nothing... but the unease persisted. Possibly from the dream?
Maybe it was my two halves warring with each other. My desire to see Edward, touch him and let myself fall irrecoverably in love with him was just as intense as the desire to slap him, scream obscenities at him and then never speak to him again. The latter was draining away with excruciating slowness, and I knew the more wanton desire would take over eventually, but for now, I just had to put up with some confused feelings.
I made it to the kitchen and breathed a sigh of relief. I would have sprinted there with a swiftly beating heart, but I didn't think I needed to advertise the fact to anyone that I was totally acting like a girl.
The other staff members were just starting to file in, looking a little tired and unexcited. I quickly got down to business, giving some orders to those who needed direction.
We worked efficiently through the morning, and I hardly missed Edward with his beautiful face and delicious body....hardly at all... I was kind of glad to have a break from the confusion whilst I was working. I mean...It was only yesterday that I felt I couldn't go on at this place for another moment, and here I was, doing it all again, but it felt different since I returned.
I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I was wanted and needed here, that I WAS good; great even at my job and most of all...my friends and employers wanted me here. That was what mattered to me the most if I was honest... I wanted to be at a place that I belonged.
My shift was a shorter than usual one today. By direct orders from Jane, I was going to give a statement to the police...Have a facial and then have a massage. Alice and Rosalie had been instructed or collaborated or whatever and they had all come up with this plan.
When I finished my shift, I was heading out the door to shower and change for my first appointment, when I heard my name being called.
I turned to see what the person wanted and I sighed when I saw it was Edward approaching quickly.
'Hey' he said softly.
I managed to look up at him after closing my eyes in the direction of my shoes for a moment, and trying to brace myself for what could be coming.
'Hey' the apprehension in my face and voice was palpable. I didn't want to do this here and now. I wasn't ready to hear it. I really just wanted to get the statement out of the way and be able to think clearly again.
'Are you leaving already?' He looked disappointed.
'Um, yeah, I have a couple of appointments, so I have to go now.' I looked down at my feet. I didn't want to look at the disappointment on his face anymore.
'Oh, ok. Can I talk to you sometime then?'
'Yeah, sure. I just have to change and then I have a bit of an afternoon on, that's all.' I glanced back up at him when I spoke, trying to read his expression. Was he going to get angry again?
'So, you're not working in the kitchen this afternoon at all?'
'No, but you have a heap of people working in there, so I'm sure someone in there can Julienne carrots properly for you' I said, smiling un humorously at him, folding my arms in front of me. Yes that's right Edward; I'm not letting you off the hook just yet.
'Uh...I'm really...sorry about that... Bella, you'll never know how much.' He looked pained while he ran his hand through his hair. Oh well, not my problem... but I didn't want to hurt anyone, I just wanted to go.
'Anyway, I have to go, so I'll talk to you some other time Edward.' I turned and took a step toward the door.
I felt my hand being grabbed and what felt like a warm current run up my arm. I gasped and turned to look at him. His eyes begged me to stay, and his hand held me hostage to the moment. I almost gave in... almost.
'Edward, I have to go' I steeled myself. I needed my wits about me to see the police, and I didn't want to be lost in what Edward was feeling or talking about while I was trying to remember specifics for my statement.
I pulled out of his grip and walked away without looking back. I mentally patted myself on the back for being strong and not falling into his arms and obeying every command that came out of his mouth.
I was on MY time now. HE'S not the boss of me while I'm not in the kitchen. I knew my thoughts were childish, but I couldn't help myself. I didn't want to run around after men anymore. If I was worth it, they could come to ME.
I raced to my room as soon as I left the main building, and got showered and changed. I threw on my black yoga pants with a pastel blue firm fitting t-shirt. I slipped my feet into my ballet flats, brushed my hair out, and let it fall in loose waves down my back. I wanted to be comfortable and to be able to strip easily for my spa treatments.
I made it back to the office just in time to see two young, fit police officers walk into the building. I watched, with my hand poised to knock on the office door as they walked toward me. When the dark haired, super handsome one spotted me, he gave me an assessing half smile. My stomach dropped to my knees with how hot he was. He belonged in a Calvin Klein add.
'Hello Miss.' The Adonis spoke with a deep voice to match his super buff physique. His guns were the size of my thigh, and I mentally gauged if I could get my hand span around one arm.
'Hey' I squeaked out.
'Is this the office? We need to see a Miss Isabella Swan and the owners of this place.'
'Uh, that's me...like...I'm Isabella Swan, but you can call me Bella, and um, this is the office...' I knew I was rambling, but I was almost unsure if they were going to start stripping down to a mini g-string to do a lap dance for me. I didn't bring any dollar bills with me..... I grinned at my thoughts and knew they were ridiculous, but I was nervous about my brush with the law and this man was hot, hot, hot.
'Hi, I'm Officer Paul, and this is Officer Alex. We are here to take a statement from you... Bella Swan.'
He extended his hand and I managed to snap out of it and offer him mine. I shook both Officers hands and then I knocked on the door to get my mind on the job. We were bid to enter and I opened the door. We all filed in and after introductions, we sat.
Aro and Jane sat behind the desk with myself and the Officers on the other side. Officer Alex, who was quite handsome himself, brought a notepad to the table and started asking questions. I managed to give them as much information as I could and Jane was able to fill them in on what I couldn't because I was too terrified at the time.
Officer Paul smiled and winked at me a few times during my interview. Wow, he was so attractive. And being a police Officer, that made me feel really secure... he was looking after me, trying to keep me safe...and you know what? I felt protected. It was a cosy and warm feeling that spread over me like a comfortable blanket. I almost wanted to snuggle down into it, but I perked up as Officer Paul began to talk.
'Well, we are going to write this statement up when we get back to the station, and then we will bring the finished copy back for you to sign. Do you have email? We can email you a copy when it's done for your own records also. We already have all of the evidence'. He finished the sentence with a smile at me.
I told them my email address and they promised they would return the following evening for me to sign a copy.
'Why don't you stay for dinner tomorrow night... on us.' Jane said with a smile playing on her lips.
'Thank you ma'am. That would be very kind of you. We'll do that.' Officer Paul said.
'Well Bella, I believe you have another appointment to get to now, so you had better get a move on' Jane smiled kindly at me and nodded.
I stood and thanked the Officers for their time and went to leave. Officer Paul stood and said
'I'll walk you out'.
Um... ok... but the door is only a few feet away?
'Sure'. I said instead.
We left the office and Officer Paul pulled a card out of his pocket and handed it to me.
'I want you to call me if anything and I mean ANYTHING happens ok? If these people come back or if there is anything left for you again... just call me, any time of the day or night ok? We have got to keep you safe.' He smiled at me and winked as he rubbed my arm.
'Thankyou Officer. That is very kind of you' He was so big and strong, I smiled gratefully at him for taking me seriously and being willing to help.
'I look forward to seeing you tomorrow night Bella' His voice was as smooth as his smile.
'Yeah, me too, but I'd better get a move on right now. I've got to get to my next appointment. It was great to meet you' I waved at him as I backed away.
'It was awesome to meet you too Bella' Officer Paul waved and I could feel him watching me as I walked away.
When I reached the beauty spa, Alice was ready for me so she whisked me into a room to strip and put on a gown, which was more like an elasticised, over sized tube top/dress that came to just below my knees. She disappeared while I did this, but instructed me to jump up on the facial couch when I was ready.
I took a moment to take in the ambiance of the room. There were little candles burning along a shelf, emitting a dusky light. I could hear beautiful music being piped around the spa and it made me feel relaxed with its soulful harp melody. I tipped my head back, closed my eyes and sniffed the air. The scent was intoxicating. I could smell Vanilla with some cinnamon and...was that...chocolate? I couldn't completely tell, and I guess it didn't matter. I was ready for my ascent to the stars.
I got up onto the facial couch and lay there, feeling my body begin to relax into the softness that I was lying on. I closed my eyes for a moment, savouring the sensation and allowing all of my senses to be filled with the lusciousness of the moment.
Alice returned after a little while and began her delicious torment. Her hands on my skin were like the touch of a celestial being it was so heavenly and I slipped into a peaceful slumber.
I awoke to a gentle movement of massage on my scalp and I opened my eyes with my senses slowly returning to me.
'Hey sleepy head' Alice murmured softly.
'Hey... that was so amazing Alice' I could hardly keep my eyes open.
'My pleasure, you deserve it.'
'I don't know about that... but thank you anyway' I really was grateful. She was so good at what she does.
All too soon it was over and it was time for the next instalment of my piece of heaven. My skin looked and felt amazing. I dressed quickly, not even remembering the last time I indulged myself in any spa treatments.
Alice led me out of the facial room and down a hall way to a different area of the spa. This place was huge. I had never actually been in here. I knew where it was because Alice had pointed it out to me but I had never gone inside.
'First... we eat!' Alice clapped her hands together excitedly as we walked to a large kitchen that sported 2 comfortable sofas facing each other with a little coffee table in the middle. There was a fridge, sink and kitchen table in the other half of the room. It was comfortable looking.
'Ok, sure.' Anything was ok with me at this point, I was in dream land.
Rosalie walked in carrying a tray of different types of gourmet sandwiches with some napkins and bottled water.
I still felt a little vulnerable around Rosalie. I know everything was supposed to be sorted with her and all... but it's hard to get it out of your mind when someone has had it in for you for a while.
Alice and I sat across from Rosalie and we all took a cut sandwich.
'Oh man, that is good' I said after I swallowed my first bite.
''Mmmm, I got smoked salmon, avocado and cream cheese. What did you get?' Alice said next.
'Turkey, Cranberry and Camembert, how about you Bella? ' Rosalie was in a good mood.
'Um...I think there is some sort of Swiss cheese, smoked ham, sundried tomatoes and ...Pesto?....I think.' It was so good.
'This is so much fun; we should do this every day!' Rosalie said happily.
'Yeah but then you won't be able to nip out to see Emmet whenever you want Rosalie' Alice told her.
'Oh yeah...' She smiled dreamily and shrugged her shoulders. 'Maybe we could catch up once a week and have girl time then'.
She was smitten. Why didn't I see it before? I probably didn't notice it through all the glares she was directing toward me.
We finished our lunch and Alice hugged me goodbye and left me in the hands of Rosalie.
I felt a little nervous all of a sudden. She was being so nice to me now, trying to be friends. I would just have to throw caution into the wind and hope for the best.
I returned her smile and we headed into the massage room.
She instructed me to strip off down to my panties, and jump under the towels. I did as I was told while she left the room. This room was also lit with candles and the warm glow that emitted was comforting. There was a scent of roses and something that I couldn't quite pick in the air. It was almost a sensuous experience and the ambience was incredibly tranquil. I took in my surrounds as I lay on my back. I could hear some chiming music with running water and a gentle harp intertwining to make an enchanting sound.
There was a soft knock on the door before Rosalie appeared and I gave her a small, shy smile.
She closed the door and rubbed her hands together.
'Now I've got you...' she came towards me rubbing her hands, her eyes alight with...what..?
I shrank back into the massage table, not knowing what to expect next.
'Ha ha ha ha! Oh Bella, that look is priceless! I'm not going to do anything horrid! It is all pleasure here on out.'
She moved the towels to where she wanted them and then grabbed some warming oil and did one long stroke up my leg and then back down to my feet. I tried not to groan when she massaged my feet, but it felt so good and when she got to my arms and hands, well... the feeling was indescribable. I didn't realise how sore and tired my hands got but I guess it made sense what with all the work that I did with them, why not?
After rolling over on my front for the next half of the massage so Rosalie could massage the back of my body, I felt myself zoning out.
I must have gone to sleep because she was gently shaking me awake calling my name in what felt like five minutes. I hope I didn't snore.
I was in a deeply tranquil state and wasn't quite ready to move. My body felt like jelly, but I managed to begrudgingly sit up when Rosalie brought a glass of water to me.
'Thank you. That was so amazing Rosalie. I really appreciate you fitting me in. I could put up with that sweet torture all day!' I took the glass she offered to me and drank half in one go.
'Any time Bella. I really hope we can be friends. I really am sorry for the way I have acted toward you, and if I can make it up to you any way I can...well...just say.'
'I'll forgive you Rosalie. I just need some time that's all. It has been a really tough week for me and... well... I'll get over it. So much has changed so quickly.'
'Well, you take all the time you need. I'll let you get dressed whenever you are ready.' She smiled at me as she left the room to give me privacy.
I felt overwhelmed by all of the attention, and the delicious treatment and I felt something burning in the area of my solar plexus. I got up and dressed quickly, finishing the rest of the water, leaving the glass on the bed and collecting my things.
I stepped out of the room and Rosalie was just outside.
'Everything ok?' she asked.
'Yeah, yeah, really good. Thank you again for the massage Rosalie'
'Not a problem. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you right? You look slightly off. Make sure you drink lots of water today ok? Maybe you should go lie down.' She was looking closely at me.
'Mmmm, I think I will. I'll catch up with you a little later.'
'Ok, sure. How about we all catch up for dinner later at 6.30?'
'Sounds great Rosalie. I'll let the others know if I see them.'
We waved to each other and I moved to head out of the spa to go to my room.
When I got outside, the heat hit me and the oil on my body began to feel slimy. I couldn't wait to get back to my room and rinse off.
When I reached my room, I dropped my key and the card that the officer gave me on the coffee table and then stripped and jumped into the shower scrubbing my tingly body well until I felt clean again.
After dressing in a summer dress I went and lay down on my bed to enjoy the relaxed feeling of my well pampered body. I felt so peaceful lying there, remembering the music and how safe I felt in those moments when I fell asleep with Rosalie and Alice pampering me.
Rosalie.... now she's a strange one. One day she's projecting all her ill feelings toward me and then the next, she wants to be friends? What the?
I must have drifted off, because the next thing I knew, I was groggily sitting up in my bed, the room starting to get dull from the lack of sun, and hearing a banging on the door.
I got up and plodded to the door, my body feeling like lead.
'Hey, we're all going to dinner. You coming?' Emmet was almost bouncing on the balls of his feet with obvious happiness and excitement.
Wow, there must have been some new development.
'Oh... sure. Um, just let me get my shoes and I'll be there.' I rubbed my eyes as I went in search of some slip on shoes.
Rosalie, Emmet, Jasper and Alice were waiting outside my door for me when I returned, shoes on feet, moments later.
'Ready' I said, smiling at my friends. I felt better now. I had finally woken up and my brain was working again.
We headed off to the dining area and found a table.
I tried not to look over at Edward, slaving away in the kitchen, but every so often I found myself glancing over there and then trying to tear my eyes back again so no one noticed....especially Edward.
During dinner Emmet announced that he and Rosalie were going to watch a movie when they had finished. He asked if we had any suggestions because they couldn't decide.
We all told them our suggestions, ranging from thriller to romantic, but none suited, until they agreed on a comedy.
'Yeah, comedy is my favourite' I said laughing at some of the movies we had suggested, remembering how funny they were.
'Why don't you join us Bella?' Emmet said suddenly.
My eyes swung immediately to Rosalie.
She had a smile on her face but her eyes said she wanted some time alone with Emmet.
'It really is ok Bella. I don't mind. It'll be fun.' Rosalie replied after a pregnant pause.
'Um... you know what? I have to make some calls home tonight and check in and what not, so... I hope that's ok... Maybe next time?'
'Oh, ok sure. Well, we'll hold you to that then. ALL of us should get together for a movie night some time.' Emmet shrugged and grinned.
'Yeah, but will we have Romance, or Action... that is the question?' Alice added giggling.
'Ohhhh, the division starts! Maybe the boys should take it in turns with the girls, or draw straws or something?' Jasper said and then grabbed Alice's hand and kissed it looking into her eyes.
'Awwww' Rosalie and I said together, watching the love play between Alice and Jasper.
'How about we all bring our favourite movie, and then we will take it in turns until we have seen them all?' I turned to the others to say.
'Yes! Good idea Bella. Let's talk to Edward too and get him in on it. He has a great selection of movies!' Jasper dragged his eyes away from Alice to tell us.
'Good. It's settled then.' Emmet said.
We finished up dinner and headed back toward our rooms. We all chatted about our day and how good the spa is etc. I could see that Rosalie wanted to spend some quality time with Emmet so I took pity on her and managed to do a huge convincing yawn.
'Well.... I'm beat. I'm heading in.'
'Ok, you're pretty tired lately. You just had a nap this afternoon!' Emmet exclaimed.
'Uh, yeah. Big day you know'. I said and winked at Rosalie and Alice and they were smiling back at me.
They both knew I was making excuses so they could go and spend time with their men.
Emmet and Rosalie went to watch a movie at Emmet's place and Alice took Jasper to her room to do the same or whatever. I'm sure I'd hear about it tomorrow. I headed into my own room and flopped down on my couch. I grabbed my IPod off the coffee table and plugged it in and listened for about ten minutes until I had had enough of staring at the four walls.
I really didn't feel like sitting and watching a movie or using my computer or sleeping or anything, and I decided I would call my dad tomorrow night. I felt restless, and then I had a thought...
I would take one of those bottles of wine we bought when we went shopping and sit in the pool and drink it. I would have my own party.
I grabbed the wine along with a glass and put it in the bar fridge in the corner.
I went into my room and found my new bikini. I discarded my clothing and put it on. I added a sarong and collected my chilled wine, glass and towel and then headed out to the pool. I felt a lot safer since Aro had had some extra cameras put in around the place. I had been told where the cameras were, but I couldn't see them, so I just had to trust that it was done and I was safe. There was also an extra security guard starting called 'Seth' but I was yet to meet him.
The night was warm and the pool lights shimmered through the crystal clear water, keeping the area well lit. There were solar lights all around the perimeter that leant a soft romantic glow to the place too.
The pool area was so quiet and I was glad to see no one else had had the same idea as me to have an evening dip. I wanted to enjoy my private party and not have to make small talk with a stranger.
I dropped the towel onto a bench seat and placed my wine and glass carefully down also. I discarded my sarong and picked up the bottle and glass and headed on over to the pool and stepped in, sitting on a step so that I was immersed up to mid torso in clear water.
I screwed the top off the wine, poured a glass and began to relax. I steadily sipped away as my mind instantly turned to Edward....
So much had happened over the last few days, well, weeks actually. I remembered how well Edward and I were getting along and how much I wanted to be with him. Did I still want him after he had been such an arsehole for over a week? I mean... I knew now that he was acting out because he thought Emmet and I were sleeping together and he was apparently attracted to me. He had not said as much to me, but then... I hadn't given him much of a chance.
I knew there was something between us. Was there still? Did he feel the heat and pull between our bodies? I was confused by my own feelings.
I liked him... a lot. He made me hot and cold and happy and sad. I didn't know where I was anymore.
He appeared remorseful and repentant the few times I had seen him over the last two days. Was I ready to forgive him for being so horrid? It's one thing to apologise, but it means nothing if you do the same thing again, so I guess I would just have to see...
I was feeling really relaxed by the time I had finished my first glass of wine, and I poured another. I sipped at it slowly and then rested my head back on the edge of the pool. I feel I will forgive Edward and let the drama go. If he treats me like that again.... well... he can go stick it, but for now... I'll just have to forgive him.
I felt so much lighter and freer after I had come to this decision. I didn't want to think about this anymore, and I began to hum 'Ave Maria' to myself, and a feeling of peace descended on me... probably from the wine and the decision to forgive and forget.
'Hi, mind if I join you?' An unexpected voice broke into my reverie.
My eyes snapped open and I sat up in surprise to look at the culprit.
Edward.
Maybe it was the wine or just the sight of this man half dressed but I swear my heart was trying to beat its way out of my chest.
'Oh... ok, sure I guess' I managed to speak normally and not like a panicked virgin.
He slipped into the pool next to me and asked if he was disturbing me. Ummmm...... well.... probably. His presence was always pretty disturbing to me.
I offered some wine and let him drink out of my wine glass. I told him it was my good deed for the day!
...........and then it began...
'Bella, I've been a dick...'
'Yeah, I know.' I so didn't want to do this now, but I knew for his piece of mind, it had to be done. He wanted to make things right again.
'I thought you and Emmet...'
'Were shagging like porn stars. I know. The others told me what you and Rosalie thought. It's good to know the way I really come across to people.' I said dryly, almost rolling my eyes at him but I resisted.
'No, you don't come across like that at all. I just couldn't see through my insane jealousy over your friendship with him. I am so sorry Bella. I got so pissed when I thought you and he were getting together, that I took it out on you and I am completely ashamed of myself.'
'Oh...yeah well it wasn't so great on the receiving end either.' I said trying to lighten the mood. I was almost panting with his admission, desire and adrenalin making its way through my body.
'I am so sorry about it all now Bella, you don't have to go easy on me. I just hope that someday you will be able to forgive me.' He said seriously, looking into my eyes.
'I'll forgive you...IF...You tell me how you really feel...about me....honestly.' I looked up at him shyly, waiting for some sort of answer. I can't believe I said that... but I really wanted to know the truth. I should probably never drink around this man, but the lesson was forgotten before it was learned when his next words sank in...
'Well...when I thought I would never see you again, I was in hell. It was torture knowing I had hurt you, I felt like such a prick...and I guess you know by now...I've been attracted to you since the first day I saw you.'
I think I almost passed out.
'Oh, that's good to hear. I'm not the only one then.' I giggled. Ah damn. Did I just say that? A small voice in my mind told me not to have any more wine for fear of what I might do.... but I was having a major reaction from his words and what they could mean, so I ignored the warning.
I just stared at him with undisclosed desire. I couldn't help it. My body and mind just seemed to go on auto pilot. His eyes darkened to a turbulent green. They were mesmerising...
He began to lean in toward me, and my breath hitched, and I closed my eyes. When his lips touched mine I think the earth moved; this was something I had never experienced before. I had never felt such a strong reaction to a man in my life. It was more than being compatible with someone... I felt like I almost needed him just to breathe. My blood turned to molten lava in my veins and my passion was setting me on fire. I needed to get closer...
I placed my hand on his shoulder and swung my leg over his to straddle him and the sensation of sitting against his erection was overwhelming and caused a throbbing sensation in my nether region. It turned me on even more to think that I caused this reaction in his body by just kissing him. I laced my arms around his neck and kept the contact between us as maximum as possible.
He began to run his hands all over me, gently and almost lovingly and I knew in that moment, that a bomb could go off close by and I could no more break free from Edwards spell than fly to the moon. I wanted to touch him all over too, I wanted to make him feel like he was on the edge and about to fall off like I did, so I ran my hands over his chest. His nipples were erect and my mouth salivated at the thought of licking one as I squeezed gently at them. He groaned and I knew he was enjoying this as much as I was.
I felt him gently rubbing my breasts increasing the sensation in my belly, winding me tighter, and then he reached for the bikini strings at my back, slowly pulling them undone. I broke the kiss off and we looked at each other for a moment. His eyes radiated wanton desire that only served to fuel my own desire.
Keeping eye contact with him, I pulled my bikini top off and threw it in the general direction of the wine. His eyes widened for a moment, glancing at my naked breasts and then his mouth was back on mine. Our passion was wild and unbridled as we panted and whimpered occasionally between kisses and he ran his thumbs over my nipples, creating the most delicious throbbing sensation deep in my centre and setting fire to my skin.
I rubbed myself on the hardness that I was sitting on, and it eased the ache momentarily, only to build it again further. I moved against him once more and the tightness in my belly grew. I began to rock against him in earnest now, while he rubbed my breasts and our mouths duelled on. The feelings in my body grew more intense and the throbbing burst into spasms. I arched my back as the intensity of my climax forced loud moans from my throat that I was helpless to prevent.
I held onto him tightly, my breasts pressed against his chest, my arms wrapped around him and my hands tangled in his hair. I became aware that perhaps Edward wouldn't be cool with my wanton behaviour. I loosened my grip on him a little and leaned back so I could speak to him.
'Ah shit Edward...I uh...didn't mean to do that, sorry' I looked up at him sheepishly, still breathless with post orgasm glow.
'Oh no baby, I'm so glad you did' he said as he began kissing my neck.
'Mmmm, I like that' I said, leaning back and exposing my throat to him further. He obliged me by kissing all over my neck and chest, the warm feeling still pulsing through me slowly turning to liquid fire again, and my breathing was beginning to become heavy once more.
This was the most intensely sensual and sexual experience I had ever had, but all too soon Edward decided we should call it a night.
'I guess your right' I said with a sigh. I was having too much fun and I wanted to spend every moment I could with this delicious man.... but we did have to work tomorrow I guess.
We collected our things and headed back to our room, stealing kisses and giggling along the way. I had never felt so happy and carefree before and I never wanted this night to end... but end it must. It is funny how when you are having a great time, time really does fly. I remember being in school chemistry classes, learning how to mix compounds to make a totally new product. Man, that shit was boring and those classes seemed to take all day.
We arrived at our rooms and stood awkwardly at the door. Damn, I was hoping to avoid discomfort, but my brain started up with the worry about what tomorrow would bring. I toyed about asking him to come in, but thought better of it. He had said he wanted to take it a little slower for now. Why is it when someone says no, you just want to make them say yes?
We locked eyes and he leaned in for a goodnight kiss. It was soft and sweet but lacking the passion of earlier. It was nice and I realised that I just loved him being close and touching me in any way at all.
All too soon we pulled apart, smiled submissively with whispered 'goodnights' to each other, and let ourselves into our rooms, only breaking eye contact when we moved inside of our own space.
I leaned against the door, savouring that infatuated feeling before telling myself to go get ready for bed.
As I moved into my bedroom, I turned on the light and a movement caught my eye.
There, looming dark and uninviting with curtains billowing around it... was my open window. I didn't leave it open when I went out to the pool. In fact... since all of the unpleasantness with my stalker, I hadn't opened it since, and kept it locked at all times.
My knees began to shake, and I could hardly move, almost paralysed with fear. I turned and forced my legs to move. I ran to my door, fear coursing through my body. Panicking, I clawed at the locks on the door, trying to get them open, breaking nails in my effort and not even looking back at the monster that could be about to attack from behind. My imagination took over, making all sorts of horror stories up as I struggled on with shaking fingers to release myself from the confines of my tiny lounge room.
Finally the locks gave way and I burst outside and began to hammer on Edward's door. His door opened after only moments. He took one look at my white face and pulled me into an embrace inside the room and closed the door quickly, kissing my head and rubbing my back. It was soothing on my ragged nerves. I never wanted to let go, because deep down, I just felt...this is where I belonged.
Thankyou everyone for reading and reviewing. Another Bella Pov up next.
Sorry about the chapters being so long, I will try to make them a little shorter in future, but so much happens with these guys!
Also, my laptop did die, and all was saved thankfully, but it has taken a little longer to get everything up and running, including a new pink laptop. Not quite used to windows 7 yet, but we will forge on. Also, as I have said before, RL suck big ones sometimes, so since I have had my fair share of crap, I figure it will be smooth sailing for the rest of my life!!!
I'll post chappy 13 asap. Thank you all for your patience!