Hello friends! I hope your week has been brilliant.
Epov here for you all, because it's nice to know what a man thinks sometimes!
Thankyou Mabinda, your beta'ing qualities are amazing, and I aspire to be like you someday!
I don't own twilight, but I do own tickets to the Midnight showing of Eclipse! Yay!
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Epov
When Bella turned up to my room, all freaking out about her window being open, I felt 10ft tall and bullet proof. She came to ME. She wanted MY help. God I felt like the man. I wanted to protect her and wanted her to feel safe. So it was no hardship holding her, soothing her and checking her room out. It was no hardship to have her stay in my room, in MY bed. That wasn't hard at all. What was going to be the hard part was keeping my hands off her.
I tossed and turned on the couch trying to get my eyes to stay closed and willing sleep to come, but all I could think about was the girl only a few feet away in my bed. My memory swam with images... God, the noises she was making in the pool and the flush of her skin.... My body reacted strongly to the memory and I ended up with a raging hard on that I couldn't fix, well, until I had a little privacy anyway. I tried to think of Emmet and Rose going at it...Ugh, not good..... that should put out the fires......... but as soon as I visualised it, the vision morphed into Bella and myself.
I rolled violently onto my side, rubbing my eyes and trying to chase the fantasy away. If my cock grew any harder or larger, she would see it from where she lay in my bed.
'Edward?' I heard her call.
Shit........ I didn't say that out loud did I?
'Yeah?' I got up and moved into the doorway. I deliberately left the lights off. Even if she wasn't trying to look down there, she would notice the massive bar in my pants and I didn't want her to think me a perv.
'I can't sleep. Will you lay here with me a while?'
I didn't say anything for a moment. How was I going to do this? There was nothing I wanted more than to lay with her but how was I going to explain my growing erection?
'Only until I go to sleep... Please?' I heard her say.
How could I resist? She sounded like she needed me. I would have to steel myself and just do it.
'Ok. 'I said with a sigh.
I moved to the bed, straddled her, being very careful to keep my hard member from touching her and gave her a small kiss on the lips. Then I moved to the other side of the bed and lay there, hoping she would go to sleep soon so that perhaps I could. I lay there for a while trying to think sleeping thoughts and not about how I wanted to pleasure myself to a fantasy's of the woman beside me.
I heard her breathing become deeper and more rhythmic. I waited for another minute until I moved to touch my lamp and light it to a very dull glow. I lay there for a moment and just watched her. God she was beautiful. Just like Princess Aurora in sleeping beauty. She could be awakened by one kiss and I don't mean that she would wake up, but her passions were awakened. I loved that she needed me right now and she was here with me. The fantasy from minutes ago returned and I pushed it away. My dick was yet to go down and there was nothing I could actually do about it at this point in time, so I just lay there and marvelled at this beautiful specimen of a woman.
She moved to lie on her back and for a moment I froze. I thought I had been sprung watching her but her eyes remained closed. I watched her lips as she breathed in and out, the occasional smile playing on them, thinking about whether to kiss them or not and then decided against it. That's all I need was to be caught doing that.
I reached over to turn off the lamp and as I did, Bella moved again. She rolled over into the nook of my arm.
Is this ok?
I didn't do it... but would it be so bad to take advantage of the situation? She looked so peaceful. I decided to leave her there and I sought my own sweet unconscious bliss, happy just to be touching my own personal sleeping beauty.
I woke up slowly, remembering where I was and who I was with before I even opened my eyes. Oh, it's good to be alive some days. When I finally opened my eyes, it was to see Bella deep in thought, a slight frown playing on her forehead, her eyes concentrating on my...what...wardrobe?
'Morning Beautiful' I murmured, hoping not to startle her.
She looked up at me, her eyes wide like I'd caught her out in something.
Where did you go just now? You were miles away. Is everything alright babes?' I lifted my hand and brushed her hair away from her face as I waited for her to say something.
'No, no. I'm fine. Just a little tired is all.'
'Well, I knew we would be after...um...staying up for half the night.' I couldn't help but smile as I thought of how hot she was in the pool. Note to self...Get her in the pool again soon...
'You're tired too huh? Sorry about that...you go back to sleep, I'll get out of your hair...' Bella made to move away but I instinctively held on tighter.
No! Don't go. Stay with me.....
'Hey, hey, hey babe, where are you going? There is nowhere I would rather be than here with you, sleep or no sleep! Stay...please?' I leaned over and kissed her softly on the lips. I was conscious of my morning breath so I kept it innocent. God she looked sexy in my oversized shirt. I could see in my peripheral vision that her nipples were hard. This woman is so responsive!
I could almost tell when she made the decision to stay and I grinned. Win! She made herself comfortable, but as she slid her leg over my legs and then over my hips I became aware of two things...
One...That I could feel the sweet, sweet shape of her lady parts on the side of my hip which didn't help number two....
...That she would at any moment become aware of my raging erection that was now precisely beneath her thigh and becoming harder by any movement she made to get comfortable.
'Uh, sorry. I...I...didn't realise, uh, you know...' She said moving her leg and body away a little, realisation dawning on her.
'Oh,sorry.... It's just... you know, the morning... and you are in my bed...' I can't believe I am saying this....
'It's ok Edward.'
She averted her eyes shyly and we just lay there. Ahhh, she was sweet, beautiful, wonderful...what other words could I think up that would describe this enigma of a woman...
Bang, bang, bang....
Someone was at the door....
I quickly walked to it and pulled it open. It was Emmet in a panic. As soon as he saw Bella behind me, he semi calmed down but he still appeared stressed. He was worried about her open window that he had just discovered. We all made the decision to get some of Bella's belongings and she could get ready for work at my place after we explained why Bella was in my room for the night.
We sent Bella in to have a shower and get ready for work and I took all of 30 seconds to pull my clothing off and put on a black shirt and my work pants. I went and sat on the couch next to Emmet and then he turned to me.
'Dude, what's really going on? Is there anything you aren't telling me? I need to know. Just lay it on me.' Emmet was suddenly the epitome of authority.
'We told you everything...except that I kissed her. Apart from that, you have got it all.'
'You better not hurt her dude. I can't believe she's stuck around after everything. If it were me, I'd have told everyone to fuck off by now.'
'Hey man, what's the go? You are awfully protective of Bella. Is there something I should know?' He'd better not be thinking he could have two girls at once. The jealous beast within me threatened to rear its ugly head once again.
'Nah man, I just feel...protective over her. She's a good friend and I want the best for her.'
He wasn't telling me something, I could feel it. 'I know you guys are close, but you look......emotionally involved, distressed....I don't know. Tell me man.' I wanted him to just say it.
'I guess....It's just...You wouldn't understand.' He stammered out. Ahhhhh, I have hit a nerve.
'I think I can keep up.'
Emmet looked defeated for a moment and then he began hesitantly. 'Ahhh, ...ok...it... happened five years ago...My girlfriend and I had had a huge fight one night...it was one of those stupid fights about nothing...and so I decided like all 22 year olds to go and drink with my mates down at our local bar. It got late and we all finally decided to call it a night after drinking our weight in Beer. One of my mates was absolutely pissed out of his tree, so I made him come stay at my place. My Phone had rung a few times in the course of the evening, but I ignored it, thinking it was HER ringing to give me another earful about what an ass I was. When I got home, I put my friend to sleep on the lounge. I could see the answering machine flashing but I ignored it until the morning. I went to bed and overslept, getting up late and then only skidding into work just on time. I had left my phone, wallet everything at home accidentally, except my keys. I worked all day, and then got home and checked my machine. There was about twenty phone calls from my girlfriend, her mum, my mum...I rang mum back and she was up me. My girlfriend had been raped and bashed while on her way to her friends' house when I was at the bar, and was in the hospital in intensive care. I just raced back out of there, remembering my phone and wallet this time and went straight to the hospital. She looked horrible. I can't even tell you. I felt so bad that we had fought. It was the dumbest fight but.......anyway...... She was never the same again after that. She avoided being alone with me, definitely avoided intimacy, and I think she sort of blamed me for what happened to her. We broke up about two months later. I blamed myself for not protecting her, so... I haven't had a girlfriend since...well, not til' Rose.'
'Do you see Bella kind of like your ex girlfriend?' I hated to interrupt, but I needed to know. It was obvious that this memory disturbed him still and things were falling into place now, even the reasons why he would be so attracted to Rosalie.
'No, not at all, it's more that these pricks seem to get off on preying on people that they think are weaker than them. It's just not ok to do that to women, or anyone! It fucks up their lives, and the people around them. I just get protective of people sometimes, and Bella doesn't deserve what has been going on. There is kind of something about her that makes you want to protect her you know?'
'Yeah, I do know...and I'm really sorry about what happened to you and your girlfriend. It must have been awful, and you're right, Bella doesn't deserve it. You've been a really good friend to her and I really appreciate what you have done for her. I owe YOU an apology for being an ass as well.' I clapped him on the shoulder. I realised then why for weeks, Emmet was the one to have the girls as friends around him. They could sense that he was safe, that he was more than likely to protect them. He really was an amazing friend...to us all.
Emmet grinned, shrugged his shoulders and said 'It's cool man. You've got a thing for her. I get it.'
Fuck, I wouldn't let things slide so easily, but he just shrugged it off, and didn't let my shit worry him.
Bella a chose that moment to step out of the bathroom and both Emmet and I looked up to smile at her and we tried to act nonchalant.
'Great, we are ready. Let's go see Aro and then we can have a late breakfast if everyone is agreeable?' Emmet broke the small silence.
'Sure. Sounds great! Bella, you can just leave all your stuff in the bathroom, we can sort it out later. We finish at the same time anyway.' I wanted her to leave her stuff with me because that gave me an excuse to bring her back to MY room and then there would be more chance to have her sleep in my bed again tonight.
We went to the office, spoke to Aro who got to work immediately on the cameras and calling the cops, and then we all went and had a quick breakfast. Emmet said his goodbye's to us and hugged Bella.
Bella and I sat with our coffees, enjoying each other's company and bantering a little when we heard...
'Hey Bella'
We turned to see the officers from the day before sauntering over carrying some sort of luggage or something.
I couldn't help but scowl a little. I deserved a medal though! I felt like doing a hell of a lot more to the big good looking one that was staring at Bella like she was candy and he wanted to lick her.
She ended up getting them coffee and then they just launched into conversation as if I wasn't even there.
I moved forward to put my coffee cup on the table and then put my arm on the back of Bella's chair. That's right boys, she's with me. I badly wanted to say those words aloud but Bella saved me from being a complete caveman by introducing me as the head chef at the retreat. I wish she introduced me as her boyfriend but I guess we hadn't even been specific on what we were. I would have to talk to her later.
'Well Edward, you don't mind if we steal Bella away for a little bit do you? We need her to show us where the intruders broke in.' Paul announced after draining his coffee cup and placing it on the table.
Imbecile.
'Of course' I said politely. What else could I say? I wanted these guys to catch the perpetrator that was upsetting Bella but I wanted this 'Officer Paul' to practice hands off at the same time.
We all stood to leave and Bella reached for the coffee cups. I placed my hand over hers and said 'That's ok babe, I'll do it. You go on ahead and I'll see you back here when you're done. I smiled at her and she took in a sharp breath. It was just us two in that moment together until a particularly jarring voice broke our connection.
'Can we go through here?'
We turned to see Officer Paul pointing to the rear doors of the dining area.
'Uh, yeah. I'll show you out.' Bella said to them and began to walk toward the door.
Officer Paul looked at me with a look that was almost...challenging...? I wanted to tell him that she was mine, that we had spent the night together and she would be with me again tonight, but I managed to snap it off before looking like a completely possessive prick and collected the coffee cups to take to the kitchen instead.
Bella was gone for 45 minutes. I tried not to watch the clock, but it was hard not to when she wasn't with me and I did know where she was and who she was with.
When she returned she looked a little lost and I took her hand and asked if she was ok.
She said she was, but then asked me if I knew Officer Paul. I took the opportunity to tell her how I felt.
'No. I'm sure he's fine. I just think he's interested in you, that's all. I am not about to give you up without a fight.' I brushed my lips lightly against hers and then walked to my work station to finish my work.
After about an hour the officers showed up again. Bella went over to the door to talk to them. The Officer called 'Alex' stood a little further back. I could make out some of what they were saying, but not all.
It kind of sounded like they didn't get much evidence...I think. I strained my ears to hear what else he said to her.... I had to restrain myself from throwing my knives at this guy when I was sure I heard him ask her out. I turned to watch the exchange hoping it would help me hear better and I could see the Officer acting all suave. They finished up their conversation and when Bella turned, our eyes connected. She looked troubled or something.
I wished again that I could make everything right for her as I watched her return to her work station.
We both got to work and I noticed she was agitated, beating the pasta dough into submission. I moved over to where she was and asked 'Are you ok?'
'Uh, yeah sure, it just gets a little much sometimes.' She gave me a weak smile and I could tell that she was feeling a little fragile.
'I know precious, but I am here and I will do everything I can think of to help keep you safe.' I put my arm around her and kissed her temple. I hoped she knew I was on her side and would do what I could to keep her safe, come hell or high water.
We had a full house tonight so I got on with my work leaving her to her job at hand.
The afternoon passed by quickly and as the dinner shift began I noticed Jane walk into the kitchen. She made a b-line for Bella and told her that the officers were there and wanted to talk to her. After some encouragement, she left to do what she had to do and we all got on with it.
After a little while, I moved to where I could see what was going on out there with Bella and I almost dropped the plates that I was putting out when I saw her. She looked stressed and upset, and I got the full force of her expression when she looked at Jane. I really wanted to go to her. I just wanted to hold her, to chase all the monsters away and live fucking happily ever after with her.
They got into conversation again after that and I kept on with my work, trying not to look too often and there was no way I could overhear anything with the intense noise level that comes from a full house.
Bella returned about 15 minutes later looking a little disturbed.
'Do you need a moment, or a cup of tea or anything?' I asked after plating up and putting out four more dishes.
'Um, no...Thanks' anyway. Where do you need me?'
Wow...she must be upset. She has never needed direction yet. I gave her a few new orders to work on and we all shifted into high gear because arsenic hour had begun.
Something had started coming into my awareness... every time Bella and I spoke, one of the kitchen staff seemed to come nearer in the pretence of doing something, getting something, looking for something.... It was just a thought, but a niggling one that stayed with me for the rest of the night and had me glancing over at him every so often only to see him glance at either Bella or I. Very curious. What was his name? Ryan, Rory...I couldn't remember. I'd try to remember to find out later.
We finished up in the kitchen for the night and Bella and I headed out. I felt almost shy when I took her hand and held it as we walked back to our rooms. She smiled at me but didn't let go. I felt like a teenager with his first girlfriend. I've done this all before! I should be a master at seduction but this felt very different. Bella was really special. I could see her as a permanent fixture in my life and I had never seen any woman as even lasting more than a month.
We got back to my place and I asked very softly 'Would you like to stay with me again tonight? I don't want you to feel any pressure but I would love to have you here...?'
She coloured, just a little in her cheeks and said 'Yeah that would be great...only if I am not too much trouble or anything...?'
'You are never too much trouble. Want me to come into your room to help you get some stuff, or you are more than welcome to wear my shirt again? You look hot in it by the way.' You would look even hotter out of it... was what I wanted to say, but I kept my mouth closed. This budding relationship was so much more than sex and I really wanted her to feel the same way.
'If you would come in for a minute, that would be great...and thanks'.' She said with another blush, ducking her head coquettishly.
We went into her room and she gathered a few things that she needed for the night and a fresh uniform for the following day. She packed everything into a small overnight bag and said 'Right, I'm ready. I just...I need to call my dad. He worries if I don't touch base for a while.'
'Of course, no problem. Do you want to call him from in my room or do you want me to leave you for a while?'
'Um, I don't mind. I'll call him from your place. I just almost feel like if I stay here too long, something will happen. I'm over police dodging questions too.'
'You were there for a while this evening. Did they tell you anything? Were you able to get any answers?
'Um, yeah, but I'll tell you all about that soon. Do you mind if I just call my dad first?'
'No, of course. You go right ahead. Here, let me get that for you.' I took her overnight bag and we left her rooms and locked up. I couldn't see anything out of place.
When we got into my rooms, I left her to go and have a shower and give her some privacy to call her father.
I stripped my clothing off and jumped under the hot spray. The heat was soothing on my muscles. I knew I must have been holding all the stress of the day in my shoulders and I just stood there and let the heat sooth me for a while. I finished my shower, all the while resisting touching myself (ten points for me), then dried and dressed myself. When I stepped out of the bathroom I could hear Bella signing off with her father. I was pretty keen to know what was going on with the problematic window opener. I wanted to know if they got anything, if they had any clue on who the perpetrator was and if Bella was safe. I mean, we had extra cameras installed and everything. Wouldn't they have caught something that they could use on film?
'Want a shower Beautiful?' I asked her. She looked beautiful, standing there, phone forgotten in hand and watching me exit the bathroom. Sometimes she got a funny faraway look on her face and now was one of those times.
'That sounds great.' She snapped out of it and grabbed her bag off the couch where I had left it and disappeared into the bathroom.
While Bella was in the shower, I made us both a hot chocolate to enjoy when she was done with her shower. I wasn't sure if she liked a marshmallow in it, so I put a few on the saucer and placed everything on the coffee table, waiting for her. I wanted to have a little comfort when she told me about something that was pretty uncomfortable. I didn't have to wait long, because she was out of the bathroom in less than ten minutes. She didn't seem to be one of these girls that had to take an hour in the bathroom, and for that I was grateful.
When she emerged, it was my turn to stare. She wore her little pink singlet and white pants that she wore the morning that we had breakfast early up on the hill overlooking the retreat. Her hair fell in loose waves over her shoulders and was shiny from being recently brushed. She looked good, really good and I averted my eyes from her perky breasts that were begging for me to palm them (or maybe that was me begging to palm them) and patted the space beside me and pointed to the hot chocolate.
'Ohhhh thank you! And you even have marshmallows!' She gave me a huge grin as she sat, popped a marshmallow into her cup and took a sip of the still hot liquid.
'Is it ok?'
'Mmmmm. Perfect.' She relaxed back into the couch after replacing the cup back on the coffee table.
'You were pretty shaken up after seeing those officers today...were they able to find anything this morning?' I began gently, taking a sip of my own drink.
'Ahhh...I don't think so, no. Well...they found a partial print and a possible hair fibre. They bought us some pictures to see if we could recognise the guy that we saw that day that I...was...leaving. Um, and... they are still testing the blood that was on one of the notes that was left for me in my room. So, all in all, they don't have much.'
'But...if they have a partial print...If I'm not mistaken, those don't take long to run...could they tell you who it belonged to?' I was trying to understand where this left Bella.
'We did one better, both Jane and I recognised the guy that it belonged to in one of the mug shots. The only problem, and this is the really weird part, is that apparently he has been dead for years, so they don't think it can be him. I think there is something else going on, but I just can't work out what.' She looked thoughtful, and then leaned forward to take her hot chocolate and sip at it.
'What? The guy is dead? How is that possible then?' I was still trying to get a grip on the situation and I took a sip of my own hot chocolate. Bella was right, it is good.
'Yeah, that's what I wanted to know, but they didn't have the answers for that one.' Bella rolled her eyes.
'Sooo, where does that leave you?' I placed my own cup back onto the coffee table.
'That's a really good question. I guess we just wait and see. They are still running tests and they are getting some detectives onto the job so...it's just a waiting game for the moment.'
'Well, you can stay here as long as you want, I enjoy having you here, and I know you are safe then.' I said softly, taking the opportunity to slide my arm around her when she placed her cup back onto the table in front of us.
She took my free hand between both of hers and smiled at me. I looked at her upturned lips and marvelled at how beautiful she was when she smiled. Before I even knew what I was doing, I leaned in toward her and I noticed her eyes flutter closed. My lips met hers in a soft kiss and after a moment, her mouth opened a little and granted me access. The kiss deepened to become very passionate quite quickly and I became aware of two things simultaneously. My hand had moved to her breast somehow, and my pants that I had thought were loose, were suddenly feeling very tight and uncomfortable.
I could feel her nipple under her top, and it was hard like a pebble. I rolled it between my thumb and finger and she broke the kiss to gasp and then moan. I moved my hand to her hip and held her as I kissed her softly once more before I put my forehead on her shoulder and murmured...
'I hope I didn't offend you. You make me feel...uh, I don't even know how to put it...primitive, like I forget how to be polite, or act like a gentleman. I want to treat you like a lady and then I find myself pawing at you like an uncouth school boy.' I sat back a little, watching her to gauge her reaction to my confession.
She flushed that lovely rose colour that caused my hard on to grow yet again. I stifled a groan, as I imagined her skin would turn the same colour all over when we came together, naked.
'Uh, perhaps I'm no lady then...because I like it when you touch me.' Bella murmured softly, smiling shyly at me.
'You shouldn't say those things to me. I can hardly control myself when I'm around you as it is.'
'You and me both then.' She said seriously, taking my hand in hers once again.
'I still want to try to treat you like a lady, with the respect you deserve. You are a beautiful person Bella, and I care for you a lot. You are worth waiting for.'
'We don't have to wait too long though right?'
We both began to laugh. This had to be one of the stranger conversations I had had in my life, but, my father always said that if it is what you want and you are sure about it, you must declare your intentions and start as you intend to finish. I didn't want to scare her off, but I also didn't want her to think I didn't want her, because I certainly did. Naked, panting Bella was all I could think of at times, but, it would hurt us both a lot if we jumped in too fast and then it didn't work out. I wasn't sure if I could handle it if I had a taste of the most fantastic drug in the world, become addicted and then be told I could never have it again. Bella was my kind of drug, I was sure of that, and when we finally did become intimate, it would be perfect.
'So...what were you and Emmet talking about this morning?' She asked curiously, changing the subject.
'Ah, I think, he was just asking me about what I knew and also quizzing me deeper on what you and I were up to. He would make a great good cop/bad cop. I told him that I kissed you.'
'Huh! What did he say?' Her face lit up in a smile.
'He told me that I'd better not hurt you.' I grinned at her.
'Really? What's he going to do if you do?'
'I hate to think! I think I can imagine, but I won't say it out loud. Let's just say that he won't be the only one trying to take a piece of me.' I said as I remembered the way he had acted the day Bella had left.
'I'll be one of them.' Bella giggled at herself.
'Seriously...this is why I want to take things slow. I really don't want to screw anything up. You're important to me.'
Her eyes went sort of soft when I said those words. 'You're important to me too Edward .I've never met anyone like you before. I...I really want this to work out too.' She looked me in the eyes when she spoke and I think I felt her words right down to my toes.
'So...can I say that we are exclusive then? Ugh, I don't know what you call this in America... Like, I don't want to date anyone else....I think this was probably much easier when I was in grade school!' I shook my head, running my hand through my hair. I wasn't sure what to call it. I wanted her to be MINE, so no one else could come in and sweep her off her feet and take her from me! Those were not the words I wanted to use because they were possessive and I wasn't a controlling guy; I didn't want Bella to get the wrong idea about me, but I only wanted to be with her.
Bella began to giggle. 'You mean, you want to call me your girlfriend?'
'Um... yes. After I've made a dick of myself, excuse my language.' It was my turn to flush. Why couldn't I have just said that?
'Yes, you can call me your girlfriend, and I shall call you my exclusive!' She was playing with me, giggling at my awkwardness...and I loved it. She was delightful when she smiled; when she laughed, she could light up a whole room.
We grinned at each other and then I moved in to seal our agreement with a kiss. I felt so happy, like I could burst inside. This was the beginning of something really big and I knew my life would never be the same. All of the angst, happiness, sadness, anger and unbridled joy that would come from this relationship would be so worth it.
'It's getting kind of late...do you want to go to bed?' I asked softly. I could see that she looked a little tired.
'Yeah, I guess I am getting a bit weary. It's been a big day.'
'That's an understatement beautiful.' We both stood. 'You go ahead and brush your teeth first if you want.'
'Cool, thanks'' she said and moved toward the bathroom.
I went to the bedroom and turned down the covers and positioned the pillows better. I wanted it to be inviting for Bella, somewhere she might want to spend more time..........
She returned from the bathroom and stood in the doorway watching me.
'It looks comfortable.'
'Why don't you jump in and make yourself comfortable. I'll be back in a minute.' I strode purposefully to the bathroom, brushed my teeth in record time and gargled with my mouthwash. I hoped the freshness would last until morning. I went and checked the locks on the door and then returned to the bedroom where Bella was laying on her side watching me. I checked the locks on the window, turned off the lights and slid into bed beside her.
She instinctively found the nook that my arm made and we cuddled closer. She rested her hand on my chest and it felt...right. I bent in and gave her a kiss on her head, and then she turned her face up toward me so I could kiss her on her lips.
Our kiss deepened into a soft sensual meeting of mouths, but before it could turn into a raging inferno, we broke it into more innocent kisses before whispering goodnights to each other and relaxing back to rest and try to fall asleep.
'Goodnight my exclusive...'Bella murmured as she was drifting off.
'Goodnight my girlfriend.' I smiled as I tried to see her in the quiet darkness.
Bella was the first to fall asleep again. Her rhythmic breathing deepened and it sounded like music. My own sleep wouldn't come easily. I thought about how much things had changed in really, a short time. The first time I saw Bella I knew something was different for me and in the time that I had gotten to know her better, I think I had changed too. I didn't want to spend so much time on my own anymore, I would rather be with her, and being with other people didn't cause me to need time out like it used to either. She was a balm to my soul.
Yes, this woman had changed my life in more ways than one. She had definitely gotten under my skin and I think she may have wriggled her way into my heart. I put my nose into her soft hair and breathed in, trying to get closer to her and absorbing the feeling of contentment.
This is it...This is what I never knew I was looking for. I wonder if she felt it too? Like coming home. I would ask her when the timing was right.
I drifted off into a dreamless sleep, trying to remember the difference between Love and Infatuation, because...I feel I have a touch of both.
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Awww, bless. Isn't love grand?
Happy days for boys falling in love and having the strength to feel their emotions!
I shall try to update next weekend again. Love to you all. XX