Chapter Nine: Watch the tear fall to the ground

A/N: Hey guys thanks for the reviews they were great XD

I hope you enjoy this chapter :]

haha last night I was trying to pull a blanket out from underneath me and I was pulling so hard that I accidentally left go and punched myself in the eye, it really hurts and I have a bruise on my eye. It's kind of funny now that I think about it but it still hurts lol. Oh well, it's not the first time lol.

~Severus Addicted

Harry sighed as he rolled his sausage around with his fork. He faintly heard Severus clear his throat but he didn't care, he was obviously in trouble for freaking out yesterday. He shouldn't have done that... Why did he have to throw the books at him? Why did he have to lose it? Why did he have to yell and throw a fit like a three year old? He's fourteen not three!

Severus tapped his fingers on the table and waited for the child to come back to reality. "Harry."

Harry slowly rose his eyes to meet his guardian's. "Huh?"

Severus sighed and said, "We need to talk child."

Harry groaned. "I'm sorry for what happened yesterday! Am I in trouble?"

"You are still in trouble for leaving the rooms after I specifically told you not to, but you are not in trouble for what happened last night." Severus replied softly.

Harry gave him a confused look then asked, "But I slammed the door in your face, I screamed at you, and I threw books at you!"

Severus rose his eyebrows and said, "Would you rather I warm your behind?"

Harry quickly shook his head making Severus chuckle and say, "I thought not. Now you are not in trouble for last night because that was caused from pent up emotions, you know better then to throw things at me and everything else you did last night but I will allow this to go bye without punishment because it was emotionally charged, you needed to get that out of your system before it took over."

Harry gave a small smile and asked, "So I'm not in trouble?"

Severus nodded his head, "Not for last night."

Harry nodded his head but still asked, "But why am I still in trouble for coming out of the rooms?"

Severus gave him a stern look and said, "Because you do not disobey me."

"But technically I didn't disobey you." Harry argued as he continued to roll his sausage around on the plate.

Severus mentally sighed as he wondered why Harry just wouldn't stop getting himself in more trouble. "And how pray tell did you not disobey me?"

"Because you weren't there when I left." Harry knew it was a stupid excuse but he had to try.

Severus rubbed his temple as he asked, "But I specifically told you not to roam the halls while I was gone."

Harry shook his head, "No you said and I quote, " You are not allowed to wander the halls while I am gone." You weren't technically gone since I knew where you were."

Severus closed his eyes to calm himself before he answered, "You knew what I meant young man!"

Harry shook his head, "How do you know for sure that I knew what you meant?"

Severus sent him a chilling glare and said, "Because you aren't as stupid as you are making yourself seem to be."

Harry's jaw dropped and he looked at his guardian in shock, "I'm not stupid!"

Severus sighed as he felt a migraine coming on, "That is NOT what I said!"

Harry shook his head angrily, "Yes it is! You called me stupid!"

Severus saw red as he angrily said, "I did not call you stupid Harry James! I said that you are not as stupid as you are making yourself seem!"

Harry just stared at him then yelled, "That's the same thing as calling me stupid!"

Severus shook his head and said, "No it is not."

Harry glared at him and said, "Is too!"

Severus gave him a warning look and said, "Lower your voice young man immediately before you get a spanking you defiantly deserve!"

Harry ignored that and yelled defiantly, "How the hell would I deserve it?! You called me stupid!"

Severus quickly stood from the table and in a second was hovering over Harry. "Harry James!"

Harry slowly looked up at him and said, "I-I'm sorry."

Severus shook his head and pulled the child from the chair, "Go to the corner!"

Harry gave him a defiant look and said, "But that's for little kids!"

Severus nodded his head and said, "Exactly. Now go."

Once again Harry's jaw dropped and he glared at him, "No."

Severus turned from the child and closed his eyes. He needed to calm himself down. "Mr. Potter get your behind in that corner immediately or you will go with a swore bottom!"

Harry crossed his arms and said defiantly, "I said no! I am not a little kid!"

Severus gave him a glare and said, "Then start acting your age. Now go!"

Harry shook his head but quickly wished he didn't as he felt himself being spun around and a stinging sensation go through his behind. "Owwww!"

Severus turned him back around and said, "Go to the corner young man!"

Harry sniffled as he attempted to reach back and rub the sting out of his behind only to get his hand smacked away by Severus.

Harry sighed and slowly made his way over to the corner.

"Put your nose against the corner and stand up straight." Severus instructed as he lowered himself tiredly back onto the kitchen table chair. Having a teenage boy who had an attitude the size of Jupiter was defiantly tiring.

Harry obliged and wondered how long he would have to stand there looking like an idiot? I mean sure he did deserve it, he knew Severus hadn't called him stupid but for some reason he felt like making the man mad... And he didn't understand why..

Harry sighed in frustration. Why did he always get himself in trouble? Why couldn't he just behave? Tears slowly came out of the corners of his eyes as he stared at the corner. He was frustrated with himself that he couldn't stay out of trouble... But it felt good to know if he did something wrong he would still be loved afterwards, was that wrong to want that? Was it abnormal? Most likely... He is Harry James Potter, The Boy-Who-Lived, of course it would be abnormal.

Severus looked up in time to see the child's shoulder shaking as he silently cried. He bit his lip as he closed his eyes. He just couldn't figure out what was wrong with him. He didn't understand why the child wouldn't listen and always had a big attitude. But he was his responsibility, he had to take care of the teenager. But could he take care of him? Could he figure out what exactly was wrong with him? Does he have the patience for this? He wasn't so sure anymore...

Harry slowly slid to the ground as he cried, "I'm so sorry! I don't know why I'm such a brat! You shouldn't have to deal with me! No one should have to deal with me. I'm so sorry!" Harry curled himself into a ball as he cried.

Severus' heart shattered and he quickly made his way over to the child, he gently pulled him into his lap and ran his fingers through his hair, "It's alright Harry. Shh child it's okay."

Harry pulled away from him and yelled, "No it's not! You shouldn't have to deal with me! No one should have to deal with me! I'M A FREAK!" Harry quickly stood and ran from the room.

As he ran down the hall he felt his blood pumping hard in his veins as a voice taunted him and telling him he didn't deserve to be happy. The voice was right... He didn't deserve to be happy!

He reached the Astronomy Tower and slid to a stop. Harry's breaths felt heavy as he looked over the edge. Maybe he should just jump, end this life of his. It's best... Right? Of course.

'Do it! Just jump, let gravity take you down.' The voice laughed manically as Harry contemplated doing just that.

'What are you waiting for? No one will care. No one. DO IT!' The voice screamed in his mind giving him a pounding headache.

Harry felt warm tears slowly make their way down his cheeks he watched as a tear fell off his face and plummeted to the ground.

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Severus raced after Harry down the hall and slid to a stop just like his heart when he saw the boy leaning over the edge. "HARRY!"

Harry looked over his shoulder and whispered, "I'm so sorry." he left the wind carry his words to his guardian then turned back and jumped.

A/N: Please review!!!!!! I will update very fast since I left you on a very mean cliff hanger haha :]

~Severus Addicted